A/N: So, I am loving the reviews and reading what you all think about this story. So I have been waiting for at least a week to write this chapter so here it goes. I hope you enjoy!
Saturday night Alex drives out of the city headed to the location of the gala. Normally, she would have a driver take her, but tonight she needs to remain sober. She needs to remain in control. It is her night to make a statement to Casey. Although, she doesn't know exactly what she is going to do, she knows she is going to tell Casey how she feels.
Pulling up to the large stone estate she steps out of her Jaguar and passes the keys to the valet. Not waiting a second, she turns and heads into the gala. She purposely is running late enough that Casey and Teddy should already be here. She wants to catch Casey's eye as she walks into the fundraiser.
Casey stands by the large window overlooking the side garden of the estate. Teddy has wandered off to refill their drinks and Casey is listening to the head of neurology desperately try to win over a potential donor. Little is the doctor aware that Teddy has already landed this donor's check tonight. Looking around the large room she is surprised when she sees a familiar blonde walk into the room.
Alex walks in looking quite unimpressed with the scene. Despite being unimpressed though she looks gorgeous. She is wearing a beaded gold dress that falls just below the knee. It's sleeveless and scooped neck showing off just the right amount of skin. Her hair is pulled back into an artfully done bun with ringlets of hair falling perfectly around her face. Casey is breathless just looking at her.
Suddenly, she feels someone touching her arm. Turning she comes face to face with Teddy. Looking a little confused, Teddy asks, "Are you okay?"
"Yeah," Casey states, "Why do you ask?" She takes the glass of wine from Teddy taking a large sip.
Teddy looks at Casey skeptically. "You are flushed." She states flatly looking towards the direction Casey had been looking. Scanning the area she sees Alex. Nodding she realizes there is clearly a lot more to the story of Casey and her stepsisters separation.
"Casey," Teddy whispers as she turns Casey's head towards her with her hand. Locking eyes with the redhead Teddy kisses Casey letting her fingers run down to Casey's pulse point. Casey's heart is pounding before Teddy's lips even touch hers. Kissing Casey she wonders why seeing Alex would cause Casey to react this way.
Breaking the kiss, Casey looks at Teddy with heavy eye lids. "Wow Teddy. Should you be kissing me like that in front of all your coworkers and potential donors?"
Smiling Teddy says, "I don't care what anyone thinks. I am with the woman I love."
"I love you too," Casey says kissing Teddy's cheek.
Alex Cabot stands dead still. She finally spots Casey and when she does the talented doctor is kissing her passionately. Seeing the exchange makes Alex's insides boil. She can't stand seeing the blonde doctor touching Casey. Touching Casey the way she wants to touch Casey. Kissing Casey the way she wants to kiss Casey.
Looking around the room, Alex spots one of her generous clients. She walks over to the older redhead, "Lois!"
"Alexandra, it's good to see you! Are you here to support the hospital or are you a date?" Lois Preston inquires.
Smiling brightly, Alex leans in and whispers, "Support mainly, but there is a special someone here who holds my heart as well."
Laughing, Lois takes Alex's hand, "Well I am glad to hear that. Am I wrong or did I see your stepsister here?"
"Casey, yes she is here. She is right over here with her girlfriend Dr. Teddy Altman who is the head of Cardio. Have you spoken with her? She is phenomenal." Alex says. Lois shakes her head and adds, "No, I haven't met her."
"Well Lois you have to. I was just going to take her my donation. Would you like to join me?" Alex offers with a smirk.
"I would love to dear lead the way." Lois Preston says following the blonde through the crowd.
Reaching Casey and Teddy, Alex immediately exclaims, "Teddy! There you are, I have been looking for you."
Teddy smiles a little in shock. Why would Alex Cabot be here and looking for her? "Oh, you were? It's good to see you again Alex." Teddy says reaching out her hand to the other blonde.
"Teddy, I wanted to give you my donation, I feel like your department could use the funds most appropriately. Additionally, I would like to introduce you to one of my best clients, Judge Lois Preston. I know she would love to hear more about your department." Alex says handing Teddy her check and stepping aside for Teddy to speak to Lois.
As Lois and Teddy start to talk, Alex steps behind Casey and whispers in her ear, "Meet me out on the balcony." When Casey turns around to see what Alex's intentions of this meeting are, she finds the blonde has disappeared. Looking around she catches a glimpse of blonde hair moving through the crowd towards the slightly ajar balcony doors. Shaking her head she looks back to Teddy. Her blonde surgeon is in deep conversation with the judge. Leaning in, she excuses herself to the restroom and disappears into the crowd herself.
Weaving through the crowd she finds herself quickly approaching the open doors. She doubts anyone would step outside willing right now, it is so cold. Taking a breath, she walks out into the cold night air.
