Never-ending Dream
[Chapter VI – Scattered dreams]
At 07.55 am on June, 4th 2010
Yunho was sleeping soundly, he didn't notice if his head was leaning on Yoochun's hand. His both hands were still holding Yoochun's hand, never released it even a bit. He faintly heard some people were talking near him, but he still didn't know about what they were talking.
"Yunho-hyung."
He slowly opened his eyes as he could clearly hear someone was calling his name, tried to look at the person even though his eyes were still heavy. He raised his hand and tried to reach a chair beside him, he barely felt his arm was pulled by that person.
"Yunho-hyung, are you awake?"
That person was Changmin, he pulled Yunho's arm so he could let his hyung sat there. He kneeled beside Yunho and swiped his hyung's arm; he tried to make him aware.
Yunho was sitting at the chair now, thanked his dongsaeng who was helped him. He leaned on it while closing his eyes; he could feel that his body was very tired. He knew that he was already awake but his eyes were still heavy, he turned his face to Changmin without opening his eyes.
"What time is it?"
Changmin slowly pulled Yunho's arm once again, he tried to see Yunho's watch on his right hand. Changmin talked to Yunho as he also peeked on his own watch, he did forget that he was wearing a watch.
"It was five to eight am, hyung."
Changmin was moaning once as he swiped his swallow eyes, he touched Yunho's knee and rose from his kneel. Yunho started to open his eyes and looked at him standing in front of him, still leaning on the chair as he could feel his body tired.
"Good morning, Yunho-hyung."
Changmin then turned his body to a bed next to him, stared at the person who was weakly laying on the bed.
"Good morning, . . . Yoochun-hyung."
Yunho was looking at Changmin, he heard his greet and started to look at Yoochun this time. He tried to make a good sit as he swiped his face.
"Where're Jaejoong and Junsu?"
He asked Changmin without looking at him, couldn't take his eyes off Yoochun. Changmin started to turn his body as he turned his head towards Yunho, looked at his hyung and answered him.
"Junsu-hyung is still sleeping outside. Jaejoong-hyung is talking with the doctor, they just came here when you're still sleeping."
Yunho was looking at the floor now, exhaled once and then leaned at the chair.
"What did he say?"
Changmin was walking around Yunho and Yoochun's bed, he tried to check Yoochun's condition while answering Yunho's question.
"Nothing serious, but Yoochun-hyung seems still unconscious until now. The doctor couldn't take him to MRI if he still unconscious like that, so he would wait until Yoochun-hyung wake up."
Changmin stop talking as he stopped checking Yoochun's condition, he walked around Yunho and Yoochun's bed then went to the door.
"Yunho-hyung, what do you want to eat?"
He asked his hyung as he opened the door. Yunho wasn't looking at his dongsaeng, because he was looking at yoochun now.
"I'm not hungry."
Yunho couldn't eat at a time like this, just wanted to be alone and stayed at Yoochun's side. Changmin could understand if Yunho was acting like that. He wouldn't be hungry if he was Yunho, but he knew if his hyung was very tired. He walked out that room and slowly closed the door.
Yunho didn't make any moves, still looking at Yoochun until now. He would wait there until Yoochun opened up his eyes, wanted to be the first person who saw him awake. Yunho was still looking at Yoochun, he could even feel every breath that Yoochun took. He could feel it faintly because Yoochun was still very weak.
Yunho swiped his face one more time, raised from his sit and walked to a wash-basin far beside his chair. He held on it and slowly washed his face, slowly looked his face on the mirror and knew that he was still very sleepy. He could see Yoochun from the mirror, he started to look at Yoochun painfully and that was for several times.
Yunho started to look at down, he couldn't stand seeing Yoochun. He was blaming himself now, even though he knew that wasn't his fault. He felt responsible for Yoochun, felt that he couldn't do anything for his member. He couldn't do anything for his family, for his dongsaeng. He couldn't do anything for a person that he loved so much, a person that he loved more than himself.
Yunho felt so useless. He felt very useless.
Changmin was coming out from that room, saw Jaejoong was talking with a doctor. It was a same doctor from last night. Changmin felt a little confused, he didn't see Junsu there. He asked Jaejoong when he was done talking with the doctor.
"Jaejoong-hyung, where's Junsu-hyung?"
Jaejoong turned his face to Changmin, he looked a bit sleepy. He talked to him as he walked to the bench in front of the room then slowly sat there.
"I told him to return to the hotel early morning, he was very tired."
Jaejoong started to lean on the bench, looked at Changmin who was standing in front of him.
"What are you going to do now? Why don't you go back to the hotel too?"
Changmin didn't give his nod to Jaejoong while he walked to the bench and sat beside Jaejoong.
"I'm going to buy some foods. What do you want to eat, hyung?"
Changmin asked his hyung while leaning on the bench, looked at his hyung and waited for the answer. Jaejoong was thinking, he just needed a good sleep but he knew he couldn't have it now. He was wondering about Yunho.
"That's up to you, Minnie. What about Yunho? Did he wake up already?"
