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Sakura POV:
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I knew it probably wasn't the right choice, but I wouldn't regret it either.
There was no remorse, no pain, no struggling. Just the dull ache of my heart, no regret, like I thought I'd feel after what I've done.
I cradled myself to the big fluffy pillow, adjusting it, so it fit perfectly in the space my curled-in position left. I felt empty, tried to block out this fact by the pillow. The salty liquid it was filled with didn't bother me anymore. You couldn't smell tears, or was I that used to the taste, smell, that I really forgot how they .. smelled?
Yeah, I feel the same, I feel confused. The same like who? I'm confused. I can't even get a straight sentence out of my mind-babbling. Was I dreaming? Clearly not. This was all so horror-realistic that even nightmares couldn't compare. What would he think about me? I shuddered, wrapping the blanket closer around my body. The big bed I was laying in made me cover in fear. The dull ache of my heart increased as I saw the empty space, screaming to be used.
I turned around, trying to get straight, not cradled up against my pillow. I was Haruno Sakura, no wimp. Bad choice of words. My chest hurt again, I wasn't a wimp .. I was a coward. Although I knew that I was cowardly, I was way to chicken to get over the fact which pinned me to my king sized bed. Pulled me away from what I really wanted. Wanted the most.
I waited till the nightmares which followed each night set in, squeezing my eyes shut, getting the warm liquid out of my eyes.
Seconds later, I was still there, remembering every frigging detail over and over again, it was like my life was on record and someone just had to play the "repeat" button over and over again.
I sighed and stood up, opening the balcony-door. The fresh, salty, breeze of Tokyos' bay made me shudder. I enjoyed the view, though. I silently closed the door behind me, leaning over the railing to look down. Nausea washed over me. I hated heights, but still. It didn't remind me of my old home, which ebbed the nausea away.
Flashback:
"I think, it was too early… We should've waited. We can't even get a second car, my boss threaded twice to fire me already… "
"I weren't the one who forgot to swallow one single pill.."
"Please, don't involve her … We made it clear that we'd marry anyway…"
"But I wasn't the one complaining … a new car, a new paint-job for the house, the baby … we can't afford all of that …I can't afford all of it .."
"I know … It was plainly dumb to marry only 3 years after High School… but I really thought everything's going to be perfect …"
"Yeah … I thought so myself … but anyway, we can't change it … I'll try to get more money soon, sweetheart, you'll be happy, even if it we were poor … we love each other that counts, nothing else."
"I agree, sorry honey, I didn't want to go overboard .."
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"What does that mean your salary was shortened?"
"We have to deal with it, it's just temporary .."
"I thought you promised .."
"Yeah I did, but I can't …"
"We need those new books for school .. they are damn expensive .. how do you think we could afford that much?"
"I think about it …"
"You told me .. sob .. already that you'd do something …"
"Don't cry … I'll think about it …I love you, sweetheart…"
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"Wow .. where did you get that from …"
"Just a small gift …"
"It's ours? Oh god … "
"Yeah … I know you'd like it .. it fitted perfectly to your new blouse …"
"You know that you're talking about a freaking never used best shape really expensive looking Mercedes?"
"Yeah …"
"You gotta be kidding me …"
"No, I'm not sweetheart …"
"Why do you call me sweetheart always, anyway?"
"Haha … wouldn't you rather drive around the block with your new car than asking me weird questions, sweetheart?"
"Yeah … but I would like to hear it…you could tell me while we're driving …"
"Yeah … Sakura … come on baby … we're driving in our new car."
"I'm not a baby … I'm almost 9 now …"
"Hahahaha … my baby girl is growing up so fast …"
"Dad …"
Sakura took her parents hands and leaded them towards their new shiny car. It was only months before that day would change every of their lives forever.
Flashback end.
A little humourless smile made it's way to Sakura's pale pink lips.
Her mother was a fool to believe that her father could afford a new car, her school books and a new paint-job by only working 3 hours more and a salary-raise, now, that she was elder, she could clearly imagine what must've happened.
Sakuras' father was involved in some illegal things, clearly, nearly frightening obvious which caused him to become like he was on his last day on mother earth.
Her parents fault was that they were engaged too soon … too many problems caught up to them and brought them down-to-earth. A sinister smile made its way to her lips.
Her face shattered as her thoughts were leading her to her love, to her mistakes.
