Here With You
I don't know how long we both sat there with looks of absolute shock on our faces, but it seemed like hours. I can't believe that he is asking me to marry him. I never expected that he'd want to get married and I was fine with that. I kind of always saw us together as we are now for the rest of our lives. This is amazing! Granted maybe now that he knows I'm pregnant he'll be changing his mind. I know that my answer is yes, but I need his confirmation that the question still stands with the knowledge that there will soon be a baby in the picture. I don't want to rush him, but the silence between us is starting to scare me.
I had already come to the conclusion that a child might be too much for him. I thought I had come to the realization that it would be okay having to give him up if he couldn't give me and our child the love we would need from him, but now faced with the possible rejection after knowing that he wanted to marry me is almost too much to bear. Could I really live with the loss of him if this is no longer what he wants?
"Molly," he began seeming to regain his composure. He is fidgeting with something in his pocket as he moves so that he's facing me. "This is not what I had in mind for this moment in our relationship, but I want you to know that it is a happy moment. And I was wondering if you would make it even better by becoming my wife?" As he asked he pulled out the most beautiful ring I could ever imagine, a small opal surrounded by diamonds.
"Yes, of course," I cried with tears racing down my face.
A child. I never imagined. How did I not notice the signs? I was so wrapped up in the life that Molly and I were working towards that I couldn't see what was right in front of me. However, when it comes to Molly I have a tendency not to notice what's there, only what I want to believe is the truth. What will a child mean for the two of us?
I watch her closely as we both try to sort through our emotions our confessions have brought. Despite the shock, I can see happiness mixed in with fear. What could she possibly be afraid of? She knows I am here asking her to spend the rest of our lives together. Is she afraid that I will leave her because of our child? Yes, that's what she's afraid of. I need to ease her fears.
"Molly," I said turning to face her. I can't stop turning the ring box over and over in my hand, hoping that I can quell her fears, that I can do this right. "This is not what I had in mind for this moment in our relationship, but I want you to know it is a happy moment. And I was wondering if you would make it even better by becoming my wife?" Watching her light up as I asked her was what I had been imagining for this moment and she didn't disappoint. Despite the tears covering her cheeks I knew Molly was happy.
"Yes of course," she cried before throwing herself into my arms, kissing me as she never had before.
When we finally pulled apart I took her hand from around my neck and placed my ring on her finger. She watched me with eyes shining with love.
I love you Molly Hooper, and when you're here with me I know that together we can weather any storm. You are the light that shines in the darkness of my life and I am happy that you and our child will be sharing that light with me for the rest of our lives."
"Oh Sherlock," she exclaimed kissing me again, just lightly before pulling away again. "You are the most infuriating man, and yet you can be the most sincere. I love you and could not be happier to share my life with you and cannot wait to meet this child we have created together," she said with tears still glistening in her eyes.
