Hello! Sorry for not updating! I feel bad, so here's an extra long chapter! (:

The first paragraph will be how Ryder felt right after it happened. But soon after, I'll tell you when, it will be way after it.

ALSO, JYDER DUETS. ALL OVER THE PLACE. YES. PERFECTION.

This chapter will have a song included, but only because I wanted you guys to read what happens during the song.

Another chapter will be up hopefully super soon because I want you guys to forgive me for the lack up updates.

PLEASE REVIEW! (:

Oh and if you could take a look at my new story s/9128541/1/GLEE-The-New-Ones , That'd be great.

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Ryder ran home as fast as his legs could take him. He could feel his world crumbling to pieces. Why did Jake have to be so confusing? He kisses him, he ignores him, he finally starts being friends with Ryder, they move closer, and then they kiss. But he breaks it up? They weren't dating or anything, but that was the second time they had kissed. Was that a sign? Were they meant for each other? Were those kisses trying to tell him something? Giving him a reality check? Ryder didnt care. He just wanted to know why this was so confusing. Before Jake kissed him, he had never kissed a boy before. He had never even questioned his sexuality. Maybe it was because nobody had seemed that appealing at his school. He didnt know. What he did know, was that he had to wait. He had to wait and see how everything turned out. If him and Jake are never friends again. Great. If they start dating the next day, fantastic. He just had to wait..

~one month later~

A lot can happen in a month. A lot DID happen in a month. For one, Ryder had quit Glee club. He didnt feel like seeing Jake every single day. Jake also started going out with Marley again. Everyone thought that they were 'too cute', but Ryder couldn't even smile when he saw them together. But he had to put on an act around them. Jake moved on. Ryder should of too. But he couldnt just move on from Jake. He dreamed about him every night, thought about him all day. Nobody even knew about them though, so he had to pretend it was something else.

Oh and Kitty thought that Ryder had feelings for her still, so she wouldn't leave him alone. She wouldn't ask him out of anything, but she'd be really nice to him at all times. Which was really different for her.

Beep! Beep! Beep!

Ryder hopped out of bed and did his normal morning routine. Change his clothes. Brush his hair, it didnt end up so perfect over night. He texted Tina and told him that he'd be going on the bus that day. When Tina saw Ryder really upset after the whole Jake thing, she comforted him. She didn't know about Jake, but she still helped him be happy, it didn't matter that she didn't know. Since then, they had been best friends. Ryder headed downstairs and saw his mother and father in the kitchen. They were yelling at each other.. "Its not my fault!" His father yelled. "You're the dad! You spent more time with the child when he was younger, you made him into what he is!" That was a lie. He didnt spend much time with either of them when he was younger. "I got straight A's in high school, and I have my PhD! How is it my fault that our son is stupid?!" He shouted.

Ryder's jaw dropped slightly, and gasped at what they were saying. "I dont know, but somethings going on. He's failing all of his classes. I hate saying this, but our son is as useless as cork. He'll never make anything of himself.." His mother said, trying to sound kind. Ryder could feel a lump in his throat. He gulped down air, and just looked at them. His father glanced over, and noticed Ryder standing there. "Ryder.." His father started walking to him. "You're right. I AM useless. But I never thought I'd hear you say it." He stated.

His mother walked over to him and set her hand on his shoulder. "I think Im gonna go." He got out of his mother's grip, and headed outside. Immediately when he got out, his feet became heavy. His heart sank to the bottom of his body. His face became red and his eyes started welling up. But he couldnt get upset about it. He hadn't gotten really upset since the whole Jake debacle, and getting upset would just remind him of it. He quickly rubbed his eyes, and looked over to the road.

He saw the bus so he perked up slightly at the thought of seeing Tina. She'd make him feel better. When the bus stopped in front of his house, he rushed on and saw Tina sitting near the back. She grinned at him. He headed over to her and sat in the seat next to her. "Hey R." She greeted. "Hey Tina." He waved. "Whats wrong?" She noticed how Ryder wasnt his normal self. "N-nothing." He muttered out. He grabbed his phone out of his pocket and saw that Kitty had texted him twice in the last half hour. "

He quickly texted back and looked over at Tina who was raising her eyebrow. "Tell me Ryder. I know Kung-Fu." She giggled, but noticed that Ryder still didnt look like he was happy. "Ryder?" She looked around to make sure the driver wasnt looking at them. She hopped over to his seat and grabbed his hand. "Ryder what is it?" He looked at her and she could see tears in his eyes. "My parents think I'm worthless " He whispered, choking up. "You aren't Ryder." She told him. "I know.. But I sometimes feel like it."

