Bella's Point of View

Music of the Chapter: Asking Alexandria

Notes: Wow. It's been almost two months since my last update. I'm so sorry. Writer's block is a bitch sometimes and I apologize. I got the idea for this chapter and the future ones as I was trying to sleep earlier. I can almost promise to never let my lack of updating get so bad and I apologize. Read on lovelies!

Disclaimer: Not mine, and as always, SassyStarbuck09 preread this. Thanks girl.

Living as a Whitlock was great. Peter and Char were the best friends and siblings I could ever ask for. Jasper was the best mate ever. He took care of me when I didn't take care of myself, and I made sure he stayed fed. Feeding was a bit of a struggle sometimes because there would be times when he would refuse to leave my side, so I would feed him, causing his eyes to constantly be orange; red from the donated blood and gold from the animals he still hunted. I loved his fire eyes. The orange reminded me of the bonfires we have every week or so. I loved our peaceful life.

But one day, something happened. And nothing could prepare me for it.


Jasper and I were working through Jane Eyre, which we started last week. A knock on the door made me stop and close the book.

"Come in," Jasper called to the other side of the door. Peter's concerned face appeared. This sent Jasper and I both onto high alert.

"Report, Captain." This was the Major speaking, and he was definitely in a protection position, ready to fight and defend his family. Char appeared next to Peter, ready to report what is happening to make them act the way that they are.

"Lieutenant." Major greeted Char. Without permission to speak, she simply nodded to acknowledge her superior.

"Captain, what do you know?"

"Emmett Cullen has lost his companion and the leaders have forcefully removed him from the family, even going as far to remove him from all family accounts. He has nowhere to go. How would you prefer to proceed with this, Major?" What. The. Fuck. I will kill some bitches, and I can guarantee Pixie Whore and Fuckward are first in fucking line.

I tapped Major on the shoulder, and he nodded, letting me talk.

"Lost as in she left him, or lost as in dead?" I asked Peter.

"She left him for Fuckward." Yup. Massive fucking bonfire.

"Captain, Lieutenant, how should we deal with the Cullens? Have you received any more information on them?" Peter shook his head in the negative, which means we're flying blind here until we can get some more information.

"Major? Permission to speak?" I inquire.

"Yes, my mate, what do you wish to say?"
"I don't know about the three of you, but I would like to bring Emmett here. I saw him as family, and I want to make sure he's okay and coping well. And if he is not, we are all well versed in caring for broken vampires. We obviously need a game plan in place before contacting him, but I do not want to make him wait long. I would hazard a guess that he's wandering around, seeing as he is probably forbidden from staying in any Cullen home." Peter nodded at my last statement.

"Major, I have an idea," he paused, received permission to continue, and began explaining his idea to us, "What if we contact Emmett and allow him to clean up and get fresh clothes from one of the Whitlock homes? He sometimes came with you to visit us so he probably left a change or two of clothes somewhere, right?" Major seemed to be deep in thought, and then finally nodded after extensive deliberation.

"I think that would be a good idea, as it would also give us a couple of days to set up a strategy for when he arrives. We won't know his condition until he gets here, so we should prepare for anything. I think we should have plenty of donated blood and some thermoses of animal in case he is unable to hunt for himself. Isabella has plenty of experience with feeding. However, Captain, do you see this as a possible issue?" He closes his eyes and begins to let some bits of information flow in. He opens them again, shaking his head no.

"The two have a very close familial bond. He will not hurt her." We all nod at his statement. This puts me on feeding duty of a broken vampire. I miss Emmett with all my heart and soul and I just hope we can save him before he can't do it himself.

Major pulled me from my sinking pit of sadness by pulling me to his side and placing a gentle kiss on my head. I relax once I'm secure with him, and I notice that Peter and Char have left the room.

"Are you okay, darlin'? I could feel you starting fall under the sadness," Jazz asks. He says it like he wants me to explain, but I know he won't pry as to what has me feeling that way.

"I'm not what you would consider okay, but I'm not falling apart. I'm honestly pissed the fuck off that Em has had to go through all that shit with Rosalie. He doesn't deserve it. My big brother deserves better."

"I know, doll. I don't know what happened there, and I do want to know. I could feel the mating bond between them. Unless Rosalie had a gift nobody knew about that could fake bonds, and the results could be disastrous for Em. But right now, he is our number one priority. We have to keep him above the surface. That will be key." I nod, but I'm trying to think of ways to keep him afloat.

