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Things with Edward and I were better- not totally fixed- but better. After we both admitted our feelings for each other, Edward took me back to my room where I promptly fell asleep. Now, I am missing Jacob and wishing that I hadn't been so mean to him last night. One small tear makes its way down my face, and it is then and there that I decide to stop crying over Jake. He left me, and there is nothing I could have done to change that.

"Izzie," Alice sings and comes skipping into the room. I make a face.

"Can I go back to being called Bella?" I ask timidly. Alice's face lights up.

"Oh Bella, are you finally back?" She asks, her voiced laced with bliss.

"Not total

"I talked to Carlisle," she admits.

"And…"

"He's going to talk it over with Esme and then come and talk to you." I smile. Hopefully this means that I will be a vampire before my nineteenth birthday.

"Well, what have you seen?" I ask her.

"I haven't really seen anything because no one has made up their mind, and Carlisle made me promise I wouldn't look." I nod.

"Where's my favorite, clumsy human?" A booming voice enters my room.

"Emmett!" I exclaim. He comes over and gives me a hug. "I thought you and Jazz were out hunting until tomorrow!"

"We decided to cut it short," he shrugs. I look to the doorway and see Rosalie standing there in all her glory.

"Hey Rose." She nods in acknowledgement, and I sigh. She still doesn't like me, though I don't know why.

"So…what are we talking about?" Emmett demands.

"Bella's plan to become a vampire," Alice responds for me. I see Emmett give me a sideways glance to see my reaction to Alice calling me 'Bella'.

"Bella's plan, huh?" He emphasizes the Bella.

"Yes, Emmett," I reply, dryly. "Alice saw a vision; the cancer isn't gone, and I don't want to do this anymore, so Carlisle is contemplating my request."

"Why would someone choose this life?" I hear Rosalie ask, clearly shocked, and slightly angry.

"You can't really choose to have cancer," Charlie says with a chuckle as he walks into the room, obviously not understanding Rosalie's comment. My dad comes over and places a kiss on my forehead. "Hello Emmett, Rosalie, Alice." Charlie turns to me. "Izzie, I just wanted to come and say goodbye before I leave." I smile.

"I'm glad you came by!" Charlie gives me a hug and wishes me well before leaving the hospital. Alice, Emmett, Rosalie, and I talk for hours, and, finally, Carlisle enters my room. All three of his 'children' leave.

"Well Bella, I talked to Esme and we decided to leave this up to you. If it is truly what you would like, then I will do it. Neither of us wants to lose you. You are like a daughter to us." I nod.

"This is what I want," I say firmly.

"Are you absolutely sure? Have you thought about what would happen to Charlie and Renée and Phil?"

"They were going to lose me anyway. This is only going to make it sooner. And give them time to say goodbye." A few fat tears roll down my cheeks.

"Okay, Esme decided that we are going to tell them that we are taking you to Alaska for special treatment. After about two years, you can see them again, if your bloodlust isn't too strong." I nod. "You'll only get to see them once or twice though, because after that, they will get suspicious about the age.

"When is this going to get started?"

"I can get you out of here within a week. Let's call Charlie and your mother and tell them to come say goodbye." Carlisle pages a nurse to get me a wheelchair and he takes me into his office, this time bringing me over to his desk. He puts the phone on speaker and dials my father's cell phone.

My dad answers his phone after one ring. "What is it? Is Bella okay?" There is an edge to Charlie's voice.

"Everything is fine Charlie; calm down. In fact, Bella's sitting right next to me," Carlisle says quickly.

"Hi Dad," I say with a chuckle.

"Hey Bells," he says. "Er, Izzie," he corrects. I smile.

"You can call me Bella," I declare.

"Charlie, we actually wanted to talk to you about Bella's treatment. There is a new breakthrough treatment in Alaska for the specific type of leukemia that Bella has, and, after discussing her case with my colleagues, we determined that it would be the best place for Bella to be. If you and Renée agree, we would like to fly her out by next Sunday at the latest." I can practically hear Charlie nodding on the other side of the phone while Carlisle gives his monologue. It is silent for a few minutes.

"I'm turning around now."

"Okay, bye Dad. I'll see you in a little while."

"Bye Bella, love you. Goodbye Carlisle, thanks."

"It's no problem Charlie." Carlisle places the phone down on the cradle, and then he turns to me.

"I guess it's my mom next?" Carlisle nods, and I groan. "She's going to be impossible. And she'll jump to conclusions, immediately thinking that I died or something." Carlisle dials the number and puts the phone on speaker.

"Hello?" A man's voice answers. Carlisle gives me a confused look and I mouth 'Phil'.

"Hello, Phil?" Carlisle says into the phone.

"Yes," he replies.

"Honey, who is it?" I hear my mom call in the distance.

"I'm not sure. That's what I'm trying to find out," he says back.

"Hi, this is Dr. Carlisle Cullen from Seattle Grace Hospital. I am Isabella Swan's oncologist. Is Renée available to talk?"

"Sure, hold on." I hear shuffling as the phone is passed between my step-father and my mother.

"Dr. Cullen, what is it? What's wrong with Bella? Oh, no, she has died, hasn't she?" My mom asks, all in one breath.