She bit her lip and watched as her best friend broke down. He started to cry, muttering out words that she couldnt understand. Immediately she grabbed him, and started consoling him. She rocked him back and forth, and kissed his forehead. "Sweetie, it'll be okay." He started nodding. "I know but.." He couldnt figure out anything else to say. Tina looked over and saw Brittany and Sam boarding the bus. "Hey, whats wrong with Ryder?" Brittany asked, sitting in the seat beside them. Sam joined and looked at Ryder. "Just.. Stuff." Tina answered.

When they finally got to school, Ryder had explained everything that had been going on lately. His mom and dad thinking he was stupid, and how he felt empty without Glee Club. Sam kept begging him to rejoin, but he refused. He might of felt empty, but he couldnt rejoin. Seeing Jake every day would practically kill him.

"Ryder, we'll see you later." Brittany set her hand on his shoulder, and gave a sympathetic smile towards him. Sam waved, and Tina kissed him on the cheek. "If you need to talk, you know where to find me." She told him. Ryder nodded, and watched as they left. And as soon as they were gone, guess who came over. Kitty. She linked arms with Ryder and smiled.

"Hey cutie." She grinned. Ryder sighed, and looked at the shorter girl. "Listen, I have a double date tonight with Jarley and was wondering if you wanted to tag along. I know it would suck being a fifth wheel but-" Kitty started, but got cut off by Ryder. "Okay, few things. A. Double date? With who? B. Whats Jarley?" Ryder asked.

"Oh, Joe asked me out. He's christian too, so my parents would approve of him. And Jarley? You dont know who Jarley is? It's only Jake and Marley. Who else?" As soon as Ryder heard Jake's name, his face dropped. "You know how I feel about Jake." He mumbled out.

She sighed. "I know you like Marley, Ryder.. But you cant get over your petty little crush for one night?" She asked. Oh, did something not get said? Kitty caught on that he didnt like that Jake and Marley were together, and demanded to know why. Ryder knew that Kitty would spread the news fast if he told her about Jake, so he just said that he liked Marley.

Ryder gave a false smile, but still shook his head. "I dont think I could. Jealousy is not pretty. That, and being a fifth wheel would suck." He explained. Kitty nodded. "Alright.. Fine. Too bad. Marley and Jake were really looking forward to see you." She grabbed her phone, and started to text Marley.

"Guess I'll tell her you cant come." Kitty smiled as she clicked send. "Well, I gotta go. Talk later?" Kitty asked. "Sure." Kitty grinned again, and gave Ryder's arm a quick squeeze before leaving. Ryder started heading for his locker, but was stopped by somebody. He turned around and saw one of the football players. He didnt know why they were stopping him, until a few seconds later when he was drenched from head to toe in red slush.

He started breathing really heavily. He couldnt see at the moment, so who brought him into the bathroom, was a mystery. They helped him get clean, they washed his face first though. He fluttered his eyes open, and saw him. It was Jake.

"Jake." He whispered. Jake nodded, and smirked at the boy. "What are you doing?" Ryder looked down and saw Jake holding some clothing in his hands. "Helping. Here, change into these." Jake handed the boy some clothes. "Where'd you find these?" Ryder asked. Jake smirked and remembered how he stole them from the lost and found earlier that day. He did that everyday. He knew someone was gonna get slushied. It happened everyday. He just didnt expect it to be Ryder.

"Don't worry about it. Just get changed." Ryder nodded, and went into one of the stalls. He quickly locked it, and changed into the fresh clothing. "So, why'd they slushie you?" Jake curiously asked. Ryder shrugged. "Why do you even care?" Jake looked at Ryder, puzzled. "We haven't spoken in a month. But suddenly when I get slushied, you care?"

Jake sighed. "I want to be your friend, Ryder." Ryder just looked at Jake like he was crazy. "I know it will be hard to be friends after, what happened. But can't we just forget about it? Pretend nothing ever happened?" Jake smiled at Ryder, and tried to get him to be his friend again. "I want to Jake. But I don't know if I can do that."

"Please. Can we just try?" Ryder closed his eyes, and ran his fingers through his hair. "If it means that much to you.. I guess I'll try." As soon as he said that, he could tell Jake was happy. Ryder opened his eyes once again and saw a very happy Jake in front of him.

Ryder couldn't help but smile. That is, until he heard a bing coming from Jake's phone. "Oh, that's Marley, I gotta go. Talk to you later Ryder." Jake quickly left the bathroom. Ryder left as well, not realizing how bad it must have looked that both boys just left the bathroom right after one another.

"Fags." He heard someone say from the many people in the hallway. He just shook it off, and kept walking. "Does your mother know that you sleep with boys?" Another person said. He went faster and faster down the hallway, hearing all these slams towards him. "Homo."

"I knew you were gay since you tried out for the gay ass musical." Suddenly he was crowded by jocks and cheerio's, and just some random people, insulting him. He pushed through them, and saw Tina standing in the hall. He ran to her, and hugged her tightly. "Lets go." She said, and took his hand. She ran into the choir room with him. When he saw he was there, he was upset.

