Disclaimer: I Do Not own Degrassi in any way.
A/N: Adam is not a FTM in here he is a strictly a guy. This is for those of you who did not want Eli back. Please enjoy.
I woke up to Eli's cries. I picked him up and the minute I did Danni started. So I sat her in my bed wrapped up in blankets.
I changed, made two bottles, and fed both babies in my bed praying that Andie didn't wake up and luckily she stayed quiet long enough to feed Danni and Eli, but woke up once I laid them down.
"Good morning Clare how are you feeling?" a young nurse said as she walked into my room. She looked like she was my age.
"I'm doing good."
"That's good. I'm sure your ready to take these precious gifts home with you."
I smiled faintly when I remembered home and everything there. I got a text from Eli's publisher saying one of the books he sent her three weeks before he died just got published and his autobiography as well as the children's books are still on hold to get published.
"Are you ok?" the nurse asked
I nodded slowly and started to cry.
"Is there something I can get you, anything you want just name it."
I smiled faintly and giggled. "Thank you, but that's impossible."
"Surely nothing's impossible."
"You can't bring him back."
She moved and sat on my bed.
"Who dear?"
"My husband I'm sure you've heard of him Elijah Goldsworthy." I announced
"He died?" She said as if she didn't know
I nodded.
"Two months ago."
"He just came out with a new book-"
"Written months ago, that's the thing he'll write, then hand the copy to the publisher, and it won't get published till months later. They're waiting on my ok to publish his children books and his autobiography is to be published in two months, they want me to add to it."
"He was such a great writer I've met him a few times and he seemed so full of life."
"That's my Eli, though he always dressed emo he was always so happy much like in his stories."
"I always wondered why he dressed like that."
"It was his style, he even drove a hearse named Morty."
"I thought those were just rumors."
I giggled
"Those were fiction Morty's parked in my garage. He was Eli's baby, until he found out I was pregnant, then it was these three. Did you meet Eli at book signings?"
"Yea he took a picture with me he was sitting down you were asleep in his lap." She giggled
"He forced me to go." I admitted
"I was so jealous I thought that him being married was a rumor too. You could tell he loved you very much."
"I know, we've been in love for eleven years."
"That long."
I nodded and smiled. "Eli first told me he loved me on Valentine's Day when I was fifteen. We got married when I was nineteen and were married for eight years."
"That's a long time."
I started to cry. "I thought we'd be together forever."
All three babies started to cry.
"Wanna help?" I asked seeing that Alli and Adam were still sleeping. They mainly took the night shift.
"Sure"
I picked up Danni and handed her to the nurse.
"Oh I'm Louise." The nurse stated as I put Danni in her arms
"Clare, which you probably know from Eli."
"He talked about you when you weren't at his signings. He loved you dearly."
"This is Danni and I love Eli just the same, I always will."
I changed Eli's diaper and he fell back asleep right after, then I took Andie. I changed her and made her a bottle. Louise and I talked for a little and then she left. Soon enough all three babies were asleep and I started to write my part of Eli's biography as asked.
I know Eli has told his life in here, how we met, how we fell in love, his accomplishes, he hopes, his dreams, but what he didn't tell you is how wonderful of a husband he was. He was my everything. Eli was the most amazing man I have ever met. I am proud to be called his wife even after his passing. I have the three most beautiful children thanks to him and I sincerely wish he could be here as they grow up. I loved Eli with all my heart, body, and soul. I hope his work has touched you and continues to touch you just like he's touched me everyday we were together. I thank God for those eight years of having known and loved him.
~ Clare Diane Goldsworthy
Wife of the late Elijah Goldsworthy
Mother of our three children Danielle Elizabeth, Andrea Lynn, and Elijah Liam Goldsworthy Jr.
Once I finished writing my small paragraph I closed the book as a few tears started to fall. Of course Eli being Eli, failed to mention Julia, his hoarding problems, and other dark secrets of his past he doesn't want anyone to know. He did mention being bullied for being different, as well as him, Adam and I being misfits.
