Warning: Yaoi/boy-on-boy
Pairings: ZevranXm!Grey Warden, DuncanXm!Grey Warden
Story: Hate, anguish, fear, it can all lead to a single thing... Love.
Disclaimer: Duncan, Alistair, Zevran (c) Bioware
Nicolai (c) Me


It wasn't as if leaving the Alienage had been easy, leaving Shianni had been one of the hardest things he had ever had to do. And right when his cousin had needed him most… Nicolai glared at Duncan out of the corner of his eyes, hunched near the campfire, the tips of the pointed ears freezing, stomach growling, and ignoring the shem who seemed to want to speak non-stop.

"Look, shem," Nicolai finally hissed, turning his frosty-blue eyes on Duncan. "I don't like you and don't care about the duty of a Grey Warden, I'm only here because you recruited me and I am in your debt. Don't go thinking we're suddenly friends."

He didn't look at the brunette human when he heard a sigh, nor did he look up when he heard the man stand. What made him look up was the hand that wound itself in his short blond hair, yanking his head back to stare up at an angry Duncan. He glared, struggling when the human lifted him up easily, the warrior easily over powering his rouge talents.

"Do not disrespect me, young one," the human's eyes were dark with something Nicolai had not seen in anyone's eyes in a long time. And he knew the look was reflected in his own blue eyes. "Don't think I won't send you back to the jails if you anger me enough."

Nicolai didn't listen a moment longer, surging forward and ripping a few hairs out at the same time, smacking his lips against the humans before he had a chance to change his mind.

The frustration, the hatred, the sadness all emptied through the kiss, teeth grinding against each other, tongue's teasing blood between the two mouths that held nothing but anger towards each other. They ripped at clothes, pressing naked skin against burning naked skin. The tree he was pressed against rubbed Nicolai's skin raw, but he paid no attention to it, instead holding tightly to the human that took him roughly, pounding into him again and again.


"Stay still, young one."

Nicolai groaned quietly, the memories of the night before returning slowly. He opened his eyes with difficulty, narrowing them as light spilled in through the opening of tent. He could feel Duncan's warmth by his side, the man applying something to his back… which he realized was sore. He tried to move, and cried out in pain as his skin pulled and wounds from the rough bout of fucking opened.

Hands pressed down on his shoulders, pressing him into the thin blanket. He breathed heavily, trying not to sob out in pain as he tried to lay still.

"Be still," Duncan's voice was almost soothing. "I have to treat these wounds. You passed out against the tree after our… well… I brought you back to my tent, though I didn't realize what the tree had done to you."

"Just…" Nicolai took a shaking breath. "Please, just fix it."

"I will do what I can. I am no healer, you will have to heal naturally."

The night at Ostagar broke Nicolai's heart. He had once laughed and smiled, run around the city with his cousin like the child he was. Alistair had seen him smile, be kind once upon a time, but as the Blight wore on and on he soon forgot how to smile.

Hatred for Loghain consumed him, for he had taken the human he had come to love with all the heart he had. Duncan had been kind, kissed him, held him, loved him, and that bastard had killed him for nothing but greed.

"My Warden…" the Antivan accent brought Nicolai out of his reverie. Zevran stood close to him, smiling kindly as the young elf took a deep breath. "You will win. You will come back. I have no doubt in that."

"Zevran…" Nicolai smiled, leaning forward and kissing Zevran gently, feeling the supple lips give under his. "I love you, my Zevran. Be safe."


A/N: Okay... so my first prompt from the kink meme! Duncan and a Grey Warden... I thought up a character who I just started working on, Nicolai. He's a little baby, honestly, and my first try at being mean. I'm so damn bad at it! I feel horrible whenever I'm mean! But, Nicolai is a bitch, either way.

Tell me what you think, as always! 3