A/N: Finally, chapter 7! The last chapter of this story. So sorry for the long wait, everything just seemed to pile up! First, we had to evacuate because of the fire (though thankfully our house was safe), then some relatives had to stay over, and I couldn't write because they were always around and would definitely not approve of this. Oh well, but they're finally gone, so I can continue. Thanks to 191026 for reviewing (and catching my mistake) -' and to KeeperOfKeys for reviewing as well!
Rating: M
Warnings: Yaoi (Don't like, don't read), mentions of rape, lemon, OOC
Pairings: XemnasxRiku, SoraxRiku
Disclaimer: No, I don't own any of them, though I wish I did…
Chapter written in Riku's POV
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The name 'Xemnas' was replayed over and over again in my mind. The name of that man that had caused me so much pain in the past…
Flashback"Riku, come here for a minute." I heard a voice call me. As I walked over to Xemnas' room, I wondered 'What did I do wrong now?' since the only thing Xemnas ever called me over for was to me was punish me. I really was starting to hate this. At first, he only punished me when I actually did something, but now, everyday, he calls me over and for the most insignificant thing, beats me.
I just sigh as I reach him and bow, "Yes, Xemnas," I ask, though I already know what awaits me. As if reading my mind, he says, "Oh, don't worry Riku. I didn't call you here to punish you. Actually, I called you here to apologize for how I've been behaving toward you lately. Please sit down," he says as he points to a table in the middle of the room. There's something different about his voice, but I shrug it off and do as I'm told. He brings over a bottle of wine and two glasses and fills both of them. He holds one out to me, and though I hesitate a bit before taking it, I do and take a little sip. After I put my glass down, Xemnas begins speaking again, "As I said before Riku, I really am sorry." While he's saying this, I start to feel lightheaded and my vision starts to blur. 'There's no way that little sip alone would've caused this. Of course!' "You bastard! What did you put in my drink?!" I spat out. "As I was saying before I was so rudely interrupted, I hope this will make it up to you," he said as a smirk grew on his face.
Before I can figure out what he's up to, he picks me up and drops me on his bed. "What the hell are you doing?!" I shout up at him as he leaned down on top of me. I try to push him off but can't thanks to whatever he put in my drink. I just look up defiantly and he says, "You don't know how long I've wanted to do this," before slamming his lips down on mine. I gasp and he takes this as an opportunity to stick his tongue into my mouth. I want him to stop, and I use all my remaining strength to push him away and break the kiss.
"Fine, Riku. I was trying to be nice, but since you don't appreciate it, that ends now," he snaps as he quickly removes my clothes and then his own. I really start panicking now, and try hard to get away, but he just holds me down and laughs. "You're the one that chose pain, Riku. Remember that!" he yells as he slams in. I scream in pain. The pain is just too intense as he keeps slipping in and out of me with so much speed and power, I feel like I'm going to break. "Please, stop!" I yell out, but he doesn't even seem to hear me as he continues his pounding. I just shut my eyes and try to ignore everything. After a while, the pain lessens a bit, I guess my blood is reducing some of the friction. "Riku…" I hear Xemnas say in between pants and after a few more thrusts, I feel something spilling into me. After this, Xemnas collapses on top of me and pulls out after a while, making me wince in pain.
" Well, that was fun, wasn't it Riku. We'll be doing this again soon, hope you'll be looking forward to it," he whispered cruelly in my ear. I closed my eyes and turned away, wishing he would just leave me alone. I guess he thought it was enough for now because I felt him move and then heard the door close as he exited.
I was glad it was over, but now to deal with the aftermath… Everything that had happened was etched into my mind and it kept playing over and over and no matter how hard I tried to stop it, it continued. I hated this! Why did this have to happen? At first, it was obvious to me I should hate Xemnas for what he'd done. It was just the natural response to blame him. However, I found myself resisting less and less with each time that passed. Not because I enjoyed it or liked him, I just began to grow numb. It was after one of these times that I realized not only was this not working, but I felt as if I was to blame for what was happening and I hated myself even more than I hated Xemnas. I had given up the fight and just submitted to him. It was all my fault. Right from the beginning, I was to blame. I could've stopped this from ever happening, or at least could've fought harder, but no, I never did…
End Flashback
As I told Sora all that had happened, I saw tears well up in his eyes, but I owed it to him to tell him everything. He wanted to know, and I had to tell him. Once I was finished, I looked down and Sora leaned in and hugged me. "Riku, I-I'm really sorry you had to suffer so much. And you even had to deal with by yourself for such along time… I wish I could've known earlier, I could've helped you through it at least."
"Don't worry Sora," I started softly, " I know you would've done anything you could to help me. Even though I didn't deserve it."
Sora looked up and just stared at me with disbelief apparent on his face. "Riku, why would you say you wouldn't deserve my help?"
"Because I didn't. After all, I was the one that let it happen…" I responded, the old feelings of guilt resurfacing again.
"Riku, you were raped! It wasn't your fault!" Sora yelled.
