Chapter 7 - Goodbye
Author's Note: so, i figured out how to upload from my iPhone so you vultures could be happy. ~
Sorry if it's short, it's because it's on my iPhone. And sorry for any grammar mistakes. I usually use Word, so. But, good news. Since I can update on my iPhone, i might be updating regularly! Mwahahaha ~
Disclaimer: I do not own Kuroshitsuji or any of the song lyrics.
Warnings: A huge 3 month time skip. Depression. Grell Sutcliff. (He needs his own little warning.)
Enjoy. ~
[December 12th.] 5:30 p.m.
"I love you." He said sincerely.
"I know. I do too."
"Then how come you don't actually say the damn words?"
"..."
"Exactly. You know what? I'm going to work. I'll be back around midnight. Goodbye, Sebastian." The azure-haired boy spoke, placing the café hat atop of his head. He glanced once more at his boyfriend before he left, the door closing with a small 'click'.
Walking down the stairs of his dorm, Ciel couldn't help but let out a shaky breath. What has gotten into him? The boy crossed the street, not before looking both ways, and made it across safely. Ciel walked into the parking lot, skimming the cars that were useless to him. Once he spotted his mustang, the cobalt-haired male smiled.
Looking up once he reached his car, he sighed. Sebastian, who he has been dating for almost four months now, has been acting a tad off the past month. Instead of actually spilling his thoughts, Sebastian decides to beat around the bush. The raven-haired male always enjoys the free attention he gets, (mostly small kisses and sleeping in the same bed together without sex), but Ciel feels as-if he's hiding something from him.
Shaking his head to rid himself of such thoughts, Ciel fishes out the keys to his luxurious car and unlocks the doors. Sliding in the drivers' seat, the boy turns the engine on and let's the car heat up. Ciel squeezed his eyes shut; he felt a horrible feeling in his gut.
"Why do I feel like this?"
"Maybe you need to poop."
"Alois..."
The blonde giggled as he drank out of his bendy straw. "I don't know, Ciel. Isn't your monthly anniversary tomorrow? How come you guys don't, you know, do the dirty?~" He laughed before he said, "Or do something for him?"
"... Goodbye, Alois." Walking inside the kitchen, the navy-haired boy shook his head. Do something for him, huh? Ciel wiped his hands on his apron as he walked towards the chef. "Hey, what're you doi- PUT THE FLAMETHROWER DOWN, BARD!" He screeched, jumping away.
"I'm just trying to cook the food faster!" The said male spoke, turning off the scorching device.
"Bard, that was a salad. You don't cook salad."
"... Oh."
Ciel walked over towards him, patting his dirty blonde-haired friend on the shoulder. "You'll learn. You'll learn." He whispered as he decided to walk back out to the front.
"Phantomhiveeeeee~"
Shit.
"Yes, Mr. Undertaker, sir?" He asked anxiously. Turning his gaze towards his creepy boss.
"It's 11:27 p.m." The grey-haired man stated, giggling furiously.
"Uh, yeah?"
"Leave.~ We're barely busy! It's a Friday, I'm not going to hold you back!~" he gave an obnoxious giggle as he walked towards the employee. "I bet you have some wiiiiiillllddd parties to go to, huh, Phantomhive? Hehehe..."
"Oh, the wildest." He said in monotone. "Thank you for letting me off early, sir. I appreciate it." He smiled and walked back to the kitchen. Clocking out, he threw off his apron and placed it in an old locker. "Bye guys!"
"Bye, Ciel! See you Sunday!" Mey-Rin.
"Bye-Bye!" Eliz-Lizzy.
"B-Bye, Ciel." Finny.
"BYE KIDDO." Bard.
Aaaaand, he's using the flamethrower again. I'm gone.
Ciel walked out of the café, not stopping to bicker with his best friend. Humming as he walked towards his car, the boy unlocked it, for a second time that day, and slid inside.
Maybe he'll be better once I arrive home.
[ Listen to Wait by M83, now.]
Ciel arrived home at 11:56 p.m., walking in, a smile ghosted his lips. "Sebastian?" The boy called out as he threw the keys on top of the glass coffee-table. "Babe? Where are you?" He spoke again, eye brow raised, his smile faded.
Shrugging, he turned on a lamp that was placed beside his table. Looking down, his eyes focused on a small white piece of paper that was gently folded up. Ciel carefully opened the paper, groaning at what it said.
'Ciel,
I'll be home later tonight.
When you left for work, i got bored and decided to go hang out with a friend.
I'll see you around midnight.
I love you.
Sebastian'
"Right. You can fucking write it but you can't say it? Whatever." He crumpled up the piece if paper, tossing into a near-by trash can. "Looks like I have to fucking wait. Cool."
1:36 a.m.
"Where the fuck is he?" The college male groaned. Deciding he had nothing better to do, he pulled out Sebastian's laptop, hoping to find an entertaining game. When he opened it, the first thing he saw surprised the male.
Sebastian's Facebook?
