Disclaimer: Will & Grace is the property of David Kohan and Max Mutchnik.
Jack's POV
I thought that spending the day with Karen would make me feel better but instead it has just been annoying. Every half hour I hear "Poodle, what's the matter with you? You haven't complimented my new shirt, drooled over the hot waiter, or broke out into song once."
And every time I would paste on a fake smile and tell her that her outfit is fabulous, as usual; the waiter is hideous; and I'm saving my voice for a performance tonight. The fakeness is starting to bother me. I don't know how to not be myself- I'm not like Will. It makes me angry when he hides who he is. It's like this whole huge part of him is forever behind lock and key. He acts so superior, too, and I just want to tell him that this person… that he creates for himself… may be superior, but the real Will Truman is just like the rest of us. I've seen him at his weakest- vulnerable and afraid. I knew him before he rose to the top as a hot-shot lawyer. He is so smug, hiding behind his work, pretending that his life isn't a mess like mine.
I'm so angry at him… I want to hurt him. Because for once in his life he actually let me see him for who he was, without fear or shame. I was so proud of him, too. I was so happy that, after all these years, he was beginning to trust me.
Apparently not, though. He has withdrawn into himself once again and this time I don't think I'll be okay with that. For the past couple years I have felt like I've been playing a role that he has set out for me. That my words are scripted and he only sees me as he wants to see me. He likes to take care of me, I know. Sometimes, though, I think he needs to just let me go. He tells me to grow up, but he treats me like I'm incompetent. So what if I didn't go to a fancy Ivy League college and have a high-paying job? I'm happy with my life, and I can't say the same for him.
I just want him to be happy. I thought I could help him, but I seem to only be making things worse. I love him, but maybe I should just let him go.