"Yeah, it was rape, but I could've fought harder!" I yelled back, all my guilt pouring out with those words.
Sora was quiet after that, but I knew that my words had hurt him. I called to him again after I calmed down and he just looked at me with sadness gracing his features. "Riku, please," he began. "Please what, Sora?" "Please stop blaming yourself for something that wasn't your fault. I understand why you feel that way, but you're not to blame." I stared at him for a while, thinking over what he said. I wanted to believe him, but I just couldn't. Seeing this, Sora spoke again, "Riku, please. What if it was me in your situation? Would you think that I was to blame?" My eyes widened as I realized he was right. Of course I wouldn't blame him. "See. So why keep on blaming yourself?" In that moment, Sora had helped me let go of all my feelings of guilt and I felt I could actually be truly happy with him.
"You're right Sora," I said as I looked up at him with a smile. "So, does your offer still stand?" I asked. Sora just looked at me totally confused, "What are you talking about?"
"Well, you know, before we started talking about this, you said 'Then, how about I take you?' or something along those lines…" I trailed off and saw a small blush creep onto Sora's face. He seemed to stop and think and then after a while said, "It does, but are you sure you want to? I mean you just told me what happened and I'm not sure-" "I know you're worried, Sora, but I know what I'm doing and besides, that's one of the reasons I want to do this. I want to be happy, and I can only do that if I stop living in the past. This is the perfect opportunity to start anew. With you…"
"Ok, Riku. If you're sure…" "I am," I said as I laid down on the bed. Sora laid on top of me and placed a slow, tender kiss on my lips. As I felt his tongue on my lower lip, I granted him entrance and both our tongues swirled around the others'. He broke the kiss and softly kissed a trail down my jaw line and then my neck, stopping at the spot where the shoulder and neck meet. He lightly kissed and sucked on that one spot, leaving it slightly red and making me release a little mewl.
Sora continued trailing down and stopped once he got to one of my nipples. He sucked on it lightly making me groan a bit and once that one stood erect, he did the same to the other. He then started down again and stopped at my navel, dipping his tongue in. I moaned a little louder this time, as he started going even lower still.
Sora quickly understood and removed my pants along with my boxers. As soon as that was taken care of, he slowly licked the tip, making my hips buck a little and making me shudder. He teasingly dipped his tongue in causing a moan to be released from my lips and then started sucking the head slightly. I released another moan and Sora's sucking started getting rougher as he moved down. 'This feels so good.' I felt my climax approaching as pressure started building in my stomach. 'Sora…' Then the pressure was suddenly lost. Sora had stopped, but I couldn't understand why. I was slightly frustrated, but I figured he had a good reason. 'He better have a good reason…'
"Sorry, Riku. Not yet," Sora said as he slowly put three of his fingers in his mouth and started sucking on them. All I could do was stare at him and I wished his mouth was still around me. Once he was satisfied with his work, he pushed me back down with a kiss, while he pushed a finger into my entrance. It felt a little awkward, but it wasn't really painful. He then added a second finger and I tensed a little. Sora noticed this and deepened the kiss to help me relax. While he was kissing me, he scissored his fingers in order to stretch me further. After a bit, he added a third finger and moved them in and out, and seemed to be looking for something.
Suddenly, Sora pressed a certain spot and I let out a low moan. I bucked my hips to try to get Sora to hit that same spot once more, but once again, Sora stopped. 'Why does he keep doing this?' "Riku," Sora asked, "are you sure you're ready?" "Yes, I'm ready," I answered, feeling a little guilty since he was just worried. "It's probably going to hurt. At least a little…" "Sora, please. I really do want this." He nodded and positioned himself at my entrance. He slowly started sliding in and he was right, it did hurt a bit, but after sliding all the way in and staying still in order for me to adjust, the pain soon went away.
I nodded my head, and Sora slowly pulled out almost all the way, leaving only the tip in. He then started a slow pace of thrusting in and out, while I let out a few more moans. Hearing my moans, Sora began to speed up and with one of those thrusts, hit that certain spot in me again. "Sora," I panted out, "do that again…" He complied as he sped up even more, hitting that same spot with each thrust. As my head rolled back, I screamed out his name in pleasure. With each thrust that Sora gave, my moaning became louder and I started becoming lost in the sensations. I then felt Sora's hand wrap around my member and start to pump it in time with his thrusts. This was just too much. I couldn't take it anymore, and I released into his hand, while loudly calling his name, "SORA!"
Sora then gave a few more thrusts and then released himself inside me, with a soft, "Riku…" We both lay on the bed panting, but once we recovered our breath, Sora pulled out gently and I placed a small kiss on his lips. After breaking the kiss, I whispered into his ear, "Thank you Sora, for everything…" before we both fell asleep in each other's arms.
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A/N: Once again, I apologize for the really long wait. Anyway, I did try to add more detail, and I would've been done much sooner if it wasn't for the reasons mentioned above. I think Riku might've gotten over the rape too fast, but that was kinda necessary for the lemon. Thanks for reading and please review!