Changmin was a bit confused, even though he told Jaejoong that Yunho was awake, he knew that Yunho just wanted to be alone.
"I don't think so. What about Yoochun-hyung? What the doctor said to you, hyung?"
Changmin didn't want to tell Jaejoong about Yunho, he couldn't tell him about Yunho and his hyung's feeling. He wanted Yunho to have his own time with Yoochun, didn't want Yunho to be disturbed by him or anyone else even though it was Jaejoong.
Jaejoong was quiet for a bit, he looked a little confused about Changmin's question. He was looking at nowhere and thinking about the right words, he exhaled once before answered it.
"I don't know for sure, but he said that we should wait a little longer. Yoochun may got a head injury, but he didn't know for sure. He will do the MRI (Magnetic Resonance Imaging) test when Yoochun was awake."
Jaejoong and Changmin started to silence, they didn't look at each other. They started to look a little down, hoping that Yoochun would be alright.
Suddenly, Yunho was coming out from that room. He slowly closed the door behind him and looked at them. Heard the door was being opened, Changmin and Jaejoong started to look at him. Changmin looked a little panicked and stand from his sat, while Jaejoong was still looking at Yunho.
"You're awake, Yunho?"
Jaejoong asked Yunho from his sat, he didn't move even a bit. Instead of answering Jaejoong's question, Yunho exhaled once as he sat beside him. He asked Jaejoong without seeing his face.
"What the doctor said to you?"
Yunho looked a little down, and Changmin felt a little confused. He couldn't tell him about the doctor's words, but he didn't want to let Jaejoong told him about that. He kept looking at Yunho's face, and he knew that his hyung was worried about Yoochun.
"I don't know for sure, he said that we should wait for him to awake."
Jaejoong also looked a little down, didn't know what to say anymore. He was very tired being asked twice about it, and he might be asked with the same question by Junsu then.
Yunho was a little confused about Jaejoong's words, knew that the doctor would say something more than that. He started to see Jaejoong and felt a little curious as he didn't feel sleepy anymore.
"What do you mean you don't know? How long should we wait for him to get conscious?"
Jaejoong was wondering, what kind of answer that Yunho need beside that. He turned his face to look at Yunho with a bit lazy, he stared at him with flat expression.
"I said I don't know, Yunho. I was hoping for that as soon as possible, but it depends on Yoochun. I hope you could understand that for now."
Yunho started to fill with anger, couldn't take Jaejoong's words anymore. He stared Jaejoong's face with his emotion as he started to shout at him now.
"How could you say that? How could you talked like that so easily?"
Changmin and Jaejoong was a bit surprised about Yunho's reaction, they were wondering. Jaejoong was going to ask Yunho about his words, but he couldn't say anything as Yunho was kept talking to him.
"Jaejoong, Yoochun is your member. He is your family, he is your dongsaeng. Don't you ever worried about him even for a little? Don't you ever feel a little responsible for him about things that happened to him now?"
Yunho was kept shouting at Jaejoong, and it was louder than before.
Heard about that from Yunho, Jaejoong and Changmin were getting more surprised. Yunho didn't call Jaejoong as his hyung this time, he talked to him as a leader or maybe as a normal person. Jaejoong started to stand before Yunho, and Yunho was also standing as he saw Jaejoong stood up from his sat.
"Yes, Yunho. Yoochun is my member. Yoochun is my dongsaeng. Of course I feel a little worried about him, and I feel very responsible for him. So that is why I came in a hurry to this hospital, right after I knew if he got an accident!"
Jaejoong started to shout at Yunho now, and Changmin was very confusing about this condition. He knew that the condition wasn't very good, he looked at them while Jaejoong was kept talking to Yunho.
"That's because I'm not a kind of a person, who was going out to nowhere and didn't tell anybody about his gone!"
Jaejoong kept shouting at Yunho as he stared him with full emotion. He made his face closer to Yunho and kept shouting at him as Yunho was also staring at him.
"And I'm not a kind of a person who didn't read urgent messages from his other members, and even answered their calls!"
Jaejoong was pointing his finger towards Yunho's face, while Changmin started to push him back away from Yunho.
"Stop it already!"
Their condition was getting worst than before, Changmin couldn't stand seeing his hyung like that. He looked at Jaejoong and Yunho one by one.
"Don't you ever think about Yoochun-hyung's feelings if he saw both of you acting like this?"
Yunho and Jaejoong were still staring each other, their anger were slowly gone as they heard Changmin. Yunho started to look down, while Jaejoong was still staring at Yunho and wondering about him. They started to cool down a bit by bit, but they were say nothing to each other. They were kept quiet until Jaejoong talked to Yunho and Changmin, he stared at Yunho's face while still wondering.
"I'll go to the hotel room. I'm tired."
He looked at Changmin once and then looked at Yunho, talking to them as he went from there.
"I'm going to talk to our manager with Junsu."
Yunho started to look at Jaejoong's gone, he was thinking about Jaejoong's words by then. Changmin was seeing his hyung's gone from then, he looked at Yunho who was started to looking down. He threw his arms around Yunho's shoulder, they were both looked a little down now.
