Chapter 7: Chocolate Pancakes and Other Brothers
AN1: Hey guys! I loved hearing your responses to the last chapter, thanks so much for that! This chapter is another little look into what is going on with Big Dean. The next chapter should be out pretty soon after this one, so expect to see it Friday or early this weekend! Yay! Enjoy it and don't forget to R&R!
Sam is sitting at the table swinging his legs back and forth with glee. He has a wide, dimpled grin plastered to his face and I can tell he's missing a tooth or two. Chocolate and syrup is dripping from his smile as he shoves pancakes into his mouth with the kind of gusto that only a ten year old could have. His sticky smile tugs at my own lips and I don't even bother hiding my amusement. "You sure do like those things," I laugh. Glancing up at me quickly, he sticks out his tongue before switching his gaze back to his meal.
When I had gotten back to the motel Sam was still huddled tight into the corner, except this time he was awake. His little arms were wrapped around his little legs as he sat with his back pressed firmly against the wall. I had set the Styrofoam boxes I had gotten from the diner down on the small table every room has and made my way over to him. When I knelt down in front of him, the most non-threatening look I could muster plastered on, his eyes were wide with fear, confusion, and a little bit of hope.
"Where's Dee?" Sammy had asked. I was suddenly reminded that though he had grown out of constantly using the nickname around six, he still referred to me with it when he was scared for many years after that. My features went soft remembering not too long ago when a drunken Sam had used that same form of endearment. Of course he was six and a half feet of gangly limbs and black out drunk embarrassment so I hadn't given it much thought at the time. It had seemed more pathetic than cute, finding Sam that wasted all alone in the motel room that night. Walking through the door he had sent me a breathy 'missed you Dee' that I had shook off as nothing but a drunken slur of speech. Looking back at it made me furrow my brow for a moment.
"I told you," I insisted, crossing my arms.
"Nooooooooo," He had drawn out, "you lied to me."
"Stubborn kid," I scoffed, "well since you still don't believe me I guess I'll just have to finish these chocolate chip pancakes all by myself." I teased, letting my eyes trail over to where the take out containers were located. "I don't know if I'll be able to eat all of that, though." I decided, and Sam's eyes flashed, "Do you happen to know anyone who could share them with me, someone, say ten years old, with an awesome big brother, and who just happens to loooove chocolate chip pancakes?"
Sam shook his head, adamantly.
"You sure?" I had asked, he had nodded. "Alright then…" I slowly walked back to table with exaggerated steps, then plopped down into one of the seats with a sigh. "I reeeaaally wish someone would share these with me," I sighed, flipping open one of the containers. Out of the corner of my eye I saw him move. I set the food in front of me and took a large bite, "mmmmmmmm, these are some of the best I've ever had!" I exclaimed. Quickly and silently my little brother had slipped into the seat across from me. I had smiled.
That's how we ended up here.
Sam went to wipe at his face with his shirt sleeve, "Napkin!" I exclaimed, lurching forward to stop him. "Dude, you don't have any other clothes yet and I don't want you ruining the only stuff you have!" I passed him a napkin, he gave me a sheepish look before cleaning off his face.
"Sorry," Sammy mumbled, eyes cast down.
"Don't worry about it, Tiger, we'll get you some more and then you can wipe away syrup with your sleeves all ya want."
"Really?" He breathed, a little mystified. "Dad never buys me new clothes, I always get Dean's."
I noticed the too big sleeves rolled up at the wrist, and how his little legs were drowning in too much pants. Hand-me downs. Sure I knew Sam had gotten them as a kid, and sure maybe sometimes they were a little big, but they had room to grow! This was ridiculous. Kid could be swallowed whole with all the extra fabric hanging off of him!
"Are they always that bad?" I wondered, getting up from my seat to inspect them.
"Not always," Sam whispered, his face suddenly full of shame, "It's just, Dean went through a growth spurt last year and I needed new school clothes. Dad had used the last of the spending money on ammo and this is all we had." The words spilled quickly out of his mouth. His eyes were trained on the table and clearly avoiding mine as I kneeled in front of him.
"Hey," I lowered my voice to be as soothing as possible, "Hey Sammy look at me." He did, slowly. "That's nothing to be ashamed of, okay? That's not your fault, alright? You know what? We'll go today! After we clean up I'll go find us a nice department store and you can get all the clothes you want. Does that sound nice?"
He nodded eagerly at the suggestion, causing his hair to fall into his face. Cautiously, I rolled onto my toes and reached out to push it away, threading it back behind his ears and finishing with a soft kiss to his forehead. Then I rocked back to my heels before standing. I cleaned of the table quickly, throwing way the plastic utensils and Styrofoam packages. My thoughts drifted chocolate pancakes and little little brothers. I absent mindedly swept the crumbs off of the table and on to the floor when I realized that Sammy was watching me. I turned to face him.
"What's up? Changed your mind? You don't want to go?" The questions spilled out of my mouth as I tried fervently to figure out what was wrong. I wanted nothing more than to get rid of that heartbreaking look on his face.
"Are you," Sam started, looking so lonely and so confused, "you're really Dean, aren't you?"
As the words registered my frown turned quickly into a bright, shining grin. Then, smiling at him more gently than before I ruffled his tangled mop of brown hair.
"Yeah Sammy, I am."
-GNS-
AN2: So that's it guys! Short but sickeningly sweet! Hope you guys liked it! Once again thank you to all of the people who reviewed the last chapter including: Sara.B, catlover2967, Nalana88, Sari Dark, Ezaki, and Haleythebookdragon456! I love hearing what you guys have to say, it really does encourage me to write more!
