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BPOV (Thank you again chartwilightmom I totally thought that I was doing this all along)

"It's fine Bells come on." Edward whispered in my ear before pushing me towards the living room.

The first thing I saw was a blur of hot pink and black.

Closing my eyes I prepared to be hit, kicked, thrown to the ground and trampled, but a squeal brought me out of my revelry.

"Edward, how are you? I haven't seen you in forever?" Alice cried.

"Alice, you just saw me two weeks ago." Edward chuckled.

"It feels like forever. You know how I hate when people leave… aww well I guess I can forgive you, I mean you did say goodbye." she shrugged.

Oh so she was going to play the whole ignore Bella, make her feel like an even bigger ass than she already is card. You deserve every bit of it be-atch. Yeah but come on, I'm here now. You're here now, but you have to think about how your departure affects everyone, you deserve it. Yeah yeah.

"Hi Bella." Jasper said standing up and hugging me.

"Hi Jazzy." I said hugging him back.

"I thought only friends get to call you Jazzy?" Alice snapped.

"Come on Alice, you might be the size of one, but we aren't eight years old anymore." Edward said.

"Whatever." she huffed crossing her arms over her chest.

Now or never loser.

"Hi Alice." I said.

The pixie didn't even acknowledge me, instead she turned to Rose. "Hey Rose why don't you come help me unpack my stuff?"

"Alice, your only here for a couple of days how much crap do you have?" Rose asked. "Never mind I'm talking about Alice Brandon. Fine let's go." she added sending me a sympathetic smile before she followed her up the stairs.

I mouthed 'it's okay' and watched their retreating figures until they were out of sight. I turned back to the three boys.

"Sorry about that Bella, you know Alice."

"Will be Alice, I know Jasper. You and Alice are the last ones on my apology tour and it doesn't look like I am going to get to her anytime soon so here goes. Jasper I am so-"

"Bells, call me Jazzy please don't worry about apologizing, you needed space and I am happy that you were able to do it for yourself. As far as Alice, I know she will come around." he said.

"Alright, I think I am going to head home. I might see you guys before I leave, if not it was really good to see you." I said fighting back tears.

I walked into the hall and pulled my sweater on before stepping outside. Before the door even closed, I let out a loud sob. I walked to my car and turned it on to warm up. I leaned my forehead against the steering wheel and tried to calm down. Once I had gotten my breathing in control, I pulled out of the driveway. I didn't drive back to my parent's house though, instead I went to Fork's elementary. I pulled into the deserted parking lot and walked over to the swing set. Sitting down, I let the tears fall freely.

I don't know how long I sat swinging and crying until I heard someone walking up. I looked up.

"Edward what are you doing here?'

"Well, your mom called to see if you were at the house because she's been calling your cell and you haven't picked up. I knew you would come here." he put a large jacket around my shoulders before sitting on the swing next to me. "You do realize that it's freezing out here don't you?"

"Not really."

"So what are you doing here?"

"Can't a girl swing without being interrogated?" I snapped.

"Not when it's literally like 20 degrees outside and that girl is Bella Swan. Come on tell me."

"There's nothing to tell, I just wanted to swing." I lied.

"You're still a terrible liar. Bells the last time you came here was when you accidentally ran over your neighbor's cat. And the time before that, was when Rose found out you broke her favorite necklace and stopped talking to you for a week. You always have a reason to come here. Is it Alice?"

"Yeah." my voice cracked. "I know we promised to forget, but how can I if she won't forgive me? I mean I needed to leave and I needed time. I didn't mean to hurt anyone especially not Alice or you for that matter. I am sorry, I know I shouldn't have left without saying good bye, but I just couldn't. I thought it would be worse if I did, but boy was I wrong. I feel like a dumb ass."

"The past is the past Bells. You can't go back in time and change anything, you have to move forward and make the best of it. What was that saying we used to say?"

"Take the bull by the balls." I laughed.

