Yes, this was reposted because I realized that there was a typo in the fucking TITLE and that just seemed bad so I fixed it and some other stuff and I hope you guys enjoy.
Opening AN's and apology PLEASE READ!
SAR: Miss me?
Rinku: No, no they did not.
SAR: Listen folks there is no excuse this time as to why I've been MIA for months and I'm not going to make some promise that I know I'm not going to keep about having the next chapter out super fast and way, way longer because we all know (those who've been reading) that it's gonna be bullshit. So here's the truth.
First, I started a new story (which I'm also terrible about updating) called Starschmucks Coffe Houses. It was supposed to be a cure for writers block on this story but then IT started giving me writers block so woopsies on that idea. I'm still going to try and keep up with it though because it's really REALLY funny and fun to write at times.
Then, I decided I wanted to try to write non-fanfiction and I did for a while but nothing really great came of it and I was trying to hard to be like other authors and it was stupid and school started building up and yeah...Then, I read about this writing contest for teenagers that sounded really cool so I tried writing for that and I'm pretty happy with the story I've got going for it (not sure if I'm actually going to enter it but I like it alot) Basically, my stories on fanfiction (particularly this one) took a major back seat and then for the last 3 weeks I was having MAJOR writers block like SERIOUSLY. Like i was some warped kind Midas and everything I wrote turned to crap.
The cure for it was actually a book called Girl by Blake Nelson which I suggest all girls from ages 14-20 read because it kicks ass! So I'm updating and writing all kids of good stuff on my story for the contest and I'm sorry this authors note is so long but I really hope you read it because I really am sorry this chapter took so long and isn't all that great because I wrote it all (literally) in 4 hours and didn't proofread it and MAYBE HOPEFULLY the next chapter will be out soon. SOOOOO yeah... I think that's it. Please tell me if you think this is confusing at parts because I wrote it a little funny and I REALLY REALLY hope you guys enjoy 3 Disclaimer please.
Rinku: SwisArmyRomanse owns nothing but the intense amount of shame and guilt she feels for not gettin this out sooner...and Binx...and the plot even though the plot is crap.
SAR: Gee thanks. WARNING- YAOI AND SHONEN AI! YES THERE ACTAULLY IS SOME IN THIS CHAPTER! Mild language and some intense consuming of donuts.
AND NOW YOUR FEATURE PRESENTATION
Chapter 7: Because Donuts Are the Cure For Everything
Except For Stupid, Lonely People
"I don' hate ya." Jin said flatly. (1)
"Of course you don't Jin. I don't know what made me say that you did." Touya said seriously, suddenly embarrassed.
"I really, really don't hate ya though." Jin insisted.
"Right, I know." Touya said.
"Ya sure?" Jin asked suspiciously.
"Sure." Touya replied. Jin gave a small nod and then, before Touya knew what his patient was doing, Jin's face was inches in front of his, his hands placed firmly on Touya's shoulders. The blue-haired man was slightly taken aback, though not entirely minding their proximity.
"Tell me more 'bout 'em." He insisted. Touya, who was still a little overwhelmed by the enormous blue eyes staring him down, took a moment to grasp the sentences meaning.
"Tell you about wh-about the Sages?" Touya asked slowly. Jin nodded his head in an affirmative. "Alright." Touya said slowly. "But first you have to answer all my questions, deal?"
Jin frowned like a child denied their candy but ultimately he agreed. "Fiiine." He said in a whining tone. Touya smiled victoriously.
"Sit down, Jin." He said, gesturing toward his couch. He began to question his reluctant patient the minute they sat down. "What's your relationship with your parents really like?" He asked. The redhead snorted.
"My Da' can't stand that I'm his lad and I can't stand that my mum is my mum 'cause I can't stand my mum."
Touya took a moment to replay that jumbled sentence in his head, trying to make sense of it.
"Why?"
"Cause she's always callin' and wakin' me up. And her voice kinda just drills itself into yer fuckin brain! And-"
"I meant why do you feel that way about your father" Touya clarified, thinking it best to cut off Jin's rant before it came back to "And y'know what? I hate shrinks!"
"Oh," Jin said. "Well it really ain't much of a feelin', Touya." Jin said, seeming to get a small bit of pleasure in calling the doctor by his first name. "It's more like he says ta me most times he sees me that I'm a pain in his big, wrinkly, arse, and that I'm a loser and a lousy faggot an-" Jin stopped suddenly, biting his lip.
