HAPPY VALENTINES DAY! I no longer have a computer, and my tablet is impossible to write on so I'm writing this on a borrowed one. I wanted to give a gift so I am seriously medicated attempting to focus on writing while the pain is pushed back, there's bound to be mistakes which I appologize for I really want to get back to writing, I miss it more than I miss walking right now... so here goes nothing!


"I...what?She did WHAT?! oh my god is Quinn okay? Is everyone else okay? What the actual hell Tana?!"

Kurt stared at his phone in disbelief as Santana's voice came through the speaker. Sebastian was currently seated next to him running a hand down his back comfortingly while shaking his head at what he was hearing because seriously..what the hell was in the water in Ohio?

"She lost her shit porce, total nervous breakdown apparently man hands has a form of narcissistic personality disorder which really her parents SHOULD have told her teachers about...preferably before she freaking snapped and attacked another student and had a nervous breakdown, because it could have been so much worse like I cant stop thinking what if she had brought a freaking weapon or some shit to school you know? Had we all known that she was like this we would have known like we HAD to reign her in with Glee club and watched her like a hawk made sure her parents where taking her to therapy and giving her medication instead of pandering to her shit and agreeing that she was their little star, but because they wanted to keep it a little secret from everyone none of us knew it was just feeding into her feelings of superiority and shit. Reaffirming her belief that she was the single most important...most talented person here and everyone else was secondary. Believe me I'm pretty sure Mr. Shue is actually going to let her parents have it for putting other students in danger to keep her issues a secret and not getting her proper help. Apparently as a kid she like...would get violent whenever she got really bad and they didn't even consider warning anyone about it. The school had no idea she was this sick, just thought she was like...insanely ambitious if a little eccentric. So now like he feels responsible for Q getting hurt, even if he had no idea that Berry was capable of this sort of thing... Had he been aware that letting her take over glee was just making her that much worse I'd like to think he would never had let it happen but yeah...just I dont know porcelain its like so many people have been trying to change and get better since you left and gave them all a huge wake up call but somehow like it brought out a side we didn't know existed in some people, I know we joked about Berry being cray cray but like...Never actually expected any of this. Aretha wasn't even there today, and she was the only one who even talked to or hung out with Berry anymore so who knows how she will respond to her being pulled from the school. Britt apparently sat behind her yesterday in home ec. and actually heard some of the shit she was saying under her breath which is all she does these days like she just talks to herself and glares at everyone I'm actually afraid to leave Brittany alone near her after what happened today and girl is seriously a few screws loose if she thinks you are going to magically stop being gay so you can be hers. Because yeah...thats what she was talking to herself about, didn't you know porce that apparently you are supposed to chose to be straight and be with Mercedes and never have anyone else in your life and just worship her? How did we not know what was going on with them? like I know not all of us get along but like...I dont even know. Quinn says we should go talk to Mercedes mom and tell her what is going on with her and not wait till we have another Rachel Berry level freak out, after today I think she's right and her parents need to be aware of what the hell their kids are doing. I'm so glad you got out of here before all this blew up, had she attacked you or Britt nothing would have stopped me from flattening her I swear.."

Kurt had never actually heard Santana be this serious before, not that he blamed her with everything going on back in Lima because...wow. Just wow. Hell everything that made him leave was a blessing in disguise, he has so much going for him in France. A grandmother who loved him unconditionally and was proud of him, he had a boyfriend who was the absolute love of his life and made him feel so much...someone he wanted to spend the rest of his life with if given the chance, he had Sebastian's mom...Amelia who had become a sort of Fairy Godmother to Kurt and another link to his Mother that he was just so blessed to have now. Hell even Anthony and Bridget were close to him, with everything that had been happening with Blaine he was surprised to find the quiet yet kind people who worked for his grandmother had apparently come to care quite a bit for him during his time living here. After hearing what had happened to Kurt, and that Blaine was obsessed and stalking him they both became protective. After bringing him Tea one night Bridget had quietly told him that he reminded her of her little brother who had passed away a few years ago and she promised if she ever saw that boy close to the house she would chase him away with a frying pan before letting him anywhere near Kurt. Whereas Anthony had taken to pulling a cot into the foyer and sleeping directly in front of the front door with a gun under his pillow, no one had even known he'd been doing it until Kurt had gone down stairs in the middle of the night for a glass of water and saw him camped out. The minute Anthony had heard the steps he shot up immediately with a gun leveled at the front door to Kurts surprise before sheepishly admitting ever since he over heard about Blaine and that he'd been stalking the house and saw how scared Kurt was he'd been camping in front of the door every night because wanted to make sure there was no way in hell anyone could break in and get up the stairs towards Kurt without going through him first.