Sasuke … how could she forget this night in the restaurant …
Flashback:
"Sakura … Sakura … wake up, hold on, give me that .." , she heard voices, her head was spinning, cold liquid touched her lips and she parted them, allowing it to crawl down her dry throat.
"Sakura …open your eyes please … are you okay? What happened?", she could clearly hear the concern in this words.
"Should I call an ambulance?", Neji asked from the background, she heard Sasuke telling him that it was okay, he'd take her there the next day.
"Sakura … Sakura …", she groaned a bit.
"I'll just drive you home, we'll be home soon and then you rest … it's probably the best, you're exhausted, sweetheart.", her closed eyelids opened and widened in an instant she was awake.
She looked at her friends from Sasukes' protective arms, seeing their worried faces. Neji held Tenten protectively, Hinata was clinging to Naruto and even Shikamaru was wide awake, stroking Ino's blonde hair, the blonde crying.
They were all … engaged. Hinata even carried Naruto's child. Fear suddenly claimed her heart. Then she remembered the call she just got, her eyes widened for a second again before closing again. Agony. That was what she'd felt the whole night. She could hear Sasuke's even breaths beside her. It made her wince. No, she wouldn't let him face the same fate her father had. With one last glance at the scarred angel, Sakura pulled herself out of her lovers' grasp, replacing herself with her pillow. She looked back, sorrow and grief clearly visible when she pulled on her pullover. It was now 6.25am his alarm clock would beep soon, she had to hurry.
In 20 minutes she had everything she needed, most of her clothes thrown into her suitcase, her bathroom-things, a picture. With a little smile she looked once back towards her lovers face.
Not caring about making a mistake. Her mother was dead. Everyone close to her was damned to face the same fate. Her worries didn't ebb away as she watched Sasukes' still in bandages wrapped up arm.
This painful feeling. Was it grief that she had to leave him? Or was it fear of losing him? She didn't know. She just knew that she had to get away from her life. For the sake of everyone close to her.
At the door she debated with herself. Should she tell him? Wake him up? Writing a letter? She decided for the second. Cowardly how she was. She could never look into his eyes and tell him.
"Sasuke, I'm gone, I won't come back.
Gone for good.
Please, don't come searching for me, no use, decision has been made.
Sakura."
At the last sentence she wrote she had to hurry, she could hear the alarm beeping through the, now empty-of-her-stuff room.
She heard a muffled 'Sakura' as she made her through the front door.
Click. She closed the door.
Flashback end.
Her hair swayed with the soft breeze. Her job wouldn't start till 10 am and now it was 1 am, she really should get sleep. But she was afraid to get those nightmares again, nightmares which she woke up screaming, scaring her neighbours out of their pants. Not a nice thing to have your neighbours banging on your door when you've just woken up from a nightmare drenched in sweat.
With another sigh she opened the door again to let herself plop down on her bed, facing now the little TV on the other side of her tiny room. No. She told herself, she'd only be tired in the morning.
He'd began his new year without Sakura, as expected. She didn't come back, like everyone tried to make him believe, she was gone, he knew it. But, after all of those years they were now together, he was nearly 22, she should've at least talked to him. It wasn't one of the best feelings to find a note as a farewell letter –scrabbled with some random pen, not clearly readable, but although, he had been able to read the shocking news.
Suddenly, his phone rang in his pocket.
"What is it, dope?"
"You sure you don't want me to delay the wedding?"
"Gosh, Naruto, I already told you twice. It. Is. Not. Necessary. She won't come back. How long will it take you to get that, dope?"
"You just called me Naruto .. should I come over ..?"
"I'm not a girl, I'll get over it."
"It's hard, isn't it?"
"Aa."
"So you really don't mind?"
"No, as planned, the 31th January."
"Okay … I guess .. you're sure? Hinata and me, we won't mind…"
"No."
With that, I closed my cell shut, getting over to the Uchiha company. I drove past my parents dancing school. "Temporary closed." Was the sign on the front door.
"Thhee. As if I'd ever teach there again." , Sasuke muttered annoyed, turning up the volume of his boxes. Hard Rock was now blaring all around him. He didn't mind, it made him comfortable not to think about it again.
He walked up the stairs to the first floor, getting a good view over Konoha. He remembered Sakura talking about the beautiful view, gritting his teeth he closed the curtains.
"Sakura .. where are you?", he asked himself.
