Heart or Mind

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FYI - Italics is someone's dreams/memories, bold is someone's inner thoughts, and bold italics is a text message.

Chapter 7 - Tori's Decision Pt. 1 - Tori and Cat's Playdate

Tori woke up Sunday morning, knowing that she was going to do the right thing. Well, maybe. Her actions tonight, along with Cat's, would drive away any dobuts and confusion. She got out of the bed, looking to the clock. "Hmm, eleven AM. Okay, if I picked up Cat around six, then we'd have plenty of time for some fun. I have to make sure. I have to know that I'm making the right choice. And the only way to do that, is to see Cat tonight. Only then will what I feel in my heart be truly tested, and I'll figure this out." She picked up her phone, texting the redhead.

Hey, Cat. Pick you up at 6?

Sure, Tori. Can't wait to see you ;) Do you still want me like the picture? What Tori didn't know, is that Cat had something extra special planned for the latina. Jade had had her fun, and Cat was more than willing to get every ounce of Tori for herself. Even if it was for only one more night.

You know it ;) And maybe a bit more? :D Just thinking about things made Tori need a cold shower. If she didn't stop herself, there was no way she'd make it till six. And even if she did, she would just jump the poor girl at first chance. Tori got up, leaving the phone behind and walking to her bathroom. Turning the water on and instantly jumping in, the latina washed every impure thought from her body. It didn't take long for the heat to come across her, and soon she was doing her regular thing. Soon enough, she was fully cleaned, and ready for her day.

Stepping out of the shower, Tori wiped the steam from the bathroom window. She dried off, wrapping her hair in a towel and walking back to her bedroom. After deodorant and purfume, and some comfy clothes, she walked downstairs for some breakfast. Not knowing her mother was home, she heard someone in the kitchen, and her defense classes kicked in. Standing silent, she inched her way around a corner, peering down and seeing her mother.

Almost tripping down the stairs, she ran to hug Holly. "Hey, mom. When'd you get back? I thought you'd be gone with Trina for a while."

"I told you I'd be back yesterday. Besides, your father had to work today."

"Oh, duh, okay. So, uh, which college do Trina get into?"

"A junior college down in San Diego."

"Oh, okay. Wait, I thought she still wanted to be a star, because the world needed to see her talent." Both women laughed, knowing that Trina was about as talentful as a bowl of soup. "How'd you convince her to go to college instead?"

"Oh, the same way I'll convince you to. You need to go to college also, young lady. There's no guarantee that you'll be in show biz forever. You need a backup. And Trina went along with it, when your father and I agreed to send her to acting and singing classes." Thinking about it, Tori understood what her mother had said. There really are no gurantees in life, just like Tori and Cat. So having a contingency plan would be a good thing. Then another thing hit her mind, causing a chuckle.

"Heh, poor teachers." Holly couldn't contain herself, and busted out laughing at the truth behind her daughter's words. Both women believed in Trina, and her drive to be famous. But she did need all the help she could get. And the unfortunate souls that would be giving it to her, well, they were in for the time of their lives.

"So, anyways, did you figure out what you're going to do about Cat and Jade?" Holly knew the stress it was bringing on her daughter. It had been written across her face the last time they had spoken, and even though she seemed calmer about the situation, she was still tense.

"I think so. I'm going out with Cat tonight, and afterwards, I'm pretty sure I'll have my answer." Just thinking about Cat, and their plans for the evening, made Tori want another cold shower. Trying to compose herself, especially in front of her mother, Tori looked away and focused on the TV. "I just hope it's the right one." Her voice was instantly downcast with that, and her mother put her arm around her.

"Sweetie, I promise you, if you follow your heart, then everything will be alright, okay."

"Thanks, mom." Tori got up, walking to the piano and sitting down. Knowing her daughter had a singsong voice, and her abilities on the piano were developing nicely, Holly stayed and listened to her play. Soon, the latina had tears in her eyes, while praying she was making the right choice.

Wrap me in a bolt of lightning, Send me on my way still smiling,

Maybe that's the way I should go, Stright into the mouth of the unknown.

