Chapter 7 – Feeling

Bulma picked at the food that was in front of her, trying her hardest to ignore the looks she was receiving from her family and Kakarot's. She felt so embarrassed about the way she had acted. Well, she didn't really care about the stuff she had said to Chi-Chi. In fact, Bulma was more than certain that she wouldn't even mind saying it again. But for Kakarot, she wouldn't say anything. Apparently whenever Bulma upset Chi-Chi, it upset him too. With the little energy she had, she scoffed and rolled her eyes.

"Is something the matter, sweetie?" Mrs Briefs asked with her usual bright smile as soon as she heard the noise.

"No."

What was it with these people? Why were they suddenly watching her every move and listening to every sound she made? Bulma was sure that she wouldn't even be surprised if they were listening to the beat of her heart or the sound of her breathing.

"Why don't you try to eat something?" Dr Briefs suggested as he glanced at her plate. "Kakarot told us you didn't eat breakfast either."

"I'm not hungry." She said as she pushed yet another untouched meal away from her. "And Kakarot should mind his own business."

Kakarot shot her a look, which surprised Bulma. Usually during meals, talking to Kakarot was like talking to a brick wall. It was impossible to have any sort of conversation and he would completely blank you out the second that he saw the food.

"But Bulma dear," Mrs Briefs frowned, "you're going to lose your beautiful figure if you don't eat enough."

"Yeah we wouldn't want that now, would we Bulma?" Turles smirked as he ran his lust filled eyes over her body, earning growls from Kakarot and Bardock and a glare from Dr Briefs. Raditz simply looked amused whilst Chi-Chi looked annoyed.

Bulma smirked in return as she popped her elbow onto the table and placed her chin in her hand. Looking up at Turles from under her eyelashes, she asked, "Do you like what you see Turles?"

That was another thing Bardock had noticed. Bulma wasn't getting angry with Turles or anyone else hitting on her. In fact, she flirted back. It was completely unlike her. Not only that, it was quite uncomfortable having her openly flirt with his brother who was over twice her age.

"I do." Turles said before giving her a knowing look and glancing to Kakarot. "And I know you like what you see."

The smirk fell from Bulma's face and at the same time, everyone looked at her. Without saying a word, Bulma stood up and left the room. She didn't miss the smug look Chi-Chi gave her and the pissed off and disbelieving looks everyone else was giving Turles. Nobody ever mentioned what happened between Kakarot and Bulma because they knew it was a sore topic for her.

"That was uncalled for," Kakarot said to his uncle with a rare scowl on his face, "especially after what happened today."

"I think she deserved it." Chi-Chi shrugged as she put another mouthful of food into her mouth.

Kakarot was about to stand up but he was beaten to the punch when Raditz stood up.

"I'll go and talk to her." Raditz said as he walked out of the room. "You stay with your mate."

Chi-Chi scoffed. She really didn't like Bulma. Why would she? The girl was smart, strong and had the looks of a Goddess. Of course she was going to feel insecure about having her husband around Bulma, especially when they travelled alone for long periods of time! It didn't help either when she found out about the history between the two. Chi-Chi trusted her husband, she just didn't trust Bulma.

Kakarot nodded to his brother whilst resisting the urge to roll his eyes at his mate's thoughts. He had told Chi-Chi the day he met her that Bulma would always be a part of his life, but not in a romantic way. Why couldn't they both just get on? He was sure that if they put aside their differences, they would get along like sisters! What happened between him and Bulma was a one time thing and it would never happen again.

Mrs and Dr Briefs had a very good idea with what might be wrong with their daughter. Since she had arrived, they had been watching her closely and ticking off all of the things she had been doing that were out of character, just like they had done when she was younger. Mrs Briefs just hoped that her only daughter didn't have what she had because she knew how hard it was to live with it.


Bulma knew that she was being followed. It didn't take a genius to know that. She could hear his footsteps as his boots hit the metal floor and she could sense his energy close behind her. When Bulma reached her room, she opened the door and walked in whilst holding the door open for Raditz. She didn't miss how his eyes scanned the room as he made sure there were no traps or people waiting to attack him. Bulma resisted the urge to laugh at him, but truthfully, she kind of felt the same paranoia as Raditz. Now-a-days, Bulma didn't know who she could trust.

