New Beginnings
Chapter Seven: Control
When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me
-Evanescence, My Immortal
A/N: Sorry this hasn't been updated in almost 2 weeks. Been grounded, internet connection was fucked up, I was out of town, and dance recital(3 nights). I think that's a pretty damn good excuse as to why I haven't been updating. Don't you?
EPOV
I raised my eyebrows as I turned around to face Bella after she flicked me on the back of the head. I've been bitch slapped, punched in the face, kneed in the balls, and anything else you could think of, but I haven't been flicked in the back of the head. Well since after elementary school I haven't.
"I'm coming by tomorrow night to start our project Ok?" Oh. Well if that's all she wanted…
I nodded at her then went back to making out with some slut bag who's name I didn't even know. She wasn't a good kisser. At all. Way to much tongue and saliva for my liking. I pulled away in time at watch Bella walking away, her hair swinging behind her. God she had gorgeous hair. It looked healthy even though it was obvious she had died it so many times it was fucked up.
"Edward!" Someone yelled in my ear and broke me out of my trans.
"What the fuck?" I yelled back. What was her problem? I was right there, no need to break my goddamn eardrum.
I turned to look at someone who I would normally think was hot, but not when Bella was just standing next to her. Bella was gorgeous, I didn't know what it was about her but she was just amazing looking. She wore a shit load of makeup, sure. But I could tell she didn't need it all, it just went with the emo thing.
The girl I was looking at had strawberry coloured hair, light green eyes and a pout on her face. "No need to yell at me, Eddie."
Holy shit what was this girls problem? Eddie? No need to yell? Does she even realised that she just yelled load as fuck into my ear? I rolled my eyes then got up and started leaving but before I could get very far she grabbed onto my arm and pulled be back, "Where are you going Eddie?"
Jesus Christ did she not get the fact that I didn't want to be around her? "Anywhere where your not," I said icily. I probably freaked her out, making out with her one second, yelling at her and leaving the next, I didn't know what got into me so I couldn't tell her either.
She let go and started to pout again, so I just rolled my eyes again and started to walk away.
What was wrong with me? Thinking about Bella like she was my soul mate, wanting to stop a make out session with some girl in a short skirt that showed to much leg, a tank top that showed to much cleavage, and boots that made her look like a hooker.
That wasn't my norm. Usually I'd make out with them, get a bed, get up her top and down her pants-I stopped thinking abruptly, because I just realised how wrong that was. Getting in someone's pants who's name I didn't even know and wouldn't call back (which usually gets me a slap in the face, but common, a punch would be way more impressive.)
I sighed and looked up, realising that I passed my dorm I started to turn around but then I realised I didn't have any classes tomorrow, so its not like I'd have to be up early or anything. I decided that I'd go to Bella's dorm and start the project.
I'd gotten the room number from Alice, and it was still in my pocket. Guess I'm in luck, I thought to myself as I started walking towards Bella's dorm.
Now all I have to do is hope she lets me in…
BPOV
I picked up my knife and started flipping the blade around in my hand. To be honest, the knife held a lot of memories. Yeah, something only an emo would say. It's not like the memories were good or anything but they were still memories.
Thinking back on them I was more then tempted to cut. There wasn't a reason not to, while there were many reasons to do it. I sighed, because I was dying for the rush that it gave me before the blade cut into my skin. I was dying for the pain of it, that way there was no way I could focus on mental pain.
What I wasn't dying for was the fact that I had to hide my wrists afterwards, and the fact that I couldn't get caught by Alice.
I peeked my head out into the small hallway and into the living room, and decided Alice was in her room.
I went into the bathroom and locked the door behind me. I posed the knife on my wrist so that it wouldn't cross over the still-healing cut, then heard a light knock on the front door.
"Alice! Do you mind getting that?" I called out, hoping she would hear me.
I heard her door open and her feet lightly padding towards the door. She opened it and questioned, "Edward? What are you doing here?" She had obvious confusion colouring her voice.
What the hell was Edward doing here? Thought he would be in that girls pants by now. Huh. Maybe she decided he was a man whore who wasn't worth her time. Oh wait…She was a slut, never mind, she should definitely have Edward in her pants about now.
"Um, I came to see Bella actually…"
Uhmm? More then confused about now. I turned for the door, but the knife cut into my skin. Deep. I had to stop myself from screaming. I dropped the knife and rushed over to the toilet paper, wishing I was back in high school where they had the paper towels.
Here they had facecloths and shit. I couldn't ruin all them by staining them with my blood.
Toilet paper would just have to do I guess. Blood was dripping down my arm at a rapid pace and dripping onto the floor. "Shit," I muttered under my breath. I took a shit load of toilet and applied pressure to my wrist.
I had to bite my tongue to make sure I didn't make any noise.
"Bella?" Alice knocked on the door.
"Yeah?" It was hard as hell (A/N: that's what she said… to Edward ;D*cough*) to keep the pain I was feeling out of my voice.
"Uhmm Edward is here to see you…?" Her voice sounded more like a question then a statement.
"Well tell him to go away, I don't wanna talk to him."
"Uh alright then…" her voice drifted back to the door.
"She's um busy and uh can't talk to you right now…" That must sound odd to him seeing as he knows that I'm the bathroom. Well shit.
"Alice, I heard her say 'tell him to go away, I don't wanna talk to him." Good.
"Then why are you still here, Edward?" She was wary, and sounded like she was a tad pissed.
"Because I need to talk to her," he sounded just as pissed as she did.
"Look Edward!" I called, "I'm uh busy, and I'm going to be over tomorrow for the project, I don't have classes so I can come over whenever, you can talk to me then."
