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I don't one Vampire Academy or any of the characters :(
The attack
You know how every now and then, you have a moment where you have to make a decision and stretches out ahead of you like a forked road. Even as you choose one gritty path, you've got your eyes on the other the whole time, certain that you're making a mistake. As I was running for the church with Lissa and the other Morois, all I could think was that it was a mistake. I still couldn't believe that they were letting the novices protect the church. They weren't fully trained. How could they stay out there and fight?
Lissa said that only the novices that were older than fifteen were allowed to stay out there and they had a choice. No one made them do it. They could go inside with the rest of the students.
I personally knew that Dimitri wouldn't come inside. He wouldn't sit in the church while his classmates and the other students fought. He was so brave and that's why I loved him so much. But right now I would prefer him to be a coward. Yes, I wanted him to come with me.
"Hurry up, Rose" Lissa said as grabbed my hand again.
After a few minutes we saw the church. Outside, there were more than ten novices standing I immediately saw Dimitri standing next to Mason and Eddie. They were whispering and looked dead serious. I let go of Lissa's hand and ran straight to Dimitri.
"Dimitri" I said desperately. "Don't stay here. Come with me".
His eyes softened and he gave me a weak smile. "Don't be scared for me, Roza" he whispered. "I'm going to be okay".
I shook my head unable to hold back my tears. "I- I don't want to lose you, Dimitri" I whispered.
He lightly touched my cheek. I looked into his eyes and they held so much love that I felt my knees go weak. At that moment I understood that I loved Dimitri more than just my best friend. I didn't know how or when this happened. I was so stupid that I didn't notice before. The way I felt when he touched me yesterday or even my hate for Tasha. I hated her cause she was the one that was with Dimitri.
Oh my God. How did this happen? Oh, no. He would never see me like that. I was his best friend. When we were younger he had said that I was like another
sister to him.
"You won't, Roza" he whispered.
"Rose, we have to go" I heard Lissa saying.
I didn't look at her. I was looking into Dimitri's chocolate eyes. "Go, Roza" he whispered.
I knew I had to go, but not like that. What if this was the last time I saw him? Without even thinking I kissed him lightly on the lips. It was just a peck but it made me feel like I was burning. Dimitri took a step back and looked at me with wide eyes. I blushed.
"Just be careful" I said and followed Lissa.
Oh, God. What was wrong with me? First of all I realized I was in love with my best friend. Then I kissed him. And all of that just before a battle. I was so so so stupid.
When we entered the church we saw many of our classmates, other younger students, some young novices and some of our Moroi professors. They were all panicked. At the corner of the room was Adrian talking to Camille and Natalie. At the widow beside them, Tasha was standing, watching what was happening outside. Christian was standing on her left.
Lissa surprised me when she sobbed and ran straight to Christian. He hugged her and buried his face in her hair. If the timing was different, I would sit there with my mouth open. Now, I was so worried for Dimitri and the others that I didn't even care too much. I walked slowly to Adrian. When he heard me he turned and stood up. He came and without saying a word, hugged me. "Are you okay?" he asked.
I nodded. I didn't trust my voice right now. "Don't be scared. They are protecting us" he said.
I took a step back and looked at him. "Some of our friends are out there protecting us" I snapped. "I'm not worried about myself right now cause I'm safe. At least safer than them".
Adrian's eyes were wide with surprise but he recovered quickly. "This is about Belikov, isn't it?" he asked.
I glared at him. "Of course it's about Dimitri" I shot back. "He is my best friend. This is also about Mason and Eddie".
He sighed. "It's their job, Rose" he said.
I laughed hysterically. "Not yet" I said and turned my back on him. "They are still novices".
I couldn't stay here. Not when I knew he was out. So, without even thinking; I ran, opened the church's door and went outside. The night was cold and I shivered but I had no time for this. I could see the guardians fighting with Strigois. Most of the novices just stood in front of the church with scared faces but some of them were helping the guardians. A few of them were Mason, Eddie, another dhampir in my age and –oh no- Dimitri.
He was fighting with a tall Strigoi. It was the first time I had ever seen him
like this. He was moving with so much speed and grace that for a minute I just stared at him. If I didn't know any better, I would think that he was a guardian. Not only that, I would think that he was the best of the guardians. It seemed like the Strigoi wasn't fast enough and that Dimitri was going to win.
Then Dimitri saw me standing there and froze in his place. That was enough for the Strigoi to hit him. Dimitri fell on the ground with a mask of pain on his face. I could see that he was in so much pain but he didn't make a sound. He stood up again but he almost lost his balance.
