Wildest moments


Baby in our wildest moments.
We could be the greatest, we could be the greatest.
Maybe in our wildest moments,
We could be the worst of all..

Chapter 7

Ste's point of view

I wake up with the bed dipping from beside me and try to ignore the sunlight that's creeping in through the curtain, I'm not one hundred percent sure where I am but I'm pretty sure I'm not in my own bed.

It isn't until my mind catches up with me that I remember exactly where I am and who I'm with, all at once I open my eyes and sit up only to find Brendan fully dressed and lying down outstretched beside me, he gestures with his head to the side unit beside the bed before saying,

"I went to a cafe around the corner got us some breakfast and coffee." He passes me over a cup and I hesitate to take it,

"Tah." I grumble, "Think I might be needing it, didn't get to sleep till late did we?"

He laughs before nodding in agreement, "It's quite early, I didn't want to wake ye but I've got to check in with Cheryl." He smiles slightly, "Already phoned her but she wants to see me in person."

"What ya gonna tell her?" I can't help but ask,

He lets out a sigh, "Honestly I have no clue." He closes his eyes before rubbing the bridge of his nose with his index and thumb.

"Think we're better just keeping what happened last night between us?" I ask, not really sure if I want anyone else to know.

He looks thoughtful for a minute before shrugging, "Honestly Steven I don't know, I didn't think last night through."

He partly sounds like he regrets it and even though I'll admit it probably wasn't one of my smartest decisions I don't think I would take it back, "Ya regret it then?" I ask taking a sip of my coffee to cover up the hurt in my voice ignoring the fact it has way too much sugar in it.

He laughs and smirks at me, "Not a minute of it." With a shake of his head and a look of pure honesty I believe him, "Already told ye last night I'm surprised it took so long."

"I thought it were maybe cause your used to getting what ya wanted." I huff with a slightly bitter laugh,

He looks me over for a minute before leaning closer to me and giving my face a once over, I can't help but think I must have a gormless look on my face while I wait to see what he's going to do next. He slowly places a soft peck on my mouth and I let him before he smirks seductively as if he's got me right where he wants me, he does have me right where he wants me, I somehow feel unable to push him away even though I know I should.

He places his hand around my cup which is firmly in my grip but I lessen my hold on it and he sits it back onto the side unit behind him before turning back to face me. I feel trapped with his gaze but before I can speak he's got my face in his grip and presses a rougher quick kiss on my mouth, another one and I'm opening up for him and letting his tongue glide with mine.

In the back of my mind I know we shouldn't be doing this especially with my unresolved feelings for him but I feel myself pull him closer as he pins me deeper into the mattress, every part of my body burning with his touch.

"Thought ya had to go see Cheryl." I sigh when he pulls away while I help him shrug his shirt over his shoulders, hoping the reminder will maybe make him come to his senses and stop what's about to happen because I don't seem to have the will power to do it.

He brings our mouths back together before answering, "It can wait." He says while his hands wander downwards, I sigh when they reach their destination but after a few strokes he flips me onto my stomach and without hesitation his fingers are at my entrance I kneel up to accommodate him and am thanked with a low growl along with a sloppy kiss and bite on my shoulder,

"So fucking perfect." He whispers his voice sending shivers down my spine before he's licking the shell of my ear and pushing his digits in further.

I'm so lost in him that I can't say anything back other than a throaty moan as I push my backside closer to him, wanting him to just hurry up already. Not even five minutes ago we were having a conversation and now here we are, I'm firmly pressed against the bed aching for him while his fingers are hurriedly preparing me.

I feel him move away slightly and hear him rustle around I chance a glance around to him and find him on the end of the bed rummaging through his suit jacket pocket before he finds a condom, I ignore the pang at the realisation that he carries them around with him all the time as if this is just another day to him but I guess it is.

I push it down as he crawls back up to me grinning triumphantly while tossing the condom onto the bed beside me, before I know it he's up in my face again, kissing me hard. I slowly turn to face him while I run my hand along his cheek feeling the slight stubble underneath.

I tug at the hair on the back of his neck and he nips lightly at my bottom lip while he pulls away slightly making me open my eyes and they connect with his straight away, I bring him closer to me again my tongue pushing past the barrier of his lips and he accommodates, partly taken aback.