"There you go Edward. Now if you'll excuse me I'm going to go to sleep." She slammed then door and walked back to her room.
"Night Bella!" Her voice was cheery again. What the hell was that about?
"Night…" I went over to the sink once the bleeding had stopped a little bit so I could clean it up. The cut was deep and I figured I would need stitches, but I didn't want to go to a doctor because it would be hard to lie about what happened with all the other scars on my wrist.
I would also have to explain to everyone why I was in the hospital with stitches in my wrist.
While I was washing it the blood kept on coming, and the water was tinted with red. "Fuck…" I groaned. I needed stitches, or the fucked up glue that they used, something to stop this fucking bleeding.
I cleaned everything up, put the knife in its case, put it in my pocket and wrapped a towel around my wrist.
Alice was asleep so I didn't have to explain to her where I was going at this time of night. I went in my room and grabbed my wallet, I would need a cab since my Chevy gave up on me a few months ago.
I locked the door behind me and started walking off campus in search of a doctors office.
Once I was off campus and on the streets I started seeing a few taxies'. I raised my hand like I always did when I needed a taxi and one pulled over almost instantly, just like always.
I got in and closed the door behind me, "I need to get to the nearest hospital, please."
The cab driver just nodded and started driving. This was the first time I'd been off the campus and driving around in California, not including the drive to the campus.
It was a nice place, the sun was setting so it was low in the sky, and turned it orange, yellow, and red. Like fire. It was gorgeous scenery and I found myself wishing that I brought my camera. I decided that some time soon I'd come out around this time and take some pictures.
The scene was flashing behind us and soon after we were at the hospital.
"40 dollars please," The driver turned around to look at me.
"Ok, one second…"I took my wallet out of my pocket and gave the man his money. "There you go, thanks."
He didn't speak, just nodded like he seemed to always do. I got out and started walking into the ER.
I looked down at my arm and say that the towel was soaked through with blood. I pushed it against my wrist tighter then before, it hurt and I winced, but held it there.
I opened the door and walked up to the desk. "Hi, can I see a doctor as soon as possible, please?"
She looked up at me then saw the red stained white towel, "What happened?"
"I was cutting some vegetables, then someone knocked on the door so I put the knife down and started turning, but the blade fell on my wrist and its really deep so I was bleeding a lot," I think that sounded possible.
"Ok, ill get the doctor too see you soon, what's your name?"
"Isabella Swan."
"Ok, take a seat."
I nodded then went to the almost empty seats and waited.
Not long after they called my name, "Follow me please," said a young blonde.
"Ok." She led me to a room and told me the doctor would be in shortly.
A few minutes later a gorgeous young man came in. He had blonde hair and brown eyes. There was something about him that made him extremely handsome.
"Hi Ms. Swan, I'm doctor Cullen." Cullen… That's Alice, Edward and Emmett's last name. Jasper and Rosalie's was Hale. I'm pretty sure Alice said something about her dad being a doctor, and him working nearby.. Could he be their dad?
"Hi doctor Cullen… Um I hope you don't mind me asking, but do you have children going to the college nearby?"
He gave me a funny look, which probably means that I'm right, he was just freaked that I knew, I probably sounded like a stalker. "Yes… Emmett, Edward and Alice… why?"
I smiled at him, "I go there with them… Alice is my roommate, and she told me about her dad being a doctor who worked nearby, and obviously you have the same last name so I was just wondering."
He smiled back and a look of realization crossed his face, "Ah, you must be the infamous Bella then."
I blushed, realising that one of them must have talked about me, "Yeah…"
"I've heard a lot about you, you seem like a nice young lady."
I didn't have a response so I just nodded.
"Now Bella, what happened to your arm?"
"I was cutting some food, and I heard someone knock on the door so I put the knife down to go answer it and as I was turning around the knife fell on my wrist and cut me."
"Ok, let me take a look…" He started taking off the towel and I pursed my lips, hoping he wouldn't ask about the other scars. He didn't, but he definitely noticed.
"Alright, I'm just going to clean that with some alcohol then I'll give you some stitches.. Or would you rather me just glue it together?"
"Ok, and would the glue be alright?" I asked.
"Of course." He started cleaning my cut and I winced a lot, it stung like fuck. When he was done he said he would go get the glue and be right back.
I nodded and waited for him to come back.
"Thank you, Carlisle," he smiled and nodded.
I walked out of the ER and went to find a cab.
One pulled over for me and I gave him the address, then we were off.
I was tired by now and wanted to go to bed so I leaned my head against the window and closed my eyes.
"40 dollars," the cad driver said in a bored voice.
I gave her the money then got out of the cab. I started walking to my dorm in the cold night. I wish I had full length pants on instead of shorts. I crossed my arms over my chest and tried to keep my teeth from chattering.
It was a long walk and I was getting extremely cold but then I finally reached my dorm. I ran up into my room and quietly put my shoes away and went into my room.
I took off my shorts and pulled on some sweat pants and a tank top then got in bed and lid there with my eyes closed, waiting for sleep to come.
Sorry this took so damn long, you know my excuses. I didn't like this chapter. At all. It sucked ass. Hope you enjoyed anyways.
Ok so this morning I had an idea for a fanfic. Hope you like the idea tell me if you do please..
So Jake is a werewolf. Edward is a human. Bella is 18 and pregnant. The child isn't Renesmee. Well she is, but she's not the half vampire that Jake's supposed to love. She's someone totally different. Will Jake imprint or has he already? What will this do to Bella&&Jake's friendship? Not the best summary but I think if I do the story it'll be better.
So tell me what you think… and review…
Xx
Sofia
