"WHY DID YOU DO IT?" Cal yelled as he barged into the office.

"Did what?" Elle asked, a bit taken a back by his entrance.

"Don't act as if you don't know what I'm talking about. You know for certain for what I'm talking about. "

"If this is about Ethan then I know you know the reason why. It was Ethan's decision."

"Well, what about me?"

"Cal, this isn't about you or what you wanted. It's about what Ethan wanted. And he wanted to die. He knew what his life was going to be like. He saw what happened with your mum. He saw what you did for her. Saw the sacrifices you made. He didn't want you doing the same for him."

Cal scoffed.

"I know all this from his letter."

"So what's the problem then?"

"My problem is I want my brother. But, I can't have him because he's dead. Because of you."

Elle knew in a way Cal was right. She did kill Ethan. She also knew Cal could blame her as much as he wanted to but, it wasn't going to help. It wasn't going to bring his brother back and Cal was going to have to accept it.

"What do you want me to do?" Elle asked, trying to get him to accept what had happened. "Tell me what it is you want me to do? Do you want me to tell you that I'm sorry? That I shouldn't have let Ethan die? You want me to bring him back?"

All these questions that were being fired at him, only made the truth even more harder to deal with. Cal just stood there shaking his head.

"I just want my brother back." Cal whispered. "I just want him back."

With that, he broke down again. Elle walked over to him and wrapped her arms around him. She let him grieve. After most of the tears subsided Cal left the room. He walked out towards reception and went up to Noel.

"Hey, Cal." Noel said as he saw Cal approach. "How are you feeling?"

Noel mentally hit himself.

"Sorry, stupid question."

Cal smiled weakly.

"It's alright. And in answer to your question, I'm okay."

"Well, you know we're all here to support you in any way we can."

"Thanks. By the way is he still up there?"

"Ethan?"

Cal nodded.

"Yeah, he's still up there."

Cal nodded again, then looked towards the stairs and back to Noel.

"Do you want to see him?" Noel wondered.

"If that's okay?" Cal stammered.

"I don't see why not." Noel replied.

"Cheers." Cal said quietly.

With that Cal left the reception and headed upstairs to where his brother still lay. It was dreadfully quiet inside the room. Cal lingered by the door before walking over to the bed.

"Hey, Eth." Cal started to say. "I know you can't answer me, but I do know you can hear me or at least I think you can hear me. I wish you would just give me a sign so I know."

As soon as those words came out of his mouth he could have sworn he heard Ethan's voice. He shook his head. He was just imagining it. Ethan was gone and he needed to accept that. Cal carried on.

"What am I supposed to do without my safety net? I know you want me to live the life, but it's not my life. It was yours. It should be you who's living the life you want, not me. You should be the one getting married, having kids. I should know. You deserve it. I don't. I never did. You've had to put up with so much over the years. You've had to put up with my mistakes, my mess ups. Worse you've had to clean up my messes and for that I'm sorry. I'm sorry I've always taken you for granted. But, since this is the last thing you want me to do, then I promise you. I'll live the life you told mum. Not only will I have two daughters, who I will name Emilie and Matilda after mum, but I'll have a son too. And I'll name him after you, Ethan, so all three of them will know what a loving and supportive uncle they would have had."

Cal leaned forward and placed a kiss on Ethan's head.

"I love you, little brother." He whispered.

He stroked his hair before closing the door behind him.