"Ye sure about this Steven?" He asks me before giving me another light peck.

I bring our mouths together while my hands work on his belt and he takes that as my answer, sometimes words just aren't needed. His trousers and boxers are pushed down his thighs while he kneels over me and I give his erection a few slow, firm pumps not that it's needed. He scrambles with the condom and I can't help but smirk when I see the slight tremble in his actions while he fiddles with the foil.

He quickly covers himself while one of his hands press mine into the mattress and when I feel him pressed against my entrance I spread my legs a little wider, hooking one of my legs over his hip.

"Fuck." He sighs and I feel his breath skimming across my mouth and cheek while he enters me.

I grind against him trying to get as much as him as possible and in return he slams into me nearly all the way, I hastily bite down on his bottom lip roughly,

"Ye have no idea what ye do to me Steven." He grunts while we find a rhythm one of his hands gripped onto my hip while the other has made its way to my neck, gently stroking its way up to my jaw as our mouths meet again in a soft slow open mouthed kiss.

He's fucking me roughly but somehow his kisses and caresses make me feel cherished and loved. I push that out of my mind knowing that's one thought I don't want in my mind, last thing I need is to be thinking this is anything more than what it is, him whispering sweet nothings into my ear doesn't help though.

It's rough and fast and his trousers are still half on but neither of us care because we're so wrapped up in what's happening, "Gonna need ye to look at me Steven." He grunts while he thrusts harder and deeper somehow, I look at him straight away on command, "Wish ye could see yourself right now." He laughs before its followed by another groan, "Not going to last much longer."

"Me neither Bren." I sigh while I feel myself involuntary clench around him.

We give it our all pushing and pulling and I try to hold out as long as I can because I don't ever want it to end, this feeling of ecstasy, of just being on the edge with him is something I can't even describe. We don't last much longer though and as we both reach our climax he collapses on top of me, I run my fingers up and down his back sleepily while we both catch our breath and every now and then he gives me a soft kiss or a warm lick.

"Didn't think it were gonna top last night." I say out loud with a laugh,

He looks taken aback at my honesty before a cocky grin spreads across his face, "Neither did it."

I puff out a breath before shaking my head as I take a look at the wreak that we are while he rolls to the side off of me quickly removing the condom. I make my way off the bed to look at myself in the mirror, my hairs all over the place and my mouth is red raw, I have red marks over my neck and a slight stiffness in my bones.

"Ye know Steven every time I think I've got ye worked out something else happens to surprise me." Brendan sighs from behind me.

I look at him in the mirror and run my hand through my hair unsure what to say back. Instead I turn to collect my clothes, deciding to just get a shower at mine before work checking the time on my phone I'm glad to see I've still got a few hours before I need to start.

"And ye owe me breakfast." He says and I frown while looking at him to see him smirking at me,

"How'd ya work that out?" I laugh at him,

He lifts the bag from the unit and stands before saying, "The fry up I got myself will be cold now."

He places it back down and finally pulls his boxers and trousers back up, stopping me from fighting with myself not to look downwards incase we end up back in bed again, at least if one of us are half dressed there's less chance of it happening.

With that in mind I quickly shove my clothes back on while telling him, "It were your fault, you kissed me mind."

"Sorry Steven, Ye might need to refresh my memory." I grins,

"Don't even think about it." I laugh,

"Can't control yourself around me?" He smirks as if he doesn't already know the answer to his question, he slowly makes his way towards me and before I know it he's chest to chest with me.

I look him in the eye unable to stop myself but not able to come up with anything to say back to him either so I shake my head in disbelief instead.

He smirks before pressing a light kiss on the corner of my mouth and turning away to bend down and pick up his shirt and jacket, "I'll give ye a lift back."

"Hardly gonna walk back am I?" I say finally finding my voice again,

He laughs and shakes his head, "I'll come into the restaurant later, ye can make me lunch to make up for the breakfast."

"Is that right?" I laugh, "Might be better not doing that."

"How come?"

"Don't want to give people the wrong idea, Cameron will be there and he'll definitely tell Leela if ya came in."

