Edward's P.O.V
The last week has been breathtaking. Every moment that I have spent with Bella has been amazing. It's like we were never even separated in the first place. Except… there was tension about the Thanksgiving weekend when she left, exactly one month ago, so no one mentioned it. It's like Bella clams up any time someone mentions anything about Thanksgiving or Forks.
"Well, we'll have to talk about it sooner or later so we can totally move past our break up and move on," I thought as I quietly got ready in the morning, not wanting to wake up Bella.
I walked down to the cafeteria to get breakfast when Rosalie came over to where I sat. I glared at her has she marched over to me. "This better be one good apology…" I thought warily.
"Okay, look. I was just trying to stick up for you. So… don't get bent out of shape about it… Are we cool now?" Rosalie grudgingly said.
"Um… are you kidding me?! What was that! Was that an apology?" I looked up at her and shook my head. "I want an apology for you being a bitch to her. I'm sick of you acting like you can do or say anything to anyone with out any repercussions. You're not better then anyone else and it's about time that you realized that. So either apologize to me for what you said or just don't talk even bother talking to me at all. Which is it?"
"That's the best apology that you're going to get from me, so take it or leave it. I was just trying to help…," Rosalie said.
I got up and threw my breakfast away without another word to her.
"I can't believe that she actually thought she was helping me out by cussing out the person I'm in love with and who I wanted to get back together with at that time. What the hell was she thinking? Well, that's just it, she wasn't thinking."
I walked over to the library and opened my book on Calculus III to study for my Statistically Science test that was tomorrow. Tomorrow was the last day of school before we went on Christmas vacation and I had a surprise for Bella, so I had to pass this test to put myself in a good mood for our little get-a-way vacation that I had planned for the two of us.
"I hope that she isn't going back home for the break. I really want to spend the break with her." I was still studying two hours later when my phone beeped, meaning that I had a text message. I flipped open my phone and it read:
To: Edward
From: Bella
Where are you? I need to talk to you. It's very important.
I quickly replied:
To: Bella
From: Edward
In the library studying for my test that's tomorrow! You're lucky that you don't have any tomorrow. Are you still in the room? I hope so because I'm headed up there right now.
Bella's P.O.V
When I woke up, Edward was gone and I was relieved because I was finally going to call Jacob for the first time since I saw him over Thanksgiving break. And it was about one month since Thanksgiving. I glanced at the time on my phone before I called him and it was 12 here, so it was 9 there. I dialed and waited for an answer….
"Hey…," said Jacob's voice on the other end of the line. He sounded hesitant and slightly angry.
"Hey. Um… how is everything going?" I asked nervously.
"Good. How are you?" he said sounding very angry now. "Long time no talk, Bella. I guess you've been busy, huh?"
"Jake… I'm sorry, but you put me in a really weird position and I'm just calling you let you know that I've made my decision. And I'm sorry but I'm going to stay here… with Edward. You know that you mean a lot to me, but I don't see us being anything else then friends, best friends, but still friends. I love you but I'm IN love with Edward. I don't regret the weekend that we had but I want you to understand that it will only be that weekend and nothing more," I said. I knew that I was crushing him with every word that I said, but I couldn't do anything about that because I wanted him to fully understand where he stood and where Edward stood.
"And, I wanted to let you know that I won't be going to Forks for the holiday break. I think I'm just going to stay at school, study and just relax." I felt horrible and when there was only silence on the other end… I went from feeling horrible to feeling atrocious in less than three seconds. "Jake… please, say something… anything."
"What do you want me to say? That I'm happy that you're with the creep? I'm not happy. You would be happier with me and you don't deserve someone who makes up unhappy. Bella, I love you and I only want what's best for you. I'm best for you and I want you to come home over Christmas break."
"Edward is best for me," I whispered, "and I'm definitely not coming to Forks Jacob. I think that that would be a really bad mistake and that could only lead to heartbreak for both of us if I go back."
"I hope you're making the right decision…" he said gravely.
"Jacob, I am making the right decision," I said strongly. But I was actually thinking, "Oh, I hope I'm making the right decision."
"Well… if you think that you are, then I guess… I'll leave our relationship alone. I'll be happy with just being your friend…" he sighed.