I left the spare key on the table, I never really thought I'd be able.

To say I merely visit on the weekend, I lost my whole life and a dear friend.

I've said it so many times

I would change my way, no never mind

God knows I tried

Call me a sinner, Call me a saint

Tell me its over, I'll still love you the same

Call me your favorite, call me the worst

Tell me its over, I don't want you to hurt.

Its all that I can say, So i'll be on my way

I finally put it all together, That nothing really lasts forever

I had to make choice that was not mine, I had to say goodbye for the last time

I kept my whole life in a suitcase, I never really stayed in one place

Maybe thats the way it should be, You know I lived my life like a gypsy

I've said it so many times

I would change my way, no never mind

God knows I tried

Call me a sinner, Call me a saint

Tell me its over, I'll still love you the same

Call me your favorite, call me the worst

Tell me its over, I don't want you to hurt.

Its all that I can say, So I'll be on my way

I'll always keep you inside

You healed my heart and my life

And you know I tried

Call me a sinner, Call me a saint

Tell me its over, I'll still love you the same

Call me your favorite, call me the worst

Tell me its over, I don't want you to hurt.

Its all that I can say, So I'll be on my way

So I'll be on my way

So I'll be on my way

Singing to both girls in her heart, Tori let the music take her conscious away, and shield her from the pain she knew she was going to cause. After a few more minutes of playing the melody, without singing, Tori was finally emotionally spent, and decided on some mind numbing television. She started watching "Celebrities Under Water", laughing and trying her hardest to free herself. But she couldn't. "Cat, I love you so much. And Jade, I want you, too. So both of you, please, just promise me, that you'll accept what I do."

xxxxx

Soon enough, it was time for Tori to pick Cat up for their evening. But for some reason, the latina couldn't bring herself to drive over to her house and get her. She wanted to go, and her mind and heart were both telling her to. But her body wouldn't respond. As if paralyzed by an unseen force, Tori sat in her car. Eventually, it was past six, and Cat sent a message to Tori.

Tori, I understand if you want to be with Jade. I'm sorry if I made this difficult, or if I'm not who you want anymore. I love you, and -

Tori's blurred vision wouldn't allow her to finish the message. Her eyes full of tears, her resolve finally recovered. Soon, the paralysis was gone, and after wiping the tears from her eyes, Tori's foot was heavy on the gas. Getting to Cat's in record time, while some how not attracting the attention of law enforcement, the latina busted through the door. Waving slightly at Mrs. Valentine, she walked straight up to the redhead's room, and knocked on the door. She could hear sniffling and hitched breathing, and instantly felt terrible for ever hurting Cat. A weak voice finally answered.

"Go away."

"Cat, it's me. Can you open up, please?" At breakneck speed, Cat had the door opened almost instantaneously. Tori walked through the door, pressing her lips to the smaller girl's, shedding a tear along side of her. Both girls stood, unmoving, allowing themselves to take in every moment of the embrace. Soon, Cat sadly whispered in Tori's ear.

"Tori? I thought you'd be with Jade?" Tori pulled away, and soon two sets of cocoa eyes were causing both girls' heads to swirl. Lost in a trance, it took Tori a few moments to finally respond.

"Cat, I promised you, tonight is our night, okay?" She kissed Cat's forehead, and held the girl tight against her again. Another shed tear, and soon, Cat brought her beside her on the bed.

"Thank you. So, what are we doing?" Tori hadn't really given it much thought, other than wanting Cat like the picture she had.

"Dinner? Maybe some bowling?" Tori knew that bowling was the one activity Cat was truly an expert at. Even with her small stature, she could still power the ball well enough to knock down six to eight pins a throw. Tori knew she didn't stand a chance against the smaller girl, but wanted Cat to be happy. Because a happy Cat, is a horny Cat. And a horny Cat, well, yeah.

"Kay Kay!" The redhead was ready to go, all except for her shoes. When she thought that Tori wasn't coming, she had kicked them off under her bed. So when she reached down to get them, she intentionally put her ass in the air. That allowed Tori to see under her skirt, revealing the same silky red panties from the picture.