He looks thoughtful before saying, "Speaking of which, ye have some damage control to do."

"Damage.. what?" I huff back,

"Walker told your family ye were with me last night remember, going to need to clear that up with them."

"Shit." I sigh while taking a seat on the bed, "Forgot about that."

"What ye gonna tell them?"

"Don't know." I shrug, "Can't tell them the truth about the full thing can I?"

He shakes his head unsure,

"I'll think of something, hopefully I won't need to see them for a while and that'll let me get my story straight."

"Right well rain check on the owed meal then." He grins,

"Not gonna let that go are ya?"

"When it involves food? Obviously not." He laughs, "Thought ye knew me better than that."

I roll my eyes at him while fighting a grin, "We gotta go, I need to get a shower before I head to work."

"Come on, lets go." He sighs while making his way to the door.

I take a quick look around the room, taking in the messy bedsheets and abandoned coffees, part of me doesn't want to leave I just want to stay for a while longer wrapped up with Brendan before I need to go back to reality.

Instead I quickly shut the door and follow him down the corridor. When I step outside I'm hit with a cold, light breeze of wind. He's already at his car waiting for me and I hurriedly make my way to the passenger side, when I get in he's already got the heating on thankfully. I had only been outside for less than a minute but it doesn't take long for me to feel the cold.

I watch him while he drives, can't seem to look away and he doesn't seem to fussed at having my attention until eventually he asks, "Have I got something on my face Steven?"

I frown at him before I click on and he gives me a wry smile, "Just not used to seeing ya drive am I?" I sigh back before looking away.

"I don't get driven about all the time, just when ye know.. I was with ye so I knew we'd be having a drink." He says back while changing the radio station, "When I'm at the office I get driven about because I've got that many different places to go and my phones going off constant."

It reminds me that I forgot to check my messages and when I scroll through them I see a few from Sinead, Cheryl and Leela.

"Let me know when you've spoke to Cheryl, she's text me and I don't want to answer back incase she asks me what I know." I sigh knowing fine well that whatever Brendan does come up with I'll need to back him up.

He's silent for a minute before he speaks, "I'll let ye know what to tell her."

We stay quiet after that and I get lost in my own head while looking out the window when I'm interrupted from my thoughts, "How come ye didn't tell Chez ye left the money?"

"Why do ya keep bringing that up?" I snap at him, can't help that it's a soft spot and every time he pokes at it I get fired up.

He strokes along his mouth, one hand on the steering wheel before he says back, "Call it curiosity."

I huff but don't answer him, how can I? What does he expect me to say? I already felt shitty about the whole situation but when I realised I loved him how could I live with myself if I did take the money, I didn't tell Cheryl because I was ashamed, embarrassed that not only did I make myself look stupid but I couldn't keep my feelings in check either.

We don't speak for the rest of the drive home and when he pulls up outside the flat I'm not sure what to do with myself, I can't exactly kiss him can I but a huge part of me wants to.. Everytime I'm near him I struggle to keep my hands to myself.

"So I'll give ye a phone tonight yeah?" He offers,

"Yeah okay." I say back dumbly,

"What happened last night.. and this morning, I enjoyed it and I don't regret it." The words rush out his mouth while he looks around shiftily and avoiding looking at me. Again I'm reminded of the other times I've saw this side to Brendan, the stripped down and honest version of him, "Ye know this isn't exactly something I do but, we can see each other again can't we?"

I'm surprised he's asked me, had honestly thought after today the only time I would see him was if we bumped into each other through Cheryl, it's on the tip of my tongue to ask why but instead I nod my head and give him a soft smile. I don't get ahead of myself because I know Brendan isn't asking me to be with him, this isn't about feelings for him. It's just two people that share a connection, he isn't going to ask me out for dinner or take me to places like we did when I was faking being his boyfriend. This is him asking me to meet up with him whenever he wants the company or fancies a fuck and instead of doing what's best for me and saying no, I stupidly agree.

He gives me a grin and I return it before I get out the car and make my way to the flat, resisting the urge to look back at him when I don't hear his car moving. I get into the flat and everything seems quiet enough but when I make my way into the living room I see Sinead silently sitting on the couch a sour expression on her face.

