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My Life as a Teenage Mom

Written by Sitting in the Silence


Chapter 7 – To Keep


"Good morning, Mikan."

I heard someone greeted me but I continued walking to my desk and ignored whoever it was. As I sat down, I immediately darted my sight to the third desk on the second row of the classroom and saw no sign of Hotaru. I looked down after realizing that she's still not coming to school and blamed myself for it again.

I heard the sliding of the door and the minute voice of Yuu came shrieking to whoever entered the room. "Imai-san! Where have you been? It's very unlikely of you to miss school..."

My head shot up upon hearing the name and instantly jerked my head towards their direction. Yuu went on blabbering on with Hotaru's attendance while she continued to her desk, with Yuu following behind, ignoring him completely. Ignoring me.

I felt tears have started to form in my eyes and I looked down at once; scared that people might see me, that they'd see me crying. I looked down on my hands which are on top of my thighs that have been angrily, but weakly, clutching my blue plaid skirt.

We haven't seen each other for days and this was the treatment I'd get? What happened? I needed her. This is when I needed her the most.

When I couldn't hold my tears anymore, I stood up carelessly which caused the chair and the desk to noisily skid a few inches apart from each other and eventually resulted to a few heads turning towards my direction. I hurriedly ran out of the godforsaken classroom. I needed to cry out so I immediately rushed off to the nearest comfort room, entered a cubicle and flushed my head down the toilet. End of story.

The depressing thing about this was I couldn't even humor myself. But I swore, flushing myself down this little bowl seemed like the best idea for me right now.

I put the banishment of my existence on hold when I heard the door of the comfort room creaked open. I covered my mouth with my hands to stop my sobbing noise and tried to calm myself down.

That's why the knocks on my cubicle door surprised me that I almost let out a yelp.

"Mikan," said a voice on the other side of the door. A voice I've been wanting to hear so much. A voice that brought comfort to my whole being. "Let me in." The voice said again.

I unlocked the cubicle door and slowly swayed it open. That's when I was greeted by a pair of amethyst eyes pooling with concern.

She carefully entered the cubicle and hugged me, not bothering with closing the door or with talking and explaining. She just hugged me and this brought another round of tears in my eyes.

"I'm sorry, Mikan." She said in a crackled voice, a voice that said she's about to cry as well. "I'm so sorry." Her embrace tightened and suddenly I felt her burying her head deeper onto my shoulder and without warning her body started to lightly shake and she released soft sounds of sobs.

Hotaru was crying.

Hotaru didn't cry.

But because of me, she did.

I didn't understand it. I didn't know what it was she was apologizing for. I had no idea why she was crying.

I couldn't understand any of it.

"I did everything I could, Mikan," she spoke out in between sobs with her grasp onto me not budging, "But I couldn't find him anymore. He's gone."

Then I realized what she did all those days that she was gone. She went looking for him. For Zero-sempai. I don't know how, but she did. And she was not able to find him and she felt so bad she ended up crying.

I tightened my hug on her.

"It's okay, Hotaru," I said as cheerfully as I could, "Thank you, Hotaru. Please stop crying."

I released her and wiped her tears away with both my thumbs, "Crying doesn't suit you, Hotaru. You'll look ugly if you don't stop."

She let out a stifled laugh. "That's my line, stupid."

A feeling of relief washed through me then. I sure was glad my best friend made it back.


Hotaru and I decided to skip classes afterwards. We figured after that whole me-running-away-and-she-came-chasing-after scenario had caused quite a stir to our classmates and friends. So, we went to the academy's garden instead and spent the day there.

We were under my Sakura tree, a tree that was just branches and twigs because it's just early July and it wasn't blooming season yet. A tree I used to share with Natsume when he was still here. The sudden thought of him made a lump in my heart. I shrugged it off and the feeling went away as sudden as it came.

Hotaru and I sat under it; the branches provided shade to the sun that held the coming summer heat. We talked about what I would do next. And by this, it meant if I was going to keep the baby or not.

I looked up, gazing at the blue sky with giant white cottons sprawled over it. Even if I didn't speak, I had known Hotaru knew what I meant to do with the baby.

I had had a lot of days to myself to contemplate on what to do next. Of course I allotted most of my time debating on keeping the baby or not. I guess a normal teenager; one that is studying and couldn't even provide for herself would want to get an abortion but for me, getting rid of the baby was truly never the issue.

No matter how hard I thought about it, I couldn't bring myself to the decision of me getting an abortion even though it was the easiest and ideal solution for my situation. I swore, I was on the intent of forcing myself to get an abortion just to get it over and done with but really, I can't. No. Not now. Not in this lifetime. Not ever.

I pulled my gaze away from the sky above to my stomach below and gave it a tender and soothing caress.

I'm keeping the baby. I thought, of course, as a smile crept on my face. I looked then at Hotaru and I saw that she witnessed what I just did and she provided me with a small smile as well. She nodded and her nod gave me the assurance I needed – that she'll be there for me through everything.


It was almost night time when Hotaru and I decided to go home. We went back in to the academy grounds to get our bags and walked towards my home afterwards. Earlier, I decided I was going to tell my parents tonight about my baby and Hotaru said I would go through with it with her by my side.

I came home and found my mom in the living room fixing bills from the previous month and my dad, adjancent to her, reading a newspaper.

"Oh! Welcome home, Mikan," My mother greeted as she stopped what she was doing in able to turn around and look at me. "Oh my, you didn't say you'd bring Hotaru along with you."

"Good evening, Mrs. Sakura." Hotaru greeted as I forced myself to stop my heart from beating fast and to lift my whole self towards the living room.

"Mom.. Dad.." I started, not sure if I should continue. My mom looked at me with a worried expression and my Dad lowered the newspaper he was reading and looked at me as well. I swallowed hard. Next thing I knew, Hotaru was already on my side, holding my hand.

"I-I h-have s.. something to say." I stammered out. I felt Hotaru's clasp on my hand tighten.

I swallowed again as I slowly looked down stared at the floorboards like they were the most wonderful thing in the world.

"I'm pregnant," I voiced out at last as tears escaped my eyes.


A/N: Sorry I had to cut the Natsume scenes for now and go back to the past with Mikan's POV. Just a few more and we'll be done with this. I promise. So please bear with me. :)

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