Alex smiles as she sees Casey sneak through the opening in the doors. Casey looks gorgeous tonight. Her hair red hair is pulled up into a tight up-do, her makeup is flawless and she is dressed in the most beautiful strapless floor length lace covered dress. Alex wants to pull Casey into her arms and kiss her, but she won't do that to Casey or Teddy. She is going to let Casey make her decision.
"Why did you call me out here Alex?" Casey asks.
"Why did you follow me Casey?" Alex questions back.
Staring into Alex's eyes Casey walks closer to the blonde. Casey softly says, "I asked first Alexandra."
Taking two steps closer to the redhead, Alex stares right back into Casey's green eyes. Taking a breath she softly says, "Casey I have loved you since the moment I first saw you. I have been in love with you since the night you kissed me all those years ago. I am so in love with you that I feel like I can't breathe sometimes. I have spent countless years trying to repress this feeling, trying to run from it. To save you from what it may mean for us. But…Casey…I need you so much closer." As she finishes she closes the gap between them.
She stands so close to Casey that their bodies are mere millimeters apart. With each breath their bodies lightly touch, and Alex's eyes stare right back into Casey's. Turning her head to Casey's ear, Alex ever so carefully runs the very tips of her fingers up Casey's exposed arms. She never fully touches Casey she just lets her know how much she wants to touch her as she breathes warmly next to Casey's ear. Speaking softly the blonde continues, "I want to touch you Casey." Moving her lips lightly across Casey's bare shoulders still not exactly touching her but letting her know how much she wants to she continues to speak, "I want to kiss you, I want to run my hands and mouth freely over you whenever I want to. I want to hold you, love you, and never ever let you go again Casey. I was so wrong to ever let you out of my arms, and if I could go back in time I would change everything. I need you so much closer Casey." All the while she is moving her lips across Casey's shoulders and neck, and finger tips up and down her arms.
Moving her fingers to Casey's shaking fingers, and looking back into her eyes Alex speaks again. "I want to be with you Casey for the rest of our lives, but I want to be the only one you are with I will never share you. I wanted you to know how deep my love goes for you Casey, but I also want you to know I will never touch you again without your permission and without your freedom. I can't because it hurts me too much and will only hurt you. I have hurt you to many times Casey and I won't do it again. So now you have to decide whether or not you want to be with me Casey."
With that Alex walks around Casey and through the opening in the doorway.
Casey was left alone on the suddenly much colder balcony. She knew coming out here she was going to find out how Alex felt, but she never imagined it to be like that. Alex never exactly touched her or kissed her but the entire act made Casey want to be touched and kissed. She was so overheated she did not know what to think or do. She just wanted to go home and be alone for a while to figure things out.
Arriving home later that night with Teddy, Casey went straight to their room and began to undress. Tomorrow Teddy was on call from 1pm to 1 am Monday morning. She was relieved for that fact because it meant it would give her until Monday night to have to see her again. Casey felt awful about these feelings, but she really needed to decide what she wanted in life. Was it Alex or Teddy?
Hanging her dress up, Casey felt Teddy's arms wrap around her waist. "You look amazing right now." Teddy says hotly in Casey's ear as her hands move down to Casey center. Casey can't help but react to the touch she has been so wound up since being with Alex on the balcony. Feeling Teddy kiss her neck and begin to rub her clit, Casey arches back into her girlfriend. She is so wound tight it doesn't take long for Teddy to make her come undone.
Coming down from her electric high she realizes she is crying. Teddy worriedly leads her to the bed. "Casey honey, what is wrong? Did I hurt you or something?" Teddy questions nervously.
All Casey can do, is shake her head no. Teddy nods she understands she doesn't exactly know how, but somehow she just does. Taking a shaky breath herself she says, "Its Alex isn't it."
Casey looks up in horror. How does Teddy know? How could she possibly even know?
Knowingly smiling Teddy says, "Casey I have known you for the last two years. I have loved you all that time. I know you Casey. I also know the look people get when they are around the people they are in love with and you get that look when you are around Alex. You are in love with her aren't you?"
All Casey can do is nod as she starts to cry again. She is trying to pull herself together to talk to Teddy but Teddy just helps her lie down and wraps her arms around her soothing her pain. "Casey you remember how when I met you I was getting away from Seattle because it reminded me too much of my late husband Henry?" Teddy asks and Casey nods. Seeing Casey's confirmation Teddy continues, "I was a wreck then and so were you. We pieced each other back again. I thought I understood what you were feeling, you'd lost everyone you loved and so had I we were like to broken people filling in each other's cracks. I thought I made you happy Casey and you made me happy, but I don't think I have ever seen you as happy as when Alex is in your presence. I know the look of being in love Casey, I use to have it with Henry and you have it with Alex."
Teddy holds Casey until she falls asleep. Then she stands and changes. Writing Casey a note she leaves it on her bedside table. Walking out of the apartment she smiles. Even though, she loves Casey she knows what it's like to be in love with someone and she refuses to take that feeling away from anyone.