Once Adam started to hang out with Eli and I he automatically became bullied as well. The three of us stuck together ever since Adam was the gentle type he only got angered if you angered him, but rarely fought back, Eli fought back no matter what. I was in the middle I don't believe in violence, but Eli and Adam were simply Eli and Adam.
"Good afternoon Clare are you ready to go home soon?" The doctor asked
"Of course." I said happily.
"I'm just going to have to take some blood from the babies just to see if they're ready and if everything looks ok you'll be heading home today."
Once the doctor took blood from the three they all started crying which woke Alli and Adam up. They both took a baby and we each calmed them. I had received permission to get them dressed and ready to have their picture taken before we left.
"Ok so Adam are you up for changing little Eli into his suit?" I asked as Adam held Eli
"I'm nervous, but I'll try it."
"I'm ready to change Danni" Alli announced as she took out my small suitcase and put it on my bed.
I rummaged through it with Andie in her crib and took out the three outfits for each of the babies. Andie and Danni would wear a black and red dress with white stockings and red shoes, Eli had a suit with a red tie, white socks, and black shoes. Once the babies were dressed the photographer came in and took pictures, I was in some with them. After the photographer left the doctor came in.
"Well Mrs. Goldsworthy all we need you to do is sign these papers the triplets are healthy and ready to go home and so are you."
I gladly took the papers and signed them. I went into the bathroom with Adam's help and my clothes. I quickly changed out of my hospital gown and into a black pair of skinnies, and a black tee with a red trim to better match my babies, I put on black flats as well.
"Ready?" I asked once I stepped out of the bathroom.
"We need help." Alli said as her and Adam tried to buckle the car seats.
"Here I'll show you."
I instructed them on how to buckle the babies in and then I checked the babies ankles when a nurse arrived.
"I need to escort you out and take off the ankle bracelets." she stated
I nodded as a wheelchair was being bought in for me and a giant moving table which I am assuming is for the babies and my belongings.
"Ok it's one pm and you're all set is anyone getting your car because I am not allowed to let you drive."
"Adam do you still have the keys?" I asked
"Right here." he said pulling out the keys.
"We're ready."
The nurse wheeled the giant table with my babies as Alli pushed me, Adam had run ahead of us as so he could get the car. It didn't take us long to get outside. It's nice out as to be expected for the nice September weather. When Adam came around with the car, we all hooked up the infant carriers into the base making sure they snapped in tightly, once they did Adam threw all of our belongings in the back, got in, and we drove off.
"Adam I want Eli to see the kids before we go home." I announced as I sat in the way back of the car.
Adam nodded and minutes later we were at the cemetery parked near Eli's grave. Adam took Eli and Andie while Alli took Danni carrying them in their infant carriers. We all walked to Eli's tombstone and once there Alli and Adam placed the babies down as I kneeled.
"Hi honey meet your kids Danielle, Andrea, and Elijah. I named him after you and I use the nicknames as well." I looked over to the babies who were still sleeping. "Kids meet your dad he miss you all very much and he loves you just the same" I choked out as tears started to fall. "I love you Elijah." I said softly and touched his tombstone.
I nodded while I got to my feet letting Adam and Alli know I was ready to leave.
"I miss you bro" Adam stated as he picked up both Eli and Andie
"I hate the fact that Clare's here without you." Alli said coldly causing me to glare "But I know it's not your fault I just hope the guy that killed you is being severely punished or I might have to intervene."
I nodded to her and we all got ready to leave again. The ride home took half an hour which I fell asleep during. When we got home Adam again took Eli and Andie while Alli took Danni. I opened the door and inside waiting for us were none other than CeCe and Bullfrog.
They were both so excited to see us they burst into smiles and each took a baby. I however needed sleep, I went into my room after saying my hellos and asking permission to sleep, and fell into a deep slumber.
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