Braun had told Roman, he wouldn't give him the complete payment until he had finished clearing the undergrowth from the edge of the cliff. So Roman was at the plantation on a Saturday morning, he needed the money to travel. He was determined to escape from that town and above all escape from Dean.
Escape is the only thing for which I am good.
"This job is perfect for you, boy." Titus's voice brought him back to reality. "It is as if you have a death wish, you are working nonstop in a day that you shouldn't and with no equipment."
"I just want to finish my job, that's what they pay me for. The real question is: What are you doing here?" Roman answered rudely. Lately he was annoying even himself.
"I saw you come to the plantation and I was curious." Titus explained. "But by the way you behave it seems like it was a bad idea. Boy, that omega has you totally out of control."
And hearing this, Roman watched at Titus intently.
"Don't look at me like that. It's pretty obvious. I know this because I was also behaving like you when I found my omega. My alpha was crazy, literally. Fortunately her parents agreed and it was a quick bond."
Roman narrowed his eyes. He had heard about this so many times. Once an omega triggered the instincts of an alpha, he would go crazy until he could possess it. But Roman always thought it was nonsense to justify the lack of control and the little respect alphas felt for omegas. A way to justify the horrible behavior that no alpha never tried to control, but that was possible to control... or at least that was what Roman thought.
"But the omega that Roman likes, is the one nobody in their right mind would want to take as a mate." Braun's voice rumbled through the undergrowth.
Roman narrowed his eyes again. If Braun was making this kind of comment, it was because the rumor had already been spread. This was not good at all. If all this came to Seth's ears, this would cause great pain to the omega. Seth trusted Dean.
"I finished the work, now I want my money." Roman didn't want to put up with Braun's pedantry.
"Now I understand why Luke and Karl hate you. You always have that attitude, as if you were better than the others and you are just another starving in this town." Braun grunted as he handed Roman the money.
Roman smirked and this did not sit well with Braun who hoped to see him angry, to see him humiliated. The foreman had to see with anger how Roman didn't give a shit about his words. And much worse was the fact that Roman left the plantation as if Braun didn't even exist.
Money in hand, Roman was leaving the plantation. Titus followed him closely.
"Roman look, if you like Dean so much that your alpha is losing control. You should take him a couple of times. It's even an advantage for you that is that omega who's driving your alpha crazy. Dean is an omega that you don't need to marry to take him. Just take him the times you need until your alpha calms down. Dean can't demand anything from you, he has no right."
Titus could think that there was no malice in his words, since it was as alphas usually behaved with omegas that others had already taken, as was evident in Dean's situation. But for Roman, his words were offensive. How did anyone dare to speak like this about his omega? The alpha growled and smashed Titus against a wall.
"Don't you ever speak about Dean like that again, not in front of me!" The fire of hell danced in Roman's eyes.
As an alpha Titus could have responded to the attack, but he was very surprised to do so.
"It's the second time I see you attacking someone for defending the honor of that omega. You don't only want to take him to your bed, you want to make him your mate." Titus said almost pityingly, as if Roman wanted to mate a monster.
Roman let Titus go before do something he could regret. Nor did he deny or affirm the words of the other alpha. It didn't matter anymore, Roman was about to leave that town and with that his obsession with Dean Ambrose.
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"Good morning, Dean, I've come to see Seth." Dr. Angle was back at the hostel. "I knocked on his door and no one answered. Considering that he's in the last months of pregnancy, I don't think he's left the room."
And this worried Dean. The one who had left, despite being Saturday, was Roman. The auburn-haired omega saw him leave in the morning, but he had not asked where he was going because again, he was avoiding the alpha.
"I saw Roman leaving very early in the morning." Dean took his copy of the key to Seth and Roman's apartment. "I'll open the door for you."
They both came in and found everything packed, the room was clean, they were obviously preparing to leave the hostel. And even though the night before Dean had wished that Roman go away, now seeing that the alpha was about to leave his life, he felt a tremendous despair.
Dean watched around with a look of genuine agony on his face. "Roman is leaving... he's really leaving..."
Dean couldn't hide his despair. The auburn-haired omega walked toward the bedroom. Dr. Angle became aware of Dean's behavior and after seeing Roman's interaction with him the night before, he knew why Dean was so uneasy. The doctor shook his head in deep concern. All this situation between Dean, Roman and Seth was going to end very badly for one of the two omegas, or probably both.
As he entered the room Dean found Seth still there. The other omega was shaking and sweating but he was still asleep or maybe unconscious. The blankets that covered him were the only things that wasn't packed.