"Mom, I'm fine. Don't worry. Calm down," I say before Carlisle can say anything.

"Hello Renée," Carlisle says, and repeats the same things he said to my dad. She agrees to get on the next flight to Seattle. Carlisle immediately gets on the computer after hanging up the phone, and books tickets to Haines, Alaska; population: 1,811, as of 2000. And I thought Forks was small.

The next week passed in a blur. I said goodbye to all of my old Forks friends. They all believed that they would see me again. Only my vampire family knew the truth. Jacob never showed up, and Edward stayed away so my dad wouldn't suspect anything; not that there was anything to suspect.

There was a rare quiet in my room; all my visitors were in the cafeteria getting something to eat. "Carlisle, go over the plan again with me, please," I beg and he smiles.

"You and I will leave this hospital in about an hour and go to Sea-Tac airport. Esme, Alice, and Edward will meet us there, so it looks like I am the only person taking you. Jasper is going to run there in a few days. He can't stand being in an enclosed space with a lot of humans around him for any period of time. He also doesn't want to be there when we change you." Carlisle's voice lowers at the end.

"Okay," I say, biting my lower lip.

"Are you sure this is what you want to do?" I nod, and tears well up in my eyes. My parents and step-dad walk in the room.

"Okay Bella, I think this is time for us to say goodbye," my mom says, unable to keep the tears from falling from her eyes. I nod and bite my bottom lip harder, willing myself not to shed any tears. Phil steps up to give me a hug first and then leaves the room to give me time with my parents.

"Bye Bella. You get better, okay?" Phil asks just before he leaves. I nod and give him a small smile. My mom wraps me in a tight embrace and I lay my head on her shoulder. I feel her tears falling onto my neck. Renée rubs my back.

"I'm gonna miss you honey," she says, and I start sobbing. "Shhh. Bells, I'll see you soon baby." This statement makes me cry harder, because I hate not being able to tell her the truth. My mom holds me in her arms for a while, stroking my practically bald head and my back. We stay like this for a while until Phil tells my mom that it is time to go. She gives me one last kiss on the head and a tight squeeze. "I love you, Bella."

"You too mom," I reply. She gives me a smile and leaves the room, the tears streaming down both of our faces. Charlie steps up to my bed, the tears glistening on his cheeks. "Dad…" I start to say, but he cuts me off.

"Bella, I don't want you to worry about anything while you're gone, okay. The only thing that needs to be on your mind is getting better. I want you back home." A sob escapes my throat. As much as I want to be changed, I can't imagine not having Charlie in my life. "I'm gonna miss you honey."

"Daddy," I whisper and wrap my arms around him. Charlie kisses my head and gives me a hug.

"I love you Bella. Get better, okay."

"I love you too Dad." Charlie walks out of the room and my heart splits into two. He walks back in a few seconds later.

"I forgot; I have something for you." Charlie reaches into his pocket and pulls out a small square box. He hands it to me. I open it and gasp. It is a small silver heart engraved with my name in script on the front, on a long silver chain. "Open the heart," he urges me. I open the heart and find a picture of my dad and me from one of the many summers I was in Forks. I look about seven.

"Thanks Dad, it's beautiful," I whisper. Charlie gives me a final hug and leaves the room. I am shaking with sobs. Carlisle walks over to me and puts a hand on my shoulder.

"It's going to be okay," he says and prepares me to leave.

A few hours after leaving the hospital, we arrive in Alaska. Carlisle, Alice, Edward, Esme, and I drive to their house which looks a lot alike the one they had in Forks. Carlisle gives me a short tour, before ending at his office. Alice and Esme are already in there. In the middle of the room is a small operating table. "Are you ready Bella?" Carlisle asks and I nod uncertainly. I hadn't really realized that it would happen immediately after I got here, but I guess it is better this way; I don't have to worry and anticipate the change.

"Umm. Just one question," I state. "What's going to happen with my hair? I'd rather not be a bald vampire."

"Once you are bitten, the venom with act as sort of a catalyst and speed everything up, so your hair growth will be the same. Once the change is complete, your hair will stop growing at whatever length it is. But don't worry, this won't mean that you are going to be covered in hair when you wake up." Carlisle has a hint of humor in his voice at the end there.

"Okay," I nod. "I'm ready." Carlisle helps me onto the table he set up and starts another IV, so he can give me morphine to dull the pain. I am too preoccupied with other things to even pay attention to the needle. Alice and Esme give me a kiss on the forehead before Carlisle leans down to my neck. He raises my chin with his hand.

"I'm sorry Bella. Even with the morphine, you are going to be in immense pain."

I shrug. "It's kay." Carlisle lowers his head and places it in the space between my neck and shoulder. He opens his mouth and places his teeth on my neck. My conversation on the plane runs through my head and I yell out, "wait!"

A/N: Ahh!! Cliffie!!! What conversation on the plane??? And why does Bella want Carlisle to stop?? REVIEW!! I'll send you a preview and update more quickly!! I really wanted to put some Bella/ Edward in here, but that has to wait until next chapter!! Where I can promise there will be some!!!

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