"What is love? Love is when one person knows all of your secrets... your deepest, darkest, most dreadful secrets of which no one else in the world knows... and yet in the end, that one person does not think any less of you; even if the rest of the world does."-Unknown.
Disclaimer:I do not own Etta James, Later Days, Twilight, or any songs/ characters affiliated with them.
I walked into the house, trying to sort out my emotions.
"Come here." Edwards voice softly called out to me. I redirected my path over to the couch he was sitting on.
"Sit." His voice was calming. "Talk to me."
I sometimes found it easier to talk to Edward about things. Probably because I didnt have to say much. He just read my mind.
"I don't feel like talking. Sorry." I quietly replied.
"Than think it." He replied.
He was going to get it out of me, no matter what.
'Love was always different for me.'"How so?"
'For most, it was an amazing experience. It wasn't for me. It hurt. I mean, yeah, sometimes it felt good. I guess now it just hurts worse because of my problem. I'm afraid I might do it again'"I'll know"
'But can you stop me?'
"I wont try"
'Why?!' This made me angry. If Edward had cared, he would stop me.
"You'll come back"
'How do you know'
"I am all-knowing"
I scoffed. 'Typical man'
He laughed.
'Im not leaving. Ever again. I promise.'"Good." He smiled.
I got up and went to my room and put in Blink-182 by Blink-182. I layed down in my bed. It was funny how we all have bed but none of us sleep. Still, they were comfortable. I looked at the clock.
1:30 am.
Great, one day and six and a half hours. I dont know why I didnt want to see him. I mean, I loved him.
'What is wrong with me?'I thought.
I suddenly felt compelled to leave.
I hadn't felt this way in 106 years.
I shot up and grabbed my coat and keys and quickly ran to my mustang. I got in and started driving.
I didn't know where.
Any where.
I soon decided to drive to Alaska to the Denali coven.
I was safe there.
I pulled over at the Alaska state line.
What was I doing?
I promised myself I'd never do this again. I promised Edward. I was leaving everyone I loved. Again. I began to cry. I made all the sounds and felt all the emotions, but no tears came out. I picked up my phone and called Edward.
"Hello?" He answered.
I replied with my sobbing sounds. "Its Lacey."
"What happened?"
"You're right."
"huh?"
"I left."
"Are you coming back?"
"Yes."
"I told you. All-knowing."
I laughed. "Bye."
"See you." He hung up.
I closed the phone and tossed it next to me. I quickly pulled a U-Turn and sped down the darkening highway. The whole way back, I thought about my situation. It wasn't so bad. Kade wouldn't do what he did to me when I tried to leave. I hope.
I crept into the house for no reason. I lived in a house full of vampire. How sneaky could I be? Plus, its not like I'd wake anyone.
"Where the hell were you?!" Emmett's voice boomed. He crushed me into a bear hug. Usually, I loved Emmett's hugs, but this one was different. It had panic in it.
"I left." I replied.
"You and Edward are too much alike." He hugged me harder.
"Its okay, I'm fine"
"Thankfully"
"Em, I'm not as delicate as you think!"
I hated how everyone thought I was so weak. Somehow, even Alice looked tougher than me.
"I know, its just...I worry. our my little sis. I love you."
His hug became soft, like the Emmett hugs I like. I hugged back.
"You're back!" Bella cried. Emmett let go so Bella could hug me. I felt someone else wrap there arms around me. Rosalie.
"It scares me when you leave." She whispered. They both let go.
"Yes, you scared us." Carlisle said from behind me.
I turned. Esme hugged me.
"Please dont do it again." Jasper wrapped his arms around me from behind.
When Jasper let go, Alice did the same.
"I'm sorry." I put my head down. I felt really guilty.
"I wont do it again." I walked up the stairs.
Edward was leaning up against the wall next to his door.
"I'm glad to see you're back." He said as I walked by.
"Thanks." I smiled at him. He knew what I meant. He was partically the reason I came back.
I opened my bedroom door and immediately became tense.
Someone was in my room.
They smelled so...sweet. I knew then it was Kade. I turned on a light to see him laying on my bed.
"Why do you have a bed if you don't sleep?" He asked.
I grinned. I knew what he meant. He held up a remote and pressed a button. My stereo came to life, playing 'At Last' by Etta James. I smiled at him and joined him on the bed.
"Do they know your here?" I asked.
"I imagine they'd notice." He replied. He wrapped his arms around me. I snuggled up to him. I kissed his throat. He returned it by kissing my forehead. There was a comfortable silence.
"I overheard." He finally spoke.
"Oh." I shamefully buried my face into his chest. I pulled away. I didn't deserve him. He pulled me closer.
"Its okay. You came back." He whispered in my ear. "Why do you leave?"
"I don't know. I guess it started with this one guy. He said he loved me but I didn't back. I said I did, but then felt terrible, so I left. It happened again a few times. Until I really did love the man. For some reason, I left. It was weird. I didn't do it for a reason. I did it because something inside me made me. In the middle of the night, I went to leave. I went to the Parlor to get my bag. I found him standing in front of the fire place, pretending to look at a small idol from some far off country." The night began to replay in my mind.
I stopped dead in my tracks.
How did he know.
I made sure I didn't step on the squeaky step on the stairs or hit anything.
"Why are you leaving?" He sharply asked.
"I-I..." I couldn't speak.
"Why would you do this to me? I thought you loved me!"
He through his glass at me. I dodged the glass, but only by a little bit. I shook with fright. This was just the beginning of it, I could feel it.
"After all the money I spent on you," He threw a picture at me, this time hitting me. It hurt.
"After all the time," He threw a figurine at me, again hitting me.
"After all the sacrifices!" He threw something else. Something metal. It hit my head and I blacked out for a few minutes. When I awoke, he as on top of me, with his pants down. I looked down. All my clothes were off or ripped open. He got up and pulled up his pants. I knew then I had been violated in the worst possible way.
That night, he left me.
I began to dry sob. Kade held me close, reassuring me that would never ever happen again. He kissed my forehead. At that moment. Everything was okay.
Ugh, sorry it sucked so much! I just felt bad that all Ive left you with is Authors notes.
The chapters name is a song by Later Days. There a local band (for me haha) and there awesome. The song is actually about leavng our crappy, old person ridden town and making themselves famous so Tom Cruise's mom and Judge Judy living her isnt the only thing were know for. You should check them out on itunes!
Okay, so now you know Laceys little secret! I have been editing a lemony part my friend wrote for me so that its Kade and Lacey. I dont know if I should post it or not. I know everyone loves a good lemon in a story haha. Reply and tell me please!