Dean reached out to Seth and touched his face, he realized that the other omega had a high fever.
"He's sick." Dean said worriedly.
The doctor immediately approached Seth. "Bring more blankets, we must keep him warm."
Dean went to the closet and there were the blankets of the hostel, folded as the day he gave them to his new tenants. The blankets still had Roman's scent impregnated. The omega of auburn hair whined in pure desire.
This is not the damn time to feel these things.
But as much as he scolded himself, his omega just wanted to wrap himself in the fabric that was impregnated with the smell of his alpha and wait for Roman to finally offer his body to the alpha.
"Dean!" Dr. Angle called him.
Dean tried to contain the despair and longing his omega was feeling. Everything about this couple hurt him and yet it seemed impossible to get away from both. Even now that Roman was about to go, Dean was there, trapped in the midst of their problems.
He carried the blankets as the doctor checked Seth's pulse.
"Help me, Dean. Please, go to my office and give this to my assistant." The doctor wrote in a post it. "He will give you what I need."
Dean nodded and put the note in his pocket. He was about to leave when the door opened, Roman was coming in.
"Where the hell were you?" Dean complained angrily.
"Finishing my work on the plantation." Roman didn't want to be close to Dean but he felt the worry in the smell of the omega. "What's happening?"
"Seth is very sick!" Dean said accusingly. "He doesn't wake up!"
Roman immediately ran to the bedroom, there was Dr. Angle.
"He has a high fever and he's very weak." The doctor explained. "And by the suitcases I see that you planned to travel. It's needless to say that it is bad for a healthy omega to move once he has made his nest, it's even worse for an omega in Seth's situation. What were you thinking, boy?"
"Seth's situation?" Dean murmured.
Roman looked at Seth and remembered the nightmares where he lost his omega. This couldn't be happening, why everything went so wrong. He just wanted to leave everything behind and be happy with Seth and everything was chaos, even being away from their problems, they found new ones.
"Tell me what to do to help my omega." Roman was so nervous and frightened.
And it was then that Dean saw Roman and Seth as the couple they were. The way Roman looked at his omega, there was a deep concern and the love that flashed in his eyes was impossible to hide. Roman sat next to Seth and the alpha cradled the omega in his arms as if he was something sacred, caressing so delicately his face, his eyes totally focused on Seth as if no one else in the world existed.
"Sethie baby..." Roman cooed his mate. Even Roman's voice was so soft now. "Baby, I'm here. Please wake up, Sethie, wake up."
Dean was in agony, Roman was so sweet and loving with Seth that no one would doubt that the alpha really loved his omega.
The opposite of me with whom Roman only fights and demands. Me, the one he only wants to fuck and dump. Roman will never look at me like this, he will never treat me like this.
"Romie..." Seth was reacting, very faintly. "I don't want to leave..."
Roman thought he would cry, he was so relieved that Seth was speaking. "If you want to stay, we'll stay. I'll do whatever you ask me, Sethie. Just don't leave me, okay. Don't leave me, please."
And Dean saw in pain that the desperation in Roman's voice was genuine. There was no doubt, he loved his omega and what he felt for Dean was nothing more than desire.
But what I feel for him, I...
"Dean please go for what I asked." The doctor looked at Dean sorrowfully, obviously he knew what was going on with him. "Roman can't go because it's important that he stays next to... his omega."
Dean looked at Roman in agony and for a moment Roman looked back at him, mirroring the expression. Both were dying at the other's feet without being able to be together or going away from each other, a huge torture. Dean looked at the floor and hurried out of the room.
The doctor pursed his lips. He felt sorry for them all.
"What should I do to take care of Seth?" Roman asked as he stroked the hair of his omega.
"The first thing you should do is not move him from here." Dr. Angle said worried.
"I won't. We'll stay in this town." Roman spoke as if this was a death sentence.
"I'll give him some medicaments trough intravenous infusion. You must stay with him the rest of the weekend. You have a bond, and if that is what has been holding this situation so unusual, you must reinforce it these days. The tests will be ready on Monday, so I can get a clear idea of what's happening with Seth, and we'll do the ultrasound on Monday, today we can't move him from here to my office."
...
Dean returned with the medicines and the doctor was setting the infusion on Seth. Roman was unpacking everything, once he finished he walked out of the apartment, right to the grove behind the hostel. He must have some air, he felt suffocated, desperate. He had come to this place so far away with hopes of starting again in a place where he and Seth could find peace and everything had gone so badly.
