Chapter 7
(A/N: Rated M for mature content)
"What?!" two voices echoed.
I turned toward the living room entrance to find Edward looking at me a bit pissed off and sad. Oops I didn't mean to let that slip out. I looked into his eyes intently before I turned back to my mom.
"You can't blame me for that. You were depressed. A knife probably looked inviting to you every single day," she told me.
I stared at her shocked and a bit speechless, "I…how can you say something like that?" I asked as I took a step away from her.
"Its true sweetie," she replied back.
"Does nobody know me at all?! I would never do something stupid like that," I said as I shook my head.
"But you just admitted that you almost did," she pointed out.
"The only time I even thought about that was when I saw you. You were practically pushing me towards it. You might as well have just stabbed me and gotten over with it," I told her truthfully.
"I was only opening your eyes," she replied back.
I looked at her confused, "Opening my eyes to what? Lies? Because if you haven't noticed mom he's standing right behind me."
She looked behind me and just stayed silent. I shook my head before turning to leave. I stopped and looked over at her, "I'll be back for Carlie tomorrow," I walked briskly outside and got into the car.
Edward got into the car but didn't turn it on, "I'm sorry," he told me.
"For what?" I asked still a bit angry from what my mother said.
"This is all my fault," he told me in a monotone.
I turned to look at him and the anger quickly faded away. I sighed before I turned my body towards him and took his hands from his lap, "This isn't your fault. I shouldn't have been thinking what I was thinking when you weren't here. I should have known all along. And the truth is the only reason I didn't go through with any of it was because of Carlie."
He took his hands away from mine and lightly cupped my face into his hands, "I love you remember? You weren't supposed to forget that."
I smiled at him lightly, "I never did. I love you too."
He leaned in and gently pressed his lips to mine. I pulled away after a minute and smiled at him, "Lets go home."
He smiled and nodded before he turned the car on and we headed home. We got there pretty fast. Faster than when we left to my mom's house. I got out of the car and went straight to the house. I closed the door behind us before I slowly made my way upstairs.
I could hear Edward following close behind me. I entered the room and made my way towards the bathroom, "So we're finally alone?" Edward asked.
"Yep," I said right before I was suddenly pushed against a wall softly. Edward's lips were on mine before I even knew what was happening. He kissed me animalistic at first but once we got into the kiss for several minutes he softly caressed my lips.
I wrapped my arms around his neck before I pushed him back a bit so I could have room to jump on him. He caught my bottom delicately as I wrapped my legs around his waist. I kissed him deeper making him moan out. I could feel him walking backwards towards the end of the bed.
He fell on the bed with me on top of him but we never broke the kiss. I slipped my tongue gracefully in his mouth as he started moving upwards on the bed. Once our whole bodies were on the bed he turned me around and started to peel my clothes off.
I quickly unbuttoned his shirt and threw it to the ground. I slipped my hands down and pulled his pants and boxers off just as he removed my bra. His mouth moved away from my lips and trailed down to my neck as he started removing my pants.
My breathing came out ragged from the amount of arousal I was feeling. Can you blame me? I haven't done anything in two years. As soon as he slipped off my underwear I felt him enter me gently.
Everything was suddenly awakened inside of me. Every fiber of my being was like a live wire that had just sprung to life. I lightly clutched at his shoulders as he moved slowly within me. His lips moved up to my ear, "Bella," he whispered making me shiver all over.
He lightly nibbled on my ear making me feel something I hadn't felt in years inside me. I could tell that he felt it just as it happened because he moved a bit faster than before. I closed my eyes as he moved inside me and I searched for something that was high from my reach.
I reached higher and higher until I finally reached the point I had felt coming earlier. I grasped onto his shoulders tighter now as everything lite up within me. I was not only feeling alive again but I could see everything so clearly now.
I cried out his name as he moved slower inside me. I could feel the tension coil inside me. But I didn't want to stop now. I didn't want him to stop. I quickly rolled him on his back and kissed him passionately on the lips. I moved my lips away from his lips and went for his weak spot. His ear. I lightly nibbled on it making him grasp onto my hips as they moved rhythmically against his.
