Her hand shook as the tears streamed down her face each word she wrote down in the paper hurt her print curving an winding just like her feeling. The last thing she scribbled Carlisle exiting her room to the puckered face receptionist who didn't even look up when she stood intro t of the desk with a dull tone "this is for doctor Cullen"

The air seemed denser she breathed easily as she slowly exited the hospital the lights were far to bright making her tears glisten she felt like the morning she woke up alone yet airy.. It may have just been the feeling of being left of leaving something behind. Ether way there was a thud soft and inconstant right where she used to have a heart.

Charlie didn't speak at all the ride home Renesmee cooed to the voices on the radio Bella just stared out the window eyes focused on the yellow lines. She didn't think of Edward not for a moment Carlisle was drawn inside her brain his face his sweater and jeans she let out a small chuckle and the rest of the car fell deathly silent and Charlie gave her a look he looked relived an they pulled up into the driveway.

Charlie was right everything had been very not so expertly placed in her and Renesmee's room. Charlie had let her alone placing down lady bug for a nap Bella stared out the window "at least this isn't my old room" Bella thought out loud

"didn't want to take you back to that place bells" Charlie had place himself in her chair while Bella was turned away.

"I guess that place was always where I was meant to go dad"

Charlie spoke to often and about something's and never about others. He knew Renesmee was different. But never a word he knew Edward was different but that was to many words.

Charlie cleared his throat "I spoke with hank the paper to finalize the divorce are on the table"

Hope rose from her voice "they you found him?"

"No bells it's called abandonment no one can seem to find him. I'm sorry but he is gone"

He was gone without another word Charlie never felt the need to stick around for the emotional stuff. As for Bella she slipped down to the cool floor clutching her knees. Swearing to herself this would be the last teardrop Edward would get from her.

The morning never seemed to come she must have drifted to sleep for a moment because all she could hear was the shrill laughs of Renesmee and her farther?

Bella laughed herself pulling her body out of bed staring out her window. The air was hot and muggy and Charlie must have taken a couple days off because in the yard laid a small kiddie pool overflowing with water and a grown man having much more fun than Renesmee could ever. Bella walked over to the night stand pulling out her swimsuit oddly happily jumping into making her way outside. Bella descended the stairs quickly

"this is our new life" she seemed to chant "we're going to be just..."

Bella swung open the front door silencing her aloud thought process "fine..." she murmured quietly looking at the handsome doctor merely a foot I front of her.

"Oh! Carlisle! I mean Doctor Cullen." Bella covered up her body with her arms "please come in..."

He entered the room in more of a dignified fashion than casual just like he walked around the hospital nothing different she wondered what this meant stuttering out

"may I get you a drink"

"no thank you" Carlisle replayed in a professional manner

"your note" he continued Bella tensed up waiting for more

"you note struck something with in me. I am truly sorry for the pain brought on to you by my family"

"family?" Bella looked up confused

Carlisle cleared his throat "please let me finish"

The world spun out of control as Carlisle spoke of finding Edward teaching him how to be what they were and when Edward left the family. Not once did he say who or what they were what she knew they had come to be. But she assumed this was merely an unspoken agreement and he listened fully.

Bella didn't even notice she was crying until Carlisle moved forward carefully brushing away the tear on her cheek.

"Bella sweet Bella" he whispered his eyes glued on hers her heart fluttering a small grin drawn on her face.

"mommmmmy mommmmmmy" came the screaming wet Renesmee running in from outside. Charlie right in tow. They jumped away from each other looking over to where Renesmee stood

Renesmee looked up at Carlisle and without a second thought went right into his lap jumping up the water flinging everywhere from her wet bathing suit

"Renesmee no!" Bella directed

Renesmee just looked up a Carlisle putting get five little fingers on his cheek smiling

Carlisle froze looking down at the little one placing a soft kiss on Renesmee's forehead

"I believe I should be going" Carlisle rose up

Bella stood almost instantly. Carlisle noticed the look of disappointment on her face

"tomorrow at 6 get u and that little lady bug dressed and ready it's a date"

Bella watched him go out the door jaw on the ground

Charlie was blushing for her as he scooped up Renesmee without a word as she sang out "date, date"