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When Rachel got home he phone began to ring, she looked at it on her dresser and crossed the room, it was Quinn "Hello" she answered, politely and sweetly, to anyone beside's Quinn she would just seem normal, but Quinn knew that she was feeling so much hurt right now
"Hi, how are you?" Quinn asked
Rachel blinked back tears, every time someone asked her this, she just felt like crying, because that's how she was, she was a mess, she felt awful, she wasn't herself, she could do her usual routine because she just had so much pain in her right now, she just wanted the world to swallow her up and she just wanted to not feel anything anymore "Ok" she said, this was lie and Quinn knew it, and Rachel knew that Quinn knew it, but Quinn never said anything
"I made you an appointment, it's for tomorrow at 1" she said and she could tell that Rachel's heart just sank, because tomorrow at 1 this would all become even more real than it already was "Is that ok?" Quinn asked
Rachel took a silent breath, trying to get words to form in her mouth "Uh huh" she said, it was the only thing that she could string together "Finn is coming" she said, and then added "I want you there too"
Quinn smiled "Ok" she said, "And Rachel?" she asked "I'm here if you ever need anything, anytime just call" she didn't wait for her to answer, she knew she was upset right now, she knew she was trying not to cry and she knew that she wouldn't have been able to speak. "I'll let you go" Quinn said "Bye" her voice stopped and Rachel closed her phone and set it back down on her dresser, she moved back over to her bed and lay down and cried, she fell asleep like that, she cried herself to sleep, for what wasn't the first, second, third, fourth or even the fifth time that week, it became a routine, it seemed to be the only way she could sleep.
It was the morning when her alarm went off, she hit the snooze button and the tears came again, and once more Rachel cried herself to sleep, when her dad's didn't hear her up they decided to check on her, they opened the door and saw her lying on her bed curled into a ball, her eyes evident with tears and they decided to just leave her there, to let her have the day off, because what use was she in school when she was in such a state that all she could do was cry. They shared a look when the left the room, but they didn't say anything, they both knew how much of a mess there little girls life was, how much pain she was in, they just wished that she would let them in, they could tell that when they were around that she put on an act, that a shield came up and she tried to show them that she was fine, but she was really crumbling inside.
It was 11 o'clock when she awoke, she looked at her clock and thought it best that she got up, she jumped in the shower, but it wasn't long before she had to jump out and throw up, this happened almost every day, the articles she read on pregnancy said it would pass, she wished it would pass soon, her dad's would hear and they would become suspicious, and Rachel wanted to tell them, not for them to find out, she wanted it to come from her lips, not their minds.
She made her way down stairs and saw that the house was empty, both her dad's were at work, she sighed, she didn't have to pretend like everything was okay today, she pattered into the kitchen and poured herself a glass of milk, she sat down on the sofa and began to drink it.
She looked down at her stomach and she felt sick, There was a life in there that she would be responsible for, a life that came from something so horrible, but it wasn't his or hers fault, the baby was innocent in all of this, she placed her hand on the tiny forming bump and smiled, for the first time in a long time it was a genuine smile, She never wanted to be a parent so young, she always wanted to be married and have a good career and she wanted to have children when she was ready, but it looked like it wasn't going to happen like that, it a few months (about 6 to be exact) she would be bringing a baby into the world, what she would do with that baby she didn't know yet, but she did know adoption was high up on her list, because she really didn't think she could look after a baby, and would she want to? She could give the baby to people who would really love it and take good care of it, probably a couple who couldn't have children of their own.
Her phoned buzzed, it was Quinn to say she was on her way to pick her up for her appointment, her stomach churned and her eyes stung with tears, but she held them back telling herself she had to be strong if not for her for the innocent party in all of this, the baby growing inside of her.
A car horn honked outside a few minutes later, Rachel gathered her things an opened the door, it was Finn, Quinn stepped out of the car and up the Rachel she walked back to the car with her and opened the door, Rachel and Quinn both climbed into the front of Finn's truck, Quinn's hand was locked with Rachel's the whole journey and none of them said a word.
They pulled up outside of the clinic and entered, Quinn went to the reception while Finn and Rachel took a seat in the waiting area "It's going to be okay" Finn said, he seen the fear in Rachel's eyes, she looked at him and nodded, not finding words to say. "Do you want me to wait out here when you go in?" he asked her
She shook her head "I want you both in there, please" she said and Rachel nodded "Of course" he said, Quinn joined them a few minutes later, she once again took Rachel's hand as they all sat nervously waiting.
They only waited about 5 minutes before her name was called, Rachel looked at each of them and they each gave her a nod and a small encouraging smile. She stood up and both of them joined her at her side, they walked slowly to the room, the doctor introduced himself and he noticed Quinn, he was also her doctor to, she smiled at him, he directed Rachel to the bed and both Quinn and Finn were just behind her, she pulled up her top and the doctor began the ultrasound.
"Al healthy here" he said with a smile, "Your about 13 weeks and the heartbeat is great" he said looking at her, he was confused with the tears in her eyes, she looked so upset and scared that he didn't quite know what to say, he chose to say nothing. Both Finn and Quinn held onto one of Rachel's hands and they both looked at her face, just in case anything happened "Do you want to know the sex?" The doctor asked
She looked at Quinn who nodded at her "Whatever you want Rachel" she then looked to Finn who smiled at her reassuringly
She nodded at the doctor who smiled back at her "You're having a healthy little girl" Rachel broke into tears at this, Finn stood up and embraced her in a hug, his arms wrapped around her small body and a tear escaped his eyes, seeing her like this made him want to do anything he could for her, but there was nothing he could do, nothing he could do would make this situation any better, and he didn't like that at all.
Quinn shared a look with the doctor, which told him pretty much everything and stopped him from asked any more questions. "Well Rachel were done here, just make sure you book another appointment for a few weeks so that we can check up on you" Rachel looked at Quinn who nodded, she knew exactly what she meant, Quinn excused herself and made for the reception to book another appointment for Rachel, she managed to book one on the same day as her next one, her final one before she would be going into labour, it really hurt her to think of all the pain she felt when she found out she was pregnant, she could never imagine what Rachel was going through, all she knew was that she would do everything and anything to try and help her.
