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Nate sat up on the bed, he didn't sleep a wink last night – there was too much anger welling up inside of him.

Jenny slurred in her sleep and turned over, her eyes began to flutter open but she just wanted to push them back down and get another hour worth of sleep. After 10 minutes of tossing and turning she finally decided to get up and make the day worth it.

She didn't expect Nate to be awake she was always awake before him and if she wasn't he wasn't in the room.

"My head hurts." Jenny moaned

"Good." Nate said in bitterness

Jenny thought he would be pulling one of those sarcastic jokes he normally does with her but when she looked up at his face the expression was dead serious his jaw locked his eyes full with fury, she followed his hands down his body until they fell upon her journal.

"Why are you still holding my journal?" Jenny asked curiously "Did you read it?"

"Yeah I did, and you know something I was surprised to read some of the things I did – it shocked me at how much I didn't know Jenny Humphrey." Nate smirked

"YOU READ MY JOURNAL! HOW DARE YOU READ MY THINGS WITH OUT PERMISSION! AND I TOLD YOU FROM DAY ONE YOU DIDNT KNOW ME!!" Jenny screamed at night with all the power she had in her body she stood up from her bed and walked over to Nate, she grabbed her journal and turned around walking away from him and putting the journal on the side of her bed table.

"I trusted you Nate – why would you even read it?"

"Because..." Nate replied, he looked down at the ground and regretted what he had done.

"Because. Is that always your answer – because? Because if it is. You need to start thinking of better ways to explain yourself.

Jenny started to walk towards the door, Nate jumped up from his bed and followed her as Jenny opened the door Nate put his hands around her and slammed the door shut.

"You think your leaving without explaining what you did."

Jenny turned around so that Nate and her were inches away from each other, his arms pinning her up against the door.

"Explain myself? Explain what exactly. I don't need to explain myself to you, if I wanted you to know I would have told you these things."

"DRUGS JENNY THEY ARE DRUGS."

"You did drugs! So how dare you be so hypocritical." She said coldly

"But I didn't deal them, with one of my girlfriends."

"You weren't with a girl long enough to do that. Now let me go. I need fresh air."

Nate laughed. "No."

"Nate seriously – it was ages ago, it was a mistake and I wrote about it – get over it, it never involved you and I was never hurt."

"You hid drugs in a jacket which you gave to Serena – that involved me!" Nate bit back

"Oh come on! Grow up! You were with her for what 3 months after that like you could care – she left without it and I made sure of it – now let me go before I scream for help."

"Your pathetic you know that." Nate said sharply getting right into Jenny's face

Jenny grabbed his hand and started dragging him towards the bathroom – she opened the door and stood him in front of the mirror.

"You think I'm pathetic – you should look at yourself." Jenny pointed towards the mirror. "Your known as Nate Archibald the man slut of NYC, you don't listen to what your grandfather has to say, the longest girlfriend you ever had was Blair and she doesn't count cause she was sleeping with your best friend, and your probably have every sexually contracted desiese you can name since you sleep with most people you meet. So don't ever call me pathetic again – I did what I did because I was hanging around with someone that I cared about and I just wanted to help him."

Nate looked in the mirror and realised that half the things she said were right.

"Your right." He replied

"But what you did was wrong – if you had have been caught God knows what would have happened to you – what would your dad do and Dan? Do you ever think about others or do you just do these things to get more attention because you feel unwanted. How about you look at yourself in the mirror and I'm sure if you look close enough you will realise that you are as worse as Blair your nothing but an attention grabbing bi-"he stopped himself he couldn't carry on with the last word he was going to say.

"Say it. Go on say it I'm a bitch." Jenny smirked she turned away and walked out the bathroom she went up to her stuff and started to pack away her things into her bag. She had tears welling up and she really didn't want to cry – cause that would make it look like those words Nate had just said affected her and she didn't want that.

"You're going to move out?"

"I don't want to share a room with you – I've had more fights with you then I have with anyone in the past 6 days."

"Jenny like you said the other day although we fight we can still talk afterwards."

"You called me a bitch Nate – and although you want to deny it, if that's the way you feel about me I'd rather sleep outside on one of the tanning beds."

