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Chapter 7: Realization
"Benjamin Boykavich you have no idea how much I want to crack your scull" Leo. Boykavich said to Ben who was now in a stable condition and recuperating. "I know dad and I'm sorry trust me I am I just … I just thought … so much about mom when I was with Amy and I … snapped" Ben said to his father. "Ben … I know you miss your mother I really do and I can understand what you're going through right about now but son taking your life isn't going to solve anything." Leo said to Ben. "Dad I …" Ben tried to explain "No more Ben I don't want to hear anything of this subject for the rest of your life you hear and if you pull this stunt again and you live ill kill you myself" Leo said to Ben
"Okay sorry dad I really am I never meant to hurt you I swear" Ben said to his father. "Oh really you never meant to hurt me well then you should've thought of that before you tried to commit suicide" Leo said angrily to Ben. "Dad I really am sorry" were the last words Ben said to his father before watching his dad break down in front of him. Henry and Alice stormed into Ben's room unexpectedly as Leo was fighting his breakdown. "Oh hey you kids … I'm gonna step out a minute and get some fresh air you need anything Benjamin?" Leo asked. "No dad … no I'm fine" Ben replied "Alright well ill be outside you kids play nice."
"Hey guys … how did you know I was here?" Ben asked surprised at how sudden his two best friends made a appearance. "Your dad called us and told us everything" Henry began to explain. "Henry shut up! BEN WHAT THE HELL WERE YOU THINKING!" Alice said angrily. "I was thinking about my mom … and Amy" Ben replied. "You did this for that HARLET? YOU WERE WILLING TO GIVE UP EVERYTHING AND LEAVE EVERYTHING BEHIND FOR HER!!!???" Henry replied furious. "I'm sorry guys I just …" Ben tried explaining to his friends. "STOP LYING BEN AND TELL THE TRUTH WHY DID YOU DO THIS!!!" Alice and Henry both yelled. "Okay … okay can you keep your voices down there's probably other people here sleeping" Ben said being courteous towards his neighbors in a different room.
"Right now I could care less about the person next door explain what were you trying to get out of this dude!" Henry said his face beginning to sweat with rage. "I …" Ben started "either you say or I'll force you to say the only way I know how don't screw with me right now!" Alice said ferociously "Okay …" Ben let out a big gasp "I was trying to make Amy feel guilty about our argument you know after she found out about the whole issue with me and wanting her only for … bed fun I don't know what got over me I just didn't want to loose her like I lost my mom I love her so much she makes me feel whole" Ben explained while Henry and Alice looked upon their friend who had seemed insane.
"So then it's true …" Amy walked in overhearing what Ben just said her face tear stained. "AMY! I … I … I'm sorry" Ben looked down hurt. "You lied to me! You told me you loved me from the start!" Amy said shouting. "Amy I do love you IVE ALWAYS LOVED YOU AMY JURGENS! I CANT LOOSE YOU I JUST CANT" Ben said breaking down. "Ben that … well … you know I have your back through anything but what you did just to make her feel guilty not cool dude you hurt us and I'm sure you've made Amy feel horrible" Henry said glancing at Amy who had the darkest look on her face. "Ben you make it seem like the world was lost when you lost her you have us!" Alice said. "BUT THAT'S NOT ENOUGH! I need her I need you Amy I NEED YOU WITH ME I NEED YOU EVERYWHERE I LOVE YOU I WANT EVERYTHING YOU HAVE TO OFFER BECAUSE I LOVE YOU I JUST WANT YOU AND ME TO BE HAPPY!" Ben said screaming at the top of his lungs tears streaming down his face.
"You want me? What about my son!" Amy asked starring menacingly at Ben. "Screw the baby! I want you Amy only you nothing else we can have baby's later in life but for now let's just make it about you and me!!!" Ben said trying to get off of his bed Henry tried holding him back while Alice tried pushing him back on the bed. "Get off me GET OUT OF MY WAY!!" Ben said yelling at Henry and Alice. "Whoa dude calm down you need to lay down!" "Ben you're only making your condition worst please lay back down!!" Henry and Alice explained. Amy watched horrified at this new person who looked dangerously like Ben but wasn't him at the same time. Ben had eventually made his way over to Amy he held her face in between his hands and leaned his head against hers.
