Chapter 7

All I kept thinking about as I head upstairs to my apartment is when will I see him again. Can I really miss him after only 5 minutes? I wrap my arms around to hug my body, I'm so excited I can't contain my joy. All those musicals where people burst into song make sense now. If I could sing I would run to the rooftops and sing to the world my love for Matthew. Maybe I should since Matthew sung his love for me. Could that be our song? A Lover's Concerto, it's perfect.

Once inside my apartment, I no longer care that it's a pit. Everything looks better through the eyes of love. I pull my bed from the wall, plop on its pillows face down and scream out my joy. As I lay there thinking about my new future, there is a knock on the door. " Els, It's me open up!" It's Sarah, run to the door so happy to see my friend. I throw my arms around her before she can get fully in the door.

"Ella, I can't breathe. You're squeezing me too hard." I let up a little but refuse to let go completely. "I'm glad I came over, are you ok? Tell me what happened." She is rubbing my back, in a consoling way. She must think it wasn't good, but was good… VERY good.

Leading her over to my bed, so that we can sit, I can't hide the smile from my face. "Wait a second, you're not crying? You did tell him you're 16 right?" Sarah is obviously confused.

"Oh Sarah, I didn't have to tell him." I know I still have a huge smile on my face.

"ELLA! You DO have to tell him. This isn't something that you can sweep under the rug." Sarah is almost yelling at me. I don't like people yelling. When people yell at me I just want to curl up in a ball and pretend I don't exist. I pull my legs up to my chest and hug them tightly focusing on a stain on the floor. Hmmm what could have created that stain? Doesn't look that dark, maybe it was food or a drink of some kind.

"ELLA, look at me! Are you even listening to me? ELLA! ELL-A!" After a few seconds she must realize that I'm not there. I can hear the change from angry to worry in her voice. "Oh my god Ella, are you ok? What's wrong? I'm sorry, I shouldn't have yelled at you. I didn't mean it. Please look at me Ella."

I can hear the tears straining her voice. Slowly I turn my head to look at her. She looks concerned and not angry anymore. Once she see me looking at her, she quickly hugs me. I still can't hug back, not just yet.

"Els, I'm sorry I yelled. I wasn't thinking. Did I scare you? " She pulls out of the hug she is giving me to look into my face again. All I can do is nod. Quickly, Sarah hugs me again. "I'll never yell at you again, I promise. That was so thoughtless of me. When you are ready you can tell me what happened. I won't say anything until you want me to. I'm going to get you a glass of water ok. " Sarah stands and goes to the kitchen area to get some water. A few minutes later she returns with the water and hands it to me. I take a few sips and true to her word she sits there patiently waiting for me to speak.

After several minutes in silence, I begin still staring at the stain on the floor. "I was ready to tell him but he already knew. He said he figured it out." Slowly I turn to look at her. Her face is still passive. "He said it doesn't matter." Sarah's face turns to a look of surprised. "And Sarah he means it. He said he was falling in love with me."

"Ella," she pauses "All I can say is wow! Did you two really talk about it?"

"Yes, I told him about my parents and leaving. He said that since I wasn't a student it made it easier on his career. Then we kissed and…"

"And what Els?"

"We made love." sarah is speechless with An absolutely shocked expression.

We continue to sit in silence for several minutes before Sarah finally Expressing her feelings with a confounding, "I'm speechless so you better start talking, tell me all about it."

About half an hour later after I have told her everything, from him singing to me to the shower. When I have finally finished, she smiles so widely at me with her eyebrows raised.

"So?"

I'm confused what is she asking me? "So?! So What?"

She wiggles her eyebrows at me. "Soooooo... you didn't tell me how was it? Was he good? Was he big? Oh I bet he is built."

I immediately blush and drop my chin to my chest in embarrassment. I manage to whisper, "It was good. I liked it."

"Oh come on Els, you know I won't tell a soul. Did he seem to know what he was doing? From what I know about him, he always seemed like he is a virginal hermit.

In a seemingly endless blush, because can not contain my memory, I smile at her. "Yeah he knew what he was doing. He really made me feel loved. He glided me through it all and made sure I was good. "

"Amazing! And what about his," She gestures with her eyes and head downwards. "You know his man parts." God love this girl, she is almost as shy as I am. Though I think with Sarah, it might be more about her love of the southern manners than shyness like me.

"I have nothing to compare it too, but I thought it was pretty big. It did scare me a little but it didn't hurt as much as I thought it would then it felt really good." I smile at the memory of screaming out and him coming inside me.

"Yeah, my first time I was scared too. Especially when he wanted me to suck on him." She sees the shocked expression on my face and responds, "Are you shocked I'm not a virgin or the oral sex?"

"Oral sex?"

"You didn't go down on Dr. Matt?" I shake me head no. "It's not as bad as you think. If you just relax and remember to breathe through your nose it's fine. Guys really really like it. They will almost agree to anything when you are doing it." She starts to laugh. "David, my high school boyfriend, refused to get a limo for prom, sooo I asked again while I was in the middle of doing that and I got the limo." She starts to giggle again and this time I join her.

"I'll have to remember that, but honestly I think Matthew will do anything for me. He was just so sweet to me. No one has ever treated me like he did. It was so caring and loving."

"Well Els, you deserve to feel that way." She embraces me a huge hug, "So when are you seeing Dr. Sweet Cheeks again.

"I'm not sure. He said he would see me soon. I hope its soon too, I miss him so much already."

"Just be careful Els. I don't want to see you get hurt. I care about you, okay."

All I can do is smile and nod my head. I'm just not use to all this affection from people. I've never had it before, its just a little overwhelming.

"I better get going to class now. You call the dorm if you need me for anything and I'll be here." Sarah gets up, gives me another hug and leaves.