Chapter 7
What did you do dream about?
At around half 2 in the morning Penelope got woken up when she heard Derek screaming for help. She quickly got out of bed and walked quietly into his room and got into bed with him. She touched Dereks arm and he jumped slightly but still continued to scream like he was in pain. She felt extremely sorry him. He never told her about the nightmares he had. She wispered quietly in Derek's ear to try and calm him down and wake him up. Soon after he started to calm down and wake up. She decided to get him some water. When she got back he was awake completley and had sat up. She handed him the water and he nodded his thanks in response.
She decided to break the silence after a few minutes of him remaining quiet. 'do you want to talk about it? What did you dream about?' she asked with concern in her sweet, calming voice. He sat there thinking about it for a while after his breathing had started to calm down. He nodded and took her hand. 'Its the same everytime it just gets more and more detailed' he started in a hoarse voice. She quickly asked something before he could continue. 'How often do you have the nightmares?' she asked carefully not wanting him to stop telling her and put the wall back up again. 'every two days' he said and sighed sadly whilst shaking his head. 'its ok, carry on'.
He looked at her, looked back down and said 'Its about Buford. He's in prison you know. But in my dream or nightmare he escapes. He has a friend prison that just started working there. Anyway Buford told him that he never did anything to me or the other boys. He said that he never touched me and never got me to drink and never took me to the lake. And his friend spoke to his boss and told him to let Buford out, so he did and when Buford escapes he comes to Quantico and knocks on my door. Somehow he finds out where i live. He breaks in to my house and then waits for me to come back from work. When i come back he asks if I want a cup of coffee I just said yea and told him to get out of my house. I decided to go in the kitchen and make myself some coffee. When I come back in he is still there. I yell at him and try and get him out of my house but he doesn't move he just stays. In the end I decide to drink my coffee. After I had finished my coffee I started to feel dizzy and started being sick. I realized he had drugged me. The next thing I know he has his hands on me and tells me to 'grow up and be a man'. And then he starts… to hit me. When I am on the floor he kicks me in the head. He tells me to get on the bed and because I am drugged i do what ever he tells me to. Once i am on the bed… he starts touching me… and yea you can guess what happened. But then I wake up after that.' He tells her every thing that happens in his nightmares. He didn't realise he had started to cry, whilst he told the story, until he felt her soft hands on his face and wipe the tears away.
She hugged him. She felt a mix of emotions. She too had tears in her eyes and when he saw them he wiped her tears away carefully and gently. She felt sorry for him, the fact that such a pure innocent soul like his has gone through this is not right, no one should go through it but he doesnt deserve it either he was just a little boy when it happened. She felt happy that he was opening up to her so that he doesnt have to go through it alone. She gave him a hug and kissed his cheek. 'how long have you been having these nightmares for baby boy?' she asked carefully, he answered a few seconds later and said 'since the last time I went back to Chicago, which was a few months ago i guess.' He sighed feeling frustrated. 'why haven't you told me or any of the team. We could help you.' She asked in a soft tone. He answered back truthfully sounding tired and broke even to his ears and said 'Because i thought it would go soon but it hasnt and I really don't want to talk to someone about it. I don't think it would help and please i am begging you can you not tell Hotch.' He asked carefully, begging that she wouldnt tell him. 'can I think about it, because i want you to tallk about your feelings?' she asked softly. He only nodded lying back down and yawning.
She started to get up when he called her back and said 'stay please?' he asked in a broken voice. She nodded and got back into his bed next to him. She layed her head on his warm, bare chest. Just as they were both about to fall asleep he wispered in her ear 'Thank you baby girl, I love you'
'Its ok baby, I love you too' she said.
They both fell asleep with a smile on their face.