"But it's not the way I feel about you. I'm pissed off." Nate sat down on her bed. "All that time you were with Damien and I saw you guys together I never once thought that he had you doing things like that."

"He didn't make me – I insisted in doing it."

"Are you saying that to protect him?" Nate said frowning

"I did it Nate because he thought I didn't have it in me ok, and I'm fed up as being seen as little Jenny from Brooklyn why is it so hard for you people to realise that you were my age once and you do stupid things you make mistakes and you embarrass yourself. Let me grow up Nate. Please, that's all I'm asking."

"If he didn't believe in you, you shouldn't have been with him." Nate replied in a sweet tone.

Jenny looked up at him and stared at him for a while.

"Now stop packing – go gossip about it to Eric – but don't move out."

"Thanks, but... I don't know." Jenny replied

"We all make mistakes right. We're teenagers." Nate looked down at her and smiled

Jenny shook her head. Why did she feel this way? She was so angry at him yet she forgave him she wanted to hit him in the stomach with all the power she had but she couldn't – because although he said hurtful things she knew that he didn't mean them. She looked back up at him.

"I'm sorry. For saying those things – I'm sure you don't have a desiese and Blair does count as a girlfriend since you loved her and what not."

"I mean that's a good apology and all – but I think maybe to make it all better you might have to pay your way out of it." Nate smiled back at her. "I'm sorry too."

"And my apology was lame – come on Nate." She laughed. "Joking, Joking."

"I'm going to go get changed – that go see Ben's friend to apologise for last night."

Jenny grabbed some clothes and went to the bathroom to get changed into them, 5 minutes later she appeared out the door said bye to Nate and headed over to Troy's – well at least she thought that was his name.


She knocked on the door 3 times and waited for 4 minutes before he answered the door.

"Oh, hi Jenny. How you feeling this morning?"

"Alright, I just wanted to come apologise."

Troy gestured for Jenny to enter his room – she took up the kind gesture.

She walked in and sat down on the couch, Troy joining her straight after.

He moved closer to her and put his hand around her. He moved closer and closer and started to kiss her neck.

"Troy stop." Jenny moved away a few inches.

"Why? You loved it last night."

He began to kiss her more, he moved to her lips and she kissed back. She had no idea why – but she did.

Things started to get heated.

Maybe it's because she saw it as a way at getting back at Nate – for no apparent reason since she forgave him.

Troy started to undo the buttons on Jenny's dress. She started to think about what she was doing -she didn't want this she hardly knew the guy.

"Troy stop, I don't want this."

Jenny started to fidget pushing him off of her; once she was free she ran towards the door and opened it running away back to her room.


She entered her room.

"I guess he forgave you then."

Jenny didn't stop walking she walked right up to him and forced herself on him she put one hand on to his cheek and pushed her lips at his, they took it one step further then the last time they kissed – it became more passionate and fiery.

Nate started pushing Jenny backwards against his bed; he lay her down and held himself above her kissing her and caressing her body. Jenny pushed her hands underneath his t-shirt and tried to rip it off but Nate stopped her.

"Slow down cowboy." Nate whispered in her ear.

Jenny looked at him confused.

"I went round there and he tried to have sex with me and all I could think about was you, and how much I wanted you – and then I thought about what you said and how I shouldn't be with someone that doesn't believe in me and you're the only person that believes in me – you're the only person I have ever met to believe in me and if I don't do this I never will."

"You have your whole life to do this – you have your whole life to find someone to do this with." He started stroking her hair and cheek. "Wait. Till you are with the person you want to be with and in 30 days if it's still me then maybe I'll consider it." He lowered his face and kissed her some more still keeping it passionate.

Jenny pushed him up a bit and looked at him.

"What if I want this... now? A relationship with you – would you even consider it?" Jenny asked Nate

"Jenny it's difficult."

"So you're telling me that I should be with some I love when I have sex, then you're saying in 30 days if I still want this I can have it but then your also saying that I can't be with you."

Nate kissed her hard so she would just be quiet. Jenny put her hands around his neck and started to kiss him back.

"You can't do that." Jenny loosened her hands around his neck and folded them. "I'll find someone else in 30 days."

"What's the rush? And so be it – if you find someone else then you found someone else."

Jenny pushed Nate off of her she got up and walked away.