On one hand his desperation for Seth and their pup's health and on the other, the feelings he was developing for Dean. His alpha was out of control and he didn't know how long he could resist. To stay was stupid and to escape was dangerous and in both cases, Seth and Dean would end up hurt.
All these sacrifices were to protect him and he's still sick and I am doing everything wrong. They're not going to be the ones who take Seth from me... I'll be the one who will lose him for this stupid desire that consumes my soul.
"What was the doctor talking about when he said Seth's situation?" Dean had also left the room.
"It's not your problem." Roman didn't want to talk about this. Especially with Dean, he was the reason he had wanted to leave the town.
"You think I'm stupid. I know that an omega needs their alpha when they're pregnant. I know you didn't mark him, you took him and you used him and now he's suffering a horrible pregnancy because of what you did. You're a demon!" Dean spat angrily.
Dean really struck a nerve. Everyone was always accusing him of the same thing, but when Dean did it Roman felt that he was going crazy. "And if you think I'm a demon, why are you here? Why did you follow me? I was trying to escape from you and I see you everywhere. What do you really want? You want me to take you to the grove and continue what we left unfinished last night?"
Dean slapped Roman.
"You're an asshole!" Dean was so offended. "You don't love Seth! You don't love anyone! You put Seth through this agony and you're doing the same to me!"
Roman growled in pure rage. "Because you're the only one suffering here, right? Do you think this is easy for me? If I am the demon you say I am, I would have taken you last night! After all, it was you who came to me, offering your body!"
Dean tried to slap him again and this time Roman stopped him. He grabbed Dean's arm and smashed him into one of the walls of the hostel. "You are not angry because you think I am the cause of Seth's suffering. You saw it, you saw how much I care for him and that I want nothing more than his well-being. You saw how I take care of him as if he is the most precious thing in the world. You saw it, you know it. You know I'd rather die than lose him and that's what got you like this!"
Dean growled. "Not only you are selfish, you're also conceited and arrogant!"
Roman smirked. "It's true I'm arrogant, but only when I know I'm right. I don't doubt you care about Seth, but what made you slap me and be here close to me despite how stupid it is that we're both close to each other, it's the jealousy you felt when you saw me with Seth."
"That's a lie!" Dean spat angrily. "I am not jealous! I can't be jealous of someone I hate! I hate you! I hate you!"
Roman brought one of his hands to Dean's hips. "And because you hate me so much is that you're here, your back arched and exposing your neck once more."
And Dean had not even realized what his body was doing. At that moment he noticed with horror how Roman was right. He wanted to deny it, he wanted to hit Roman, he wanted to die and yet he couldn't. Both of them were breathing hard, their faces so close to each other, their lips so close, feeling the breath of the other, sharing the same air.
Dean looked at Roman in despair, there was no longer any hatred in his blue eyes, only agony, pure agony.
"You are right, I am jealous!" Dean screamed almost crying. "I am jealous and I feel like the most unfortunate of the creatures of this world for what I am feeling but I can't help it. I don't want this and yet... it is all that I desire."
Roman nodded mirroring the agony of the omega. "You have no idea how much I hate myself for being the cause of your pain, Dean. I also hate myself for not being able to keep my damn promises. I hate myself for not being able to control my alpha and I hate myself even more for what I'm going to do now."
And it was inevitable, after so much tension surrounding them, Roman closed the distance between them and slammed his lips against the omega's in a desperate, hungry kiss. Roman wanted to take everything, wanted to establish his dominion over this omega and his body burned like lava by the desire to possess him. Roman pushed his tongue into the omega's damp cavity and Dean received it eagerly. The omega had wanted to fight this but as always he was unable. Carried away by all the repressed desire, Dean wrapped his arms in Roman's neck and the alpha take a hold on Dean's buttocks. Immediately, the omega wrapped his legs around Roman's waist.
They kissed passionately. They had lengthened their agony too much and too long, and now their feelings and emotions were like a dam that had overflowed. Roman bit Dean's bottom lip and the moans coming from the omega's mouth were so sexy that Roman felt his alpha grunting as he tightened the grip on Dean's buttocks. None of them could think of anything or anyone, it was only them and all the feelings unveiled with that kiss. It wasn't just desire, it wasn't just passion, not...
There was something deeper, real. They kissed each other, feeling things they had never felt before, and this passion that surrounded them was so powerful that they both knew that the bond that bound them went beyond the carnal desire, beyond the instincts that condemned them for being what they were.
And with this realization both ended the kiss.
