A/N: Thanks everyone for the reviews! Keep them coming they are great. You guys want to make me write non-stop! So just a few things before I get this chapter going. To JB: Don't worry...Ana will tell Christian how she feels and believe me she will let him have it. She will get her feelings out. Now if he chooses to see it now, that is up to him, but he will see the BT for what she really is. Next to Carisa1974, this is a 3 part book or this would be over like 200 chapters lol. So the way I have it set up is, book 1 is their friendship and how hey try to tell each other their feelings, but people keep getting in their way. Also something happens to Ana, (can't say what yet keep reading) to make her and Christian kinda split. He ends up saying some pretty harsh things and doing some things makes Ana leave..and when I say leave well lets just she it's across the pond lol. Book 2 is where Christian finally finds out the truth and realizes what a hug mistake he made and he is/will do anything to get Ana to forgive him, and finally in Book 3, is where we see them raise their kids together. But there is be drama in book 2 and 3...there will be people coming back to in 2 and 3 to try and once again split them up...some old...some new. But this will be a HEA...I hope this helps everyone. soooooooooo with that being said...on with the show:
Chapter 7:
Ana POV:
We are on our way back to Escala and I have not said one word to Christian. I just want this day to be over. It's like I am caught in some nightmare that will never end... Yeah the nightmare of one Mrs. Elena Bitchtroll Lincoln. I just wish Christian can see her for what she really is. For what she did to him. He thinks she helped him? How am I going to make him see that she just fucked him up. How can I make him see he is worth everything? He is worth being loved, worth being wanted, worth being in a family that no matter what they will always want him. How can I help him?
" Ana...Annnnnnaaaa...hey earth to Ana you there?"
" uh? What? Sorry what did you say?"
" Ana, whats wrong? You have not said a word since we left. What is going though that pretty head of yours?"
Pretty? I start to blush. He knows just the right things to say. If only I knew the right things to say to him. How hard can it be? well its HARD! " Nothing, just thinking about a lot of things."
" Well we are home, so why don't we go up stairs, have a glass of wine have dinner and talk ok. We can talk about whatever you want too ok."
" Umm yea ok."
We get out of the car and make our way over to the elevator and Christian enters the code for his penthouse. Once the doors close there is that feeling again. Man, it's like it gets stronger and stronger. I feel this pull to him. I want to run my hands through his hair and just kiss the hell out of him. I have to bite my bottom lip to stop myself. I take a peek over to Christian and I see him looking at me with what? Lust? Want in his eyes?
" Ana, don't bite your lip." He takes his thumb and pulls my lip out from my teeth. Just the soft touch of his fingers leave my skin tingling in it's wake. How can he make me feel like this?
" Why?"
" Because it makes me feel things."
" Oh? And what kind of things?" I say in a soft whisper. Christian moves a piece of hair behind my ear.
" Ana..."
DING...damn it! Christian clears his throat and we make our way into the great room. Come on Ana, you have to tell him how you feel...But what if he don't feel the same way? I would just have made a fool of myself and more than likely lost my best friend. I can't. But how long can I go on feeling like this? I need to tell him. I have too.
" Ana, why don't you go see how much longer till dinner, I have to make a few calls. I will be out soon."
" Sure."
Christian POV:
I leave Ana to head into my study. I have to put some distance between us. I close the door and go sit in my chair put my elbows on my desk and lean my head into my hands. What the hell is going on with me? That pull for Ana is just getting stronger. Hell when she bit her lip I wanted to pin her to the wall and bit it for her. I have to tell her. How do you tell your best friend what you have known your whole life that you have been in love with her for the past years? Think Grey, think...I rub my forehead trying to think of a way to tell her, or at least let her know my feelings.
There is a knock on my door that makes me jump a bit. " Come in" I yell out.
" Hey, Gail said dinner will be ready in 5 mins. Are you ok?"
I get up from my desk and head over to where Ana is standing. God she is the most beautiful woman I have ever lied eyes on. The color of her blue eyes makes me feel like I am lost out to sea. There is no end to her eyes. I can look into them forever and there will still not be enough time to look in them. Her smile always makes me smile. The way she gets this cute little dimples in her checks and the way she scrunches up her nose. And the way she bits that bottom lip. Man I get fucking hard just thinking about it. Hell I get hard just thinking about her, and how good her mouth would feel wrapped around my cock. Grey stop or she will see your hard on.
" I'm fine Ana, let's go eat ok."
Ana POV:
Something is up with him. I know it. We are siting at the breakfast bar eating our dinner that Gail made. Baked lemon chicken, mac and cheese, with a mix veggies and homemade rolls. As we are eating we are laughing remembering when we were younger and all the things we use to do to each other. Man I wish it was like this all the time. I am enjoy seeing Christian like this. Happy, playful, young. My heart melts for this man.
" Hey remember the time we went to the cabin for my birthday?"