"You don't even care how I feel about you – do you? I'm just another girl you can play."

"Jenny that's not true – if you were some other girl I would have had sex with you before."

"Then tell me how you feel. Tell me why you can't be with you and I'll leave it and don't say because." Jenny squealed.

"Don't you think it will be weird when we are introduced as boyfriend and girlfriend? You're Jenny Humphrey and I'm Nate Archibald – you are Dan's sister and I'm friends with him it would make it awkward for me to talk to him about it plus you're in high school. I won't forget to mention that we argue like a married couple all the time, and I don't want that to be a relationship – especially not with you – you deserve someone that, that just maybe isn't me."

"Maybe we are spending too much time together – there's to much sexual tension that could get us into trouble, I'm going to go ask Eric if maybe I can sleep on his floor for a while until I realise what I want."

Jenny started to walk away.

"JENNY! YOU SAID WHAT HAPPENS IN THIS ROOM STAYS IN THIS ROOM!" Nate shouted out

"Nate, make up your mind why is it you push me away and as soon as I realise you try to pull me back in." Jenny said coldly

"Because I like you I don't know. We could have a relationship. But it would only exist in this room as soon as we leave - it doesn't exist – I don't want it to work that way but its going to have to."

Jenny turned around and looked at him.

"You mean it."

"Yes." Nate smiled at her

"And what happens if I leave this room and a guy makes a pass at me and I supposedly kiss him or went to further expense?" Jenny questioned Nate

"I don't know – If you really cared about me you wouldn't. But guys will do that – you decide right."

Jenny nodded her head. "I guess, but what if he was super hot – and there were no strings attached."

Nate walked up to Jenny and put his hands around her waist. "Enough with what ifs." Jenny put her hands around Nate's neck and kissed him.

"6 days – I was going to give it longer but 6 days." Nate pulled away and said.

"Once we step out this room it doesn't exist." Jenny smiled. "Also does that 30 day thing still count?"

"We'll see. There is still a 3 month waiting period." Nate smiled.

"Nate I don't stick to rules." Jenny unlinked her arms from around his neck and walked away. "I mean you hardly know me – don't you want to get to know me better." Jenny turned around the corner and Nate threw his head back and put his hands through his hair.

What had he gotten himself into, of course he couldn't hold himself back for 30 days he had no chance at 3 months and it would be lucky if he made it to 7 days.

"Let's stay here all day." Nate asked Jenny

"What just stay in our room. Eric will notice something is up and he'll come looking for me same with Blair – she'll put on her detective suit and start questioning why she hasn't seen me or you around the boat."

"Eric has a new boyfriend and Blair doesn't leave her room unless she's going to see Serena."

"You bore me; I don't think I could stay with you in a room all day." Jenny told Nate.

"Thanks, but I'm sure there are things we can do like sit on the balcony watch TV or a movie order room service?"

Jenny giggled.

"Just because you have me now doesn't mean you can keep me all to yourself – you have to share the love." Jenny smiled

"I think I should tell my dad." Jenny said seriously at Nate

"What! About us?"

"No, about the room situation." Jenny replied

"I'm not going to stop you, but if he disagrees with it – so will this 10 minute relationship."

"Sometimes you have to take risks."


"This ship – is way too big!" Jenny mumbled to herself.


Nate walked into Dan and Vanessa's room.

"I can't do this anymore guys."

He scanned the room looking at Serena, Blair, Chuck, Vanessa, Dan and Eric.

"You said you would, we made this deal before we got on the boat." Dan said angrily

"Nate, you said you would help Dan keep Jenny away from Damien." Serena said quietly

Nate looked at the ground.

"You guys don't understand. This morning I had to act shocked about the whole drug ordeal – she thinks I read her journal."

"I've read it before – there's nothing interesting in it." Dan replied

"You read it?" Nate asked angry

"She leaves it lying around the apartment for anyone to read." Dan explained himself

"It's true." Eric put his input in whilst Serena just nodded.

"Nathaniel – you care about her like she is your little sister." Nate cringed at the thought. "There's only 102 days left – just make her feel wanted and every time she gets close push her away." Chuck demanded

"Just, whatever you do don't cross the line." Dan said with much expression. Nate nodded.


