Acacius

Summary: "Acacius" Latin form of Greek name Akakios meaning "Not evil". Oz Vessalius is a young demon being schooled on how to interact peacefully with humans as he finds himself pushed into the care of a bishonen but is he really a human? A Demon? A Blackbird?

Chapter 7- Memory


Memory- The mental capacity or faculty of retaining and reviving facts, events, impressions, etc., or of recalling or recognizing previous experiences


'Did I get it?' Oz thought dazedly trying to remember where he was but all he saw was darkness and felt cold. He smiled bitterly as he sat up looking around the darkness. 'This is familiar.' He thought staring straight up as he let a sad smile form on his face. 'I could have sworn I have at least another year... Hmm, maybe that's why Vincent appeared. He wanted to finish up the unfinished but Angels can't murder innocent people, well I'm not technically innocent.' He thought lying back down on what he figured was the floor as he remembered what happened. 'I didn't think you could die from jumping into the ocean... I guess jumping head first wasn't the smartest thing to do especially with the rocks and the dangerous height... Oh well. I can't recall if I was even able to get Gil's necklace back and won't know unless I get out of here. Why bother?' He thought with a scowl as he stared at the darkness. 'This will get boring... hell it's boring right now.' Oz thought with a small sigh as he tried to speak but no sound came out of his mouth. 'Great... I've been silenced.' He thought with a roll of his eyes.

"No!" A voice calls suddenly causing Oz to sit up and look around curiously wondering were the voice had come from. "Hey don't close your eyes!" The voice calls realizing that it was his own voice. "Please, don't leave me." It cried out causing Oz to throw his head back gripping his head.

'That's me! Ha... ha... hah... Is this what human's call your life flashing before your eyes when you die?' Oz laughed feeling strange unfamiliar emotions fill his mind. He opened his mouth to scream from the shock but nothing came out as the voices continued.

"The kid is actually crying... ha... Gilbert-sama really did himself in with this one. He's sure to be punished when he gets back to heaven." Another voice says quietly as Oz felt rage fill his body and a flash of an angel's face appeared in his mind.

'DELMAR, GILBERT HAD DONE NOTHING WRONG! GOD HAS NO REASON TO PUNISHED HIM!' Oz shouts in his head as he listen to his own voice in the memory say something completely different.

"God will protect Gil... He'll protect Gil from people like you." His voice echoed with a serious voice as his head was filled with laughter of other people.

"It's your fault! If he had only killed you like he was suppose to we would have never had to go to such lengths, so it is your fault my Niichan died." Another voice says in an enraged tone causing Oz to start to tremble with wide eyes knowing who that voice belonged to as he felt tears forming in his eyes as images of Gilbert's body disappearing right in front of his eyes passed through his mind.

"You alright, kid?" A girl's voice says soft in amusement and Oz relaxes slightly knowing who it was feeling the strange feeling start to twist painfully in his chest.

"I... They killed my best friend and then his body disappeared, just who were those people. You saw then right? Right Alice!" His voice echoed softly and Oz tensed up with a wicked smile forming on his face.

"They're Gods followers... The angels of heaven. They killed your friend because he was better then they were... If you want to make them pay do something about it." Oz says with the girl's voice and he fell backwards letting her finish feeling the bitterness and the betrayal, emotions that he was familiar with from being a demon.

"A-Angels... b-b-but, Gilbert is one of his children! He had done nothing wrong, he's committed no sin! How can angels just strike him down like that? Why! Why would God do that to such a person that did nothing but worship him and fallow his words to the letter!" Oz's voice shouts in rage and he heard the girl chuckle.

'Just how much will I remember... I've forget how much I had forgotten...' Oz thought sadly wondering why he hadn't ever remembered how he had met Alice.

"It's just how he is... Gives kindness just to take it away again." Alice's voice said casually as Oz nodded staring at the darkness.

'That's so true... So it was Alice who I got my image of him from.' Oz thought with a small smile as he felt the tears run down his face. 'Is it possible that the memories of the past are triggering human emotions? But I am not human; how could this be possible?' Oz thought touching his cheek trying to whip the tears away but he couldn't dry his face for some reason.

"He does not! He gives us opportunity and a chance to prove ourselves but Gilbert suffered so much in the asylum! Why punish him? He had done nothing wrong! He protected me." Oz's voice shouted in sorrowful pain and Oz laughed silently.

'That's right... Gilbert killed those men in the Asylum to protect me from them... He's a good boy.' Oz thought silently with a scowl gripping his fingers tightly together.

"If he protected you then, why didn't you protect him? Instead of cutting him down." Alice's voice questions and Oz gasps with wide eyes.

"I-I-I don't know... " Oz's voice says in a desolate way causing Oz's body to tremble in shock.

'I-I cut... I cut, Gi-' Oz thought in shock as he quickly sat up trying to remember when he did that but the memory wouldn't come to him.

"It's not your fault though... It the one that made you do it, you know who that is, right?" Alice's voice says in a cool way causing Oz to tense and lean forward onto his hands trying to remember what he had done.

"God did..." Oz's voice growled in rage as Oz lifted his head trying to stand but his legs wouldn't move.

'He didn't... It wasn't... I wasn't the one that...' Oz thought with wide eyes trying to pull him self out of the memory to think of something else.