" Umm yea. You were turning 13. Man was it hot that summer."
" Right, that was the summer that the tables were turned on Elliot."
I am laughing so hard remembering that summer. Elliot was trying to prank everyone, but it never went the way he planed and in the end, everyone got him.
" Remember when Ell tried to push you into the lake but ended up falling in himself?"
" Or the time where he put glue on your seat only to find out that Ray sat down first?"
" Oh man! Ray was so pissed when he tried to stand up and ripped his shorts. I have never seen his face go that red."
" I have never seen Elliot run so fast in his life! I think he thought was going to kill him."
" Poor Ell, I felt bad for him, that summer. But you know what they say? Pay back is a bitch!"
" Ana, that had to be one of the best summers. Not just because Elliot and not being able to get any of us, but because we were all there. The whole family."
This is it Ana...tell him now! It's now or never and with how I am feeling. You can do this. I take a deep breath, put my fork down, look over to Christian and see how happy he is. I make him feel like this.
" Christian, I need to tell you something."
" What is it Ana?"
I take a deep breath, close my eyes count to 3 open them again and being but the sound of the elevator stops me.
" Are you expecting someone?"
" No."
We hear the sounds of clicking on the floor and her voice calling out.
" Christian, daring"
Elena comes into view and once again she is not alone. Behind her is that brown hair bitch that was in Christian's office on her knees today. Her head is bowed, she is wearing red high heels, with a tight black dress that is so low cut that I'm surprised that her breasts are not falling out of it. Elena stops in her tracks when she finally sees that I am here.
" Christian, why did't you greet me when I came in? That is not a very good host you know."
" Elena what are you doing here? And why is she here?"
" Darling, really? I told you we needed to finish our talk and what better place would be here. I didn't think you would mind."
" Elena, this is my home. You can not just come over any time you feel like it and bring people with you."
" Why? I have before and you never cared. Is it because of her?"
Elena points her finger and me and gives me an evil look. If looks could kill I would be dead right now. Who the hell dose she think she is anyways? I am starting to get pissed off to where I am going to blow up and say something...Ana, calm down count to 10.
" Elena that is enough. I want you to leave and take her with you. I already told you before and I will tell you again. I am done. I am out. Stop trying to get me to come back it is not going to work. Now leave."
" Christian, really? Come on, get rid of the little girl and we can talk and Leila here can show you what all she can do. Leila, go up stairs, last room on the left, get ready."
Ok that is it. I can't keep quite anymore.
" STOP! Get out! Get out and take your plaything with you. I have had enough of you trying to control Christian's life! He has told you over and over and over again that is he done with that lifestyle. Now you need to get over the fact that you can't have him and never will."
" Now you listen here little girl. This is for the adults to talk, why don't you just leave, and if you ever talk to me like that again I will have to teach you some manors."
I get up off the stool and walk right up to Elena and get in her face. My hands are balled up, I am shaking I am so pissed off and I lower my voice to let her know I mean business."
" Fist off, I have more right to be here than you do. Second, don't you ever threaten or I will lay your old ass out on the floor faster than you can blink."
Elena huffs and takes a step back and goes to raise her hand to me like she is about to hit me, but I make the first move and catch he wrist and with my other hand I slap her so hard you can hear it across the room. I let go of her and she holds her face in shock.
" Now, I think it's time you leave, and take her with you and don't ever come back."
" Christian? Are you going to let her get away with this?"
" Elena, I told you to leave and I think it's best if you leave now."
Elena can't believe what she heard. She has a look of total shock like utter hate in her eyes. With that she lets go of her check that no sports a nice red hand print, she flattens down her dress, fixes her hair goes to say something, but closes her mouth instead. She turns on her heels and heads towards the elevator.
" Leila come."
Leila dose not say anything, only looks up for a brief moment to look at me, then tries to look over at Christian, but i shoot her a look and she turns to follow Elena out. With the sound of the elevator door closing, i let out a sigh drop my shoulders rub my temples with my fingers. I keep my back to Christian. I can't look at him right now. I just can't believe once again Elena tired to get her way again. I can't stand here and hold back anymore. I can't let him have her in his life.
" Christian. I..I can't do this. I can't stand here and watch you let her get away with things like this anymore. I can't do it. Don't you see what she is trying to do?"
I turn around to face Christian and he drops his hand and runs his hand through his hair. He drops his shoulders and just looks at he floor. I can't tell he is at a loss for words so I keep talking.
" Christian, when are you going to wake up and see her for what is really is? A child molester? What she did to you was wrong! You were 15 a child, she rapped, beat, whipped, gagged you and did so many other things you told me. None of that was right! It was sick, and wrong, and her ass needs to be in prison!"
" ANA STOP!"
I watch Christian pace the floor. I can tell he's pissed off. I can tell he don't want to talk about this. But right now I just don't care. He needs to hear this. He needs to realizes what she did was wrong! I can't let him keep going on thinking she helped him.