He couldn't describe this feeling he had, it wasn't the fact that she was away, it was the fact that he didn't even know why she left. Was it his fault? Did she find someone else? Or was there another reason. She got a call, maybe this was the reason she broke up. Who called her? Never mind. Sasuke tighten his hand to a fist. Was he so attracted to her because she was the only one he really loosened up to? Had she been worth it? Yes, she had. His head sunk lower as he let it rest on his desk. Tsunade also had no idea what was wrong. But he sensed that there was something wrong, some information Tsunade was holding back.
What did he want to do here anyway?
Work. Yeah. WORK. He had some paperwork to do. He scribbled something down on the front page. Scratched it out.
"Life sucks.", Sasuke grunted, getting himself a coffee first.
"So, Tsunade, you understand what I was trying to say?", Sakura spoke into the little cell-phone she held between chin and ear.
"Yeah, I get it. But don't you want to think over it again?"
"No, I won't my decision has been made."
"Won't you tell me why?"
"Nope, as I said, I have my reasons. Thank you, though, shishou. You taught me a lot. Bye."
"Obviously not enough. Sigh. Well, … good luck, Sakura. Bye."
Click.
She was currently walking through a shelve in the supermarket, concentrated and lost in thoughts to find oven-pretzels when she accidentally met someone, she never thought she'd met again.
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"Karin?", Sakura choked out, seeing the red haired woman in front of her, mirroring her expression: shock.
"Sakura! I never thought I'd see you again after High School.", Karin said, relaxing.
"Yeah .. Me too .. how .. how have you been?", she asked her, still kind of shocked to see her biggest threat again.
"Well, I'm good, I have a boyfriend over an year, his name's Suigetsu, he's the best thing ever happened to me.", she blushed lightly.
"Oh, well, I'm happy to hear that.", Sakura smiled lightly, a true smile, she was genuine happy for her.
"Oh .. and I also wanted to apologize … all these things back in High School … just so .. childish … ", she bowed her head seemingly embarrassed.
"No .. No problem I guess.", I was kind of shocked to hear that, but it also made me feel happy in some sort of way.
"So, you're going to Hinata Hyuga's wedding on 31. January? I heard it was a big thing. Are you and Sasuke going together?", Karin wanted to know I just pulled a face.
"I don't know about the wedding yet .. No, me and Sasuke .. um .. we broke up.", I admitted, Karin's eyes widened.
"I'm truly sorry, Sakura.", she gave me a pitying look.
"No need to, well … I gotta go … Good luck. It was nice …to talk to you ..", I said, waving and rushing out of the supermarket.
"Who thought that even Karin could change that much?", Sakura asked herself, setting off to her work, she still had 15 minutes left.
"Hinata … wedding. I probably shouldn't go .. but still .. ", Sakura muttered, trying to focus.
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The shift at the hospital was rather boring, so she sighed as she made her way home through the busy streets of Tokyo.
The meeting with Karin marked her deep. Even she could get over her past, over herself. She even came up to her and apologized. She wasn't a coward. In fact, she was much stronger than Sakura ever thought she was.
This gave her courage. She wouldn't miss one of her best friends wedding. Even if it means facing Sasuke. Even if it means that she will be forced to go undercover. She didn't care.
Now, she decided, she'd be strong. For Hinata and Naruto's sake. Sasuke …
Suddenly, she remembered the lyric Sasuke and her had danced to, again, tears shot in her eyes when mumbled the lyric, lost in thoughts about .. him.
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½ lovesong.
I weiß, Du wirst mich vermissen
I know you're gonna miss me
Auch wenn Du jetzt gehen musst
even if you have to go now
Keine Geigen mehr, wenn wir uns küssen
No violins while we're kissing
Ich hab' es einfach nicht gewusst
I just didn't know it
Ich hoff', meine Worte machen es nicht noch schlimmer
I hope my words don't make it worse
Vergiss nur einmal Deinen Stolz
Forget just for once your pride
Ich weiß, Du liebst mich noch immer …
I know, you still love me ...
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"Sasuke-kun. ", with that, she let herself collapse on her soft - still one side unused - king-sized bed.
Sorry for the late update, but I'm kind of distracted at the moment. I'm going to change school after summer break. I used to go to an all girl school. But now, not anymore and it creeps me out…
Because I have the addiction to get into really embarrassing situations. How many? You don't even wanna know.
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Will Sakura go to the wedding?
Will she meet Sasuke?
What's going to happen?
To be continued … or not?