"Hou? What an interesting expression... but I have other business to attend to since you're no longer pure and have blood on your hands I cannot take you in for my grade." Alice says casually as Oz heard himself gasp.

"Wait! I-I have a sister! S-She should be still in that orphanage!" Oz's voice states causing Oz to grab at his hair and try to scream at the sick and twisted feeling that he had felt when he had suggested that.

'I sold my own sister!' Oz shouted in his head as he slammed his head onto the ground trying to forget what he was remembering.

"hum? A sister? Is she a full blood sibling?" Alice's voice asked and Oz covered his eyes knowing that he had nodded when she asked that. "That'll work... Why don't you go get her for me." Her voiced echoed and Oz pulled his knees up to his chest.

'S-Stop it... I don't want to remember this.' Oz thought digging his nails into his skin as he drug them down his face.

"Of course... She'll do anything I ask of her; you saved me after Gil died, the angels were afraid to touch me after you appeared, she'll definably go with you because of what you did. If it'll help you make the grade then I'll give her to you." Oz's voice says sounding that he was in awe over something as Oz buried his face in his knees shaking as if he was freezing to death.

'I-I can't... I wouldn't... Ada was there when I woke up. She was smiling at me happily! I didn't betray her... no... NO!' Oz shouted in his head thrashing about trying to shake the memory away knowing it was false wanting it more than anything to be false. 'THIS ISN'T HAPPENING!' Oz shouts letting out a scream as he felt a sudden burst of heat cover his body.

His eye bolted open and he was sitting in a pool of warm blood and he let out a shriek letting the feeling that had appeared get the better of him as he jumped up looking around at the people as he saw a group of trembling children in the corner of a room that was filled with bunk beds. He looked at each bunk bed and saw a man or woman tied to it ripped apart as if an animal mulled them. He then heard a pained scream causing him to spin around just in time to see a horrified sight. If he wasn't currently suffering from the return of all of his human emotions he would be very proud of his self but the sight of him standing in a pool of someone else's body with dark rings under his eyes that were wide like a mad mans would as he spun around gleefully.

"Ahh... this is wonderful, Look at what happened! You took something from these children so I took something from you all! I will never let you live it down! Aha... ha ha ha ha ha ha! That's funny because you all are dead... well almost dead!" The bloody boy that was Oz Vessalius shouts clapping his hands together with childish laughter. "God is going to be so proud! I'm doing something so wonderful! I'm protecting all of the children in this orphanage! Do you hear me my friends! These people won't ever hurt you again! Sisters, you understand right? God puts us into this world to under go hardships and make choice! He puts people into our life and easily takes them away from us! We are just as capable of doing the same thing as he does! Is it wrong? No! It is simply the way it is!" The Oz squeals in joy as he danced toward the group of children and the two nuns that where standing in front of them protectively.
"NO! YOU'RE WRONG!" A girl's voice shouts causing Oz to stop dancing and stare at the group of children searching for the one who told he was wrong. "You-You killed people! You killed in the name of GOD? That's what a mad man says! You killed because you killed! You killed someone, Oniichan!" The girl's voice shouts as a blonde girl pushes her self out of the crowd. The bloody Oz stared at her in shock before smiling gently.

"Ada... So there you are. They haven't hurt you right? No rape or beatings? You're a good girl, Ada... I've always loved that about you." Oz says smiling brightly causing the girl to relax slightly.

"Yo-You recognize me..." Ada says with tears in her eyes from fear or happiness no one can be sure.

"Of course... We haven't seen each other since we were really little but I would never forget what you looked like... God has made me realize something, you see Ada. Once you kill someone who is very beloved to you; Once you lose those precious thing that make you feel... it's so easy to kill." Oz says with a wicked grin as Ada runs over to him and slaps him across his face.

"Don't you dare say something like that! Don't speak like that Oz-oniisama!" Ada shouts as they hear a nun shout for her to get away for she was killed.

"But it's the truth... heh, it doesn't matter. I found a home for you Ada... A woman named Alice wants to adopt you. Isn't that nice? She need someone like you to make it." Oz says softly looking up at Ada. "She'll be waiting for us... but for now take them all out side." He whispered softly leaning over and kissing Ada's cheek causing her to back away with fearful eyes.

"Niisan what are you going to do?" She says stepping backwards, watching her brother walk over to the large oil lamp that was hanging in front of the window. He grabbed it and opened the tank before throwing it onto one of the men. "NIISAN!" She shouts trying to stop him listening to the man cry out in pain from the oil entering his wounds.

"Go or I'll burn you all to the ground!" Oz shouts pushing her back causing the group of children to hurry out of the building. A nun ran over and grabbed Ada pulling her out of the building while Oz went to each window and took the lamp off of it before throwing the oil all over the trapped people. "Now, you will lose something just like all of those children... Just like me and the best part is you won't have to feel the pain for much longer." He says pulling several matches out of his pocket. He lit each one before setting all the people on fire. He then burst into a laughing fit and dance like a mad man as the fire spread across the beds.

The whole time this was going on Oz stared at his old self, seeing how insane he was and he felt regret and pain ripping at his chest as he listened to the screams of pain from his victims. His whole body shaked and tears poured from his eyes as he let out a horrified scream covering his eyes not wanting to see anything more of the memory but it kept playing inside his head.