" No Christian I will not stop! You need to hear this. I am tired of holding it in. I have done it for 2 years! Well no more. Christian, what she did, no one should have had to go through that. You were a child. 15. Yes you were going through things. You could have came to me. I would have helped you. But what you went through. All that shit did not help you. In fact I think it made you worse."
Christian looks up with a confused look on his face.
" Ana, you don't know what your talking about. She did help me. She helped me stop fighting, to stop drinking, my grades come up. Mom and dad were proud of me!"
" Christian are you kidding me right now? The only reason why you stopped all that was because if you didn't she would beat you! How can you not see this? Why can't you see what she did was wrong? Why please tell me?"
" Look I know you can't understand this, but what I went through back then, I needed it Ana, I needed all that to help me. I was out of control. I needed someone to take all the pain away."
" Pain? Christian she caused you pain! Oh My God! Come on...You had your parents you could have went to, you had Ell, hell you had Ray, but more imporntanly you had ME! I was always there for you. I would have helped you, but you pushed me away back then. Do you know what it feels like to have your best friend stop coming around you? To stop talking to you? Christian you made me feel like I did something wrong back then. I lost my best friend and it killed me!"
Christian looks at me with pain in his eyes. To hear me tell him all this. To tell let him know what he did, and how he made me feel. I don't think he ever knew. I can see the hurt on his face. I see his eyes begin to water. I have to fight my own tears back, but I can't. I let them fall. I begin to sob. I can't hold in this pain anymore. I have to let it out.
" Christian...you need to see what she did was wrong. She made you cold, closed off. What she did to you, you did to others. Yeah I get they were willing, and who am I to judge on someone's lifestyle. But what she did, how she did it. It was wrong. How would you feel if it was your son? Hell how would you feel if it was your daughter?"
With that he cringes. I don't think he ever saw it that way. He now has a look of disgust on his face. He rubs his hands over his face, wipes the lone tear that fell to his check.
" Ana, it's not the same. I needed it. Believe me. I'm sorry I made you feel like that. I wish you would have came to me and told me. I never meant to hurt you."
" Came to you? When? You were never around! You were always off getting whipped and what not so you could get fucked by the old hag! I guess getting laid was more important then your family, or best friend."
I can no longer hold back. I start crying uncontrollably. I drop to my knees and cry into my hands. God this hurts so much. Why can't he just see? Why can't he just understand? I can't do this. I can't be in his life knowing he is still allowing her to keep doing what she is doing. I have to make a stand. I have to make him see that she is no good for him, she is no friend. She is has to go, and the only way for her to go, is if I go first.
Christian comes over to me and bends down, but i push away from him and go to stand. I wipe the tears away from my eyes and wrap my arms around myself and take a deep breath.
" Christian I...I can't do this anymore."
" Ana...what are you saying? Can't do what anymore?" His voice to begins to brake.
" I can't be in you life anymore Christian. I'm sorry. I just can't knowing that she is always going to be there whispering in your ear. Trying to do everything in her power to get you back. I can't stand here and watch it anymore. I'm sorry.
" Ana..."
" Don't I don't want to hear it. Take what she did today at your office. Bringing her around, then tonight she just shows up again with her. Christian she is never going to stop. I can't don't want to be around to watch her finally get you back. I'm sorry. You mean the world to me, Christian. I can't watch her take my world, my light away from me."
" Ana, please don't do this."
" Christian... I...I love you! You have to choose. Me or her."
" Ana... I..don't make me. Your my best friend and Elena, she's just a business partner nothing more. Please Ana."
" Well I guess that's it then. I am giving you my 2 week notice as of now."
" Please Ana, you don't know what your saying. Don't go. I need you in my life."
" You don't need me Christian, because if you did, you do everything in your power to see Elena for what she really is. But you rather keep your eyes closed to her and continue to let her in your life."
With that I turn around grab my purse, and walk to the elevator. I can feel Christian behind me. I know this is hard not just for me, but for him as well. I have to do this for him, for us.
" Christian. I will always be your best friend. But as of right now, I don't think we should work or hang out unless we are around family. I need some time, you need some time to think, and I mean really think about things Christian. I'm sorry it had to come to this. I really am."
I walk up to him, wipe the tear that is falling down, give him a kiss on the check I can see the hurt in his eyes, the pain on his face. I have to do this. I have to.I walk into the elevator not wanting to look back at the broken man I am leaving behind. I hit the down bottom and watch my world come to an end.
A/N: well? what did you all think? I mean she told him right. Now how she planed it out, but she did. Plus Ana let him know how she felt about everything, how he made her feel back when they were younger, how she feels about things now. I hope Ana dose not come off weak here. That is not what I was trying to make her. Next chapter will be how Christian thinks and feels about what Ana told him, and about her leaving and whatnot... Post some reviews and let me know...
Much Love,
Allie.