"Amy I love you and I know you love me to and I know we're right for each other! Forget John forget that bastard Ricky let him take care of his abomination let's make our lives perfect together Amy." Ben said trying to soothe Amy and failing miserably. Amy pulled herself away from Ben's grasp "Abomination?" Amy asked shocked. "Amy that offspring was a mistake and you know it! He is the son to a father who's going to end up like his own father raping him every night!" Ben said Alice and Henry watching starring at Ben astonished at what just came out of his mouth. "I'm …" Amy tried to say but couldn't find the words.
"I knew you loved me!" Ben managed to conjure the strength to grab Amy and fiercely kiss her. Until Amy pulled back wiping her mouth "What's the matter?" Ben asked confused "We're done Ben! I'm done with you I NEVER WANT YOU ANYWHERE NEAR ME AGAIN EVER!! STAY AWAY FROM MY SON STAY AWAY FROM MY FAMILY DON'T COME NEAR ME EVER AGAIN!!!" Amy yelled her voice cracking a few times. "Amy I don't understand I love you I can provide for …" Ben tried to explain "No Ben enough we're through than you for the being there with me when I was pregnant but I can't be with someone who claims a piece of me is a abomination" Amy said crying. "AMY ONLY I CAN LOVE YOU ONLY ME!" Ben said trying to grab Amy he fell to the floor in the process Alice and Henry quickly tired to comfort him "GET OFF OF ME!" Ben yelled "Take care of him" Amy said to Alice and Henry before heading for the door out to the hallway. Leo had burst into the room before Amy could grab the handle "WHAT GOING ON IN HERE!" Leo squawked.
He noticed Amy's expression and then he saw his son on the floor squirming around like a two year old throwing a tantrum. Hen noticed that the bandages hiding Ben's wounds had been blood stained, a sign his wounds had opened up again. "I'm so sorry Mr. Boykavich I …" Amy tried explaining until Leo cut her off "Save it Amy none of this is your fault you should get out of here" Leo said "Thank you for everything you've done" Amy said storming out of the room the last words she heard were "Can we get a nurse in here!" Amy had stormed through the waiting room doors her mother was waiting impatiently reading a magazine to pass the time by until she noticed Amy. "Amy what's wrong what happened!?" Anne said grabbing Amy and holding her. "We just need to get out of here I don't want to be here anymore" Amy said fighting her tears. "Alright Amy lets go tell me everything on the way home!" Anne replied. As they drove home Amy slowly but surely explained the situation to Anne.
It was late out around eleven Ricky had just pulled up to Adrian's house "Okay Ricky your just going into talk no funny business think about John … think about … Amy" Ricky said to himself. He walked up to her condo and knocked on the door. "Come in!!!!" Adrian yelled. "You can sit on the couch or wherever I'm getting dressed I have plans tonight sorry!" Adrian yelled from her room. "Great she found another guy guess that rules out any monkey business she'll try to pull" Ricky said to himself he sat down on the couch and got comfortable until.
"Ricky …" Adrian said from the doorway to her bedroom as she walked out only wearing a bra and panties. Ricky turned around astonished "What the … what the hell you said you wanted to talk not … you know" Ricky said jumping off of the couch. "Ricky Underwood you can pretend all you want to be the nice good daddy you are but guess what I know the real you and you can't fool me and right now I know what you want you want to scoop me up and you know" Adrian said winking at Ricky. Ricky said calmly "Oh I want to scoop you up alright" Ricky said smirking. I knew you couldn't hold out forever baby" Adrian said smiling walking towards Ricky attempting to kiss him until he scooped her up into his arms and carried her towards her room. "Wow somebody's anxious" Adrian said excited. Adrian began to laugh as Ricky carried her into her room.