A shudder ran through me making him cry my name out passionately. He moved his hands slowly up and down my bare back making me shiver with the light touch. He moved me on my back suddenly and his tongue plundered my mouth.
He moved his mouth away from mine and looked down at me with nothing but love in his eyes. He moved deeper within me; I arched myself upward wanting nothing but him right now. All of him. He thrust one last time inside me before he pulled away and lay on his side beside me.
He pulled my body up against his and wrapped his arms around me, "I love you," he whispered.
I looked him straight in the eyes, "I love you too," I slowly looked away and ducked my head under his chin. He tightened his arms around me and hummed to me silently. And soon I fell asleep.
I woke up feeling more blissful than I ever had before. I slowly opened my eyes to find my head on Edward's chest and my arm across his stomach. I shifted my position a little bit and made my body get closer to his.
His hand lightly ran up and down my bare spine, "Morning beautiful."
I smiled before I arched my head back to look at him, "Morning handsome."
He smiled back down at me, "How did you sleep?" he asked.
"Great," I told him as I moved my head from his chest to his shoulder, "How did you sleep?" I asked.
"Like I never had before," he told me seriously.
I smiled lightly as I reached up and lightly traced his face with my fingers. He closed his eyes and stopped moving his hand on my back as I lightly touched his face with my fingertips. "I missed you," he whispered.
I stopped tracing his face once he opened his eyes and looked at me, "All of you," he said seriously.
"I missed you too," I told him, "You have no idea how much."
He stared at me carefully as if he was trying to remember something, "What was wrong with you when I came back?"
"You mean yesterday?" I pointed out with a smile.
"It was yesterday? Huh. Feels like I've been here with you forever," he said truthfully.
I smiled, "What do you mean?" I asked.
He looked back at me for he had looked away, "You were acting like you were in pain."
I pursed my lips and looked down at my hand that was on his chest, "I was in pain."
"What kind of pain?" he asked.
"Emotional pain…although it also affected me physically," I told him before I looked back into his eyes.
"Why?" he asked confused.
"When you…left…it was like you took a part of me with you. It's like a huge hole had been punched through my chest. (A/n: I couldn't resist! Lol) Every part of me knew that you were gone. Every time something reminded me of you I felt like I was going to fall apart. And not emotionally but physically."
"What else did you feel?" he asked curious yet remorseful.
I bit my lip lightly, "I couldn't fall asleep for a while. My body was too aware of the empty spot next to me. I had to start listening to music to make me fall asleep."
"Is that why you had the radio on yesterday?" he asked.
I nodded lightly, "I…I also had a dream about you…that's why I woke up like that. It…hurt…to be reminded of you…even in my dreams."
"What happened in the dream?" he asked.
"You wanted me to kill myself," I told him, "You were never going to come back so you said it would be better this way. So…I did," I whispered.
He tightened his arms around me and pulled me closer to him, "I would never ever want you to even think about killing yourself."
"I know…the only reason I dreamt that was because of the song that was playing," I told him.
He gently pressed me upward against him to press his lips against mine. His lips moved slowly against mine as if they were fragile. I moved my lips against his in the same rhythm. His hands inched up my back before he pressed me closer to him after he had moved onto his side.
His left hand slowly caressed my side from my back to my hip causing me to shiver against him. My heart thumped slowly in my chest from the adrenaline of excitement coursing through my veins. Still lying on our sides I could feel his entrance which made me gasp lightly against his lips.
"Edward," I whispered lightly against his lips. He inched deeper inside me causing me to breathe heavier, "Did you miss me?" I asked breathlessly.
"More than you can imagine," he whispered back.
I slowly started moving onto my back pulling him on top of me at the same time, "Show me," I gasped out.
A/N: Okay I think that may have been the most detailed chapter I've ever written. Anyways please review!
