AN: Ok so I know it's been a while since I posted a new chapter but I've hit a writer's block. It's not really the lack of inspiration kind though, so don't worry too much. It's harder than I thought getting readers attentions. Anyway for my few loyal fans I hope you like my new chapter.

Aurora: Charlie's house

Diary 2/8/09

Eve and I stood there in shock. I could feel the wolf in him; I could tell he wasn't human. But they kept telling me that he was a shape shifter and not the werewolf I thought him to be. I had never met a shape shifter before and I didn't trust this one at all. His name is Jacob black, and even though I had attacked him, he still managed to get back up. Despite my distrust of him I feel drawn to him. I want to know who he is. I want to know his secrets.

A few days ago I met Jacob Black. A shape shifter who turns into a wolf, a huge wolf I might add. Now as I was cooking dinner I was having to get used to the idea of having him around.

"Hey" Eve said, walking into the kitchen. She could tell I was uncomfortable and gave me a small smile.

"Hey, you want to help me serve up some spaghetti?"

"Sure." We worked in silence, bringing plates outside to a small picnic table Esme found. Then, as if a bell had been rung, everyone started to gather around the table. I went back inside to grab some napkins when the phone rang.I ran over to pick up the phone before the voicemail started.

"Hello?" I asked into the receiver.

"Um hi"

"Oh hi Andy, what's up?" I asked surprised. He had never called me before, this was unexpected.

"Nothing really, I just wanted to see how your were. I know you have a lot going on, I want you to know I'm here if you want to talk or anything." His voice became quiet and I got the feeling that if we were looking at each other, he would be blushing. But then again, so would I. I was touched by his kindness. Besides Eve I had never really talked to anyone about how I was feeling, and his offer gave me a strange feeling I had never felt before.

"Thank you," I paused trying to think of something so say. "It means a lot to me"

"No problem Ray" he said huskily. I smiled; I used to hate that nickname. When did I start to love it?

"I'll see you tomorrow morning okay?" I told him.

"I'll be waiting" and then I hung up the phone. Grabbing the napkins I dashed outside and after setting them down in the middle of the table, took my seat by Jasper. I felt giddy and excited. And, for once, I was glad for once that everything happened for a reason because for once something was turning out good.

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After dinner we all departed to different places. Esme and Carlisle headed to their house, and Jasper and Alice left because they had to go "pick something up". Or at least that's what Alice had said. Meanwhile that left Bella and her family, Eve, Charlie, me and Jacob.

I tried to stay away from him but, during clean up that wasn't very possible. We had all divided up chores and, sadly, we both ended up with kitchen duty. Every time I bumped into him I was reminded of a past memory. The head Alfa werewolf's smile, the ropes they had tied me with, and the way they would look at me.

He didn't speak to me the whole time we were in the kitchen and I wondered what he was thinking about. When we were done drying the dishes I retreated to the porch for some fresh air. I laid down on one of the steps and tried to clear my head.

About ten minutes later the door opened behind me and I turned to see Jacob walking out of the house. I bit back a groan and tried to pretend I didn't care.

"So, are you heading out for the night?" I asked him as I was sitting up.

He smiled slightly, "no," he said. "I'm just coming out for some air" He had a nice voice, it was deep and friendly with a husky ruff sound that sent chills along my skin. His eyes shown curiosity as he looked down at me, and I couldn't help but to want to see those eyes up close.

Stop he's a wolf! I screamed silently in my head. It wasn't like I liked him, but my curiosity and his good looks were reminding me how long I had been since I had been held by anyone. How long since Jasen had been turned. He sat down next to me and looked up at the night sky. We sat silently for a little while and then he turned towards me very slowly, like he was trying to not scare a wild animal or a kitten.

"I know you don't like me" He said it like a statement and not a question. I just looked at him. I didn't know what to say, he looked angry but there was something else that he was trying to hide. Sadness? Uncertainty?

"No, I'm scared" that surprised us both and I looked away unable to meet his eyes. Warm, gentle fingers moved along my neck to hold my chin. He pulled my head around to look him in the eye and held my gaze there. I tried to move but he trapped had trapped me.

"You have nothing to fear from me," he said softly. I swallowed unable to speak. There was a knot in my stomach and it wouldn't go away. "I know about what they did to you and I'm sorry" he said. This time when I pulled away he let me.

I looked of into the forest and away from his dark eyes. "You didn't deserve that and I'm sorry for everything that you went through." He reached back over and swiped away a tear I didn't know had fallen.

"Thank you" I said quietly. I sighed and forced myself to relax and let down the barriers I had been putting up all day. Then, I turned towards him and gave him a small smile.

'I know your not like them," he started to say something and I put my finger over his lips before he could continue. "I'm also sorry for frying you when you walked in the door, next time I'll make sure before I go zapping people." This managed to get a laugh out of him and the atmosphere lightened. For some reason I felt like I had won a prize.

After a few more minutes we walked back inside in a better mood. It wasn't perfect but it looked like I had just agreed to be friends with a wolf. One thing I never thought would happen. I went up to bed after everyone left and laid out my outfit for tomorrow so I wouldn't be late to school. I went to bed with a tangle of emotions and thoughts, but when I fell asleep it was Jasen's face I saw. And again my pendant started to glow, but I was too far gone to notice.

AN: Ok so I hope ypu liked that chapter, i was trying to add some romance into the atmosphere. Please review I feed off your criticism good or bad. I'll update soon ttyl

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