"Right… So the next time you see Alice, you walk up to her and let her know what's up and I'm not talking about the sky." he said causing me to laugh again.

We sat in silence for a while before Edward got up. I took the jacket off my shoulders thinking he was going to leave, but he shook his head and got behind me.

"You remember when we used to fight with Mike and Jessica over these damn swings?" he asked as he pushed me.

"Every recess, how could I not remember? Those fights got pretty heated." I laughed.

"Hey! we only resulted to violence a few times."

"You're the reason Mike has a crooked nose. It was more than a few times Edward."

"Don't blame it all on me. I am pretty sure if you look close enough at Jessica's forearm, you can see the bite mark you gave her."

"Do you think so?"

"Yeah, I thought my best friend turned into a damn vampire. There was so much blood, but of course you wouldn't remember because as soon as you pulled away from her, you passed out." he laughed. "Does blood still have that effect on you?"

"Yeah, scared the hell out of Chris and Marnie. I was separating mail and got a paper cut, woke up on the studio's carpet to smelling salts being stuck up my nose." I laughed.

He continued to push me on the swing for a while. We talked about the old days, just reminiscing about the good old days. Eventually I realized that his lips were blue and suggested that we head to my parents house for some hot chocolate.

"I can't." he said.

"Oh okay. I'll see you later." the disappointment clearly coming through in my voice.

"It's not that I don't want to Bells. It's just we are having the whole gift exchange tonight." he said awkwardly.

"Oh well, if I give you the gifts I got for everyone, will you make sure they get them?" I asked.

"No, they're your gifts, you should give them out." he shook his head. "You should come by."

"No, I am really tired." I lied. I really couldn't handle seeing Alice again today. "Why don't you, Rose, and Em come by my parent's house tomorrow and I can give you guys your gifts?"

"I'll ask them tonight and let you know." he smiled. "We should exchange numbers, so we don't have a whole Bella scaling three story house accident again. How's the finger feeling?"

"Good." I lied. As soon as we had gotten back in the car, I put a band aid on it to give it cushion.

"Let me see it. To make sure it's not getting infected." he said grabbing my hand.

Before I could say refuse he carefully removed the band aid and hissed. "Damn it Bella, I though you said it came out?"

"I lied."

"Why? It's all puffy and irritated now."

"Because doctor, I didn't want you to hurt me when you took it out." I explained.

"Hey look the abominable snowman!" he said pointing behind me.

I turned around as far as I could, seeing as he still had my hand held firmly in his. Of course there was nothing but snow, snow covered trees, and snow covered cars and the swing set.

"There you go, it's out." he said holding the piece of wood in between two fingers.

"I can't believe I fell for that." I grumbled.

"Did it hurt?"

"No."

"See! And you were worried." he laughed.

I realized that his face was extremely close to mine. I could feel his warm breath washing over my face, causing my heart to just about jump out of my rib cage. His eyes were staring into mine and I couldn't make out what I saw in them. They were soft and sweet, but I could detect a hint of troubled conflict. The feeling was overwhelming, so I let my eyes trail down from his perfect nose to his soft pink lips. Two inches is all it would take for me to press my lips to his.

Stop Bella right now. Do you want to cause trouble in this newly found friendship? Shit.

I pulled away and he released my hand. It immediately felt cold at the loss of contact. What the fuck? Stop it right now.

"Sorry, you should be going, I don't want to be the reason why your late for your get together." I whispered.

"Bells." he said sadly.

"It's fine Edward. Let me give you my number and maybe I'll see you tomorrow."

He handed me his cell phone and I punched my phone number in before pressing send. I let it ring twice before hanging up and handing it back to him.

"There, now we have each other's phone numbers."

"Good."

"I guess I'll see you later."

"What?" he asked.

"I said, I'll see you later."

"Belly you know that's not how to say goodbye."

"Don't call me that."

"Then say It." he chuckled.

"What are we five?" I stole his words from the other day.

