Chapter 6.
Miley.
"Counseling?"
"Oh yeah great idea Joe, because counseling has really helped Selena. Miley will completely ignore any words muttered by a person trying to get her talk about emotions. Counseling is definitely out of the equation okay, got any other suggestions?" Demi hissed as I rolled over letting out a murmur on purpose so they'd shut the hell up.
"She awake?" Brandi whispered,
"I don't know."
Fantastic most likely the whole god damn family were right now standing in my room waiting for me to wake up. I just wanted them all to disappear right now so I could go back to Nick. I let out a forceful groan rolling over again continuing to keep my eyes firmly closed, I was in my bed as a positive too bad all these people were in my house. Not to mention they wanted me to have counseling, maybe I needed to start "moving on" or what ever a mourning girlfriend should do instead of being sad all the time because no way was I going to counseling.
"Nightmare?" Joe questioned.
"Most likely, should we wake her up?"
"No." I responded blankly, "I would rather you disappear, I'm trying to sleep and you're being annoying."
There was a deadly silence as I pulled the blankets over my head, opening my eyes. "Miley we aren't leaving, there is no way in hell any of us are leaving. What you did yesterday scared the shit out of us, and now we know the truth about-"
I bolted up staring at Joe mortified, "You told them?"
Joe opened his mouth and shook his head, I turned looking at my eldest sister and my best friend both staring at me. Crap I'd dug myself a hole now, Demi looked at Joe as I stared at my sister.
"Told what?"
"Nothing." I whispered as Demi just stared at me.
"Joe told me about-"
"Demi." Joe hissed.
"JOE!" I screamed looking at him horrified and he groaned.
"Miley we thought you'd gone to kill you-"
"WHAT?" I screamed climbing out of the bed growing annoyed, "Why the hell would you think that Joe? I don't want to kill myself, my god how could you ever get such…." And then I remembered, of course he'd jump to that conclusion "Because I said I wanted to die."
I looked down giving a sigh, another deadly, tension filled silence consumed the room as I just wished for a bright exit sign to appear before me. Joe had freaked out and my family rung the police, it made so much more sense now, god I shouldn't have said that I wanted to kill myself it was just something that came to mind in the spur of the moment. I looked up to see them all just staring at me completely worried as Demi stepped out moving her hand to my face.
"Miley do you ever think about killing yourself?" She whispered deadly serious.
I looked at her and shifted my eyes away, a small lie was needed right now. "At times yes but that was before, not now. I promise the day before yesterday I had no intention to go and kill myself that was the last thing on my mind." I whispered looking at her and she stared at me skeptically, "I wouldn't kill myself okay, Demi you know me I wouldn't."
Demi dropped her hand staring at me, "But I also know how easy it is to act okay Miley, you know I've been through this before-"
"Demi I'm not suicidal!"
"Miley-"
"I'm not, look..." I stated holding up my wrists, "I haven't cut myself or done anything to inflict harm on my body, just believe me. I'm upset okay, and last time I checked being upset didn't make you suicidal."
Demi sighed and nodded giving me a weak smile, I stared at her still nervous eyes looking at me. Demi was hurting too I knew that, but I had to support myself right now because I couldn't risk them thinking I was going into depression or anything like that. "Okay I believe you Miley, just please don't do that ever again. You have no idea how much you scared all of us, I can't loose you too." She whispered tears coming to her eyes, "I can't loose my two best friends..."
I pulled her into a hug as she let out a small sob, "You won't loose me Dems, I'm here forever okay."
"Wait hold up I'm so confused, who told what?" Brandi asked.
I released Demi and closed my eyes feeling the fake tears beginning to form, I sucked in a deep breath and opened them staring at Joe. He looked at me and I gave him a grave nod as Demi pulled me back into a hug. I suppose another two people was hardly the world, then again...it was two more people who could slowly spread the news around. Just two more people who could put Nick's life in jeopardy and mine.
"You should have told me." Demi whispered.
I let out a choked sob as Joe began to tell Brandi, "I couldn't…"
Demi hugged me tighter as I started to cry and for the first time she stopped crying, instead Dems just tried her best to comfort me. I felt the guilt consuming my body but I continued to let out choked sobs so my mouth couldn't blab anything stupid out. I heard Brandi let out a groan as Joe finished and within seconds she'd joined onto our hug.
"You can't tell anyone." I whispered to everyone.
"We won't."
"We'll be here for you no matter what Miley, don't just hold everything in okay? If you want to cry then do it, if you want to scream ring Joe." Demi whispered and I gave a small laugh nodding.
"I will."
Brandi let go and then Demi as I wiped my eyes and Joe came over, "Is it safe, or are you going to attack me?" He whispered seriously and I shrugged looking at him up and down.
"You going to try and get me to talk about Nick?" I asked and he shook his head looking at me like I was his baby sister who had just had her heart broken, "Then we're good because everyone mourns differently just because I'm not publicly crying doesn't mean I'm not upset on the inside okay. I'm dealing with this in my own way..."
"We get it." Demi muttered as Brandi looked at me worried.
"Kind of..." Joe whispered.
"No we do understand."
I smiled at the three of them hopeful that they wouldn't tell anyone, and they'd lay off me for a bit. Brandi suddenly looked uneasy though and stared at me nervously,
"How are you going to explain your disappearance act to mom and dad?"
I stared shrugging my shoulders, and now it was time for m awesome disappearance explanation. "Tell them the truth, that I was with Nick."
"Were you at the cemetery the whole-"
"No." I stated staring at the three sets of curious eyes, "I went to the places that were ours. To the park we used to ride our bike too, and the tree Nick engraved our initials." I whispered giving a weak smile, "The village idiot, Pinkberry and Nick's favorite Italian restaurant. I went to places that were ours because that's where I feel closest to him, it's my way of mourning Nick by remembering the happy moments and not the sad ones."