"You've got a lot of explaining to do Ste." She hisses and stands up, "We'll leave the fact you haven't been home in days for just now but look at the state of you."

I'm at a loss for words and dumbly mutter, "Just gonna head for a shower."

"No.. No your not." She frowns before moving over to me, "Why are you doing this to yourself?"

I take in a deep breath before I answer her, "Doing what exactly Sinead?"

"Don't give me that look." She exclaims, "Your hairs a mess and you have stubble rash on your face, I saw who's car you were in."

I cross my arms over my chest before playing dumb, "What ya on about?"

She shakes her head, "I know you were with Brendan, have you been with him this whole time?"

I finally admit defeat and move past her to sit on the couch, "Just last night." I tell her,

"What's going on?" She asks me with a frown.

"I had been staying with Cheryl and invited her to come to the restaurant for dinner last night since my family was all going to be there, said she could bring Nate if she wanted but instead she brought Brendan." I huff at the stupidity again but can't bring myself to be annoyed because if he hadn't of come to the restaurant then none of last night would've happened.

"Why would she do that? She knows how you feel about him!"

"Brendan isn't the type of person that does what he's told Sinead." I shake my head, "Cheryl isn't his keeper."

"So how exactly did you end up in bed with him then?" She shakes her head, "Leela's been round and everything."

"What were she round for?"

"Wanted to know when you got yourself a boyfriend, got to be honest so did I." She laughs but then composes herself and focuses on being annoyed with me again,

"Right someone's after Brendan and they came into Hay's last night shouting their mouth off, got the wrong idea about me and Brendan." I tell her, I can't say exactly who it was because then I'll need to explain even more than I already am and I honestly don't want to get into it especially when I've not even wrapped my own head round it.

"Leela said it seemed like the two of them knew each other."

"Yeah they grew up together." I tell her,

"Still doesn't explain how you ended up leaving with him."

"Cameron was working, my dad and Sam were having it out with him so Leela went to be the peacemaker." I huff, "I were gonna leave with Tegan and Peri but then Brendan said he wanted to explain to me what happened.."

She looks at me with wide eyes, "So you just went with him then?"

"I tried not to but even Cheryl said I should just go and it were only meant to be a lift home so I didn't see the harm in it." I shrug, "but then things got heated and we kissed then went to a hotel and the rest is history."

"Why didn't he just take you back to his?" She asks with a frown,

"I don't know we weren't thinking clearly, the hotel was close by."

"So you don't think he didn't take you there cause he felt ashamed then?" I don't know if she's deliberately trying to put doubts in my mind or not.

"Sinead I've been to his apartment so many times." I huff,

"It was different then, he was paying you to be his boyfriend now things have changed."

"I'm not gonna look into it too much, if he were just wanting a quick shag we could've done it in his car."

"Stee!" She exclaims but finds herself laughing, "That's grim."

I roll my eyes at her and shake my head, "I don't like when we fall out."

"Me either." She smiles softly, "there's some things we need to clear up."

"I know." I sigh with a nod, this isn't something I ever wanted to talk about, my best mate up the duff with my possible brother or sister.

She laughs loudly before shaking her head and saying, "It's definitely not your dads."

"How do ya know?"

She scrunches up her nose, "I'm honestly offended that you would think I would go there."

"So you and him never.. but I thought.."

"Whatever you thought, it isn't true." She shakes her head, "Not that the truth is any better."

I frown at her then and really take a look at her, she has bags under her eyes and looks as if she hasn't slept properly in days. Guilt instantly floors me because I know I should've been there for her but instead of sitting and listening to what she had to say and giving her a chance to explain, I stormed out and left her to deal with it all alone.

"I'm sorry I haven't been home." I shake my head, "I should've listened to ya."

She bites into her lip and I can see the tears pool in her eyes, "Wait until you hear who could be the dad, your going to be so disgusted." Her voice breaks and I can see the regret on her face.

I pull her into my arms and cradle her before saying, "No matter what I'm gonna be 'ere alright? Your always gonna have me and I'll be with ya to get through this."

