Chapter 7: Her secret!
"Phoebe! What in Sam Hill are you doing here?" Gerald asked looking around his doorstep before looking directly at her. Before he could say another word Phoebes lips crashed into his. Kicking the door closed behind her as she moved in closer, she jumped into his arms which sent them both tumbling onto the couch. Stunned by the way she devoured his mouth and the unexplainable strength she now possessed as she now had him pinned down, Gerald recalled the dream he had not to long ago. Only now it was real and though he would to recreate the ending, this had to end.
"Hold up Phoebe...hold up!" He tried to mutter out. "Hold ugh..." By now she was working her way down his chest causing him to question whether he should make her stop. Losing himself in her kiss and touch, he brought her face up to meet his and attacked her lips with the same amount of ferocity as she did him. Unzipping and practically ripping off her dress, Gerald now stood up and carried her into his bedroom. Tossing Phoebe on the bed, Gerald now climbed on top of her and began kissing her neck. Phoebe groaned with pleasure as she began grinding her pelvic area against his. Intensified by her actions, Gerald worked his way around her neck down her breasts. However, just as he was about to suck on one of them he pulled back.
"I...I can't do this!" Gerald laid his head on Phoebe chest.
"You can't?!" Phoebe gave him a confused expression as she tried to catch her breath.
"I mean I can...but I'm just saying...", he lifts his eyes towards her, "what are you doing here Phoebe?" Knowing all to well what he meant she stayed quiet. "Really?! So you just gonna stay quiet and not gonna say anything?!" Gerald pushed himself off her and stood up. "For 5 years you basically disappeared from the face of the earth, only to show up out of nowhere about to be somebodys wife with that rock on your knuckle, what gives?"
Partially opening her, Phoebe attempted to speak only to have the words stuck in her throat. So again she just laid there on the bed. Irritated by this Gerald continued, "Dammit Pheebs don't play me! Do you have any idea how devastated I was when you just up and left? 5 YEARS Pheebs, 5 YEARS I never even heard some much as a peep from, now you show up here at my door! Why?! Why would you leave just like that?! What could I have possibly done for you to make you leave?" Geralds voice grew soft.
During this time Phoebe had been directing her attention to the ceiling refusing to make eye contact with him, but hearing his voice began to break, she glared at him. His expression was blank but his eyes said it all! He was a broken man who felt like he world came crashing down when she left. Helga had told her that after she left he tried to put on a front like he was fine, but he was never the same. She said that Gerald threw himself into his schoolwork and basketball. He was hurting so much and was constantly blaming himself for making Phoebe leave. All he wanted was some kind of solace from this, and Phoebe knew he deserved it.
Taking her hand in his Gerald asked again in a voice barely above a whisper, "Why did you go Pheebs? What did I do wrong?!"
Phoebe couldn't take it anymore. "Gerald...I was pregnant!"
Hearing those words Gerald felt his whole body shut down! Unable to keep standing he dropped to the bed. "Pre-pre-pregnant?!" He felt his heart stop. "Pregnant?"
"Yes Gerald." She gently said. "I was pregnant."
"When?! How?!"
Taking a deep breath Phoebe began. "I found out approximately few weeks before graduation. I was two weeks late and because of SATs, prom, and all the other projects and events that I had going on that I assumed it was just stress. Plus I was not showing signs of any of the prenatal symptoms. Still I decided to get checked out anyway just to be careful and thats when the doctor told me I was three weeks pregnant. I was in total shock that I requested him to redo the the test, but the results came back the same."
"Three weeks?! Then that means it happened the..."
"The night of our 1 year anniversary! Our first time together!"
" Whoa whoa...wait!" Gerald interrupted. "If you knew already, why didn't you say anything then?"
"I wanted to tell you and I was going to, but I needed time process everything first. When I waslb finally ready, I was going to tell you everything until..."
"Until what?"