"Tina, what are you doing?" He asked. "It's not just what I'm doing. You clearly need our help." She said, gesturing for him to sit. "This is for you Ryder." Everyone got up but him, and he just stared at them. "Whats going on?"

"Would you just close your huge mouth until we're done?" Kitty ordered. The boy nodded, and crossed his arms. He heard music start, and he knew immediately what was going on. Whenever someone needed help, they would sing.

They were singing the song 'That's what friends are for', one of Ryder's favorite song. But only Tina knew that.

TINA- And I never thought I'd feel this way
And as far as I'm concerned

Ryder smiled as the girl started grinning at the boy to make him feel better.

KITTY- I'm glad I got the chance to say
That I do believe I love you
And if I should ever go away
Well then close your eyes and try
To feel the way we do today and then if you can remember

JAKE- Keep smilin', keep shinin'
Knowing you can always count on me for sure
That's what friends are for
For good times and bad times
I'll be on your side forever more
That's what friends are for

When Ryder heard Jake start to sing the song, he knew he wouldn't be able to hold any emotions back. He could already feel his throat go dry, and his eyes start to tear up.

MARLEY- Well you came and opened me
And now there's so much more I see
And so by the way I thank you

SAM- And then for the times when we're apart
Well then close your eyes and know
These words are coming from my heart
And then if you can remember

Ryder could feel himself starting to get choked up, and felt a tear fall down his cheek. He grinned at his friends, and wiped the tear away. He noticed Kitty get up from her seat as they were singing, and she grabbed his hand. She brought him to the group.

RYDER&THE NEW DIRECTIONS-Keep smilin', keep shinin'
Knowing you can always count on me for sure
That's what friends are for
For good times and bad times

Tina and Kitty grabbed both of his hands, but he couldn't stop focusing on the boy sitting behind him. Jake.

KITTY- I'll be on your side forever more

TINA&JAKE-That's what friends are for

When the music stopped, Kitty noticed he was crying. She grabbed his side, and hugged him. He gave her a hug back, and soon everyone got into the hug. He wiped away some of the tears, but they wouldn't stop coming. He couldn't believe that all of them would do that just for him.

"Thank you guys.. You, you guys have been there for me since I joined. I, I shouldn't have quit." He sniffled slightly, and looked at Tina, who looked like she was about to get emotional too. The two hugged, which made Ryder smile.

"That's not it though." Jake interrupted. Ryder looked confused. "Again, sit." Marley told him. He sat back on the seat where he was before. "Glee club is like a family Ryder. It's like we're siblings, and Mr Schue is our dad." Sam told the younger boy. He put his hand on Ryder's shoulder, and smiled.

"And when you left, it was like we lost a brother." He continued. "We would love it for you to come back to the Glee club, Ryder." Tina added. "I- I want to but-" Before he could finish, he immediately remembered that nobody knew what went on between him and Jake. "But what Ryder?" Marley asked.

He looked over at Marley, and practically cursed in his head. "But.. I... I uh.." He stumbled over his words. "You were being made fun of by your team, remember Ryder? You told me." Jake quickly answered, helping Ryder out.

It wasn't the real reason, but it was a good excuse. "Ri-Right." Tina walked over to Ryder. "Why didn't you tell me that?" She linked her arm with his. "I- I was too embarrassed." He played the excuse really well. Nobody knew he was lying. "Like, how'd they make fun of you?" Kitty asked.

"Does it really matter?" All of them nodded. "Come on Ryder. You have to tell us what they did, so we can actually believe that them making fun of you was the ONLY reason you left." Brittany stepped closer to him, and put her hand on his shoulder. "They, um, would taunt me everyday and say that I was gay. And they would tell me that since I was in Glee club, no girl would ever want me."

"But, Ryder.. Everyone's been spoken to like that. And you're a strong guy, just people picking on you wouldn't be enough to actually make you THAT upset, would it?" Will asked. "Well, It uh.. It was more than that."

"Like?" Tina asked. "They uh, would.. Push me around and uh, slushie me." Tina grabbed his hand. "What made you hit your breaking point?" Ryder started thinking. He needed a good, legit reason as to why he would quit.

"Um.. Well, uh.. One day, Kitty's old friends, Bobby and Phil, came up to me, and brought me into the parking lot.. I didn't know what they were doing, and uh.. I soon realized that they were bringing me to beat me up." Tina gasped and looked at the boy. "Hon, you could have told me that!" She gave Ryder a hug, in shock.

"I just didnt want anyone to know." Ryder felt bad for lying, but he couldn't tell anyone about them. If he did, everyone would keep asking questions as to why they were together. "Blaine, lets go." Sam said. "Wait, where are you guys going?" Ryder asked.

"To pay our little football friends a visit." Sam told him, cracking his knuckles. Him and Blaine left the room. "No guys!" Ryder shouted, running out the door. He better get them to stop, or he didn't know what would happen.