Honestly he'd never felt so protected. While it made him upset and terrified that it was even necessary? knowing that these incredible people where all behind him and ready to go to bat for him if necessary was more than a little life changing. Whatever feelings of not being important enough for people to care about him that where left from what had happened in Ohio were nearly gone. He was so grateful to these incredible people who just genuinely cared about him, about him being okay and feeling safe. It also made the lack of action from the people he loved in Ohio all that more glaring to him, he'd been on his LAST straw with his dad and the way he'd been during their conversations right up until Finn told him he had talked to Burt and that he overheard his mom and Burt talking about how he was going to start going to therapy to learn how to be a better father and deal with everything he'd done regarding Kurt. It gave him hope that he was finally willing to really try and he's glad it happened before he went back to Ohio because he was fairly positive had his dad kept up the way he was either Sebastian or his Grandmother would have eventually lost it on one Burt Hummel in defense of the one person they both loved most.

Kurt couldn't help but wonder though if he was some sort of magnet for crazy. Because seriously what the actual hell? Between Rachel, Blaine and Mercedes he honestly had no idea what to expect from people anymore. He hadn't seen anything like this coming from them, sure they had played big parts in painful moments of his life that lead to him packing up and shipping himself off to another country just to deal. Quinn was right though, They definitely needed to talk to Mercedes mother. He'd always liked her and despite him being Gay and her being a religious woman she had never treated him poorly and he highly doubted she had any idea what the hell was going on with her daughter, or even if she knew that Kurt had left Ohio in the first place. Personally he thought Quinn could probably press charges on the Berry's for endangerment since their negligence and refusal to get Rachel the help she so obviously needed because they didn't want to accept that their daughter wasn't this paragon of talent and perfection. They had fed into her problems by constantly assuring her that she WAS a star and WAS the most talented just to keep her happy instead of doing the right thing and making sure she was getting help and talking the right medication. What she was going through now and her nervous breakdown at this point was their doing, and not only that they'd put other kids in danger by not letting anyone know about Rachel or the fact that apparently as a child she had violent tendencies whenever anyone challenged her warped views of self importance and getting whatever she wanted. Hopefully this would be an 'aha!' moment for them both and they would start doing what was best for Rachel as opposed to what she WANTED, because she was talented and despite how he personally felt about her she could have gone far had she been properly cared for and looked after. If she failed in making her dreams come true it would be their own fault.

Blaine was something he didn't even know how to handle. Months ago he never thought he would get to a point where he was actually afraid of Blaine, where the thought of him showing up where he was would send a cold shock of fear through his body. Because at one point he'd loved him, he'd been his best friend and had thought Blaine was someone he would always be able to trust and depend on. Finding out everything from the day they had met had been a lie to manipulate him while he was vulnerable? It hurt. Honestly it sort of killed him inside, he couldn't help but look back on everything between them with near disgust and want to either throw up or cry or scream. Tomorrow his grandmother and Amelia where going to speak with Blaine's parents with everything they had as proof as well as the officially signed and legal restraining order that was sadly necessary seeing as he was still parking his car outside of either Sebastian's or his house every day and just watching for them. He hoped Blaine's parents would watch him more carefully and get him the help he needed, as long as it was far the hell away from him. Go figure after everything it turns out Blaine and Rachel may have been perfect for each other after all.


