Disclaimer: Do I Have To?
A 'Not-So' New Beginning.
Chapter Six: Sorry, blame on it me.
I understand that there are some problems,
And I am not too blind to know,
All the pain you kept inside you,
Even though you might not show,
If I can apologize for being wrong,
Then it's just a shame on me,
I'll be the reason for your pain and you can put the blame on me.
You can put the blame on me
Said you can put the blame on me
You can put the blame on me.
Sorry, blame it on me – Sung by Akon.
Danny POV:
I had no idea what I was even doing anymore. Nothing had a purpose. My life was completely fucked up and it was all my fault.
How could I have been so stupid? I let the one person I have ever loved get away from me because I was some stupid teenager.
Maybe if I hadn't been so stupid as to leave her in the first place, maybe we would still be together.
Great real Danny. Like that would actually have ever happened. Bella would have realised I was no good and left me herself.
Now Bella and our son where half way across the country because she had gotten away. Completely.
it wasn't like I could get her back either; she was going out with that Edward dude, or whatever his name was. Seriously, what year was he born in? 1900? He was probably better for her than I was anyway.
"Daniel!" My Mom's voice shouted up the stairs.
"What?" I shouted back. I rolled over in my bed and buried my face in the pillow. I wasn't in the mood. I was never in the mood just lately.
It was all my Mom's fault that Bella wasn't even talking to me anymore. She had been talking to me until all of that happened.
"Daniel you need to get up." She was stood at my bedroom door now. Had she not heard of knocking?
"I don't need to do anything." Fuck off.
"Just let it go, Daniel. If you hadn't been so idiotic in the first place maybe you would still be with Isabella." What was it with this woman and using full names? She knows I hate being called Daniel.
My mom had just pulled the last straw.
"Me being idiotic?" I sat bolt up in my bed. "Mother you never wanted us to be together in the first place. You are the reason Bella won't even talk to me anymore. You are the reason why I am most probably not even allowed to see my Son anymore. You and only you are the reason why the only person I ever loved is probably pretending I don't exist right now." I yelled. I was standing in the middle of my room now; I had my fists balls up by my sides.
"I am not the only reason Daniel. You chose to leave her."
"I did not choose to leave her. You gave me an ultimatum which meant I had to choose." I breathed out. "Now get out."
"Daniel..."
"GET OUT!" I walked forward and slammed the door in my mother's face.
I sat back down on my bed and put my head in my hands thinking about the day my Mom had made me make that choice.
--Flashback.—
"I have to go. I'll be back later. Okay?"
"Mm-Hmm" Bella reached up and kissed me. "I'll miss you."
"I'll miss you too." I smiled. "Bye baby." I patted her growing stomach and kissed Bella again before walking to my car.
I got home and I wasn't even inside the house before my Mom started yelling at me.
"This has gone to far now Daniel."
"What are you talking about Mom?" I was sat on the couch watching Football on the TV. Mom came in the room and turned it off. "Hey! I was watching that."
"Listen to me." She stood in front of the TV. "You can't do this anymore Daniel."
"Can't do what anymore?" I folded my arms I was thoroughly confused.
"See Bella anymore." How could anybody come out with something like so bluntly and unemotionally? My mother that's who.
"Why can't I see her anymore?"
"It's not right Daniel. She's not good for you."
"And you would know that how?" I laughed. Right now I wasn't talking my Mom seriously.
"This is serious Daniel."
"Mom. She's having our baby in about 4 months. She needs me. I need her. I can't just, just leave."
"Yes you can Daniel."
"What kind of sick person are you Mom?" I stood up from the couch. "I'm almost an adult Mom. I can make my own decisions." I walked to the front door of the living room.
"If you don't leave her then you can forget about that Basketball Scholarship." I turned around and faced my mother.
"What?" I almost snarled.
"You heard what I said Daniel." She folded her arms and glared at me. "Either leave Bella or I'll tell U of A that you can't accept their Scholarship." (A/N: Ah, good old High School Musical 3.)
My Mom knew that other than Bella, Basketball was my whole life. I had worked so hard to get to where I was with it. I had basically been told I could have a scholarship at the University of Albuquerque since I was fifteen.
"Why are you doing this Mom? You can't expect me to make that decision. Basketball is what I have dreamed about since I was a little kid!" I shouted the last part.
"By her having this baby you'll be tied down, you won't be able to go to College. Don't let her ruin your life as well as her own."
"We won't be ruining our lives. This is what we want Mom. We want each other."
"Choose Daniel."
--End Flashback. –
I can't believe I made the biggest mistake of my life that day. I chose my Basketball career over Bella and our child.
I didn't deserve to live.
I didn't even want to think about when I had told Bella that we couldn't be together anymore. I knew that I wouldn't be able to go through that again.
I pulled myself together and got up from my bed and walked to the shower. After I had showered I got dressed and sat back down on my bed again.
College was out for the Summer already, even though it was only February. The Basketball season was out so we were out for the Summer. (A/N: Sorry if this isn't right. I'm not American and I know other about Sport!)
I paced around the room for a little while before picking up the phone. Before I even realised what I was doing I had dialled Bella's phone number and the phone was ringing. She picked up on the 6th ring.
"Hello?" She sounded even better on the phone.
"Bella? It's Danny.
"Oh. What makes you think I want to talk to you?" I knew she was about to hang up.
"Listen Bell, please we have to talk." I almost begged.