Dean felt his heart beating so fast, everything was spinning, it was like getting drunk on the alpha's lips. And this caused him a tremendous panic. He could not be feeling something like this, not for an alpha who already had an omega, one as sweet as Seth, one who was going to give him a pup. He could not feel this for a man who only wanted to quench his alpha's thirst by using his body. He had seen it, Roman cared, protected and almost worshiped Seth. Instead of him, whom Roman dragged to a places far away to engage him in a forbidden relationship.
Roman, for his part, thought he was dying a little. He could not develop feelings for this omega. He could not develop feelings for any other omega than Seth. Seth and he were in a terrible situation, a situation that was not only about their feelings, it was about their survival and the well-being of an innocent pup. Besides, he was so tied to Seth, both of them were so caught up in the past that they shared that it was impossible for Roman to let Seth go. And after all they had to live and suffer together, in his own way Roman loved him so much, Roman would give his life, his blood, even his soul for Seth.
"What are we doing?" Roman was the first to speak while putting Dean gently on the floor.
"You're destroying your own lives." Dr. Angle's voice almost caused them a heart attack.
Dean was so ashamed of having been caught doing this.
"Seth is stable. He's awake and he's asking for you, Roman." Kurt said disappointed.
Dean wanted to be swallowed by the earth, shame and guilt were killing him little by little. He could not even speak, just walked back to the hostel. Roman tried to do the same, but the doctor stopped him.
"I understand that what you are trying to do is noble and I am sure that when you promised to do this you did not think that you would be involved in such a situation with another omega." The doctor was not being accusatory with Roman. "But son, you made your bed and now you must lie in it. Seth needs you and I don't know how you're going to do it but you should keep your alpha under control. It's unnecessary to tell you that you could kill the omega you're trying to save if he finds out what you're doing... what you both are doing, Seth appreciates Dean too."
"Do you think I don't know it?" Roman said desperately. "Do you think I want to do this? But I can't help it, my alpha goes crazy only with Dean's smell and I don't know what to do! That's why I wanted to leave, I wanted to be away from him and things have become so complicated. I came here thinking that I would find peace and has been the opposite. I just want Seth and our pup to be safe. I didn't look for this."
"I know that, boy. Sadly you can't leave this town." Kurt sighed. "I think if we can stabilize Seth and depending on how the pup is developing, Seth can have a c-section and I can save them both. Maybe when Seth's recovered... I think you should talk to him about Dean and solve this issue."
"Are you suggesting me to leave Seth for Dean once he and the pup are safe?" Roman was in awe.
"I think is the only way out for all of you." Kurt said softly.
"I can't!" Roman stated. "I won't do this to Seth. I'll keep my word and when our pup is born, I will take them even further. Much further away!"
"That desire of yours to escape is not normal. You want to go away even leaving your true mate, you and Seth definitely are hiding something else, something bigger and very serious." Kurt said thoughtfully. "I don't know what would be, but I know if you continue like this, everything is going to end badly. You must trust someone, Roman. You must tell me the truth, you can't carry all this on your own. You're under so much pressure, and maybe you will end asking for help when it is too late, when not even I can help you."
"There is no truth to tell!" Roman snapped. "I just... I just have to figure out how to control my alpha."
"Luck with that because of how you and Dean were kissing each other, it's more likely that you end up knotting him before you do it with the omega you've got pregnant in that room." Kurt said as he walked away, leaving Roman standing in the back of the hotel. "But there you go, if you want to keep fooling yourself, there's nothing I can do."
And Kurt's words felt like a death sentence. It was true, if he couldn't control his alpha and ended up marking another omega... that would be catastrophic.
"If I do that, I would lose Seth forever. I would be his executioner. I would be just like all of them, like the ones I hate so much. I would be like those I vowed never to be like... I would be even worse."
But Roman knew they were cornered, that there was no way out. That the doctor was right and soon the time would come to face the truth, that secret couldn't keep hidden forever. And soon the time would come for him to face the truth about his feelings for Dean. And Roman didn't know what made him more afraid.
Thank you for the support you have given to this story, thanks to this I keep writing more episodes :) Ouch! Our poor babies. Things for The Shield gets more and more complicated. Roman and Dean do nothing but hurt each other and poor Sethie is oblivious to everything that happens and that direct affects him.
As always if you want another episode leave me a review with your opinions on this chapter and what you think will happen in future episodes. As always I apologize for my grammar. Have a nice day and remember that I love you so much, guys!
Ps. I wanted Roman to be Intercontinental Champion and so ambreigns would be grand slam... but well hopefully there will be another chance in the future.
