Tori

After Jade and I finishing messing around, rather loudly might I add, we lay facing each other.

"So I'm like super sure they heard you,"I say with a giggle,"your never that loud,"

Jade smirks and and winks which causes me to laugh even more.

"Your such a bitch I love it!"I say kissing her.

"Ya I know,and I love you,"she says softly.

"Jade is there a reason you hate your stepmom so much I mean ya she's annoying but what did she do to piss you off so bad. Now granted I know it's easily done but it seems like you truly hate this woman,"

"I do hate her," she says rolling to look at the ceiling.

"But why?" I can't help but to ask, I've broken through melted some of the ice and i love when she trusts me enough to tell me things it makes me feel special.

"Tor,"she says with a sigh,"there's just a lot of fucked up things that happened in this family and some of them are her fault,"

I nod but bite my lip I want more. I need to know the story, I want to help her work through it, to not feel so angry.

"Jade you know I'm here for you, I will listen to anything you have to say,"I say putting a hand on her arm.

"It's not that simple Tori,"she says with a loud huff.

"Jade nothing with us is simple, and nothing will make me stop loving you,"I say to reassure her.

"She was my shrink,"she says and I'm a little shocked and confused.

"Then how is she with your dad?"I ask knowing that it's not allowed.

"They started hooking up when I would go into the office most of my visits I spent sitting in the waiting room, while they talked about how to help me,"

"Ya, my mom caught on when I started having to go more and more but didn't seem to be getting any better,she said I was actually worse and wanted to find someone else but dad just kept saying she was the best! I just wasn't trying to get better. The nightmares kept coming and I didn't have anyone to talk to about them. Mom said talk to the shrink and finally one day I snapped screaming at her about how dad was fucking Meredith and she shouldn't need a 12 year old to tell her that."

"Jade I'm sorry that must have been so confusing for you and terrible not having anyone there for you,"I say wanting to hold her but can't since she stood up and is pacing around the room as we speak.

"My mom wouldn't believe me and I got mad...I wasn't some dumb little kid...she hadn't listened to me about Jaz but she was going to listen to me about this...I made it so mom caught them. I didn't have to go to Meredith anymore but my family was ruined. They started a divorce war and I was right in the middle of it. Not only did I have to deal with being shuffled back and fourth but I had my sisters death and the trail of her killer to deal with,"she says with a sigh. She looks like she's on the verge of crying but in true Jade fashion she's holding it together. She hates for me to see her cry even though it doesn't bother me I don't think she's weak because of it and try to tell her by she's so damn stubborn!

"I finally had a break down," she says turning red,"I flipped out at school and they found me crying under the stage in the auditorium. My school councilor called child services and I had to start seeing someone again but I refused to talk...I didn't want to fuck up my family anymore and when the nightmares got worse they thought putting me in a hospital for a while would do me some good. I needed a stable environment to get better,"

I almost gasp when she says this and before I can stop myself I've jumped up and I'm hugging her. She's taller then me so i have to lay my head on her shoulder but she understands.

"My dad didn't want me to go he kept begging my mom to just let me stay with him and he'd really get me help this time, he had been selfish but now he wanted to help me...my mom didn't trust him though...she pushed for me to go and he finally gave in,"

"It was hell in there Tori! Girls were fucking insane, they'd fight you over a fork...I literal got into a fight with a girl because I used her fork...the were plastic and got thrown away after every meal!"she's pulled away and gone back to pacing,"the nurses weren't nice...they just kept putting meds in me and nothing truly got better I just got better at acting,"

I look at her and don't know what to say, I worry she's still acting now...I'm scared this isn't her but a character she created just to escape back into "reality".

"Once I got out the divorce was over and I got to pick who I wanted to live with. Mom was with some fuckboy and planned on moving to France and dad was going to marry Meredith and move here. He said if I came with him I could go to Hollywood arts...id always wanted to write and direct so of course I chose him."