"Dad, I've been looking everywhere for you. We need to talk."

"I know." Rufus replied.

Jenny looked at her dad with a weird face.

"You know about what? Exactly." Jenny asked him

"About the room change, Dan explained it to me. He also explained to me about the rules and how there are boundaries in the room." Jenny smiled. "And I trust you as a father." Jenny smiled even more.

"Thanks dad."

She turned away and started heading back to her room.


"Hey, my dad already knew about this. He said Dan told him."

"Dan told your dad." All that came to Nate's head was that Dan had told his dad about what they were doing – that's the only way Rufus would approve to such a thing like this – he knew about the drugs and how Jenny had been dealing them and sometimes taking them.

"Yeah – and surprisingly he didn't mind." Jenny smiled

"Jenny, I uh I want to ask you something – but don't get angry at me please?" Jenny nodded. "Do you still talk to Damien?"

"Why?" Jenny asked confused

"I just want to know that's all in case maybe when we get off the boat and the relationship goes further – he won't just appear out of the blue and think you guys are still together."

"I don't talk to him – he texts me from time to time but we don't talk or see each other." She smiled at Nate and joined him on the couch.

"I have to go and see someone I'll be back in a minute." Nate got up from the couch and walked out the room.


"Blair open up please." Nate said hitting the door

"Fine, fine, calm down."

"RUFUS KNOWS ABOUT JENNY! HOW HAS HE NOT YELLED AT HER FOR IT!"

"Because Natie we have this under control."

"Don't Natie me, this is complete bullshit and you guys know this – this isn't fair on me or Jenny when she finds out what I'm doing she's going to hate me and run back to him. If anything we are handling this right."

"Nate – like you care – you have no feelings towards her."

"Oh so the other day when I came and spoke to you about that – I just made that up. Of course I care about her that's why I am doing this but there is a better way to handle the situation. It's not like she is an addict and she told me she doesn't speak to him anymore so obviously she has stopped dealing."

"Nate your more gullible then I thought. She still talks to him – they text. You need to make her fall in love with you, so she thinks you are the only one for her."

Nate was shaking his head he hated doing this.

"And what happens if I develop feelings towards her?"

"We all know that won't happen the only person you ever loved was me and that's because you were forced to."

"How can I make Dan stop this?"Nate asked Blair

"I don't know." Blair sighed back

"I know."

Nate turned around and headed back to his room.


"Jenny!"

"Jenny where are you?" Nate shouted.

He walked into the living area and into the bedroom.

"I'm about to have a shower w-"she was cut off by Nate walking in.

"What are you doing, I'm in my underwear!" Jenny shouted.

Nate walked over to Jenny and pushed her against a wall. The only way he could get out of this was to piss Dan off and the only way of doing that was to sleep with her.

Nate started to kiss her neck moving up to her lips – he held her arms against the wall he slowly followed the down until his hands were on her waist.

Jenny moaned "Bedroom"

They walked out into the bedroom not letting go of each other he lay her down on the bed and once again held his body above her kissing her from the top of her jaw to the bottom of her abdomen. When Nate came back up Jenny ripped off his shirt – she lifted her legs up so her knees were bent and her feet were firmly on the bed, Nate lowered himself onto her and wrapped his arms around the back of her neck he kept kissing her with all the power he could. Jenny started to unbutton his jeans and undo the zip she pushed them down the furthest she could until Nate helped her out he threw them across the room – he went back to kissing her and caressing her body. Nate pulled the covers over them.

He was going to go through with this – after everything he said to her about being in love – she was right he was such a hypocrite. But he was only doing it so that... why was he doing this?

"Jen... Jenny." Nate pulled away for a second.

He looked down at her for a second did he stop or carry on?

"Yeah" Jenny said breathless

"We should be on the safe side – if you know what I mean."

"Yeah I understand."

Nate got up and ran into the bathroom whilst he was gone Jenny undid her bra and took her underwear off. Nate came back and crawled into the bed taking of his pants. He held himself up and kissed Jenny – they started to kiss even more, more passionately then she had ever before he pushed against her and that's when she realised that she was no longer little Jenny.

