WELCOMING BACK AN OLD LOVER
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A/N: things are different in the story than they happened on the show. Please Read and Review. Thank you Snowgirl01 for sending PM and requesting this chapter
Chapter Seven
After Monica left Jason's room Jason asked Robin. "Are you alright? What you and Sonny were talking about, I know you told me what happened between us but I didn't know that Sonny turned his back on you because of me."
"Jason, that wasn't your fault. Sonny did that on his own. No one is to blame except Sonny. He made the choice, no one else. I didn't betrayed him and he acted like I did. He had no right to get involved or to choose sides. He didn't have to. He chose to." Robin explained to Jason knowing he felt guilty and shouldn't.
"But if it wasn't for me doing that he wouldn't have chosen sides." Jason does indeed feel guilty.
"Jason, it was Sonny's choice to get involved and to choose sides, he didn't have to. Like I said I never did when it was Jax and Sonny or Brenda and Sonny. The point is he didn't need to choose sides he could have remained friends with the both of us and chose not to, he turned his back on me. He chose to do that. Not you. He did. So it is on him that he did, not on you."
"Yes but if I hadn't of done what I did there wouldn't have been a choice to make. I just don't understand how I could have done that to you."
"I don't either but you loved Michael a lot he was your son as far as you were concerned, even if he was AJ's you loved him as your own. You did everything for him." Robin explained to Jason.
"Yes, but you are I was in love with, you should have come first. I don't understand why I let that woman into our lives to begin with."
"I didn't want to infect you with the virus so I wouldn't have sex with you so you went looking for it somewhere else and Carly was who you found and slept with."
"I just still don't understand how I could do that to you. I love you. I can't understand how I could do that to you. We are happy together."
"Yes we were when this happened. As far as what you told me it was just sex for you nothing else."
"I told you about it?"
"Yes you did before I left for Yale, we talked about it and you promised not to sleep with her again and you told me you loved me and that you would be faithful to me from there on out and you were. When Carly showed up on your doorstep several months later and you agreed to pretend to be her baby's father I was in Paris at the time and you didn't think I was going to come home or come back to you but I did but you had Michael by then and you grew to love him like he was your own son. You chose him and Carly over me in the end. She won." Robin explained to Jason what happened.
"I wish I could go back and change all of that. I don't remember it but if I could I would. I love you, Robin. I'm sorry I hurt you."
"I'm not going to pretend it didn't hurt, because it did. I was devastated when I left for Paris this last time, you and Sonny both had turned your backs on me and I didn't know how to survive without you or him but I did. I found myself again, I had lost myself somewhere along the lines of your lie. I had lost myself in wanting to do what you wanted me to do. I am sorry you had to lose Michael though that wasn't my intention in telling the truth. I just wanted you and Michael to be free of Carly's manipulation. I didn't want Michael to grow up and hate you either for lying to him about who his father is."
"I am so sorry I hurt you, you are the last person I would want to hurt. I love you so much, Robin and I just don't understand how I could have agreed to this lie. I hate lying, so how could I have agreed to do it."
"You wanted to help Carly, she was your friend, Sonny had left the business to you and I was in Paris, you were alone except for Carly and she came to you on a rainy night and you agreed, not thinking of what it would mean or what would happen. When I found out I should have made you tell the truth but Carly wasn't in Port Charles. As time went on you came to love that little boy Michael as your own. You didn't' want to lose him. You chose to keep him and you chose him and Carly over me."
"I don't understand how I could do that. I love you. I can't imagine loving anyone as much as I love you."
"You loved him more than me in the end because you chose him and Carly over me."
"Why didn't you stay in Port Charles? Why did you go to Paris?"
"Because I loved you and I thought it wouldn't hurt as much if I didn't have to see you with her. I figured you would end up marrying her and I didn't want to see it so I left to go back to Paris thinking it would hurt less if I didn't see you especially with her."
"I'm sorry Robin, you loved me a lot, didn't you?"
"Yes, I did, a lot of good that did me in the end. It hurt when we broke up and I couldn't stay here and watch you with her. I couldn't I wasn't strong enough to do that. So I went to Paris to go to school and I graduated with honors, top of my class."
"I wish I could go back and do it over with what I know now. I would do so many things differently. I sure wouldn't have cheated on you and if that didn't happen none of the other would have either. I can't stand the thought that I hurt you that bad and it must have been bad for you to leave the whole country." Jason said in shame.
"Jason, I would change Carly ever being in our lives but we can't go back and change it. We have to live with what happened. As soon as you get your memory back you'll remember that I betrayed you and you will be glad I left for another country. You were glad I was going back to Paris. You told me so, which really hurt. In fact I was devastated that you did, but you didn't care, you wanted me gone and you were happy when I left."
"I can't imagine that, I know you are telling me the truth but I can't fathom ever wanting you to leave me. As for my memory I sure hope not, I don't want to stop feeling what I feel for you right now. I love you, Robin. I hope to God that that doesn't change because I don't want it to. I want to feel this for you forever."
"I know you think you do now, but after your memory comes back you probably won't want anything to do with me. This time I won't be going back to Paris I am doing my residency here in Port Charles."
Alan walked into the room with Dr. Jones and Dr. Jones told them. "I am going to give you something to help you sleep. We have let you two visit past visiting hours but Jason needs to get some sleep and I know Robin probably has jet lag and needs to get a good night's sleep. So Robin is going to have to leave now." Tony injects something into Jason's iv and Robin stands up to leave when Jason holds out his hand to her and she went up to him and he asked her, "You'll be by in the morning?"
"Yes, I will. I have to see Mac first thing but then I have to go find an apartment or house to live in since I will be doing my residency here. I'll be by after that but if you need me and I mean need me Jason have Alan call me and I will come, okay? And what time is Kevin going to be here? I want to be here for that?"
"He didn't say." Alan answered
"Call me and I will come no matter where I am at, I will come." Robin tells Alan.
"I love you Robin." Jason said drowsily.
"I know. Goodnight." Robin told Jason.
Robin walked out with Alan and Tony behind her and Monica walked up to them and asked "How is Jason doing?"
"Fine, he is going to sleep. Tony gave him a sedative to help him sleep."
"Well, I have to call a cab so I can go to my hotel, I am beat, so I will see you in the morning." Robin said getting ready to call a cab.
"Robin, I will take you to your hotel." Alan offered.
"Are you sure?" Robin asked.
"Yes, I don't want you to have to call a cab when I can take you."
"Thank you, I really would appreciate that."
Alan and Robin walk off leaving Tony and Monica there.
Alan dropped off Robin at her hotel before he headed home to the mansion.
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