"We have nothing to talk about Danny." She growled down the phone.
"Don't hang up. Just hear me out."
"Why should I?" She was angry now. I could hear it in her voice.
"Please?" I sat back down on my bed again.
"I'm listening. But if you start any sort of weird on me, then I'm hanging up" I laughed quietly. I'd forgotten how cute she was when she was angry. Pull yourself together man. Oh right, there was a reason I had made this phone call.
"Danny? Are you even still there?"
How long had I been quiet for? "Yeah. I am." I sighed. "I'm sorry Bell."
"Sorry?" She laughed, but it was without humour. "After all the things you ever done that is the stupidest thing you could ever say." She laughed again, more bitterly than before.
"Huh?" Oh, what a response.
"You think that by saying one little word it changes everything well you're wrong Danny. You have said 'Sorry' way to many times to me over the past three years Danny. I don't deserve your time. Waste it on somebody else." She sighed. "Look, Danny. I wish I could forgive you and I wish that everything could be okay. But it can't. It won't. It won't ever be the same." You could hear she was on the verge of tears. I didn't want to make her cry.
"Please don't cry Bell." I whispered.
She sniffed. "I'm not. Look is there something you really wanted or…?"
"You have something to tell me don't you?" I hadn't been told anything. Well Krissie may have said something to me. (Why she had even spoken to me I don't know.) I knew Bella well enough that I could hear she was being secretive. She had been like this when she told me she was pregnant. I flinched at the word.
"What the fuck has my Mom said now?"
"Bella! That's not the sort of language you use down the phone!"
"Shut up. What has my Mom said now?" She growled the last part.
"Your Mom hasn't said anything. I guessed you had something to tell me." "You guessed?" Her voice was sceptical.
"I know you well enough to know when you're hiding something."
"I don't think you want to know what I'm hiding." She whispered.
"You're not pregnant again are you?" I whispered.
"NO!" Her voice shot up an octave. "Ugh. Why does everybody think that?"
"Sorry. What's going on then?"
"I think it will make you mad. Or sad." Ah, I'd heard that line before.
"Just tell me Bell. Please?" My voice sounded almost begging again.
"I'm getting married, Danny." Bella whispered. I almost dropped the phone. Getting married? My heart broke right then. No, it didn't break. My heart has just shattered into tiny little pieces. If I thought I didn't deserve to live a moment ago, it was nothing to how I felt right now. "Danny! Please say something!" She cried.
"What do you want me to say?" My voice had no emotion. I didn't know what to feel right now.
"I'm sorry." She sounded hurt.
"Why are you saying sorry Bell? You chose it. I know how happy you are. It's something I never managed to do."
"That's a lie and you know it! You did make me happy. I'm just happy now. Again." She sighed heavily. I laughed quietly.
"I'm giving up now Bell." That was a spur of the moment decision.
"What?"
"I'm giving up. You don't have worry anymore. I know you don't want me in your life or Leo's." I winced. "I'm sorry for everything I ever did; I made the worst decision of my life that day." I sighed. "Nothing can ever make up for it, I know. I fucked everything up, and ever since that day I fucked everything up even more."
"Danny I…"
"Stop Bell. I really am going to leave you alone this time. I know that Edward or whatever his name is is better for you and Leo than I ever was." I sighed again; I was on the verge of tears myself. "I just hope you can forgive me one day. I love you Bella. I always have and I always will." I didn't wait to hear her response. I hung up the phone and let the pain I had held in the last three years swallow me up.
I fell back on my bed and let all the emotions escape.
Love. Hurt. Pain. Anger. Sadness. Everything.
At least now Bella knew exactly how I felt. I loved her, with everything single cell in my body. She had once been mine and I had let her go.
I would never be able to forgive myself for what I did. Never.
I curled up into a ball and let the emotion claw its way out of my heart.
A/N: Ooooh. How Was That POV For You?! WOW! That Was Hard To Write. I Actually Started Crying At The End.
Danny Has A Nice Side, See! (: He's Not All Bad. I Think I Just Fell In Love A Little Bit. *Blushes* Hehe.
Anyhoo. I Hope You Liked The Chapter. (: I Know I Did. Can I Just Thank 'Jennah Cullen' (Again.) For Giving Me The Heads Up On The Custody Thingy. There Will No Longer Be A Custody Battle Because Danny Has 'Given Leo Up'. Because He Believes That Bella Is Better Off Without Him But He Also Thinks That Edward Will Be A Better Dad To Leo.
Btw, The High School Musical 3 Bit Is The U of A (Cuz Troy And Chad Talk About Going To The University Of That Place I Can't Spell! Haha.)
I Almost Thought About Danny Commiting Suicide. But I Decided Against That! That's Just Mean! Plus, Cuz Im A Little Bit In Love With Him Now, I Couldn't Possibly Kill Him Off.
I Hope You All Liked The Chapter And Maybe You'll See Danny In A Better Light Now. Oh, This Isn't The Last Time He Appears. He Will Be Back.
The Next Chapter Will Probably Just Be Bella's POV Of The Phone Call. I Want To Know What She Will Make Of What Danny Said, And Maybe You All Are Too.
So, Review (Pretty Please). Can I Just Say One More Thing? (Why Do I Ask? It's My Author's Note! Haha.) People Have Been Adding Me To Story Alerts And Favorites And Such Without Reviewing. PLEASE Review As Well! It Only Takes A Moment! :D Thank You.
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