"What do you want, Raditz?" Bulma asked as she sat down on her sofa and rubbed her tired eyes.

Raditz sat down beside Bulma and sighed. He had no idea how to talk to her about what was going on with her. Honestly, Raditz had no idea what he was going to do. All he was sure of was that whatever the hell was going on with Bulma, was putting a lot of strain on his brother and Chi-Chi's relationship. He didn't know if he could take the strain away from the relationship but perhaps he could help Bulma with her frustration.

It wasn't hard to pick up on the girl's feelings. No matter how hard she tried, Bulma still hadn't mastered how to control the deeper emotions such as the smell that was released by her arousal or by her fear, sadness, regret… loneliness.

"The question isn't what do I want, although it is pretty obvious." Raditz shrugged nonchalantly as he leaned back into the sofa. "The question is what do you want?"

Bulma smirked as she turned her body to face him and leaned against the arm of the sofa. "Is that your attempt at flirting, Raditz?" Before Raditz could even reply, Bulma quickly sat on his lap, straddling him as she pushed her chest against his and whispered into his ear. "You're going to have to try a little harder than that to turn me on."

Raditz smirked as he rested one hand on Bulma's hip whist the other hand trailed up her back until it was in her hair. "I'm more of a man of action rather than a man of words." He replied huskily as the grip on Bulma's hip tightened and he grinded his hips up against hers, making her gasp softly.

Even though it wasn't much, it was enough to get Bulma going. She couldn't help but think that it had been so long since she had been intimate with anyone. Bulma pushed aside all thoughts as she pulled her vest top over her head, revealing her black lace bra. She needed release. She needed some excitement. She needed thrill. She needed fun.

She needed this.

Raditz leaned forward to press his lips to hers but before he could reach, Bulma pressed one finger to his lips.

"This is just physical." She said firmly before adding in a more seductive tone as she lowered her lips to his ear, her teeth grazing his earlobe as she spoke. "Just hot, wild, no strings attached sex."

The way her breath washed over him sent shivers down Raditz's spine and was more than enough to make his mind up for him. He inwardly shrugged. That was fine by him. Without giving any warning, he stood up from the sofa with her legs wrapped around his waist and pushed Bulma against the closest wall. If she wanted rough, wild and hot sex, then he'll give her just what she wanted.

Raditz put Bulma down as he stepped back slightly and pulled his armour over his head. He then yanked Bulma's body flush against his own as his lips savagely kissed her neck, making her gasp and moan at the feeling. Raditz smirked as he thought about what sort of teasing he could do if she was reacting so strongly to just a simple kiss on her neck.

He trailed his kisses up her neck, to her jaw and then attacked her mouth with his lips. As soon as their tongues connected, Bulma wrapped her arms around Raditz's neck as he lifted one of her legs and lifted it up onto his hip before grinding himself into her. The only thing that kept running through her mind was how much she was enjoying his attention. Bulma moaned as his hand squeezed her breast whilst the other hand pulled her even closer to him.

Once again, Raditz pushed Bulma against the wall but this time, he kept his body flush against hers. The hand that was once holding onto Bulma's leg trailed up to her hip before down to the buttons of her shorts. Without wasting any time, he quickly undid the buttons and pulled the zipper down before he moved his hand under her underwear waistband and rubbed his finger against her wetness. He never broke their hungry kiss for a second.

She gasped as the small yet strong movement of his finger brought her pleasure. Her gasp soon turned into moans as he slipped one finger into her and Bulma closed her eyes and grabbed a fistful of his hair as he plunged another finger into her. Her knees grew weak as he kept up an intense rhythm and her hips rocked against his fingers. The only thing that was keeping her standing was her arms around Raditz's neck. He moved his kisses back to her neck as she continued to moan loudly. The sound was like music to his ears. The smell of her arousal was making him painfully hard and the fact that his fingers were now soaked with her juices and she was panting and moaning in his ear was making it all the more painful.