He was about to change pages, until a box popped up from the side. The name Lawrence Bluer didn't sound familiar to Ciel, so he shrugged, thinking he was the friend his boyfriend was with. Placed the mouse on the 'exit' square of the page, he was about to close out of the page until he was abruptly stopped by a 'ding'.
Lawrence: where the hell did you go, Sebastian?
Raising an eyebrow, he re-read the message over three times. Finishing his reading, he saw the word 'typing' at the bottom of the screen. He waited.
Sebastian: I left because you're fucking physco.
Lawrence is typing...
Lawrence: No, I'm not. I was just trying to give you a blow job. You said we could be friends with benefits, idiot. Did you not say that last week?
Ciel's eyes grew wide as he re-read the message several times. "He wouldn't..."
Sebastian: I meant kissing, not going at it like rabbits in heat!
Lawrence is typing...
Lawrence: Are you telling that Ciel kid about what we did?
Covering his mouth, the blue-haired boy continued reading the conversation. Tears threatened to emerge but, he quickly fought them off.
Sebastian: No. Are you stupid? He'd be heartbroken. He figured out something was wrong with me this morning, already, dude.
Lawrence is typing...
Lawrence: So, what are you going to do?
Apprehension grew in Ciels' heart as he waited for a response.
Sebastian: I'm keeping it a secret.
The raven-haired male walked inside his dorm room, breathing out. "Ciel, I'm ho-" Freezing where he stood, the male looked around. The lights were still out, nothing was out of place. "Maybe he isn't home yet?"
Shrugging, he closed the door and walked to the couch. Pulling out the laptop, he opened the cover only to have a feeling of fear. Once he opened it, the male saw a slip of paper tapped to the screen.
"What's this...?"
Unfolding the letter, he waited for the screen to load. His eyes grew wide as he read the five words on the paper.
'Caught.
We're over.
- Ciel Phantomhive.'
He glanced at his computer and cursed at what he saw. His conversation with Lawrence was on the screen and revealing everything that had happened. The raven-haired male felt a stinging in his heart as he lowered his eyes and tightened his grip on the paper, crumpling it.
"I fucked up."
'8 missed calls from: Sebastian Michealis.'
'iMessage: Sebastian Michealis. (17)'
The azure-haired boy let out a much needed breath before he picked up his phone. Ciel looked out the window of a different, but familiar, dorm outside. Dragging his eyes back to his phone, he looked at it lifelessly. Staring at the name, he unlocked the device, searching for a different number.
Riiiinnnngggg ~
Riiiinnnnnggg ~
Riiiinnn-
"Hello?"
"A-Alois? Can I...pick you up?"
"Ciel? What's the matter?" Concern lacing in his voice, the boy sighed out.
"Sebastian...h..he..." The azure-haired boy breathed out, scrunching his face to keep the tears away.
"Ciel, what happened?"
"He p-played..me... Okay? Ca-Can...I?"
"Be here in 10, okay?"
"Alois...?"
"Yeah?"
Silence.
"I'm alr-already...here."
A door slammed shut as an apprehensive blonde made his way into his best friends' car. Alois glanced over at his friend, biting his lip in the process. "What...did he do, Ciel? Why are you..." The blonde let his eyes roam around his best friends' body before meeting his eyes. "Like...this?"
"Let's go on a ride." The blue-haired boy murmured softly before turning the key, allowing the engine to purr. Ignoring the question, Ciel drove out of the dorms' parking lot.
"Where are we going?" Alois questioned, buckling his belt. He turned towards his friend.
"Not here." He whispered, driving off.
The azure-haired boy pulled over to the side of the road, breathing out harshly. Turning off the engine, rather quickly, Ciel gripped the wheel until his knuckles were pale.
"Ciel? Ciel?! Are you okay?"
"Get..out of the c-car."
"Wh-"
"Get out of the car, dammit!" He screeched. The blonde started pulling the handle as he got out of the car. Slamming the door, he extended both of his arms. "There." The blonde mouthed to his best friend.
Ciel tensed up before gripping the steering wheel; he placed his forehead on the top. His shoulders started to shake violently, as he squeezed his eyes shut. He started punching the dashboard, screaming loudly.
The blonde watched as his best friend broke down. Pulling out his phone, he dialed a familiar number. Waiting, Alois tapped his foot on the grass, sighing out.
"H-Hello?"
"Hey, dickhead, how are you?"
The male let out a shaky breath before questioning the blonde. "Alois...what do you want?"
The blonde pursed his lips before answering, "Ciel. He's having a break down, I hope you're happy."
"You...You're there? With him?"
"Yup. Listen." The male pressed the speaker button, pointing the phone towards the partially opened window, revealing everything.
Ciel slammed his hands on the steering wheel, kicking furiously at the floors. "I didn't even do anything! WHY AM I NEVER GOOD ENOUGH?!" He dragged out the last letter in the sentence as he beat the car.
Coming to an abrupt stop, the boy lowered his head onto the wheel, sobs forcibly making their appearance. He gripped tightly until he knuckles turned white. Ciel inhaled as tears made there way out. Finally, the blue-haired boy started crying loudly; the tears streaming out fast.
