Here's chapter 7

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Chapter 7

All night I had been tossing and turning thinking about recent event's why did everything good seem to happen at such inconvenient times. Normally I would have been over the moon finding out that Edward had come back to me, and finding out the reason behind why he had left me just made my heart ache. He did love me; he was just trying to protect me. But if it wasn't for the breath taking experience with Jacob then I wouldn't even have had a second thought about it. I glanced at my clock 5:30 another couple of hours and I could get up and visit Jacob. I had to tell him that Edward was back then I had to tell both of them who I had chosen. I just wish I had made the right decision. If only thing's were as plain as black and white. Not being able to lie in bed any longer, I got up and grabbed the book I was reading at the moment, deciding to read for a couple of hours.

By 9:15 I was in my truck outside the Black residence. Composing myself I got out of my truck and walked slowly towards the door. I reached up and knocked and waited. The door was opened by Jakes dad.

"Bella how nice to see you. Are you here to see Jacob?"

"Yeah is he awake yet?"

"He just got up before you arrived he's in the shower. Come on in he shouldn't be long." I walked into the living room where I sat on the couch to wait for Jacob. I had only been waiting a couple of minutes when Jacob came out of the bathroom, with his hair still dripping wet creating wet patches around his shoulders.

"Hey Bells what bring you here?" Jake's question was accompanied with a cheeky glint in his eyes as if he was communicating what he wanted to do. I gulped before replying to him

"Um Jake do you mind if we go for a walk so we can talk?" Jake's expression changed to show worry for a moment before he composed himself.

"Sure thing" he headed for the door holding it open for me as I passed. Oh god, hold it together Bella. You have to do this. I took a very deep breath.

"Jake Edward's back." I blurted. Oh great nice going that was not how I planned to say it. I wasn't sure how I was going to say it but that wasn't it. I glanced up at Jacob. He had frozen onto the spot; he seemed to be processing the news. It was a good 5 minutes' before he started to thaw.

"When?"

"Last night?"

"And you're only just telling me?"

"Jake I have had a lot of thinking to do. I have to go now but..." Jake cut me off.

"You're leaving now after telling me this you just go. Bella we need to talk about what were going to do." I noticed that Jake assumed that we were staying a couple, he had the belief that we had to stay together, but I still wasn't 100% sure I had made the right choice my heart said one and my head said the other.

"Yes Jake I have to go but if you could, I would appreciate it if you could meet me at the swing park at 10:30." That gave me just under an hour to tell Edward to meet me there at the same time, and for me to compose myself before making my decision final. I also needed for us to meet somewhere neutral, as I had no idea how either of them would take my news. I tuned on my heel and walked over to my truck leaving Jacob to think about what I had told him.

This time when I was in my truck composing myself I was outside the Cullen residence. I got out of my truck again and walked slowly to the door, however the only difference this time was that the door opened, and Edward stood there to greet me. He held an apprehensive and scared. I realised that he was worried that I wasn't going to go back to him. I had to explain everything before he found out from Jacob's thoughts and lost control.

"Have you finished thinking then?" he seemed worried about the answer

"Yes I have, but before I tell you what I have decided you need to know what has been happening to me since for the past 7 months. So that you understand." Once I had said this he stepped aside and let me in he walked up to his room, his eye's never leaving me. For a second I thought he doesn't want to let me out of his sight again. But I quickly got rid of that thought as I reasoned that he was just worried that I would fall and break my ankle or something. Once we entered his room I immediately noticed one major change he had already made. He had bought a bed. Why did he need a bed he didn't sleep? We both sat down on his couch and I braced myself sitting up straight and putting my shoulders back. I began.

"When you left me I was an emotional wreck. I was so bad that Charlie had tried to send me to stay with my mum again; he seemed to think that some sun would cheer me up. I was so miserable that my friends had all given up trying to get a conversation out of me. I was like a zombie I did everything that I was supposed to but on automatic pilot." I paused seeing the pained expression on his face. "I'm only telling you this because you need to know, to understand. It was only when Jacob Black came along that I started to feel again. He made me forget about the pain for a while he made me smile and feel happy again. He also understood that I was hurting; he was there for me whenever I needed to talk, and he was there to make me laugh again after another nightmare. I started being able to have a conversation with friends at school again. Then he made me a promise that he wouldn't hurt me. But he broke it." I paused seeing the anger in Edwards's eyes. I hastily continued. "It wasn't his fault but I felt as if I had been abandoned again, as if he had ripped open some wounds that had started to heal and made them worse. But then I found out the truth. The reason why he wasn't talking to me and avoiding me all of the time. He was a werewolf and he was trying to protect me from himself. Of course when I found out I wouldn't let him use that as an excuse." I looked at Edward then and saw that he understood what I meant after all I had done the same thing when I found out that he was a vampire. "well since then we have kind of been a couple..." up until now my voice had more confidence than the person using it had, but I hesitated in telling Edward the next part, but I knew that I had to otherwise it would be worse for him if Jacob decided to think about it.

"Go on, I won't get angry or anything. Just tell me." He encouraged me so I took another deep breath.

"Last night is the reason why I had to think about what I should do when I found you had come back." I paused and he gave me a look of encouragement. "Last night I lost my virginity to him."