hey guys sorry I didn't update yesterday
my computer's acting weird.
here it is
I sat on the park bench, smiling into the rain as I hummed and strummed her guitar.
Everything had changed.
Fang had become a player, an asshole. Every week he had a new girlfriend.
I was anti-social and depressed. I knew it shouldn't happen, but I couldn't help it. My concerned friends could not do anything but stare. I was fine with that. I felt like I couldn't trust anyone anymore. FANG. It was all his fault. So I sang out all my emotions. Everything that had built up inside of me. I couldn't take it anymore. I thought I knew him like the back of my hand, but Maya had actually been right. Maya...
Why did I trust Fang so quickly? In the past, I never trusted people. My friends were people I had known through long lengths of time. He had changed me. But I didn't understand how or why I changed.
I wasn't normally such a deep thinker. I acted, I never thought. But I didn't want to fall down this hard next time. I wanted to learn from my mistakes and correct them...like Jeb.
No, I can't take one more step towards you
'Cause all that's waiting is regret Don't you know I'm not your ghost anymore You lost the love I loved the most
I learned to live half alive And now you want me one more time
And who do you think you are?
Runnin' 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Who do you think you are?
I hear you're asking all around
If I am anywhere to be found
But I have grown too strong
To ever fall back in your arms
And I've learned to live half alive
And now you want me one more time
And who do you think you are?
Runnin' 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Who do you think you are?
And it took so long just to feel alright
Remember how to put back the light in my eyes I wish I had missed the first time that we kissed
'Cause you broke all your promises
And now you're back You don't get to get me back
And who do you think you are?
Runnin' 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Don't come back at all
And who do you think you are?
Runnin' 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
Tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
Don't come back for me
Don't come back at all
Who do you think you are?
Who do you think you are?
Who do you think you are?
-Jar of Hearts
This is a story that I have never told
I gotta get this off my chest to let it go
I need to take back the light inside you stole
You're a criminal
And you steal like you're a pro
All the pain and the truth
I wear like a battle wound
So ashamed, so confused
I was broken and bruised
Now I'm a warrior
Now I've got thicker skin
I'm a warrior
I'm stronger than I've ever been
And my armor, is made of steel, you can't get in
I'm a warrior
And you can never hurt me again
Out of the ashes, I'm burning like a fire
You can save your apologies, you're nothing but a liar
I've got shame, I've got scars
That I will never show
I'm a survivor
In more ways than you know
Cause all the pain and the truth
I wear like a battle wound
So ashamed, so confused
I'm not broken or bruised
'Cause now I'm a warrior
Now I've got thicker skin
I'm a warrior
I'm stronger than I've ever been
And my armor, is made of steel, you can't get in
I'm a warrior
And you can never hurt me
There's a part of me I can't get back
A little girl grew up too fast
All it took was once, I'll never be the same
Now I'm taking back my life today
Nothing left that you can say
Cause you were never gonna take the blame anyway
Now I'm a warrior
I've got thicker skin
I'm a warrior
I'm stronger than I've ever been
And my armor, is made of steel, you can't get in
I'm a warrior
And you can never hurt me again
No oh, yeah, yeah
You can never hurt me again
-Warrior, Demi Lovato
I sighed, leaning forwards and resting my head on my palms.
I was disappointed. My dreams were, in short, shattered. How could I make a music career when all I could do was mope around for an unattainable boy? A GUY? When had Maximum Ride moped around for A GUY?
I was pathetic. It was true.
"Hey, you have an amazing voice," a guy said. I looked up into the eyes of a beach-blond haired boy.
"Thank you," I said.
"Hey, are you OK?" he asked with a concerned voice. I stood up and sighed. "Look, I should leave now," I said.
"Hey, wait!"the boy said, grasping my wrist.
I looked at him expectantly. The boy rubbed the back of his neck with an embarrassed expression. "Uh, I'm Dylan. I have a band...we need a lead female singer. It's a paying job and we get gigs. You're better than everything we've heard. So...just think about it, OK?"
Dylan scratched his number down on her arm in sharpie. I groaned. "OK, thanks, Dylan."
To say the least, I was very interested in this paying gig. Maybe this would keep her mind off of Fang.
Dylan showed up at the mall later that day when Ella and I went to the mall. Ella was the only one I really talked to about my problems.
"Oh, hey!" Dylan greeted with a smile. I nodded, smiling. His cheerfulness was contagious. "Oh, um, hey, Dylan. I'm Max." I said.
He laughed. "Yeah, I saw the bold writing on your guitar that said Max."
I grinned. "Well, yeah."
We walked around and talked until Ella called me frantically, saying we needed to go.
"Bye, Dyl," I said, smiling.
He nodded and waved.
EWW I brought Dylan into the story. I HATE MYLAN
don't worry, there will be Fax. This us just how the books are sorta like. Fang ditches her, Dylan comes to the rescue. Fax ssoon