"Hey, now, those wouldn't be for me, would they?" Tori reached out, pinching the smaller girl's butt. Which in turn, caused the small girl to jump, her head hitting the underside of her bed. She instantly got up, shoes in hand. She dropped them to the floor, and sat on her bed.

"Owww." Cat started rubbing her head, and Tori was quick to place a kiss to make it feel better. "Yeah, they are. But I'm not so sure that you deserve them, now." Cat forced out some fake tears, and Tori stood her up, and pulled in closer.

"I'm so sorry. Forgive me?" She pouted her bottom lip, and the redhead started laughing. Two sets of pink lips connecting, both girls almost went at it right then and there. But Cat's growling stomach kept them from doing so. The redhead decided to play along with her stomach.

"Rawwr!" Cat playfully swatted at Tori like a lion, making the latina jump back and feign some terror.

"Oh, please don't hurt me. I'll do anything. Please." Cat walked up to her, placing a kiss on her cheek and walking out the door. She called out behind her.

"Dinner first, young lady." Tori laughed and shook her head. "Whatever you say!"

xxxxx

The girls were sitting at dinner, enjoying themselves like nothing had happened between them. They were at the same restaurant, with the same table, and the same waiter like they'd always had. Tori was slowly sipping the hot tea in front of her, and Cat was looking around, needing another refill from her drink. With the amount of sugar the girl was taking in, she would be hyper all night long, and would take Tori for the ride of her life. She was right when she told Jade she knew what Tori liked. And she was going to take it to another level later.

"Cat, where was your brother earlier? I didn't think it was time for him to go to the hospital yet?" Tori knew the boy's schedule almost as well as she knew Cat.

"Oh, he and dad went out fishing." Tori looked up, confusion written on her face. She never believed the boy would ever be allowed sharp or dangerous objects again. Fishing hooks definately fit into the categories of both danger and sharp. "They've been gone all weekend."

"Oh, okay." "I guess if he's with his father, it'll be okay." Tori finally saw their waiter coming again, and smiled wide. "I'm sorry, she's at it again." Cat was notorious in the restaurant for drinking about fifteen Dr. Peppers. And they always made her have to pee. The waiter just smiled, and placed a pitcher down in front of them.

"I think that should keep her occupied for some time." Confused, Cat looked to the boy who was chuckling at her.

"WHAT'S THAT SUPPOSED TO MEAN?" The boy jumped back, laughing even harder.

"It's okay, Cat. He didn't mean anything, right?" The boy nodded again, and took their orders. After he left, Tori decided to tease Cat a bit. Running her hand up the inside of her exposed thigh, she saw Cat's composure fading quickly. What she didn't expect, was for Cat to cross her legs and pin her hand down. She had gotten so close to her target, but even stretching her fingers as much as possible, she was barely missing it.

"Oh, I'm sorry. Going somewhere?" Cat's hand slowly moved down, running behind Tori's back and teasing the flesh on the top of her jeans. Their evening together had barely begun, and they were already ready to go to bed. The girls sat, teasing each other while maintaining their looks of innocence, waiting for their food to arrive. After it finally did, the girls dug in.

"So, Tori, I heard you and André were doing a song at the final Big Showcase." Tori's memory of the previous night got to her, and she instantly got defensive.

"WHO TOLD YOU. I DON'T KNOW ANYTHING." "Damn, girl. Get your head on straight. You're out with a beautiful girl, and nothing in the world could make you happier. Except for, well-" Tori instantly washed the thought from her mind, and focused on Cat's eyes. The deepness of them always brought Tori to her knees, and soon, she was subjegated to them. So to think of Jade, especially when it was her and Cat's night, was wrong on so many levels.

"Heh, okay, Tori. You okay?"

"Yeah, sorry. What are you doing for the Big Showcase?"

"Well, I was planning on doing a duet with you. But since André already has your help, I guess I can ask Jade." Tori laughed, knowing that Cat and Jade as best friends would be forever insepearable. Which would make the choice she had a bit more difficult. Cat finally released Tori's hand from her thigh, and her own from Tori's back.