Touya stared confusedly at him for a moment, not realizing what had cut his patient off. Then his brain took a moment to process what Jin had said.
"Oh," Touya said. That was it, oh. And oh how stupid a response that was. 'Really,' Touya thought, 'that's not usually the response I usually want when I come out.' It had come as a shock though; Jin truly wasn't your garden variety, well dressed, flaming, gay.
"Oh, that?" Touya asked. "That's no big deal." He said in his most reassuring voice. Jin looked unconvinced and started wiggling around nervously. "No, really," Touya said, feeling guilty. "I'm-" Gay he began to say and then stopped himself. Why was he so tongue tied? Why did this only happen with Jin? When had this man, in the short time the two had known each other, stolen his ability to construct a proper sentence?
"I'm" He said again, "I'm fine with it, it's great, really!" Jin looked at him strangely.
"It's great tat I'm gay?" Jin asked a little confused
"Yeah!" Touya said nervously, ridiculous things just bubbling out of his mouth. "It's…super."
Needless to say there was awkward silence following that statement.
"Can we go get donuts?" Jin asked, finally breaking the silence. Touya was thrown off by the extremely off-topic question and the redhead seemed to take his surprised silence as discomfort. "Not like a date er nothin'!" He added quickly. Touya blushed, the thought not having crossed his mind at all. "I'm jus' a bit hungry an' all an' donuts make everythin' better so…"
"I know! I just-" Touya began, his mouth opened and closed and made stupid, nervous movements that did no good. "Yeah," he said. "Yeah, let's get donuts."
Donuts turned out to be a pretty brilliant idea on Jin's part. Touya wasn't sure if it was Jin's sugar rush from all the donuts he was devouring or that he felt more comfortable now that Touya knew about his being gay but suddenly Jin, who had been avoiding telling Touya anything for so long was unexpectedly telling the Blue-haired doctor everything all at once.
"So my Da's a real prick bout the whole thing. It's no fair. It's not like he caught me one day doin' y'know…stuff. I jus' said to 'im one day, well…y'know… I told that I was like that and he got all huffy. Then at first he pretended he didn't care but he held it o'er my head la'er, y'know?" He said extremely quickly, guzzling down two donuts in the process.
"What do you mean, Jin?" Touya asked
"Like when it all started goin' ter hell he kept sayin' shit like 'First yer a queer and now all this mess' and I was tryin ter tell him is wasn't m' fault but he wouldn't hear it." The redhead said sadly.
"What do you mean when it started going to hell?" Touya asked, confused. Jin blinked for a few moments before remembering what he'd said. When it dawned on him he had a look of "oops" all over his face. Touya tried his very best not to find it cute. Jin gulped anxiously.
"I mean after I ran in ta Oliver Sage." Jin answered tears forming in his eyes.
Suddenly the truth dawned on Touya, or what he'd believed to be the truth. Jin was at the cemetery and he felt somehow responsible for his death. He recalled what Jin had said to him only a short while ago.
"Oliver was killed by-"
"I know." Jin interrupted quickly. His eyes still wide with fascination. Touya was puzzled.
"Err, I'm sorry," He said. "I thought you said you didn't know him."
And he realized then that Jin hadn't known Oliver Sage; he'd killed him. It all made sense now. Oliver had been killed accidentally when some school kids were beating on him, not knowing what they were doing and Jin had been one of the kids beating him up. It all fit.
"Jin," Touya explained sympathetically "Oliver had a condition that not many people knew about. I don't really know the medical details of it but he couldn't get hit in the stomach, it did something unusual to his insides, I think. It was fatal to him. I'm really not sure, but what I mean is," He reached over and put his hand on Jin's shoulder, "No one could have known what would happen to him and it was tragic and a terrible mistake but no one should blame you for what happened."(2)
And that's when Jin got out of his chair and gave the other a hug, a big, tight, bear-hug in which he almost completely lifted the shorter man off of his feet. Touya took the moment to appreciate how warm Jin was, even though it was cold out and how he smelt like fresh air and Guinness and the blue-haired doctor was soon entirely too comfortable in the embrace.
People were starting to stare though, so they both silently agreed it was time to leave, but not before picking up a few extra donuts. Touya now fully agreed with his patient that donuts made everything better. Jin continued to chat on the way back to Touya's apartment, much happier and more open then Touya had ever seen him. Touya found it wonderful listening to Jin until his talk turned once again to the subject of therapists and why the Redhead disliked them so.