"I know I'll be on feeding duty, but do you think you should take him for at least a small hunt just to be on the safe side? I know Pete said it would be okay, but I think it can't hurt to see him try to hunt. If it fails, I feed him, no biggie. But if he can hunt, we can use me for feeding when he starts slipping under." Jazz acknowledges that he heard me, but he's clearly thinking about what I brought up.

"I think an attempted hunt would be good, because then I could also get a grip on his mental state. I would observe him from afar while he hunts, because that is when vampires are at their most instinctual. Emotions would be slightly muted, but they would show what he actually feels. Because when he is, say, lounging around the house, he could cover emotions or hide them. Seeing him hunt would be good for me to get a read then set up a plan after that."
"I think that sounds good. I'm just worried about his state of mind after what Rosalie did to him. That couldn't have gone well, especially if he believed they were mated. But did they ever mark each other? If they did, then this would be impossible. And if she was dead, he would've followed suit. She must have faked and used him for all these years."
"I just can't believe she was able to hide it from me. I thought I was in tune with her emotional cocktail. She could have been using vanity to cover her more vile emotions. Fuck, if only I had dug deeper." Jasper was starting to slip, and I can't have two feral demon vampires to care for. One is enough. I crawled into his lap, and gently gripped his face.

"Jasper Whitlock, you listen to me, alright? You thought you knew someone, but you can't know the basest emotions of an individual. Emotions can be faked, just like Alice's visions. There are loopholes, and you are not responsible or at fault in any way for her avoiding them. We will deal with the Cullens at the right time, but that time is not now. Right now, we need to focus on Em."

"Bella, can you handle it? I mean, taking care of Em? Both of us are trying to recover from the past, after all."

"He's my family. Even though we haven't spoken in years, that doesn't change how much I care about him. I can't leave him to flounder in this world."

He kissed me lightly on the nose. "You are amazing, you know that?" I blush, and he chuckled at me.

I don't know if this is the right time, but you know, might as well, right?

"Hey, Jasper?"

"Yes?"

"Can I tell you something? It's a secret…" I trail off, letting him lean in to me so he can hear what I'm going to say.

"Darlin'?" His voice is concerned, as if I'm going to tell him I'm dying or something.

"I love you, Jasper Whitlock." The smile that graces his face is the most beautiful thing I've ever seen.

"And I love you, Isabella Swan." The fact that this beautiful man loves me too has just made my life worth everything to me.

I stand up off the bed where we've been sitting for the past few hours and head to the bathroom with a set of pajamas. I change after taking a quick shower and I brush my teeth and hair. I walk back out to where Jasper is dozing on the bed. I crawl into bed with him, and he opens his arms to me. I slide into them. I fall asleep with my mate, who loves me.


Today is the day we contact Emmett. I'm seriously nervous about talking to him but I knew it had nothing on how I would feel seeing him again. To be completely honest, I don't know if he's going to be the brother I knew when I first moved to Forks. Even if he wasn't, he is still my brother, and I'm making it my solemn duty to heal him.

Jasper dialed Emmett and I thought I was going to throw up from all the nerves. I felt a short wave of calm flow over me, and I sent him a wave of gratitude in response.

"Hey Jasper."
"Em, how are you?"
"You're with Peter, you know."

"Em, we want to see you."

"Who is we? I'm not even close with your friends."
"What if I told you there was a surprise waiting for you?"
I could hear him perk up from his deep depression just over the phone. "What kind of surprise?"

"One I refuse to share with you. Now, how about you hit the Whitlock home in North Carolina and grab some clothes from your last visit? The key is in the only red flower in the front flower box."Jazz left no room for argument from Em.

"Thanks, brother. I'll see you probably early tomorrow morning."
"Grab a hunt, why don't ya? We'll see you tomorrow."

"Bye, Jazz."
"Bye, Em. Take care," Jazz hung up the phone. I let out a breath I didn't know I was holding. It was amazing to finally hear his voice after so long. I didn't care if he was broken; he was still my Emmy Bear, and I missed him.

Tomorrow couldn't come soon enough.


Okay, okay, it's short, but it's an update. The next chapter will see Em arriving to begin his own recovery at Casa de Whitlock. I've already began the next chapter, and I can't wait to hear what you have to say about the newest development for the crew.

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~B