After finally finishing their meal, the girls paid and left. Walking hand in hand with Cat, Tori pulled the smaller girl in, placing a light kiss on her lips. "I love you, Cat." Watching Cat's smile growing to the size of Texas.

"I love you, too, Victoria." Knowing that Tori was a sucker for her full name, Cat was pulling out every stop possible to convince her that she still wanted her. Even after everything with Jade, Cat was willing to forget, and move on. She needed Tori to know, which she did, that Cat had only left so Tori could get any and every ounce of doubt out of her system. Cat had never stopped loving her, and her own heart had been breaking with every second she was away from her latina. She finally looked up, a quizzical look on her face. "Can I ask you something?"

"Of course, baby."

"Am I your choice?"

"Let's not talk about that right now, okay. I promised Jade that I wouldn't think about that. I need to be as fair as possible, and focus only on you, and not the choice. Just like I did with Jade last week. I promise you, after tonight, I'll have my answer, and you'll know soon." "Of course, I already have my answer. I think. This is just one last point of proof that I'm making the right choice. Oh, Cat, I love you so much. And Jade, please..." Tori looked away from Cat, opening her door and allowing her in. After walking around her car and getting in the driver side, she started it up. Leaning over and capturing Cat's lips again, she smiled.

"Bowling?" The redhead almost broke the seat with all her excited bouncing, and Tori, while chuckling, started driving. Thankfully, there was an alley near the house that wasn't too busy on Sundays, so getting a lane wouldn't be that hard. During the ride, Tori reached her right hand off the wheel, grabbing Cat's left and holding it. She brought it up to her lips, placing a light kiss on the back of her hand. Watching the smile on Cat's face, Tori lost herself in happy memories.

"Happy birthday, Tori!" Cat was looking to her with a big grin.

"Aww, thanks baby!"

"Yo, Vega, here you go." Jade walked up, giving the unwrapped "present" to Tori. Tori looked at the can of lemonade, and offered a sarcastic thanks.

"Here's my present!" Cat handed the girl a giant heart shaped box of chocolates. "I kinda ate some, though." Tori laughed at her for a moment, and whispered in her ear.

"You're the only present I'll ever need!" Watching the smile on her face, Tori made sure that Robbie, Beck, and André hadn't heard. None of them looked suspiscious, so she let it go. "I love you."

"I love you too, Victoria."

After arriving at the alley, they walked in, looking to an unnatuarally packed house. It would be a while until a lane became available. The girls placed their names on the waiting list, and walked to an open pool table. Neither knew how to shoot well, but it would at least kill time. Cat racked the balls, and handed to cue ball to Tori. After a horrible opening shot, which barely broke the initail triangle of balls, Cat walked up.

Shot after shot of horrible pool, and the girls finally heard their name called over the intercom. Laughing at the fact that only four balls had found their ways home, the girls cleared the table and walked to the front desk. "Size seven, please." "Six and a half." The girls grabbed their shoes, and walked to their lane. After inserting their names into the system, their game was underway.

And as was the norm, Cat dominated. At one point, she finally rolled her first ever strike, and not even worrying about anyone's fear of PDA, she grabbed Tori and kissed her. After some hooping and hollering from some boys in the next lane, Tori walked up to them. Speaking slowly and smiling the entire time, she winked at the perverts.

"Enjoying the show, boys? Maybe you could join us for the rest of the night, huh?" She motioned to Cat behind her back. When they shook their heads, Cat walked up. The latina pulled her in, her tongue in the smaller girl's mouth quickly. Finally with the boys throughly distracted, Tori grabbed a ball and dropped it on one guy's foot. Looking to the other, she made sure her point was heard. "Next one is in your "special area", got it. Eyes to yourselves." Knowing that it wouldn't help, but happy that the boys at least agreed for a moment, she walked back to her lane.

After a few games, which Cat won 191-88, 199-90, and 179-78, the girls looked to the boys one last time. "I had a great time tonight, Cat. How 'bout you?" When the smaller girl walked up, slapping her ass and agreeing, the boys almost lost their composure. "Now, let's go home and really have a good time, okay?" The boys finally collapsed to the floor, and the girls walked out.