"Until the day you signed your letter of intentions to attend Hillwood University on a basketball scholarship. You were so happy Gerald!" Phoebe paused a moment to wipe tear away. "All you kept talking about was how excited you were to play. How you was going to take the college game by storm! Just watching you, seeing how much you anxious to go...I felt guilty for wanting to tell you."
Gerald just sat there, taking it all in. How could she keep something as major as this from him? Yeah sure he was excited about playing ball for Hillwood, but she and his unborn child were more important. He would have done anything to provide for them.
Phoebe knew this as well which why she said, "Gerald, I couldn't let you throw away an opportunity such as that away. You had worked so hard and you deserved to reap the benefits of your labor. So it was about that same time I received a scholarship to the University of Tokyo, so after graduation, I decided to leave...Gerald...I know it was wrong of me but at the time it felt like it was the best decision. Not even my parents knew, only Helga."
Gerald rubbed his face and let out a deep breath he didn't know he had. He had the opportunity to have what he always wanted; to have a family with Phoebe! Granted it would've been a little earlier then he'd expected, but still he thought he would have been a great father and husband. But he would never know. Gerald felt cheated beyond words! "So how's our child now?" He sarcastically responded. Unbeknownst to him Phoebe broke down when he asked. Seeing her sobbing he arched a brow before realizing what happened and quickly brought her in his arms.
Burrowing her head into his chest, Phoebe tried to compose her while Gerald gently stroked her hair. After her breathing returned to normal, minus a few sobs, Gerald asked again, "How's our child?"
"I had a miscarriage." He gasped on those words. "A couple months after I arrived in Tokyo, I was involved in accident. I was riding with Hiroaki and so friends when another vehicle T-boned us and went crashing into a telephone pole. When I regained consciousness I was in the hospital." Phoebe voice began to tremble as she fought to keep her composure. "The doctor said I had suffered a concussion along with a few fractured ribs. But as I asked about the baby, the only thing he could say was 'sorry' and I knew...we were going to have a precious little girl. I had found out just a week ago!"
By now Gerald had tears coming down his cheeks. A daughter? They were going to have daughter! She would have been 4 years old now, but he would never have the chance to meet her. WOW!
Composing herself once more Phoebe said, "Hiroaki was there for me the whole time. He was someone I knew since kindergarten. His father and mine are great friends, so being around him felt comfortable. Eventually I grew to love him, so when he proposed I said because of the familiarity, however seeing you again, I realized that I could and never will love him the way I love you!"
Slightly relieved of the weight being lifted off her shoulders, Phoebe suddenly became completely uncomfortable now. Feeling her presence was no longer welcome, especially after the bombshell she just dropped, she now stood to make her exit. "I sincerely apologize for all that I put you through and I completely understand if you never wish to see or speak to me again. But just know that I truly deeply love you Gerald. And no matter what, I will always feel that way!" She started to make her way to the bedroom door leaving Gerald lost in deep thought.
"Wait!" He finally said.
She paused at the door, taking a moment before turning to face him. Gerald got up and walked over in front of her, his massive frame towering over hers. Cupping her face with one hand, he planted a deep sensual kiss on her.
"I love you Phoebe Hyerdahl! I let you get away once, I'm not letting that happen again!" He kissed again as they made their way back to the bed. "I love you too!" She responded as they continued to kiss and undress while the shadows of the trees outside danced around in the reflection of the moonlight...
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As he laid there Gerald knew he should feel some kind of remorse over what just took place. After all she was another mans fiancee. And evn if she didn't feel the same he was pretty sure Sub-Hero...oops...Hiroaki loved her. But he didn't care, nor did he feel bad. This was his Phoebe. The girl he been head over heels for since the 4th grade. She was his first everything; his first crush, his first kiss, his first love, they even shared their first time together. Nobody could ever love her more than him. And because of that he knew he had a fight on his hands.
He gazed down at Phoebe who was sleeping peacefully on his chest. She was so beautiful, the way the moonlight reflected on her skin, giving her a soft glow. Gerald kissed her forehead causing her to stretch before snuggling closer to him.
He was ready to fight...