"It's Tony." I hear her murmur against my chest but I'm not sure if I've heard properly she speaks again to clear it up for me, "I slept with Tony, I slept with my step dad."

"How.. How did that come about?"

"I felt lonely and I went over to speak to my mum about Freddie but she wasn't there and Tony was and we ended up having a bottle of wine then before I knew it we were on our third bottle and everything just got a bit hazy." She shakes her head, "He was just being so nice and comforting me then he started talking about him and my mum and that he was feeling lonely now that she had taken on more work." My minds still trying to catch up with everything while I wipe Sinead's tears away, "It just happened, by the time we sobered up it was too late and we both knew what we done was so so wrong but we couldn't change it." She says with a shake of her head, "It was a one time thing and we both swore it would never happen again."

"It didn't did it?" I can't stop from asking, there's no way Sinead would've been able to have an affair with Tony and live with the guilt, plus its Tony I mean he's great and one of the closest people to me but in a sexual way? I don't think so.

She shakes her head, "No but the dates match up, I had been with Freddie round about the same time and I'm on the pill so I thought I was safe. I didn't even dream about being pregnant, Ste what am I going to do?" She asks looking at me as if I've got all the answers.

"I'm gonna run you a bath then I'm gonna phone up and get someone to cover my shift, I'll make us something to eat then we'll talk this through." I tell her, "Have ya told anyone else?"

She shakes her head and looks at me hopelessly,

"I'll just go get that bath sorted yeah?" I offer with an uneasy smile as she just nods lightly, I leave her while I make my way into the bathroom turning the taps on and emptying a load of bubble bath in. I quickly send Tony a text to say Sinead has a bug and that I want to stay home to look after her, I don't even need to ask for the time off he offers to get my cover sorted for me.

"Bath should be ready in ten minutes." I tell her while making my way into the kitchen,

She stands in the doorway before whispering, "Thanks Ste.."

"You're going to need to talk to Freddie ya know that don't ya?" I sigh while I look at her, she looks so weak and fragile that I want to take it back and just help her to ignore her problems but I know what that can do to a person and she needs to face this head on.

"I know." She nods in agreement, her face twisting in pain, "He's never going to forgive me."

"If ya keep doing what your doing, your gonna lose him either way."

"I am aren't I?" She shakes her head, "What should I do?"

"Honestly it's up to you, ya could try explaining it to him maybe he'll understand."

"I highly doubt it Ste." She sighs, "I mean surely it's his and I can get away with just not telling him."

"Would ya really be able to live with yourself doin that though? Think about when the baby's and all the years after that, could ya lie to them both all that time? Not just Freddie and Tony but the kid aswell." I can't help the spiel but I just don't think she'd be able to do it.

"I don't think so no." She says her voice breaking, "Maybe I'd be best just.."

I know what she's about to say, "Ya can't make that decision now, ya aren't in the right mind frame." I shake my head, "Go for your bath and I'll get the dinner sorted for us, we can talk properly when your more together."

She makes her way down the hall and I have a look in the fridge to see what we have in. I decide instead to go get shopping in so I can make us both burgers and while I'm out I should probably go round to my dads, I'm aswell getting it over with before their imagination runs away with themselves.

"Gonna go to the shop are ya needing anything in?" I ask her through the closed bathroom door,

"No I'm okay thanks." She tells me after a few minutes of silence.

The full walk there and time I spend in the shop my minds reeling at everything Sinead has told me, I can't help but feel sorry for everyone involved but especially Diane, she doesn't deserve it.

After a quick shop I have everything I need and make my way around to my dads ready to face the music, I chap on the door and nervously wait on an answer. It's Sam that comes to the door, looking at me unsure,

"Come in Ste." She sighs while opening the door wide enough for me to get in.

Leela and Peri are sat on the couch watching something on the tv while Tegan and my dad are in the kitchen making tea.

"Ste!" Peri exclaims while making her way over to give me a hug,

"Fancy a brew?" Tegan asks me with an arched eyebrow.

"Yeah tah." I smile back tightly at her.

"So who's this boyfriend of yours then?" Leela is the first to mention it and it hasn't taken her long, "You been shacked up with him the last few days? Went round to the flat and Sinead said you haven't been home."