"Tori, why'd you torture those poor boys?" "Because I'm being tortured myself with this damn choice, and I wanted someone to take it out on."

"I dunno. Now, let's go home." She smiled to Cat, and pulled her in for another kiss. Knowing that the moment they got home, they'd be in bed, Tori tortured the small girl as much as possible. She took the longest road possible, and drove extra slow. But when Cat knew they wouldn't be spotted, and started rubbing herself under her dress, Tori's foot got heavy quick.

Once home, Cat checked to make sure her mother was asleep. Thankfully she was, and Cat moved herself and Tori to the other end of the house. The moment they were behind the locked door of Cat's room, their hormones finally let loose. Tori reached her hand under skirt, feeling the wetness in her panties.

"Wow, Cat. Horny?" It didn't take Cat long to reach up, whispering seducatively in her ear.

"And you're not?" Cat reached her hand around, grabbing Tori's ass again. Massaging it slowly, both girls played for a bit before getting too heavy into anything. Tori finally pushed Cat onto the bed, and her lips instantly found Cat's pulse point. Nipping and sucking, and allowing the girl to cry out and moan, Tori's hand moved down her torso, and under the skirt again. Moving the useless material out of the way, she started massaging the wet mound.

It didn't take long for Cat to start ripping off Tori's top, and her nails were quickly digging into her back. The pain on her back only drove Tori faster, pleasuring the redhead and listening to the chorus of cries from the small girl. She moved her second hand down, and interlaced her fingers with Cat's. Soon, the girls were rolling over each other, both trying to dominate and get leverage. Tori finally pinned Cat down for good, and soon, the small girl removed her panties.

Cat's hands got Tori's jeans out of the way, and soon, the latina was in nothing but her bra and panties. Wanting to match, Cat removed her shoulder covering and her tank top, revealing a red lace bra. Tori moved her mouth, placing kisses along the bra straps, and across her chest. Soon, her hand moved away from Cat's pleasure, and unhooked the bra. Finally free of everything, Cat pulled Tori back down to her. She moved her hips up, grinding herself against the latina's thigh. Her hands again found Tori's shoulders, and dug in again. She finally found the back of Tori's bra, and released her breasts and letting them fall on her own.

Their nipples grazing each other, both girls moaned again. Cat finally reached down, her thumbs taking Tori's panties, and moving them down slowly while feeling Tori shaking. Finally, the two bodies were both fully bare, and both girls were ready to go. Cat moved Tori down beneath her, and her mouth moved down her toned body. Knowing that Tori's breasts and ass were her favorite places to be aroused, Cat did her best. Her mouth latched onto her left breast, and her hands were full of the tight butt.

After licking the nipple, Cat was almost thrown off when Tori's back arched and moved Cat in an unfamiliar way. She finally decided to stop teasing the latina, and brought her hands around, slowly, and moved them down to her clit. She moved her hand across the wetness, and watched as Tori's breath stopped and her eyes slammed shut. She moved slowly, wanting Tori to be happy for as long as possible. She finally inserted a finger, and if she weren't laying on top of her, Tori would have fallen off the bed.

Moving it in and out quickly, Cat's tongue started tracing down her naval, and in between her hips. She kissed softly, and then found her clit. Playing and torturing the poor girl, Cat pulled away and looked up. Disappointed, Tori's eyes were pleading with her. Cat blew softly on her, and started her work again.

"Oh, shit, yes. Cat, please, yes. Harder, harder, Hard- plea- yes- OH- YES- oh, oh, oh." Taking the hints from Tori, Cat quickened her pace. "Tori, don't worry. I'll take care of you." And she did. She finally pushed her over the edge, keeping the girl's euphoria high while keeping herself excited. She knew that with what she had done, Tori would be unable to move for a while. So she moved her tongue, now drenched with Tori's essence, back up the body and over every pleasure point she could. Moving back across the nipple again, she finally found her way back to Tori's lips, and connected with them again.