For 3 hours they went at each other he never stopped kissing her once – accept for when they needed to take a breath. Jenny had he legs wrapped around Nate with her hands gripping his back leaving white marks from where she had held on to tight.


Someone knocked at the door which made Nate and Jenny.

Nate grabbed his underwear and clothes putting them on as he went to the door. He unlocked it and opened it gently.

"Hey I just wanted to let you guys know that we are going out for dinner tonight in about 45 minutes." Vanessa told Nate.

She looked at Nate his hair was messy and he looked like he hadn't slept in a while.

"You didn't..." She whispered to Nate

"Didn't what?"

"You slept with Jenny?" Vanessa said shocked

"What. No. Dan doesn't want me to cross boundaries." Nate smiled

"Fine, whatever – just be ready for dinner." Vanessa turned around and left Nate closed the door and sighed.

He walked back into the bedroom and couldn't see Jenny. He heard the shower turn on. He walked into the bathroom and ripped his clothes of joining Jenny.

She giggled.

"We have to be ready in 45 minutes for dinner." Nate told Jenny

Nate pushed Jenny against a wall and lifted her up.

20 minutes passed Jenny and Nate had gotten out the shower – if you would call it that. Luckily his hair dried faster than hers so I didn't look like they both had wet hair.


They arrived at the table and joined everyone else.

Vanessa knew for sure now that something had happened. Jenny had a huge smile on her face and Nate was way to quiet.

"I have to go to the toilet." Nate got up and left towards the toilets.

"Me too." Vanessa smiled and followed behind Nate, although he didn't know.

Nate entered the toilets and instead of going into the girls she went into the boys.

"Does she moan?" Vanessa bitterly asked

"Excuse me?"

"Nate don't you dare even deny this. You disgust me, you slept with her even though this was a plan to keep her away from Damien – what happens when she finds out that you were just using her huh she lost her virginity to you and you abused that privilege."

"What was I supposed to do you guys shoved me in a room with her of course something's bound to happen." Nate said back coldly

"It's been 6 days not even that you've been in a room with her for what like 5 days."

"I can't help that. What's done is done." Nate sat back onto the toilet. Vanessa locked the door and sat on the floor.

She sighed.

"You want to talk about it?" She asked kindly

Nate nodded his head and put his head into his palms.

"I couldn't stop myself – I tried to but I couldn't. I thought if I did that with her and Dan found out he would forget the plan and tell her to switch the rooms back – maybe kill me in the process. But it wasn't sex." Nate explained.

"Then what was it?" Vanessa asked him

"I don't know – I just couldn't stop kissing her and grabbing her."

"So you made love to her?"

Nate nodded. "I guess so."

"If it makes you feel any better I won't mention a thing to Dan. But you have to promise that you still carry on with the plan – if you cared about her enough you would try help her out." Vanessa smiled and got up off the ground and grabbed Nate's hand she unlocked the door and led him out the bathroom when they became visible she let go of his hand.

"Sorry we took so long, there was no toilet paper in my toilet so I had to shout for him to get me some." Vanessa smiled.

Everyone smiled at them as they sat down.

As usual the night went on with everyone telling their stories – sharing what's good and what's not.

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Nate walked Jenny into the room.

She turned around to Nate.

"Err... what happened with you and Vanessa in the toilets?"

"She knows about what we did, she guessed."

"Oh."

"I'm tired so I'm going to go to bed." Nate kissed Jenny on the cheek and went into the bedroom and got into his bed.

Dear my journal,

I guess I could say that I'm no longer little.

I don't really know what to right, huh guess there is way too much to write about I mean today I didn't do anything other then... yeah... but maybe tomorrow I'll be able to write more and more stuff.

Oh well I confronted my dad about sharing a room with Nate and he was alright with it which confused me.

Jenny x x

Jenny put the journal back onto her side table and turned her lamp off pulling the covers over her. A few minutes she felt the covers pull away and someone else get into the bed. She rolled over and met Nate's eyes.

"Hi." She smiled

"Hi." He kissed her lips gently

"I just wanted to lie next to you."

Jenny moved a hand up his cheek and stroked it. Nate put his hand around her waist and pulled her in.

"What's wrong?" she asked him

"Nothing, nothing's wrong." He smiled and kissed Jenny for the last time before he fell asleep with her in his arms.