"We were once. Now say it Belly."

"Fine, see you later alligator." I laughed.

"After a while crocodile."

I turned to walk away, but he grabbed my arm and turned me back around.

"What are-" I stopped short when he pulled me into his arms.

I hugged him back tightly, enjoying the feeling of being in his arms. He smelled just like he did a year ago. It was the manly smell that I had fell in love with all those years ago. I inhaled deeply letting it take me back.

Back to sneaking out to go to concerts, and the time we skipped school to smoke pot. My mind was flooded with memories of bowling with the gang until our arms felt like jelly. Swimming in the old pond at the edge of town, when the weather allowed us.

Being in Edward's arms brought back the feelings that I had buried the day I left my dorm with my mother. What was left of the wall I had worked so hard to build, was slowly starting to crumble piece by piece.

After a couple of minutes I let my arms drop, but Edward didn't let me go. I sat for a second and when he didn't move, I cleared my throat.

"Edward I am getting cold."

"Oh sorry Bells, I better get going too. I'll see you tomorrow." he kissed the top of my head before releasing me.

"Hopefully." I mumbled.

I got in my car and drove home. I declined dinner with my parents claiming that I was too tired. It was true, I had been up since six and I went to bed late the night before.

Sitting in my bed alone, I thought about how I was going to get through the next couple of weeks. If I went back to Seattle, I would just be sitting alone in the empty house because Angela went to her mothers in California. Chris and Marnie weren't home and they were the only other people I knew there.

So I was stuck alone in Forks with no one but my parents. I had put my friends through a lot and decided I wasn't going to push myself to hang out with them. It hurt being away from Edward but knowing that he was in the same town, helped a lot.

Just as I was almost asleep, my phone went off declaring I had a text message: HEY BELLS IT'S EDWARD, WE WILL BE OVER AROUND TEN IN THE AM IF THAT'S OKAY WITH YOU?

I knew the reason why they were coming over early. There was no doubt that Alice had plans for them, that didn't include me. I wanted to be ballsy enough to cancel tomorrow, but I wanted to see them.

I sent a text back before falling asleep: FINE WITH ME, SEE YOU TOMORROW.

I woke up around nine and got ready. I took a long hot shower trying to alleviate the pressure in my nose from crying yesterday. I wasn't planning on going anywhere and I wasn't in the mood to dress fancy, so I just put on a pair of yoga pants and a Nirvana tee shirt. As I was pulling my damp hair into a messy bun, I heard my dad call from downstairs.

"Bells, your friends are here."

"I'll be down in a second." I called gathering all of the gifts from my desk before heading down the stairs, carefully.

Edward was standing at the bottom. "Hey Bells."

"Hey." I said cautiously.

"Here, let me help you." he met me halfway and took most of the packages out of my hands.

Emmett and Rose were sitting on the couch, both of them standing up to hug me and wish me a belated merry Christmas.

"Can I go first?" Emmett asked.

"Wouldn't have it any other way Em." I laughed handing him his gift.

"Hell to the yes! Bella you are my freaking hero." he pumped his fist in the air.

"What did you get baby?" Rose asked.

"All seven seasons of Family Guy." he exclaimed like a game show host.

"I thought you would like them." I blushed.

"Like them? Hell Bella I love them!" he jumped up pulling me in a bone crushing hug.

"Emmett if you don't put me down, Rose won't get to open her present." I wheezed.

"You better put her down Emmett." Rose scolded.

"You win." he sat me down.

"It's nice to see you're still as whipped as ever." I laughed Edward and Rose joining in.

I handed Rose her package and watched her eyes light up. "Oh my god Bells, where did you find this?" she said pulling the Jimmy Choo Exotic Romona bag. "I can't accept this."

"Why not?"

"Because it must have cost you a fortune." she breathed staring lovingly at the bag.