It took Tori a few minutes, but she didn't mind making out. But once she was ready, she flipped Cat back down, and moved herself down the body. Using one hand to knead her nipple, while the other grabbed her hips and moved them apart, Tori finally returned the favor. Moving her fingers into the wet center, Tori's tongue was soon back inside Cat's mouth. Battling with each other for dominance, the girls were giving it their all. Cat finally moved her hands, her fingers in Tori's hair and pulling the girl in. Once bored with Cat's lips, Tori moved down and let her tongue pleasure the redhead. Cat's hands never left her hair, and Tori was pulled in close, her work easy.

Cat's voice was louder than she wanted, but thankfully, her mother never heard. "Tori. YES. Oh god, TORI. PLease. Oh, yes." Cat moaned for a moment, before feeling her muscles contract. Her body glistening with sweat and the saliva from Tori's tongue, she looked down at the picture of perfection that was still between her legs. When Tori finally came back up to her, and started to wrap her up, Cat shook her head.

"Oh, no, we're... not... done yet." Cat's breathing was hard and erratic, and she looked at Tori, who had a skeptical look in her eye.

"No?"

Once Cat was able to move, she reached under her bed, pulling out a box.

"Nope. Now then, pull something out of this box at random. Whatever you pull out, is what you get to use. Deal?" Unsure of exactly what Cat meant, Tori shook her head in agreement. Cat reached in first, knowing everything that was in the box. So cheating a little bit, she made sure to pull out a can of whipped cream. "Now then, lay down."

When Tori did, Cat sprayed some on her nipples and in her belly button. Using her tongue as tortuously as possible, she licked off the cream and watched Tori's slam shut again. After getting it all off, Tori looked down to her.

"Oh- okay- Cat, I think- you got it." Her breathing getting the better of her again, Tori watched as Cat chuckled.

"You sure?" She sprayed a bit of the cream on Tori's clit, and moved her tongue down. Smiling and seductively speaking, she made Tori's body quake again. "Looks like I missed a spot." She got all the cream off, but in the process, dove head first into pleasuring Tori again. The latina didn't mind, but wasn't sure how much more she could take. Cat was shattering the decision she had made, making it impossible to remember.

It didn't take long for the still aroused body to come again, and Cat pulled her slick fingers out and stuck them in her mouth. Pulling them out, and making a nice popping sound, she looked to Tori. "Your turn." It took Tori a moment to remember just what Cat meant, and even more time to actually find the strength to do it. She finally reached into the box, pulling out a rather large strap-on. Looking at it, and wondering one, how to use it, and two, how it wouldn't break the small girl, Tori finally got the gumption to do what was requested.

After getting it attached to her hips, she placed it along Cat's hips, who knew she was in for some real pain, but didn't really care. After watching it go in, and listening to Cat almost literally cry for help, Tori got to work. Moving her hips slowly at first, she quickly fell into pace. Cat started begging for more, and Tori's body moved in response.

Cat's pleasure was building, and through hitched breathing and the lights behind her eyelids, Cat let Tori hear it. "Faster, faster, harder, YES, YES TORI! TOORRRRIIIIIii!" The smaller girl gave out quickly, and Tori let her weary body lay on top of Cat. Unable to catch her breath, Tori had to ask one question.

"So... Cat... anything else... in that box... of yours?" Tori didn't want anything to end. She was falling in love with Cat all over again, the battlelines in her heart and mind blurring. She was content, happy that she could be with someone who could make her feel that way.

"Yeah, some chocolate syrup and a vibrator. Which one you want?" Cat, knowing that she was winning, let Tori decide. Knowing how much the smaller girl loved sweets, she alomst elected the vibrator. But Cat's pussy had already been anhilated once, so maybe giving her something like that again wouldn't be best.

"You take the vibrator on me. I get the syrup on you, deal?" Cat agreed, and for the rest of the night, the girls took their time, making sure their love was the strongest it had ever been.

Wow, there we go! Now then, I know how this looks. But I promise you, this isn't the end. This is actually the first part of three of Tori's choice, and there is a lot more to come. Please, don't kill me or riot. At least, not until the story is done. Please, R/E/R!

P.S.: I do not own "Call Me" by Shinedown. All rights are reserved, and I am laying no claim to them.