A/N: I am so super sorry for such the long wait. I had finals Wednesday and Thursday, so I had been busy studying for them. For those of you who have been keeping up on this and reviewing, I thank you. I hope everyone continues to read this. Reviews are much appreciated. Now that it's summer break I should have an easier time updating. Bye!


I don't know how I let it get to me. I felt trapped. There was no escape so I did what I do best, I lashed out. Usually it's just verbal and mostly directed at the Glee members so I get a solo. The difference is that I don't know who I lashed out on this time.

I never meant to get violent, but I know I did. I can tell by the throbbing pain coursing through my knuckles. It was obviously a sloppy hit. Violence is strictly for self-defense and when I'm participating in a match for Underground.
Underground. Not the most creative name I've heard, but it works just as well as any other I guess.

"Rachie. Rachie wake up." I can hear somebody calling my name. It sounds like Brit, but what would she be doing here.

"Ray, you need to wake up. Everyone is coming in now. We have to start the night." That was definitely not Brit. "She's not waking up. Azi, get me the bucket."

I'm trying to open my eyes, but I'm just so tired I don't have the strength. It feels as if my eye-lids were super glued shut.

"Here Jack. I'm not gonna be the one to wake the beast." As soon as I heard those words, I felt an icy blast of water hit my face. I sprang up from where ever I had been lying down, clutching my face. Having a bucket of ice water dumped on you is so much worse than any slushie facial could be.

I looked up to see Jack smirking down to me. My previous anger came back and was now directed towards him. How dare he wake me.

"What the fuck? Are you crazy? I was just fine sleeping. You just can't let me rest for two fucking seconds! Jesus Christ, I am going to kill you Jack!"

"This is why I didn't wake her." Azimio said.

"Shut up. You needed to get up. There are a couple of cheerleaders waiting out in the hall for you. I don't have any idea who they are or why they are here, but you need to help set some stuff up. Plus you will be explaining who those two are seeing as Azi over here won't. Now let's go."

He held out his hand to help me up and I grabbed it. Azimio opened the door from my 'dressing room' and we headed up to the two Cheerios. When I saw Brit's face it brought back everything to me. They way I attacked Azi without a second thought. How scared the blonde looked. Now all I could see was concern, for me.

Because of that I was ashamed. I couldn't bring myself to look her in the eyes. I stared at the floor as I walked past them and the floor stared right back.

"Berry, we need to talk and there is no way you are going to get out of this one." I heard Santana call from behind me. I turned around and looked up from the floor. I gave a slight nod to acknowledge that I heard her. I also saw Azimio helping Brit up from the floor. I turned back around and followed Jack to the basement. I could hear the footsteps that followed. Maybe I finally had the people I needed to share my life with.

Underground-Glee-Underground-Glee

"Jack, where is my mic? I need my mic tonight, it is a Wednesday after all." I shouted over to him. He was busy trying to hook the speakers up. I don't really know why we don't just leave them hooked up, but we always take them out and store them in one of the back rooms.

"I don't know. Go ask Azi. He probably left it lying around somewhere. Wasn't he the one who cleaned up the equipment on Sunday?"

"I don't know Jack! That's why I'm asking you. I don't have a fucking clue as to what I'm doing anymore. One of the people who have tormented me year after year is here with one of my best friends asking questions that I don't want asked! I just want to be left alone! Santana has been out to get me every fucking day at school since the beginning of freshman year and now she's stalking me outside of school! Why does the universe hate me! I just want to find my fucking mic!"

"Ray just calm down it's not gone forever. I'm sure w-"

I don't know what was wrong with me today, but for the second time in just a few hours I attacked an innocent person who was just trying to help. I lunged at him and put my hands on his wrists. It took him by surprise and I managed to pin his arms above his head. I placed my knee firmly on his chest so he couldn't get up.

"Shut up. You can't tell me what to do! If I feel like yelling I'm going to yell, so shut the fuck up!" I was losing it. I could tell, but I still did nothing to stop it. Jack looked almost as scared and confused as Brittany did when I freaked out earlier. It's not like I really enjoy scaring these people that I'm trying to be friends with, but I can't control this. It feels so good to know that they're scared of me, yet it makes me want to puke.

"Ray, we can talk about this and fix whate-"

"No you can't! Not everything can be fixed!"

"We will find a way. I promise."

I heard footsteps running and I could hear people shouting for us, but I didn't answer.

"Don't make promises you can't keep! I know you'll just run away when you get the chance."

They were still shouting. I could hear them calling, trying to find us and why I was screaming. I still ignored them though. I didn't want interruptions while I was ranting.

"I won't leave. No one is going to leave. Let me help you, I promise I can help."

"Stop making stupid promises!" I raised my fist ready for it to connect with his face, but it never got to that point. I felt another body collide with mine and I crashed to the floor. My head hit the hard floor and I was seeing stars. The side of my head felt wet, but I wasn't sure if it was blood or the tears streaming down like a waterfall.

"Oh my God, Rachie your bleeding!" I heard Brittany yell. Guess that answers that.

"Berry! What the hell is wrong with you?" The voice came from above me, but I couldn't see who it was. My eyes were closing against my will. "No! Do not close those eyes! Stay awake you crazy bitch!"

I felt my body being lifted by two different sets of hands.

"Dammit, Berry you are so lucky that we are here. Azimio you got your car?"

"Yeah, damn she's heavier than I thought."

"I know, right? Anyways, we have to get her to hospital."

I tried to protest the idea of going, but my mouth wouldn't move and my eyes wouldn't open. The voices got quieter and I blacked out.