"I were staying with Cheryl." I answer back dumbly while Tegan passes me a cup and I smile in thanks, "I'm not with Brendan anyway, don't know what that weirdo was on about." I laugh lightly referring to Walker.

My dad gives me a tight smile but looks at me unsure, "I've heard stories about that man Ste, he doesn't have a good reputation."

"I know but I'm more mates with Cheryl, him being her brother means I do see him every now and then." I try to reassure even though I'm lying through my teeth, a few hours ago I was rolling around in bed with him.

"As long as that's all it is, I don't want to see you hurt by the likes of him." My dad sighs in relief and I fight the urge to defend Brendan.

Leela is giving me a face that says she doesn't believe a word that comes out my mouth, "Not like my brother would fall for his crap anyway." She says while giving me a look that dares me to argue with her but I just nod my head hoping it'll be enough to keep her off my back.

"Who was that guy anyway? That one that said you were his boyfriend?" It's Peri that asks from beside me,

"I honestly have no clue, some screwball that Brendan knew years ago."

"Yeah well with the way he was going on last night I'd say he needs his head checked." Tegan grins,

"What's his name Ste?" Sam asks, obviously the curiosity is more important than her giving me the silent treatment over the whole Cameron situation, "I swear I've seen him before."

"Simon Walker, maybe as he said he just has one of them faces." I sigh sheepishly,

She looks thoughtful before saying, "His name doesn't ring any bells anyway." She sighs with a shake of her head.

"Brendan he's like dead rich isn't he?" Peri asks me while grinning,

"Yeah, just a bit." I laugh, a bit is an understatement.

She purses her lips before saying, "Maybe you should get with him then."

I laugh nervously at her before Sam hisses, "Peri!"

"What? You going to say you didn't notice the way he was looking at Ste last night?" She scoffs, is this really how transparent he is? My twelve year old sister has managed to see right through it yet I still haven't got him worked out.

"Enough of that please." My dad huffs but is hiding a smile, "Anyway how do you fancy going round to the chippy to pick us all up dinner?" He asks while looking at her.

She rolls her eyes but nods her head anyway and everyone gives their order while Sam jots it down on a bit of paper, while everyone else is destructed Leela manages to corner me, "We're talking about Brendan later, I know mores happening than what your letting on."

I frown at her hoping she doesn't see through me, "What ya on about?"

"I saw the way you were both looking at each other last night, Peri told me he took you home aswell." She raises her eyebrows daring me to argue back with her, "And Sinead told me you weren't home, I doubt he would've took you to Cheryl's or else he would've took yous both home so I know you were with him last night."

I look at her with a scowl not sure what to say back but thankfully am interrupted by Tegan, "Ste what is it your having?"

"I'm alright tah." I say while breathing out a sigh of relief and gesturing to the shopping bags by the door, "Sinead isn't feeling well so I'm gonna make up both dinner tonight."

"Yeah she did look a bit peaky when I saw her this morning." Leela says while moving back to the couch.

As soon as Peri's out the door Sam sighs, "I think it's time we all spoke about Cameron."

She exchanges an uneasy look with my dad and Leela before my dad speaks, "You two might want to sit down for this."

It's mine and Tegan's turn to exchange an uneasy look with one another, she seems as clueless as me.

"The thing is.." My dad says when we're all sat down, "Cameron is Peri's dad."

I frown at that before looking at Sam, there's no way they would've slept together but it's Tegan that speaks my thoughts out loud, "No chance, Cameron was a teenager mum would never have went near him."

"That's the things Tegan." Leela speaks nervously and it only takes me a minute to work it out before she comes out and says it, "Peri isn't our sister.. She's my daughter."

The room is in silence and when I look at Sam she has tears streaming down her face while my dad hugs into her, Tegan looks as if she doesn't believe what she's just heard and Leela looks like she can't believe she's said it out loud but there's a look of relief as if it has been killing her to keep it a secret.


So this did take a little bit longer than expected but I ended up floored in the New Year with the flu and although you would think I would have all the time in the world to get this written I had literally zero focus and by the time I was feeling up to it work got in the way.. I have tried my absolute best to make this worth everyone's wait so I hope you all enjoy it xx