She twirls in a circle and then flops onto the bed. I walk over and sit pulling her head into my lap and brush hair from her face.

"Those are my underwear,"she says looking at me.

"Ya I couldn't find mine so I put yours on,"I say laughing. Id pulled on undies and a tank top as she spoke and wasn't surprised when she'd followed suit. We go back to silence before I look at her wondering if I should ask, worried I'll upset her but knowing I need the answer.

"Jade,"I ask softly

"Mmm,"she says not opening her eyes.

"What happened at the trail?"i ask in a shaky breath.

"He walked,"she says not looking at me.

I jump up almost throwing her onto the floor as I do.

"What the fuck do you mean he walked?!"I scream I don't mean to but the person who caused her so much pain is free walking around! I'll kill him myself!

"No one could put him at the crime scene, his boss said he'd been working," she said rubbing at her arms.

"If I'd had been there I could have made sure he went to jail," she says after a moment,"it's all my fault he got off,"

"It's not your fault you weren't there you couldn't have done anything,"I say hugging her again,"you couldn't have changed anything unless you'd been in the house with your sister,"

As soon as I say it she tenses up and tried to pull away. I look into her eyes and see the tears starting to come and in that moment I know she'd lied to me about staying behind, I know she somehow had followed her sister. As soon as the thought entered my mind I tighten my hold on her knowing that's exactly what she'd done.

"You didn't stay home did you?"I ask knowing she needs to tell me the story, I can tell she wants to, she wants to get it out.

"I followed her on my bike I knew where she lived and with her walking it was easy to stay just a little behind her. I figured I'd help her get her things since she didn't have a car ya know,"she says shaking in my arms," I was waiting outside when I saw him pull up. He looked pissed and I was scared he would make her stay and I just wanted her back...I ran into the apartment to warn her. She was upset that I'd followed her then she just looked scared. We didn't have time to run so when she heard him opening the door she pushed me into a wardrobe that was in the living room and told me not to come out until she got me. She hugged me quickly but he look she gave me was terrifying...I can't get it out of my head the look in her eyes as she closed the door,"

She's oddly calm again and I don't move a muscle scared I'll set her off.

"I heard it,"she says,"I can't see it but I heard it all,"

I called my mom but she didn't answer when I texted her she told me to stop making up story's she'd just messaged my sister and everything was okay...she didn't believe me when I told her I was at her apartment I don't know why though...I messaged my dad and he called the police and told me not to move from the closet. Finally after he stopped yelling I heard something thud on the wardrobe. Then I heard his voice...why are you so worried about the wardrobe what's in it another man? My sister was crying and telling him no that no one was in there but he didn't believe her. I'm not sure what happened next but I got thrown sideways as I guess he pushed wardrobe over. I hit my head on the metal pole that ran through the top and knocked myself out. The next thing I knew a cop was pulling me out and asking my name and if I was okay. I couldn't speak because I saw my sister laying on the floor. I pushed the man away and grabbed her hand. The cop tried to pull me away but the paramedic let me stay. I watched the light leave her eyes,"

She's still unnervingly calm aside from the few tears that are escaping it feels like a normal conversation between the two of us. I lay with her on the bed and wrap my arms around her tightly as she looks off into space.

"I should have been at the trail then the fucker wouldn't be walking free...I should have been stronger and got out and helped my sister,"she finally says.

"You were just a kid it's not your fault,"I say kissing her head,"and if you'd have gotten killed and the I wouldn't have you,"

"I wish I would have died,"she says so soft I almost miss it.

"Don't talk like that Jade I'd be lost with out you,"I say back. She tightens are arms around my arm and that's how we drift off.

authors note!

So for the show case in thinking of letting Tori sing a Katy Perry song it would be funny but I don't want you guys to be like rly that's what she sang come on we get it she likes girls...jades song is a halestorm song and it's set in stone! As for Max's I'm toying around with a few but when I do pick it pay attention it will hold a clue as to what's going in her life!