During his conversation with Santana about the increasingly chaotic going ons in Lima, Kurt had decided that he was finally ready to see everyone. So he planned a New Directions skype session at his fathers house for that Friday. After his most recent conversation with Finn about his dad deciding to go to therapy and how Carole asked everyday how he was and if he was happy and to please send her love and tell him how sorry she was and that she wouldn't rest until he she had won back his trust and love, that she had also talked to Burt about Kurt and his behavior that it was time to let them see him. He wanted them to see that he was happy, that he was flourishing and yes...that he'd found love. He wanted to make sure that his father especially saw that it was entirely possible he wouldn't go back to Lima for his senior year unless there was even a remote possibility he could be even a fraction of as happy there as he was now, so hopefully that would be some additional incentive to follow through with becoming better people and working on themselves. Plus he needed he father to see that him being in a relationship with another man wasn't wrong, that he loved and was loved back and it made him happy and that he needed to accept it. He needed real acceptance from his father if he was ever going back to Ohio, he needed to know that he could do Friday night dinners and bring his boyfriend the same way Finn could bring a girlfriend. He needed to know he wasn't going to be judged for kissing someone he loved, for being affectionate with his boyfriend. He needed to know that his own family wouldn't cringe away whenever they got close or try to make him feel guilty or inappropriate for having found the love of his life and not acting as if they weren't together just to make other people more comfortable. He either accepted and respected Sebastian and their relationship? or Kurt would be finishing highschool in France. He needed him to see it, while there was still plenty of time for him to go to therapy and work out any and all issues he could have with it in the future. If by the end of summer he made his peace and overcame whatever his issues where with his son being gay and in relationships with other men? Then there would be real hope at repairing their relationship and Kurt would feel confident returning for his senior year.

Once they hung up Kurt couldn't help but simply turn himself into Sebastian's chest and curl up, tucking his face into his neck with a tired groan slipping his arms around Sebastian and up the back of his shirt resting on the warm skin of his back.

" I know bright eyes. Honestly I dont even know what I could possibly say that would be comforting at this point after the sort of week...hell the last few months that you've had...I just want you to know that I'm here, I'm here and I love you and I'm not going anywhere. There's nothing anyone could say or do that would tear me from your side so no matter what we are in this completely together. You're mine, I'm yours. You're pain is my pain, you're problems are my problems. If there's anything I want you to have faith in it's us and our relationship okay? No matter what happens, we will be together. For as long as you'll have me." Sebastian murmured in a soft voice pressing a kiss against Kurt's temple and stroking a hand through the hair on the back of his hair and tightening the arm around his waist slightly.

"So Forever then? If I'll have you forever?"

"Then forever., I'm yours forever. I'm so in love with you Kurt. You're it for me and I never want anyone else"

Kurt was still for one hesitant moment before he shifted up to look Sebastian in the eyes to see if he truly meant it and he saw nothing but love and honesty staring back at him. With tears filling his eyes he leaned in to kiss Sebastian, savoring in the taste of the person he wanted forever for once feeling surprisingly content in the feeling of belief and trust that what Sebastian said was true. He wasn't sure when or where it would happen but in that moment he had a profound sense of surety that one day he fully intended to Marry Sebastian Smythe and spend the rest of his life loving him with every fiber of his being.

"Forever it is then. I love you Bastian, till the day I die I'll love you. You're my heart, you're my everything. I want you for the rest of my life" he breathed against Sebastian's lips before kissing him again and slowly lifting his shirt up off of him in an effort to get closer to his skin, smiling into the kiss when he felt Sebastian's trembling hands pulled at his own shirt and pulled back to slip it over his head obligingly and letting himself be maneuvered onto the bed beneath his amazing boyfriend and tangling them together contentedly.

"I hope you know I'm absolutely holding you to that" Sebastian told him softly emotions swimming in his eyes resting his forehead against Kurt's one hand on his heart.

"Good. I want you too" Kurt responded with a smile before leaning up to kiss him again.

With tears in each other's eyes they finished undressing and pressed their bodies together; slotting into place like puzzle pieces...as two halves of a whole that belonged pressed together. With each touch and each kiss, each moan and broken whimper of pleasure, each words of love and adoration...it was more than making love. It was making a vow, making a promise to each other, it was shattering whatever wall that had remained between them to protect themselves from heart break.

And afterwards, while they were trembling against one another pressing reverent kisses into every piece of skin they could reach and the fell asleep with Sebastian still pressed inside him Kurt had one final thought before drifting off into oblivion.

Yeah. He could definitely do this forever.


I know it's not as long as my others, bare with me guys my hands are killing me from writing this out so I hope having a bit shorter chapters will be ok. It might take a while for me to get back in the zone, it was a lot harder writing after all this time trying to get back into my various stories. I'm going to be doing read threws for all of them so I can try to go through and post updates as I write. They wont be perfect I can already admit that but I hope that you all wont mind.

All my love & thanks for sticking with me 3
Razzle