''Do you even pray?'' Ray frowned and looked at Dean who clearly suffered by this guarding-duty. Dean was forced to assist Ray to make sure nothing would happen to their beloved priest as he walked down the city to bless people. Normally, this was Luna's job, but since his father were draining her body on energy, she had days when she couldn't even stand up. This was one of those days.

''Does it matter'' it's not a question, but you can interpret it as you please. It was not that Dean rejected Ray in anyway. The fact was that Dean did not like to babysit people in general.

''Just a word of advice… you do know you don't have to accept things you're not okay with. Right?'' Ray asked.

''My father can be really convincing'' Dean pointed out. Usually he didn't mind the demands his father committed them with, however; when it came to guarding… he just didn't like it.

''I see'' Ray said and Dean looked over at him.

''I don't need your pity, nor your advice'' Dean said a little irritated. He was tired of people feeling the need to interfere with his life and acting like they cared.

''Okay first of all, that was rude. Second of all, you my friend is a broken soul and I truly believe you should talk things through. Believe me it does help, and I just want you to know I'm here for you if you need someone to listen. Just be careful with that attitude of yours so you don't push away people and makes them reject you'' Ray pointed out and Dean snorted.

''It depends on which point of view you have. How I see it, people don't have to like me. But then again, I don't have to care'' Dean said.

''I think it is because you're scared'' Ray lifted his head to signal that he was making a statement.

''Is that so. Please enlighten me'' Dean said with a sarcastic tone and looked away, he tried to kill some time.

''You're scared to let anyone in, because you think your unique; that no one will understand you, nor love you for who you truly are''

''Fascinating''

''Also, I believe you're scared about opening up because you've never done it before. And it's out of your comfort-zone'' Ray continued.

''Interesting, now can you bless someone so we can go back'' Dean was losing his temper. He knew better then to insult a priest, but Ray was really crossing the line and to be fair; it was none of his business.

''Are you laughing at me?'' Ray tilted his head to the side.

''Why, are you making jokes?'' Dean replied, now having enough. Ray looked at him and couldn't help but chuckle.

''Fair enough, perhaps it is time to head back'' Ray said and Dean didn't feel any need to object on that.

As they entered the gates, Dean turned to Ray and bowed to mark that he now was done with his part. Ray approved by throwing away a nod and Dean just turned to walk away.

''Just out of curiosity'' he heard Ray say behind him and slowed down his steps until he was still. However, Dean didn't bother to turn around.

''Was it a woman?'' Ray said and now Dean was forced to turn around.

''What?'' he said with a slight frown on his face.

''Spending the day with you, I've tried to figure out what made you like this. First I thought of abuse, but then I figured it can't be the case. My other guess was a woman, but I have a hard time believing that's the reason as well. So tell me, what made you like this?'' Ray immerged his hands and tilted his head to the side.

Dean just stared at the old man. Never had anyone paid this much interest in his life, and this he meant in a not-approving-way.

''Nothing, It's just who I am'' Dean muttered.

''Don't do that, don't start to shut down just when you've begun to open up'' Ray shook his head.

''I can't quit something I haven't started'' Dean mumbled before turning around and starting to walk again. This time it wasn't in a courteously way as he was raised to do, but he didn't care.

''Whatever it is, it sounds more than a broken heart to me. And one day you will open up and talk about it'' Ray said behind him, but Dean just continued to walk.

''But clearly, it's too painful now'' was the last thing Dean heard Ray say before he disappeared around the corner.


This may seem like a rather off-topic chapter but to be honest I'm a little upset right now, and writing helps. This chapter was therefore more for me then the story, but I hope you liked it anyway.