However before the two could continue, there was a knock on her door followed by the door all but bursting opening. The two jerked a part and Bulma glared at the person who dared to intrude.

He knew he had interrupted something. He could smell Bulma's arousal from down the hall. Hell, he could smell it from her parents' place thanks to his sensitive senses and the fact that he knew her scent! Why he was stood at her door glaring at the two of them, he didn't know. It wasn't like she belonged to him, so why did he feel angry that Raditz was so close to her? Why did he feel angry when he could hear her moans from the dinner table as though he was tuned into her? Nobody else appeared to have smelled or heard anything but Kakarot ignored the thoughts, since he knew why. As soon as he had heard her, he was out of the Briefs' dining room and sprinting towards her rooms. He couldn't explain the feeling of betrayal as the smell of her arousal hit him like a punch in the face. He couldn't explain the pain he felt when he saw the two of them together so intimately, when he saw his brother's hand down her shorts whilst he was kissing her neck.

All Kakarot did know was that he didn't like it.

"Raditz," He said with a serious look on his face as he tried his hardest to keep the anger and betrayal out of his voice, "I think you should leave. I need to talk to Bulma, privately."

"No!" Bulma snapped as she put her hands on her hips. "He doesn't have to go anywhere. I invited Raditz in and I was the one who made the first move."

"Damn it Bulma!" Kakarot yelled angrily. "What the hell are you doing?"

"What the hell are you doing?" She screamed right back at him. "This is my room! You can't just barge in here whenever you feel like it."

By now they had caught the attention of Bardock and Turles, who had both come as soon as Kakarot ran out during dinner. They knew it had to be something serious if he just ditched half way through a meal without saying anything. Turles and Bardock stared with wide eyes at the girl whose chest was covered by nothing more than a black lacy bra, her shorts were undone and Raditz was half naked. The smell of their arousals lingered in the air, making Kakarot even angrier.

"Get out!" Bulma yelled. Her frustration was higher than ever now since she had been close to release. Knowing that the person who could give her the release she craved was standing close beside her, was maddening.

Raditz didn't know what to do or what to say. One minute he was being told to leave by his brother and the next Bulma was telling him to stay. He looked between the two warily. He had never felt so unsure before in his entire life and he didn't like it.

"Will you three just get out?" She yelled again but again, nobody listened to her.

"Bulma, why are you doing this?" Kakarot shouted. "This isn't you!"

"Why does it matter to you? I'm not bothering you, am I? Does the fact that I'm not panting after you make upset you or something? Am I not allowed a life of my own?"

Her questions made him stop and think. Why did it matter to him? It was bothering him, but why? Yes he was upset about it but not because she wasn't 'panting' after him. He wasn't even sure why it was upsetting him. "Of course you are," Kakarot said as calmly as he possibly could, "but not like this. This isn't you!"

Bulma growled as she stalked towards Kakarot and glared at him. Why was he doing this to her? Why couldn't he just be happy for her and let her get on with her life? "So what if it isn't me." She said in a cold voice with a shrug. "For the first time in ages, I was feeling something other than boredom and emptiness. I don't care if it means I'm not being me or that I'm changing, I'm tired of not feeling anything!"

Bardock stepped into the room and picked Bulma's top up off of the floor before throwing it to her. It would make him much more comfortable if he could talk to her whilst she was fully dressed. She was like a daughter to him, hell he had helped raise her! So seeing Bulma in such a way was a little more than uncomfortable and awkward for him. Bulma pulled the top back on and fastened the buttons on her shorts but continued to glare at Kakarot, who only returned the glare straight back at her.

"Bulma, Kakarot is right." Bardock said after a few seconds of nothing but silence and glaring. "This isn't you. I don't know what the hell happened during the past two months but it's changed you."

