Epilogue

Although it was nearly 4 in the morning I couldn't bring myself to sleep. I was sitting on the couch, drowning my sorrow in cigarettes and beer and trying to figure out where I went wrong. I sent a message to Satomi conveying that I needed his help and even though I knew he wouldn't see it until morning and that he would probably reach me in the afternoon I couldn't bring myself to care. I need him to be there for me, to tell me that what I did was the right thing, when actually I am quite certain that I made a mistake…

I should have told him the truth, more like I should have listened to Satomi! I ruined everything because I wanted to keep you for myself like I used to when we were children. It appears that I haven't grown up, seeing as I remember how easily my jealousy overwhelmed me whenever anyone started getting near my four best friends and to my shame I felt the same way with Shuichi. I was always afraid of losing the place I held in your hearts. I remember Mika calling us the five Magnificent…Tatsuha, Daisuke, Krystal, you and me; nobody could ever come between us. That is until the day Krissy left for America. You never could cope with her decision but you also haven't said anything. I am certain she would have stayed if you asked it of her, but of course you kept telling yourself that you wouldn't stop her from being happy: how wrong you were. I know you love her a lot because it takes a lot of love and maturity to let the person you are in love with go. The one thing that makes me sure of your love is the fact that you kept that secret from her just so her soul remained blissfully innocent.

"Eiri, open up this door right now!"…that voice sounds familiar. I can't believe he came at this hour…

"I thought you would get here much later."

"As if I could sleep knowing that you had problems. You should know me better than that."

The person who was crazy enough to visit me at four in the morning was none other than Satomi.

I don't even know where to start in describing how he looks…If I were to use one word that sums it up it would be mysterious. He is slightly taller than me, he has jet-black hair that reaches his shoulders and looks like he always cares for it when it's the other way around. He had dark nearly black eyes that were mesmerizing and called for respect but they were also warm and welcoming. You can never figure out how he thinks because he is that unpredictable, a very curious person, calculated yet with a strong sense of humor, loyal and very reliable in any situation.

After lighting up a cigarette he took a seat on the couch and told me to tell him the whole story. Satomi was the person I always asked for advice although he was only three years older than me. Admittedly Krystal abused his kindness but I have never once heard him complain.

"Give him time and on the day you would have had your six month anniversary go to him and apologize. If necessary I recommend begging on your knees. You made a mistake the moment you decided to keep us a secret. Eiri, we are part of your past and so a part of you. This shouldn't be a secret and I'm sure Krystal and the others would agree with me. If you really love him than you would be willing to humiliate yourself in order to get him back. If not, than it wasn't really love…"

This was his conclusion after I finished talking, yet I know I can't do this alone…

"Would you be willing to meet with him if he doesn't believe me?"

"Of course I'd do it. You know I would do anything to see you happy but before I go, word of advice: Don't give up on him. Just by hearing you talk about him I can see how much you love him."

"Do you really have to go?" I knew it was inevitable because he had work at 9 but still one can hope…

"You know I have to, but we can talk on the phone and you could visit me and Daisuke, whom by the way you haven't seen since he was left out of the hospital."

"I promise I'll visit you guys tomorrow."

"See that you do because we will be waiting with your favorite cookies." And with those words I as once again left alone in my cold and unwelcoming apartment.

After I tidied up the living room I knew the time came to ask for her help…

"Hello Krystal! Do you think you could come next week in Japan…