"You ready for a gift or two" Ricky asked. "Ricky I want three gifts make it my birthday" Adrian said closing in on Ricky's face until Ricky through her on her bed. "Hey you don't got to be so rough!" Adrian said a little aggravated. "Well sometimes you gotta get rough when you're dealing with immature kids who can't take a hint!" Ricky said furiously. "What the hell is your problem stop pretending like you don't want what we've had going for ages!" Adrian yelled at Ricky. "ADRIAN I DON'T WANT YOU ANYMORE I DON'T WANT ANYTHING TO DO WITH YOU!" Ricky said finally letting his rage out. "RICKY!!" Adrian yelled scared of what Ricky might do to her but she wasn't expecting him to hit her she was just frightened by his presence. "RICKY! HOW COULD YOU HOW COULD YOU JUST GIVE UP ON EVERYTHING WE HAD …. I LOVE YOU RICKY UNDERWOOD I LOVE YOU WHY CANT YOU SEE THAT!!!" Adrian said her make up running from the tears escaping her eyes.
"We had nothing Adrian and I'm sorry for leading you on BUT IM A DAM FATHER NOW MY SON DEPENDS ON ME!" Ricky said walking out of Adrian's bedroom and heading for the front door. "RICKY WAIT RICKY PLEASE DON'T GO I NEED YOU!" Adrian yelled running after Ricky and yanking his arm. "You need me? No what you need is a good life long lesson and that lesson is that you need to leave me the hell alone don't call me anymore Adrian I don't want you I want my son I want …" Ricky quickly stopped himself he was surprised at the name he was about to say. "You want who? YOU WANT AMY!? WELL YOU CANT HAVE HER RICKY SHES MARRIED AND SHES IN LOVE JUST LIKE IM IN LOVE WITH YOU WE COULD BE SOMETHING BEAUTIFUL!" Adrian screamed slapping her hands on Ricky's chest. "No we are dangerous for each other and I don't need that anymore I don't need sex to escape from life anymore I have to face it Adrian I have to face it I have to raise my son and be there for his mother when she needs me." Ricky explained stepping away from Adrian. "You're giving yourself to her!? You're giving up on us." Adrian said broken at the truth that had stabbed her heart.
"Hey at least you don't have to be sad about one thing." Ricky said calmly. "What's that?" Adrian asked lost. "You don't have to be sad about losing me because you never had me!" Ricky said with a dark expression "Don't call me anymore!" Ricky said before opening the front door and slamming it. "RICKY!!!!!!!!!!!!" Adrian yelled his name as he headed downstairs towards his car and left. As he drove menacingly down the road his cell phone started to ring he saw the first letter "A" and immediately assumed it was Adrian. "Adrian I'm only going to tell you this once now listen to me there are two people I need in my life right now and they aren't you!!! DON'T CALL ME AND TELL ME YOU WANT TO TALK WHEN REALLY ALL YOU WANT TO DO IS SEDUCE ME IM DONE WITH THAT ADRIAN. I ONLY NEED MY SON … I NEED MY SON AND I NEED AMY!!!!" Ricky yelled through the speaker he had began to break down at the realization that just hit him. "Ricky …" Amy said through the phone shocked at what she just heard. "Amy! … Amy what's wrong!?" Ricky had asked surprised at who was really on the other line.
"I … um … I" Amy had just finished explaining what was going on to her mother the effects of what had happened had really began to hit her now. "I'm coming over!" Ricky yelled through the phone before he hung up. "I ONLY NEED MY SON AND I NEED AMY, I ONLY NEED MY SON AND I NEED AMY, I ONLY NEED MY SON AND I NEED AMY, I NEED AMY, I NEED AMY, I NEED AMY, I ONLY NEED MY SON AND I NEED AMY!!! I only need my son and I need … Ricky …" Amy said to herself as the words Ricky exclaimed through the phone repeated in her head over and over again. Amy sat on her bed at home while George was downstairs playing with John who watched him while she was at the hospital; she waited in the dark waiting for the father of her child to come to her aid at her greatest time of need.
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