Again, I am so so so sorry for the lack of updates as of late. My job has been so hectic, I get up at 6:30 and don't come home again until 6:30 and then straight to yoga and then when I get home I'm just so tired that I barely have time to watch Degrassi and Pretty Little Liars before sleeping lol

Megan, thank you for the review. About the KayAus request, I don't like the couple at all for many reasons but I can try to have them together for part of the story since some of my reviewers seem to like them together. But unfortunately, they will probably not be endgame. So sorry again.

Riptide2015 thanks for the review! Yes, Kaylie is very excited, isn't she? She's such a cutie and I love writing her when she's all happy and sweet rather than melodramatic like she is on the show a lot lol

klhansen22 I know this review was sent nearly a month and a half ago but it is continuing. At the pace of an extremely slow turtle moving through molasses but continuing none the less lol

To everyone I'll try to update a little more but can't make any promises. Sadly I've sort of ignored this story and my reviwers but I know that "canceling" it is out of the question. It will resume and finish one day! Over and out.

Dear Kelly, you may not remember me but …

Oh god, not one of these letters again. A letter from one of the many fans she had met over the years. They all thought that Kelly remembered every single fan that came up to her all excited chirping, "Oh my god! Oh my god! You're Kelly Parker! I'm [insert name here] and I'm your biggest fan!" The fans were awesome and it was nice to be loved but man, they could be annoying and none of them seemed to understand the concept of private time.

She did what she usually did with these kinds of letters: not even finish reading the letter and just put it in a pile of letters that would be sent a generic form letter and an autographed headshot.

But still, something about the uneven cursive print, the emerald green ink, the slight loopiness of the letters made Kelly remember a warm laugh, a sweet smile, and a loving hug. Shaking off this sappy sentimental feeling (who was she, Kaylie Cruz?) she made the decision to put the letter aside and get her assistant Tessa (yes that Tessa) to read it and update the form letter with the fans name, gather up the pre-autographed headshot and mail the letter out.

Kelly knows she should be packing, but instead she's lying on her queen-sized bed, auburn-streaked dark hair spilling across the pale green palm-tree printed comforter, obsessively checking her Blackberry to see if the BBM she had sent was still marked as "unread" or if the status had changed to "read". Unlike texting, once you sent a text, you don't know if the other person had opened it and not cared enough to send a reply or if they just hadn't opened it yet, until, of course, you get a reply from them. With BBM, however, the message status will be "unread" if the person hadn't opened it yet and "read" if they had. Kelly knew that if the status had been "read" for quite a while and she still hadn't gotten a reply yet, that this person was not fit to be inside Kelly Parker's inner circle of friends. Thank god Blackberry made it so easy to stalk people.

The unread message icon was still there. Damn, she thought, she had sent this message almost 24 hours ago and from experience, she knew that she was always glued to his Blackberry; it was like it was a part of her. She let her eyes stray towards the name of the person: Shelia Buboyan.

Tears pricked her eyes and she looked around the room, her eyes falling on the framed photo of the Olympic team on her desk, noticing Kaylie Cruz, Payson Keeler and Lauren Tanner in particular. What would her friends say about her trying to contact her mother?

At once Kaylie Cruz's soft and girly voice filled her head, sounding anxious.

"Your mother? I mean, come on KP, just think about how she treated you over the years. You can't just come crawling back to her … I mean, yes she is your mother but it takes someone really special to be a mom. Not that I'm trying to say that my mother is better than yours its just that … well you know what I'm talking about. Unless you don't … you know, my mom sucks too … damn, that came out wrong. I'm rambling aren't I?"

Kelly smiled slightly thinking that was exactly how Kaylie would respond in a situation like this. She means well and always knows exactly what to say from the start but her rambling usually got the better of her. But she didn't understand. Sure, Alex and Ronnie Cruz were not going to win Parent of Year but she had her parents and they believed in her.

Speaking of "Parent of the Year", Payson Keeler's amazing parents what her argument would be even more null and void than Kaylie's. Still Payson's freckle covered face with her blonde hair slicked back into a bun seemed to swim before Kelly, wearing a concerned expression.

"Kel, I'm not going to pretend like I know what you're going through but I watched Kaylie and Lauren through the years enough to know that when your parents really don't care about anything other than your degree of difficulty and getting ahead in life, its just like having no parents at all because no one loves you for you. I know that you want so badly to be accepted by your mother and I'm not going to go around forbidding you from contacting her because its your life and you can do what you want. You definitely deserve the love of your mother but you have to think to yourself does she really deserve you?"

This was what made Payson a much better leader than Kaylie. Both really cared about their teammates and both knew what to say to someone when they were feeling down or unsure about themselves, but Payson could actually follow through with advice giving instead of doing what Kaylie does best, going into typical Kaylie Cruz freak out mode.

Last but most certainly not least was Lauren Tanner. What would Lauren say? She knew Lauren had more of grasp on Kelly's feelings, on what she was going through, way more than Kaylie or Payson ever could. Lauren's husky voice filled her head.

"Kelly, I know what you're going through okay? I lost my mother, she left us and my father never really instilled good values in me. And even though he has changed, there's still this nagging voice in my head that reminds me of all the horrible stuff he did over the years. I mean we're part of the same boat, right? Our dear old parents were really fucked up and then they really fucked us up. The way I see it, its their loss."

Kelly almost laughed out loud. She knew that the bluntness combined with the concern was exactly what Lauren Tanner would say, had she been standing in front of Kelly.

And even though it was all in her head, she felt more at peace because of the "advice" that was given to her by her friends.

When had she become such a sap?