My world chapter 6 : Denial

BETA'D : eclipsed flower

Disclaimer : I do not own KHR.

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"I played the role of a good wife and mother, even when you were away. And you want to take him from me?! Never! He can't live without me and I won't live without him." His mother was raising her voice in anger, far from the sweet voice which she usually used.

Tsuna would remember that voice and it would haunt him. His mother loved that man and had become somewhat paranoid and now that Iemitsu was gone, she depended on Tsuna instead. She was afraid to let him go and always told him to come home as soon as possible. She didn't allow him to go to school for certain periods of time.

He wouldn't call it normal anyway. His mother had gotten stranger every day. At first, she would be happy, cheerful and warm Nana, and then suddenly she would be sad and angry, saying horrible things like that she regretted marrying Iemitsu, having a child and resorted to violence like breaking plates and anything she could get her hands on. Including him. She punched him wildly from time to time, apologizing each time with reassurances that it would never happen again. She was lying, even if she wasn't consciously aware of it.

It hurt.

"Please, think about it, for our child. He certainly didn't like…"

Nana slammed her hand down onto the table. "No! I won't allow you to do that. I raised him by myself. You didn't take a single part in anything except giving us money and a home to survive in. Do you know how humiliating it was for me when our neighbours whispered about our family behind my back? And now you want take him from me?! "

Tsuna sighed. His mother worked too hard to maintain her image as a loving and happy good wife. Why were they so selfish? They never asked his opinions and forced him to do what they wanted. He didn't like how they talked like they knew him and chose his path for him. It wasn't fair.

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Why was he remembering this now? It had been a long time since his mother had died and left him. It wasn't fair. Why couldn't he just forget about her and move on forward? And…

"Kufufu… Then you should make a contract with me, Sawada Tsunayoshi."

That dream again. He was certainly tired of it. When would it all stop? It got crazier every time. Now what? He sighed for the umpteenth time. It was just a dream. But it was enough to make him scared for life. Tsuna groaned. Pain started throbbing in his head. He looked around to see a teary-eyed Lambo and I-pin, and a worried-looking Gokudera. He also found some crazy thing around his bed like a bomb or a shock pistol.

What was going on?

"Maa… Stop crying, you two," Tsuna said, but the two children cried louder than ever and hugged him tightly like afraid he would disappear. Gokudera didn't look any better. He looked like a ghost, his pale skin already white enough and worry was painted across his face.

"Tsuna-sama wouldn't wake up even after Reborn-san tried to wake you up and you looked like you were struggling in your dream. We tried to wake you up, but failed and Lambo began crying, which is annoying," Gokudera explained.

"Sorry… I just had a sweet dream and didn't want to wake up," Tsuna lied. In actuality, it was a horrid almost-nightmare. He didn't want to remember it again. He forced himself to smile, the stretch of his lips wobbly, but somehow resembled that of a smile. He didn't like it. The nightmare still lingered. But he was certainly getting better at lying, as the children smiled back at him after they heard that. He just felt horrible inside. What was wrong with him? It must have been that nightmare, Tsuna thought. Yup. The nightmare.

Their crying finally became calmer and reduced to the occasional hiccup.

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Reborn had been around to see the idiot leader of CEDEF fall in love with and eventually brag about how kind, beautiful or sweet his beloved Nana was. Sometimes when the man had whined about missing her, Reborn had considered just shooting Iemitsu in the head to shut him up. He spent practically every living second bragging and always brought his family pictures with him. He was considered the most doting and best parent or husband.

But Reborn didn't see that.

Sure, Iemitsu had a good reason for that – the mafia was not a good and healthy life style after all. When the enemy found your family and who they know, they would be killed, disappear or get hurt. But for hell's sake, the only picture he had had with his family was when Tsuna was three years old. He just supplied them with money and shelter. He didn't exist in their lives.

Sometimes he really pitied Iemitsu. The man considered his own son precious, yet he treated Basil better than his son. It was the worst of all. He cooed about how adorable his son was, but he neglected him.

''Argh!''

His thoughts disappeared when he heard yet another scream. Reborn hadn't really thought much of the screaming; after all it was probably just some bad dream and wouldn't affect anything. Until now. His student was growing tired and unstable emotions, causing him to be mad over nothing. He was frightened by even the slightest of sounds.

"What's wrong with you, Tsuna?" Reborn asked while watching the boy carefully.

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His eyes were wide, full of fear and his body was shaking terribly. "No I don't remember! I didn't lie to anyone!" Tsuna mumbled and repeated the words over and over again like a broken radio. He needed to reassure himself that it was fine. It was just a dream…

He was so afraid, wishing desperately that it would all just stop. He didn't want to remember and he didn't know anything. He refused to sleep. If he fell asleep, he would have to face that nightmare again. He would meet that man again. He would break again.

"You can tell me about it, Dame-Tsuna. I'm your tutor, after all."

Tsuna's eyes softened when he heard that. But then he remembered, Tsuna would wake up by means of Reborn's hammer or another ridiculous method, and be forced to do impossible things like dodging bullets, and having bombs explode if he answered a question wrong. He had been kicked, punched, and bullied by that hit-man who called himself his tutor, and he hated that he was afraid of it all. But Reborn always saw through him and never gave up on him. Reborn had become an important person to him in such a short time. But he still didn't want to tell him. Reborn would hate him.

Tsuna couldn't tell Reborn, not anybody.

"Be a good boy and never tell anyone. No one will know the killer, if you keep silent." Those words. He remembered them, and they haunted him. He couldn't forget even if he tried. The words were imprinted in his mind.

"No, it's nothing… Just a bad dream…" He finally said.

Meanwhile…

A boy with strange heterochromatic eyes laughed, amused by his little toy. "Kufufu... Sawada Tsunayoshi, what a bad liar."

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YAWNED... So tired... Damn but no matter... Eclipsed Flower edited this fanfic from chapter one to seven and she was getting better. Damn... TTwTT.. She is awesome. I should be like her... Anyway I hope you are enjoying it...

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