Bulma ran her fingers through her hair as she tried to reign in her anger. She had told them all only moments ago that she didn't care if it wasn't her. She had told them all so many times that she was fine. From the corner of her eye she watched as Raditz put on his armour and followed Turles out of the room. She turned her gaze back to Kakarot but instead of feeling angry, she once again felt empty. "Why are you the only one who's allowed to be happy?" She asked in such a hurt tone that she might as well have been stabbing him in the heart.

Bardock sighed. "Would sleeping with Raditz really make you happy?"

"Maybe not the happy you're thinking of." She muttered before speaking up. "Neither of you own me, I'm my own person. I can make my own mistakes to learn from because it's all a part of growing up! Why can't either of you see that?" She looked at Kakarot in the eye as she spoke only to him. "You can't control who I sleep with Kakarot. I don't know whether it's jealousy or… or possessiveness but you need to back the hell off. You have Chi-Chi so let me find my mate."

"You think sleeping around is going to help you find your mate?" Kakarot chuckled humourlessly but his chuckling stopped abruptly as a loud smack turned his head harshly to the side, completely stunning both him and Bardock.

"Go to hell!" She yelled angrily as she pushed Kakarot towards the door. "Just leave me the fuck alone and stop trying to control me! I'm not your mate, Chi-Chi is. So go annoy her or better yet, go and visit your son for the first time in God knows how long."

Kakarot stared at the girl who was trying her hardest to push him out of the room, but he didn't budge an inch. Instead, he stared wide eyed at her. What happened to his best friend? Why was she trying to hurt him? He was only looking out for her. He was only trying to protect her! Why was she being this way? What had happened to the Bulma he grew up with?

Bardock pulled Bulma away from his son. "Kakarot is only doing this because you're a part of his pack. It's his duty to keep away whoever he sees as an unworthy male and to protect you."

"Yeah well I don't to be a part of his stupid pack if it means that I can't live my own life." Bulma said stubbornly as she folded her arms across her chest.

"You don't want to…" He couldn't even finish his sentence. "Whatever. Make a name for yourself as the ship's whore, see if I care." Kakarot shook his head before walking out of the door, slamming it shut behind him.

Bulma scoffed. "Yeah you're just jealous that I'm not sleeping with you!" She screamed after him, knowing for a fact that he heard her. After a few seconds of silence, Bulma walked over to the door, opened it but she stopped as she looked back into her living room. "Are you coming or not?" She asked impatiently to Bardock.

"What you said has really hurt Kakarot, you know." Bardock frowned. "You're the first member of his own pack."

He hadn't missed the look of hurt that shone in his son's eyes before he left. For someone to say that they didn't want to be a part of your pack or have anything to do with you anymore was hard. Especially when they had been so close for over ten years now, the two had travelled across the universe together. They did everything together. Hell, they had even slept together! He had never seen such a strong connection before. For Bulma to say that she didn't want to be a part of his pack anymore after everything they had been through together was surely causing his son a lot of pain.

"I don't care." Bulma said with a cold and empty look on her face. "Now are you coming or not?"

Bardock shook his head as he walked out of Bulma's rooms and started to make his nightly rounds. He had to clear his head and think about things.

Bulma frowned before shutting the door. She had no idea where she was going, but she couldn't stay in there any longer. She wanted to get out and have some fun! Surely there would be other people at headquarters that were her age? Hopefully some that weren't afraid of her because of her friendship with the Saiyans.

Bulma smirked before walking away from her room.


A/N - What's your opinion, do you guys want anything else to happen between Raditz and Bulma? Or do you think they should just be friends?

More drama! Can any of you guess what Bulma's condition is yet?

Oh and as for Bulma and Chi-Chi's relationship, they're not the best of friends mainly because of Bulma's feelings for Kakarot and Chi-Chi's jealousy about how Bulma travels for months at a time with him. So yeah, there's quite a bit of insecurity there which will probably be more explained and detailed in the next couple of chapters.

I know that you're all going to hate me because Vegeta still isn't in the story yet, but I think it's better this way. You get to learn more about Bulma's character therefore you see the change she goes through when Vegeta does arrive.

Also, do you guys want me to start doing little previews for the next chapter at the bottom of each chapter? I got told some people enjoy them...

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