"And yer great an all. I mean yer a good one but most of 'em really just don't give a damn and it's like ya can feel they don't really give a damn, and none o' 'em liked me; not a one. They all thought I was just some crazy ass. But why would ya be a shrink if ya didn' want ta deal with all the crazies of the world, right? And then that one hit me in the face that one time-"
"A doctor hit you?" Touya asked stunned and stopping dead in his tracks. Jin stopped too once he realized his doctor was no longer walking with him. Jin just blinked at Touya, not realizing what had caused him to stop. "Jin," Touya asked furiously "A professional psychiatrist, who knew about your nerves and your issues, actually hit you?"
Jin gulped at Touya's angry tone, suddenly becoming fearful and nervous again.
"Yeah but just once and it wasn't…" Jin was shaken up watching Touya's calm face turn into one of icy-cold fury. A tear fell down his cheek and his hands trembled. "Please don't hit me." The redhead begged. Touya cooled off immediately and realized his hands had been in tight fists at his sides and that Jin had mistaken his anger toward the Doctor who'd hurt Jin as anger towards Jin.
"Jin I-"
"Please," He interrupted "I'm sorry! Jus' don't…don't…" Jin's voice faded and tears flowed and his from shuddered. Touya felt his heart twist and tear as regret washed over him. He had no clue what to do and Jin was just standing there crying and scared and the sight broke his heart and he was trying to calm Jin down but it wasn't working and then Touya looked around to make sure no one was looking but no one was because they were on a deserted street corner and there was no one to see and nothing else was working and he just did it and-
He just did it. And then the whole world was just Jin's lips and his and it felt so good, Touya realized. It felt better then anything had in a long time. It was soft and gentle and Jin still smelled so good and it didn't even matter that Touya had to stand on his toes to reach Jin's lips because it was all so good.
And then it ended. Their lips broke apart and the whole situation was unbearably awkward. Touya decided to become extremely interested with his shoes to avoid looking at Jin who seemed completely dazed and confused as to what had occurred. There was silence and suddenly their deserted street corner was no longer deserted as people started coming out of stores, holding shopping bags and laughing, talking, breaking the silence.
"Can I go home?" Jin asked softly. Touya was sure his whole body sunk at that moment but he nodded his head in spite of it.
"Yea, yea you could." He replied softly all the while desperately willing his heart not to break on him. Jin nodded his head and started walking away. Touya turned to walk as well but only took a step before remembering,
"Jin!" he called out but his patient didn't hear him over the noise of the people now walking between them. "Jin!" But there was no answer and soon the redhead was out of his sight. He just stood for a moment, looking into the direction Jin had gone off to.
"Hey Mr. Conscience!" the extremely loud voice caused the blue-haired man to jump. Touya turned around and looked down and saw of course, Rinku.
"Hello there," Touya said, the boy's smile kind of infectious, causing Touya to smile and improving his mood.
"So is Jin a good kisser?" he asked excitedly. Touya's eyes widened immediately and his smile dropped.
"Wha-"
"Are you a girl?" Rinku asked, cutting Touya off "You gotta be because Jin sure isn't and it's silly for you to kiss another boy." He said laughing
"Yeah," Touya said giving a bittersweet laugh. "Yeah, it really is silly, Rinku." The child looked at the older man curiously.
"Wanna walk with me for a little, Mr. Conscience?" He asked. Touya sighed,
"Some other time, Rinku? I have to go find someone. I'll see you soon." He said waving and turning to walk away.
"Aww Please," The boy whined, pulling a yo-yo out of his pocket. "I got nowhere else to go."
The doctor suddenly froze.
He sat in a classroom, empty all except for himself and a stern, older looking man.
"Detention is over, Mr. Itsuru. Feel free to go." The older man said.
"Do you mind if I stay here for a little bit, Mr. Sage?" The blue-haired teen asked.
"Why would you do that?" The teacher had questioned.
"Because I have nowhere else to go."
Touya turned back to Rinku, walked over and ruffled the boy's hair.
"Come on," He said "Let's walk." Rinku smiled and Touya thought that Jin would just have to wait. He was sure he'd be seeing the redhead soon.
After all, Jin's car was still at his apartment and his keys were still jingling in Touya's pocket.
1) in the previous chapters I thought I was going a little overboard with Jin's accent so I changed how I wrote it a little in this chapter, idk if anyone cares but feel free to tell me if I'm doing a shitty job with it.
2) after re-reading it I realize how vague and ridiculous that sounds but it is an actually medical condition. My friend's little brother has it so y'know I'm not just making crap up.
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