All three of them just stared at me and considered my explanation for a moment, "That's so..." Demi started staring at me tears glistening in her eyes,
"Romantic in a horrible way." Joe whispered honestly.
I nodded shrugging my shoulders sniffling, "It's my way of dealing."
"Well any way of dealing is better then none at all." Brandi announced giving me a weak smile, "And I know you're going to be just fine Miley."
"I hope so..."
"You will be." Joe whispered sitting down placing his hand on my back. "We all know you will be. And all of us here for you, especially me."
Nick.
I sat at the kitchen table waiting for lunch patiently. I already missed Miley and so badly wanted to talk to her but by the sound of it she was busy explaining where she'd gone for those twenty-four hours. I was worried about Miles so much these days and I just wished I could be there for her, but I knew I couldn't and honestly that just really pissed me off. I wanted my family and friends but they were long gone now and all I had left was this house and the secrets within it's walls to support me. I was beginning to see the cracks though, not in the house but me...the ones that couldn't be mended. I was beginning to miss the simplest things like traffic lights and the way Frankie always smashed my front door against the wall, sure they were annoying but they made me and without them I was starting to loose myself.
"Come on what's taking so long?" TJ asked impatiently.
"I'm trying to make it perfect!" Sarah hissed in defense,
Sarah was new to our gang, a twenty year old agent who had long family ties to the FBI. At the moment the one and only reason she'd been brought into the secret of my existence was because Sarah could cook really well...and we couldn't, at all. "Salads may look easy to you but I know from experience presentation is always the-"
"I don't care how it looks I'm hungry."
"Fine here…"
Sarah dumped the bowl of mixed salad on the table, handing out some rolls. We both began to fill our rolls greedily while Sarah sat back staring at both of us…
"What?" I asked.
"Boys and food…" She stated giving a laugh. "The two things you care about are food and gorgeous women."
"Basically." TJ confirmed as I smiled.
Sarah planned to switch shifts around with the guys, I however was praying she wouldn't be here when Miley was. Miley didn't like me hanging out with other attractive woman like I didn't really agree to her hanging out with attractive guys, but Sarah was living here now and I knew Miley most likely wasn't going to be happy with this new arrangement. I bit into my roll grabbing some of the cooked chicken which Sarah had made as TJ went for some ham.
"You told Nick yet?"
"Told me what?" I asked looking up.
"Obviously you haven't then." Sarah stated sighing.
I looked between them biting into my roll confused, what hadn't they told me? I waited for either of them to start talking but neither did, I gave a huff staring down Sarah as she sighed. "Well Nick there is good news and well bad news." Sarah stated straight up looking at me, "And I think bad news should go first, so we got some information about the drug ring…"
I felt myself instantly tense and nodded, "Well they definitely saw you that night Nick, and thankfully we acted quickly because there was a international sum of money put on your head."
"You joking?" I asked surprised and she shook her head.
"Seriously and the whole organization believes your death was caused by some guy, who claimed to cut your brakes. Of course he was just lying to get the cash clearly, but they honestly think you're dead, which I suppose is good." Sarah stated and I took another bite in my roll.
"How was that bad news, if anything that's good?" I asked with a full mouth.
"Well something else has happened…"
I swallowed my mouthful now nervous "What?"
"There is a rumor going around amongst them all that you told Selena, it's just a rumor and at this point no one is worried. However I think we may need to put some guys around Selena's house, for her protection…" Sarah stated as I just stared at her, oh god I didn't want this to happen at all.
"Shit."
"Uhuh pretty much,"
"What about Miles?" I asked quickly and they both shrugged.
"Well nothing at the moment, but I wouldn't be surprised if they find out you two were together seeing as your brother knows and I'm sure it will spread quickly. We'll just have to warn Miley as well, at the moment Selena is the main concern." TJ stated and I nodded, I couldn't believe i'd gotten both them into this position especially Selena...I mean she didn't even know what was going on! God now I felt guilty, Sel had nothing to do with this at all.
"She'll be fine Nick." Sarah stated.
I nodded still feeling uneasy, "I know, it's more that if something does happen, I will never forgive myself. Can you just tell me the good news so I stop thinking about what could happen…"
"Well the good news is the heads have given us permission to let you out of the house. This means you can travel with in a five mile radius of the house with either one of us." JD explained and I nodded, that actually was good news I was starting to hate being trapped in here.
"That'll be fun." I stated giving TJ a look, "Morning jogs?"
"No, not going to happen."
I gave a weak laugh my mind flashing back to Selena, god if anything happened to her I would regret this whole thing. We hadn't left it off on best terms and I really didn't want her to get hurt. I couldn't believe someone was willing to pay for the end of my life and worse I couldn't believe someone had claimed to kill me just for the cash, it made me realize how dangerous these people really were and that they'd do anything not to get caught. Actually they'd do anything to have money, but even I knew money couldn't buy happiness...or in my case life.
"Nick…"
"Yeah?" I questioned looking up at Sarah.
"It'll be fine, I'm being serious. We'll make sure Selena is just as protected as Miley, maybe I shouldn't have told you." Sarah stated and I shook my head picking up my break roll again.
"No you need to fill me in on everything."
A/N- Right I need to clear this up because a couple of people have asked about what Nick actually saw and this is it basically: Nick saw a guy murder someone else, and then saw his face and the guy saw him. The murderer was apart of a drug ring that kills anyone that cause problems...so Nick is a problem which is why he is in witness protection :D Hopefully that makes sense, I mentioned it in chapter one but some people must have missed it or I'm just terrible at explaining :P :P Hope everyone has a great weekend and Thanks for the reviews :) :) :)