"Leave on a high note," the thought popped into my head.
"I have to go… I love you Jake. And I will never regret or forget the wonderful weekend we shared."
"I won't either," Jacob said, "and I love you too. Bye Bella." I hung up the phone and texted Edward that said I had something important to tell him. I quickly got out of my pajamas and into a T-shirt and jeans and sat at out computer desk… waiting for Edward.
"It's been a month and I think it's finally time to tell him what happened. He deserves to know and I hope he forgives me…and wants to stay with me. Oh boy! I hope I didn't screw up my relationship with Edward too," I thought.
I heard the key turn in the door and Edward appeared before me. My breath caught in my throat and I was stunned. He never failed to take my breath away. He was so beautiful, even after a couple of years of being with him.
"He always makes my heart stop and start at the same time…Yes, I'm definitely making the right decision by choosing him! I just hope that it won't be too late after he hears what I've done to him…" I thought morosely.
He looked and said, "So, what do you want to talk about Bella? I hope that nothing's wrong and you aren't hurt are you?
"No, I'm not hurt Edward. But… I do have something very important to tell you. And I need you to listen to me fully… all the way until the end… before you interrupt or speak. Please, it will be hard enough telling you, I don't want to have to explain my self a million times," I said to the floor. Edward pulled a chair up to mine and sat directly in front of me, touching my knees. He took my chin in his hands and pulled it up so I could look into his eyes.
"Much better. Now you can tell me whatever it is you need to tell me," Edward said meaningfully into my eyes. He grabbed my hands and continued to look into my eyes when I began.
"Okay… you know how we were having soo many problems before I left for Thanksgiving weekend and we went on a break?" I looked at Edward and he only nodded. "Well, I was hurting and lonely and Jacob and I sort of… hooked up for the weekend." I felt Edward's hands tighten his grip on my hands.
"I was just… so hurt Edward. I want to feel loved, and at that time I didn't feel like I was, and so Jacob gave me that love that I was seeking for the moment. But I realize now that that is not what I want or need. I don't want a random hookup with a friend… I want the love of my life, you Edward, to be there with me for the rest of my life. I love being with you and I will never doubt that again, I promise. But I just wanted you to know what I did, even though we were technically on a break. I think that you deserve to know and you definitely deserve a chance to choose whether or not you still want to be with me."
He continued to look into my eyes, silently. After a few minutes of just looking at me, he finally said, "Bella, I love you. And you should already know that I would always choose to be with you, no matter what. But I do need to know, will you ever go back to him? Will you leave me for him? Please, tell me honestly so I won't be heartbroken," he questioned me.
"It was just a one time thing. It will never happen again, I promise." Edward leaned forward and leaned his forehead against mine and said, "Since you won't ever go back to him, I want you to know that I will never leave you. You're only human Bella; you make mistakes just like everyone else. I forgive you and I will always be here for you. I love you."
I threw my arms around him and started to weep. "You are truly phenomenal. You're a perfect boyfriend and I am soo grateful that I have your love and devotion. And I am soo sorry for hurting you. I will forever be making it up to you." Edward hugged me back and picked me up.
"It's in the past, so let's keep it there from here on out. We're moving on! So, I want you to help me study for my test tomorrow, so I can pass and we can start out vacation off to a good start. Aren't you excited? We have two weeks of no school, no family, no friends and only us and our cottage we're renting in Vermont," Edward said excitedly.
"OH MY, You rented us a cottage? I would so love to get away form here for a while. You, like, read my mind! Oh Edward, you're so wonderful. You always seem to know what's best for me…no, us."
The next morning was awful. I woke up at 6:45 in the morning and felt nauseous. I immediately ran to the bathroom and threw up for 20 minutes. Edward knocked on the door and asked sweetly, "Are you okay Bella? Do you need me to get anything for you?"
I told him no and said, "I think I ate bad food last night. I'll be alright but you need to get ready for your class at 8, so don't worry about me and go get ready. I hope you pass the test Hun."
While he was gone, I got off the floor and looked into the mirror.
"I hope this isn't what I think it is. Oh, I don't want to know, but if this throwing up continues for more then three days, then I will test myself on Monday."
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