Vampire Diaries: Who's to Say (Caroline's PoV)
How do you lose something you never had? And how do you hold onto something you never held? – Matt
JoAnne Golden said: I've always been a big believer in fate; always knew what one sign meant. But, I'm with him now. And even though, if it would have been with ANYONE ELSE, I would have just known that it was a sign we were meant to be together...I can't think that with him. I mean, I love him. – Caroline
How can you expect me to go on with life knowing my soulmate is with someone else? – Tyler
Through the chilling fall air Tyler and I make our way out of the deafening silence of the forest. Following him from behind I stare at his figure, I'd never noticed his muscular stature until now. After what felt like hours standing there in the cold, gray forest I had suggested that we go see Matt, after all he'd been just as worried as I was. Tyler was his best friend. Actually correction Tyler is his best friend. "Best friends" the words keep ringing in my head until it makes me feel uncomfortable. Since we started walking Tyler hadn't spoken a word which makes me feel like I'm just being paranoid. Distracting thoughts stir through my mind and I cannot keep them under control. Suddenly Tyler looks back at me and I realize I am not the only one who has something on my mind.
"Caroline…What are we going to tell Matt?" Tyler asked, openly. At first I say nothing because I really don't understand what he is getting at.
"Ty what do you mean?" I responded.
"I've been gone for like a month or whatever no one knows where I've been. Now suddenly I appear and I just happen to be with you. What if people start asking questions? I mean you were the last one to see me and now the first one to find me" Tyler let out and I realized that everything he said did make sense. It made sense but I didn't really care for once, so what if people ask questions. I mean if Tyler and I don't even have the answers so no one else is going to have any luck finding any.
"You're worrying too much. Let's just go see Matt first and then we'll work this all out later" I told him. For a moment Tyler looked uneasy, but after a while he just gave a slight smirk and nod, turning around and started up walking again.
As if within seconds we were standing in front of the Mystic Grill. Tyler hesitantly reached for the door, but I can't wait any longer so I push the door open and give tug on Tyler's sleeve. Still anxious I look around for Matt and then as if on cue he walks out of the kitchen and our eyes meet. He smiles modestly at me then I see his expression change to shock as he catches a glance of Tyler from behind me. Matt tosses the dish rag aside and starts toward us. First Matt comes up and kisses me on the cheek then looks over and takes on long look at Tyler, as if he thinks Tyler's image will soon fade away. Then he comes out of his shock and they share a casual bro hug. At that moment something in me ignites and I'm just so happy, but I don't know whether it's because Tyler is back or that Matt hasn't begun his game of twenty questions just yet.
"Tyler, where have you been?" Matt says, as if he has finally found his voice.
"Well you know here and there no place in particular" Tyler answers. Still hand and hand with Matt I find my other hand clinging on to Tyler's left arm and smiling.
Matt suddenly turns to me and asks, "So Caroline did Tyler call you or something? And you didn't bother telling me?"
Remembering the situation I quickly scramble for an excuse this suspicious coincidence, "Umm… actually no I Tyler didn't call, but well when I went for a walk ran into him at the edge of the woods," I somehow managed to sound convincing. People always say that within the best lies lay a fragment of truth.
"Really?" Matt questioned.
Tyler ended up responding as if by impulse, "Yeah I'm not sure why, but when I came back in car I saw Caroline standing at the edge of the woods and I ended up bringing her here".
"Oh. Well thanks man I've been worried about this one lately" Matt replied.
"Excuse I'd prefer you not talk about me when I'm standing right here" I teased. Matt and Tyler both started laughing and it was so nice to see them both happy. I mean I know how hard it has been on Matt considering how weird I've been lately. As for Tyler he's been through enough weirdness for a long time to come.
"Anyway, dude did you go see your mom yet?" Matt asked Tyler.
"No not yet man, you were two are the first people I came to see" Tyler returned.
"Well I think you should see her I mean she's your mom" I continued on with Matt's train of thought.
"Yeah I probably should" Tyler said reluctantly. I knew seeing his mom was not something he was looking forward too, but I honestly think it is what is best for him right now. I pulled away from Matt grip and wrapped my arms around Tyler's neck and gave him a tight hug, then quickly pulled away. I gave a slight smile and he smiled back, Matt gave him a pat on the back and sent him on him way. In seconds Tyler was out the door and out of our sight disappearing almost as quickly as he did on that night. Matt suddenly spun me around playfully and gave a huge smile.
"Well now that Tyler's back you can stop worrying about him" Matt let out. I was so surprised that Matt had picked up on this, but he probably saw it as simple concern rather than undying guilt.
"I wasn't that worried" I returned, but Matt just gave me his usual smile with a wind of disbelief.
"Oh please Caroline I was beyond worried about him. Your concern on the other hand might not have shown in your actions, but I could tell from your voice. I mean whenever I mentioned it or asked about that night your eyes dropped" Matt explained, and it was the first time I realized just how perceptive Matt is sometimes.
So I had no choice but to admit defeat, "Yeah your right okay, I mean, I was the last one to see him so I just felt responsible for him going missing" I answered.
"Listen Caroline regardless of whether or not Tyler came back I would still tell you the same thing, his disappearing is not your fault" Matt reassured me.
I let out a deep breath, "Yeah I know that now".
"Alright good, anyway I have to get back to work so I'll call later okay?" Matt said.
"Okay" I replied. With that I found myself deciding to go to place I never go without a specific purpose, the library. So I could check every book that they have on the supernatural, on monsters.
They said knowledge is power. And power corrupts. So when does power become evil?
