Its not that I'm not ready for a relationship

They're just not ready for me

-Electra Heart (Marina and the Diamonds)

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(Song-Primadonna Girl by Marina and the Diamonds-)

Olivia bounced Noah in her lap as she popped a strawberry slice in her mouth. She was actually enjoying watched Brian play with Noah, tickling him and making absurd faces at him. Noah giggled as he jumped in his mother's lap. Olivia was actually also focused on how this game would go. She actually found it entertaining and wanted to see how far each man would go to be with her.

Would you do anything for me?

Buy a big diamond ring for me?

"Hey Brian, can you drop me off at work?"she asked him.

"Sure,"he held out his hands, silently asking to hold Noah. Noah giggled and reached out to Brian so she willingly handed him over and Noah fell into Brian's arms.

"So where are you living now?" Olivia asked. She put a fork full of eggs in her mouth moaning in delight as it filled her empty stomach.

"With my mom, she actually made the food," Brian laughed as Noah started to play with his watch.

"I can tell," Olivia said. She drunk some orange juice and looked at him before laying the glass back on the table. "Your cooking could never be this delicious,"

"Hey!" Brian laughed. "I'm trying, I promise,"

"You really are?" Olivia chuckled.

"If good cooking is what could make you happy I'd be happy to do it,"he said and she was taken aback by how serious his tone was. "Whatever you want me to do I'll do it,"

"Bri," Olivia said softly. He smiled as she used his nickname and put his hand over hers while the other gently held Noah's stomach.

Would you get down on your knees for me?

Pop that pretty question right now baby.

Olivia wanted to be cherished and that's something she's wanted to hear all her life. All these men said they would do that for her, so why not make the most out of it. If they truly wanted her.

Beauty queen on a silver screen
Living life like I'm in a dream
I know I've got a big ego
I really don't know why it's such a big deal, though

Brian smiled at her and lifted her hand to his mouth kissing it before he leaned over and kissed Olivia on her mouth. She dropped her fork and cupped his face with her hand. His kiss felt hungry and wanting and she pulled back and ran her tongue across his upper lip. Brian moaned and pulled away when Noah started grunting and squirming on his knee.

And I'm sad to the core, core, core

Everyday is a chore, chore, chore

Olivia laughed and picked Noah up from Brian's leg and held him close.

"I know you didn't want a baby Bri," Olivia said sadly.

"Its not that I don't want a child Olivia because God knows I do," Brian said. "I even told munch years ago that I was thinking about it. I mean after Lewis, all the late night working, us never being home. I just didn't see it in our schedule. But I look at you and Noah and...I want to apart of it,"

With you I want more,more,more

I wanna be adored

Cause I'm quite Primadonna Girl, yeah

"Olivia I miss you,"

Olivia bit her lip and looked down at Noah who had a small pancake circle in his hand , eating it. Her phone rang and she quickly answered it.

Saved by the bell. She put it up to her ear and heard it was Dean.

"Hey Liv, our suspect was found and he's in interrogation now," he said.

"Okay I'll be there,"

"Do you need a lift?"

"No I have a ride,"

She hung up the phone and then smacked her forehead.

"Is something wrong?" Brian asked as he put the plates in the sink.

"Uh...yeah," Olivia said. "I forgot to find Noah another babysitter. The last one is on vacation,"

"I can watch him," Brian said. "I'm starting to like that little guy,"

All I ever wanted was the world

I can't help that I need it all

The Primadonna life the rise and fall

You say that I'm kind of difficult but it's always someone else's fault

Got you wrapped around my finger babe

You can on me to misbehave

Primadonna Girl

"Are you sure?" Olivia said. "He is very energized,"

"Nothing I can't handle ,"

"But your going to be at work,"

"Olivia I'm going to be at a desk working on a computer. I think it's safe for me to take him with me,"

"I'm still surprised you got that job," Olivia chuckled. "You barely know how to work a smartphone,"

Brian pretended to be hurt and playfully clutched his chest. "Oh no, Olivia Benson has hurt my heart,"

Noah laughed and reached for Brian again. "So you can watch him?" Olivia asked.

"Of course I can. Wait today's Tuesday right?"

"Yeah why?"

"Even better ,I'm off today!"

"Thank you so much Bri," Olivia said as she handed Noah over to him so she could go get ready.

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In the car Olivia leaned against the window and looked out. Olivia noticed that all the men that were asking for her back played her some type of way the first time. Dean lied to her and left her crying in the interrogation room, David (even though she wanted to break it off) chose the job over her, Bayard always countered her actions and what she said and even threatened to tell her relationship with David (out of jealousy she bet), and Brian was never home and didn't show up to things you would expect a boyfriend to show up, like her own fucking promotion ceremony.

l fill the void up with Celluloid

Take a picture I'm with boys

Get what I want cause I ask for it

Not because I'm really that deserving of it

They had all some type of way hurt her. And even though Olivia wanted find love at the end of everything,but she also wanted some type of revenge. She wanted them to feel the pain/frustration she had when she was with all of them and she wanted love in return.

Living life like I'm in a play

In the lime light I want to stay

I know I've got a big ego

I really don't know why it's such a big deal though

Olivia wanted to see how far they would go to be with her. She wanted to be treated like she was better than anyone else when she was with them. She knew she sounded selfish and stubborn but Olivia wanted love that she's always deserved, the love she didn't even get as a child. She wanted to be adored.

Going up, going down, down, down

Anything for the crown, crown, crown

When the lights go down, down, down

I spin around

Once Brian reached her precinct Olivia, turned around and poked Noah in the stomach. "Goodbye my handsome Prince. Be good for Bri okay?"

Noah giggled and she blew a few kisses at him. She turned to Brian and smiled. "Thank you for doing this,"

Brian smiled. "Its my pleasure Olivia," Brian leaned in to kiss her but she turned her head and pulled away.

Leave him wanting more, she thought to herself.

"Goodbye,"she said and smiled seeing his disappointed face. She got out of the car and closed the door behind her. She gave him a small wave before walking inside the precinct.

Cause I'm a primadonna girl, yeah

All I ever wanted was the world

I can't help that I need it all

The primadonna life, the rise and fall

You say that I'm kinda difficult

But it's always someone else's fault

Got you wrapped around my finger, babe

You can count on me to misbehave

AUTHOR'S NOTE:

So thanks for the reviews=) . Happy about that. And I'll be using a lot of Marina and the Diamonds lyrics and quotes because I think her songs relate really well to this story. This song by Marina, Primadonna Girl, I think only a few parts of the song describe this chapter but I like it so I used it. =3