The flamboyant male turned off the speaker before placing the phone next to his ear. "Are you happy, now? You know, I hear drinking bleach cures cheating. It's a great solution, really."
"Alois, I-I fucked up...okay? We were in...a relationship for nearly four m-months, alright? We barely have any...skin contact."
The blonde gawked at the reply before his eyes flashed with rage. "So, you fucking cheated on his because he wouldn't have sex with you? Are you...daft?!" Alois screamed into the phone. "You told me you really liked Ciel. You're a liar, Sebastian. A dirty fucking liar. You're so fucking unbelievable! He was raped! Of course he'd wait a little longer than four months!" Breathing out, the blonde watched at Ciel gestured for him to get back in the car. "You don't deserve a second chance. Goodbye." He hung up, placing his phone in his back pocket.
Sliding into the car, Alois smiled at his friend. "Feel better?"
"Y-yeah, a little."
"Hey, man. You can stay with Claude and I. I know you probably don't want to go back to him since that and-"
"Alois, I'm fine. I just, I'll take you back to the dorms, and then I'll go out for some fresh air. I'll be fine."
"Ciel, come on-"
"I said I'll be fine, okay?" He forced a smile before turning on the engine. "Let's get you back. I'm sure your...boyfriend will be upset."
Alois shut the door as he sighed out. Turning back around, the blonde smiled at his friend. "Come by after your...walk, okay?" He took out a small key, tossing it to his friend. "That's the dorm room key, okay? Swing by. See ya." Waving, Alois walked back into his dorm.
"Alright, let's go to the park." He whispered to himself as he looked in the backseat. He glanced at his acoustic guitar as he smiled.
"Yup, the park is a good choice."
Ciel grabbed his his wooden instrument out of the backseat. Closing the door after retrieving what he need, the male walked over to the largest tree, sitting down. He positioned the guitar, making sure his fingers were on the right chords. Taking a deep breath he sang;
"It's a shame that it had to be this way.
It's not enough to say I'm sorry,
It's not enough to say I'm sorry.
Maybe I'm to blame,
Or maybe we're the same.
But either way I can't breathe,
Either way I can't breathe.
All I had to say is goodbye.
We're better off this way,
We're better off this way.
I'm alive, but I'm losing all my drive.
Cause everything we've been through,
And everything about you,
Seemed to be a lie.
A guiltless twisted lie.
It made me learn to hate you,
Or hate myself for letting it pass by.
All I had to say is goodbye.
We're better off this way,
We're better off this way.
All I had to say is goodbye.
We're better off this way,
We're better off this way.
And every, everything isn't only,
What it seemed so hold these,
Words that you never told me.
It's time to say goodbye,
It's time to say goodbye,
It's time to say goodbye.
Goodbye."
Ciel strummed for what seemed forever until he finally sang again;
"Bye.
Take my pain away.
Tear it out.
Tell me I was wrong,
Tell me I was wrong.
Take my pain away.
Tear it out.
Tell me I was wrong,
Tell me I was wrong.
Take my pain away,
Tear it out.
Tell me I was wrong,
Tell me I was wrong."
He strummed the final chord and looked down. A sound of two hands colliding startled him from where he was sitting. Glancing around, Ciel's gaze landed on a tall, red man who was smiling widely.
"You're pretty good! What's your name?"
Raising a brow, the blue-haired boy sighed out before answering quietly, "Ciel."
"Well, Ciel. My name is Grell Sutcliff and I've taken a liking to you. How would you like to become a famous singer?!" Grell jumped up and down, still staring at the male.
"You're serious?" He asked, breath hitching with excitement and worry.
"Of course! Ever heard of A Day To Remember? I'm their manager!"
Ciel stared in shock as he stood up. "Uh... I need to make a quick call." Pulling out his phone, Ciel dialed the number. Waiting for his friend to pick up, the male bit his lip.
"Ciel?"
"Hey, Alois. Change of plans. Seems I'be met Grell Sutcliff. He asked me if I wanted to be a professional singer."
"Ciel! That's great! You can finally live your dream!"
The azure-haired boy sighed out. "Yeah, but what about everyone else? I mean... I have friends. I just, I don't know, okay?"
Nodding his head as his friend talked, Ciel glanced over to the red-headed male. "Alright. Call you back later." Hanging up, the blue-haired boy lifted his eyes up to the awaiting manager.
"Alright. Let's go."
Author's Note:
I'm sorry, guys. My friend hasn't been over in a while and I've only finally learned to do this. Sorry if i can't put the horizontal lines when the scene changes. This is hand, ya know.
Oh, I'm in alternative school, okay? So my friend and I arrived on the 3rd day and we say a spider. So, my friend, Macy, stepped on it and a thousand of baby spiders just...everywhere.
Well, I hope you enjoyed even though I probably fucked up your hopes and dreams.
Love me still, pls.
Song: Goodbye by Secondhand Serenade