The Strigoi grabbed him from the collar of his shirt and with a fast move his fags was on Dimitri's skin. This time Dimitri gasped and tried to free himself, but it wasn't enough.
"Dimitri" I shouted and ran at his direction.
This Strigoi heard me and pulled away from Dimitri's neck. He looked at me and smiled.
"Well, well, well" he said grinning. "What have we here? A little Moroi. How old are you sweetheart?"
"Let him go" I said bravely even though I was screaming with fear in the inside.
The Stigoi laughed. "Oh, no, I can't do that" he answered still holding Dimitri. "He is too delicious"
Now fear was replaced by rage. I looked at Dimitri. He was still struggling and his face was very pale. He had lost a lot of blood and apparently he had an injured arm. I looked back at the Strigoi. I felt a warmth building inside of me. I hated him so much. He tried to hurt Dimitri. Maybe he was one of those who had turned my mother. Now the warmth was so much that it almost burned me. I had to let it go now.
So, without even knowing what to do I let it go. I thought that this Strigoi was evil and that deserved to die painfully. At the same time the Strigoi fell on his knees gasping.
"No, no stop it" he yelled in agony. "Not the sun. It kills me".
He continued screaming and I started panicking. I was obviously using magic. It was the first time I had used magic and I didn't know how to let it go. I was trapped. Then the magic vanished and when I looked at the Stigoi he was dead. Dimitri had killed him with his stake. I stared at the Strigoi, shaking. I knew that he was a monster but I couldn't help thinking that he was probably a Moroi or a dhampir before he was turned.
I felt Dimitri's arms snake around me and I buried my face in his chest. His smell was comforting. "Shh" he said. "It's okay. Let's go inside, I need to know that you're safe".
"You are staying inside with me" I whispered as we walked. "If you go outside again I'll go with you".
He didn't say anything but I felt him nodding. I instantly relaxed and let him lead me to the church. The other guardians around me seemed to win. Apparently there weren't enough Strigois so that meant we won this time. I sighed in relief. When we walked inside the room everyone looked at us with wide eyes. Dimitri was injured and I was still shaking so it was natural. They didn't make a move to approach us. They just stared as Dimitri lead me to the corner where no one could see us.
He sat down and I sat on his lap. He stoked my hair and I leaned in to his touch. This was becoming harder and harder. Now that I knew he was safe, I started to feel the panic from my realization. I was in love with him but he was in love with Tasha. I still couldn't understand how or when this happened. Just yesterday I thought I loved him only as my best friend.
"Why are you panicking?" he asked softly. "I'm here. It's okay now".
I rested my head in his chest. Thank God he couldn't understand why I felt this way. "Don't do this to me again" I whispered. "Ever".
"I can't promise you something like that, Rose" he said as he pulled away to look at me. "You have to understand that this is my life. I'm a guardian. Your guardian. This is my job and you have to let me do it. You can't try to save me every damn time I fight with a Strigoi. And by the way you used magic".
I nodded. Yeah, I knew it. I used magic so that meant I was able to do it. It was a relief to know that but the problem was that I had used a magic that wasn't like the magic I knew. It wasn't water, fire, earth or air. It was something else. Something dark. I had made the Strigoi see illusions.
"It wasn't something I had ever seen" he said, "and I think it's better to keep it secret for now".
I nodded. "Yes, I think it's better that way" I agreed.
We sat there silent for a moment. "Rose, what was that before the fight?" he asked obviously uncomfortable. "You know; the kiss".
I panicked again. "It was nothing" I said quickly. "I was scared for you and didn't think straight".
He relaxed. "Oh, okay" he said.
It hurt me to lie to him but I had to if I wanted him in my life. If he learned the truth he would freak out.
At that moment I saw Tasha running at our direction with a pale face but when she saw us sitting there like this; she stopped. Dimitri stiffened a little when he saw her and I looked into his eyes. He obviously wanted to go to her but he was torn between being a good friend and doing what he wanted.
I loved him. Yes, now I was sure of it because when I looked into his eyes I felt my heart melt. Maybe I loved him all this time and I just didn't want to admit it. Maybe that was why I never felt completely happy when I was with Adrian. That was the moment I knew what I was going to do. When you loved someone, you put their needs before your own. No matter how fucked up; no matter how much it makes you feel like you are ripping yourself into pieces.
I sighed. "Go to her, Dimitri" I whispered.
"But Roza…"
I stopped him. "Just go. I know you want to" I whispered.
He looked at me for a moment. "I love you, Roza" he said. Then he kissed my forehead and stood up. I watched him as he ran to her, hugged her tight and kissed her like she was the most fragile, the most beautiful thing in the world. I felt my heart breaking into tiny little pieces and a single tear run down my cheek.
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