"It didn't cost me a thing. Marnie goes to a lot of after parties and gets tons of swag. I got Alice a bag, too." I said holding two packages. "And I got Jasper a set of vintage war metals from world war one. Do you think you could take them with you?"

"Sure Bells."

I walked over to Edward; he had been really quiet for a while. "Here you go." I handed him the envelope and prayed that he like it.

"Bella, you didn't have to get me anything."

"Just shut up and open the damn gift Edward."

"Fine if you insist." he laughed.

After I realized I had forgotten to get a gift for him, I called Chris and asked him for a favor. A favor that only he could help me with. He sent the tickets over night and they had arrived Christmas Eve morning.

"Oh my god Bells! Shiny Toy Guns? You're kidding me?" Edward jumped up wrapping his arms around me, but not as tight as Emmett had.

"You like them?"

"Of course, I still haven't seen them live." he laughed clearly remembering the night that we attempted and failed to sneak out.

"Me neither, but they are coming next month. Those are backstage passes as well."

"Thank you." he squeezed me again before releasing me.

"Okay Bells, your turn." Rose said handing me an envelope.

It was a trip to the day spa.

"Thanks Rose, I haven't been in forever." I said.

"I figured that much. I got one too, so I thought we could go together and catch up. If you want?"

"Of course, that sounds great."

"My turn." Emmett jumped up handing me a giant box.

It was surprisingly really light and I didn't think anything of it until I opened it. The damn box was filled with packing peanuts. I dug through the box until I found a smaller box. I opened it revealing a beautiful necklace. It was a silver chain with a Chinese symbol attached.

"It's beautiful Emmett." I breathed.

"Oh don't say that until you find out what it means Bells." Rose laughed.

"Do I want to know?" I asked nervously.

"It's nothing bad Bells. It's the symbol for clumsy." he said innocently.

"Thanks Emmett. I'm not mad, you can't be mad at something that's true. Come help me put it on." he slid it around my neck and closed the clasp. "But if I am ever in china town and someone tells me it says otherwise, I will cut your balls off."

"Some trust Bells. Please."

"About as far as I can throw you big guy." I laughed.

"Here you go Bells." Edward said handing me a box.

Inside was a beautiful picture frame with numerous pictures already inside. The biggest one was of the two of us, as babies laying side by side. The second was of our first day of kinder garden, we were walking away from the camera hand in hand. The third was a picture from a Halloween party in Jr. high, we went as Sonny and Cher. The fourth was from graduation. I felt the tears pool in my eyes when I focused on the last picture. It was taken a week before that god awful party, we had just left the movies with the gang and Alice insisted on everyone taking pictures in the photo booth outside the theatre. We were making a goofy face at the camera.

"Do you like it Bells?" he asked apprehensively.

"Of course Edward, thank you so much." I choked setting down the frame and hugging him tightly.

We stood like that for a while until his phone went off. "God Edward why in the hell do you have Barbie girl as a ring tone?" I laughed.

"It's Alice's special ring tone." he said before picking up the phone. "Hello pixie." "Yeah we're almost done" "We will be back in a while" "Yes Alice" "No" "Okay bye"

"You have to go?" I asked.

"Yeah sorry." he said.

"No it's fine. I will see you guys later, have fun." I walked them to the door hugging Edward and Rose.

"Saved the best for last?" Emmett laughed.

"Yeah I need a favor."

"Anything for you Bells."

"I need you to come over and help me throw a get together this weekend."

"Okay?"

"I need you to trick Alice into coming and I need alcohol, lots and lots of it please."

"I'll see what I can do and let you know."

"Thanks Em."

I watched them pull away and headed back inside to spend the rest of the day alone. Oh yeah Bella, even in the town you grew up in, your still a loser. God shut up.

The next three days were lonely, as well the only other person I talked to other than my parents was Edward and those conversations almost always ended shortly after they began because Alice would walk in on him.

Emmett called to let me know that we could have the get together on Friday. Six more days to go, the suspense was killing me.

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